Hits home. I feel the same way. I've been chronically depressed for the last 11 years. It's a combination of things, I have non-verbal learning disability, my family is incredibly dysfunctional and constantly puts me down/makes fun of my hobbies, and I have an incredibly bad inferiority complex. I've basically become a recluse. I barely leave the house, and I don't have many friends anymore as a result. I appear to have developed an incredible amount of distrust in other people, and this has effected me badly. I've lost interest in everything I love(art, music, animation, ect.) and I'd like to be married and have a family, but i'm almost turning 30 and my biological clock is running out. I've never dated because I avoided people for so long. So it's concerning. At this point I can't pin down any one thing wrong with me... But I DO know I need to actually....Talk to people. So i've also been trying to gear up and make my own youtube channel(And HAVE made it, but it's not this one). I've become quite a whale on IDV; because i've been gearing up to stream it for over two years now and just still cannot find the drive to make myself do it. It's frustrating. Even though I completely would love to do it. Maybe it's fear, maybe I just internally put myself down and it makes me not want to start. I don't know. But I feel like i'm starting to get closer. So I totally get it. I hope things continue to go uphill for you! Because mental health is very hard to deal with.
this must be so hard for you aswell,im so sorry.i hope your wish of getting married comes true and you should definetly try making IDV streams,the community is full of supportive people.Im glad that you were able to let go of the stuff you were holding in for so long and im eager to see you on twitch/youtube one day:)
I'm also proud that you're taking the step to achieve betterment! I can completely relate to the mental health struggles, as I take medication for depression. People don't understand just how hard it is to function and exist, while simultaneously trying to work. Hope things continue to improve for you.
I love all of your videos!! I used to watch your channel 2 yrs ago or so and I improved A LOTTTTTT at kitting bcs of you! I wanted to thank you, you are amazing! 💕
IDV and stimulants, a very powerful combo. Man when i take any kinda stimulant and i have to make it to the exit gate, my heart goes POUNDING and i kick into adrenaline mode, i focus 100x better than normally.
I'm pretty confident I don't have adhd but I've learned over the 2 years of cna work I put others needs before my own. It's not that I don't care enough it's I'm constantly forgetting small things but I know care plans of over 100-200 people. I know their routines down to favorite snacks but recently I've found it difficult to operate outside of work. Anymore I'm just a numb vessel doing whatever is asked of me so these types of videos really stand out to me. I'll find my place eventually I just need to find out who I am again.
Talking about medication, it can really help. At the auge of my depression where I couldn't do anything, but sleep... I kept forgetting simple stuff, I felt like I had dementia at 21, not so much about feeling sad, sadness was a thing, but constant it looses meaning. Medication helped me sooooooooo much. I have stopped it after a year of medical help, I feel much better I can work I can study and live normally
So proud of you persway! I want to thank you for making these videos, they are so inspiring and have brought me so much comfort. I’m always looking forward to your videos! I’ve been going through some things recently but watching you talk about your life has made me realize I am not alone. Lots of love
Hi! It's nice to know someone with ADHD playing idv too and able to learn magician tricks! Even tho I'm Asian and diagnosed since 14! It's nice to know someone similar!
@@Ziggy-sl3fp Well if you didn’t watch the video there is no point in commenting. Especially when your comment is negative. What did you achieve with your comment? Absolutely nothing. The only thing you achieved is making yourself look like a very negative and rude person.
