I didn't know that it was our last time together (playlist) 

i just want to disappear entirely... silently..

"She was never mine, But losing her broke my heart."

hey stranger, i love you

"But why should I be sad? I lost someone who didn't love me but they lost someone who loved them" Edit: I'm happy to tell y'all that I've happily moved on from him. I do not miss him anymore, although I do miss the time we had but I guess that's just good memories that I'll cherish forever. I feel so better now that I don't care about who he is with or what girl he is talking to. However I do care about him as a person and I forever will ❤️. It took me almost a year to move on but I finally did it and I feel so good and at peace now.

To the person reading this. I know you're tired with all of this, but you should know. You did a good job. You are great. You deserve to be happy

Only thing that keeps me alive is the hope that there must be something beautiful beyond this suffering. There has to be!

i can't even remember what his voice sounded like

If anyone reads this you deserve to be here, I know it’s hard and you want to let go but keep trying please for everyone who loves and cares about you. Remember you are LOVED, by me, your family, friends, and Jesus❤

His face is fading away with time

The last thing my best friend said to me 9 years ago was: “I’ll see you again eventually.” I didn’t really think anything of it, we always bid each other goodbye before heading separate ways for the day after school. Next day I was told he killed himself in his basement and I’ll never forget the scream I let out as a 12 year old child. Worst thing I’ve ever been told and I felt a lot of guilt. For many, MANY years, and sometimes if I’m being honest with you all, I still do feel some guilt. He was my best friend since 5 and we were like platonic soulmates. He would be turning 23 in May and I only hope he found peace and is happy in the great beyond, and I hope he is the first one waiting for me if I ever see him there. Michael 05/17/01 - 06/13/14.

"He was Mine, But not only mine that's what hurts. "

Makes me feel like I'm listening to someone's playlist through the wall, and we're sharing in the heartache and melancholy together.

To whoever reads this message, I wish you receive everything you want and everything you need. I wish you much love, health and success 🍀

I love you whoever reading this Love your little mistakes Love your failures Love how you kept going even on darkest nights Love how you found light Love how sensitive you are Love how you overloving Love the way you are Love how fine your face and body is Just Love you!❤️

My best friend passed away from cancer a month ago, today was his funeral. I was searching desperately for the right music and I couldn’t be more appreciative to find this one. Sending love and healing to those who lost someone too soon 🤍🕊️🤍

You and I, always almost. Again and again. We were always on the verge of almost, never nothing, never something.

Seeing all these people going thro sad or tragic losses makes you want to be more kind and more helpful to people just for the sake of not knowing who needs it. People are amazing and full of emotions and love.

He and I had a connection like no other. We had a notebook that we shared which was filled with poetry that we wrote for each other, it was our way of communicating. We shared songs as another way of communication. We shared our first kiss with each other. We shared interests and indulged in all activities/games with one another. We shared many inside jokes that many would never understand. We shared the similarities of our difficult upbringings and shared tears. We sang songs to each other even if we could be a little off-tune. We embraced our flaws and loved one another unconditionally. But we were kids... We became stubborn and immature to trivial matters, which lead to a lack of communication. We slowly stopped writing poetry, sharing songs, singing to each other, playing video games, etc. After 2 years, I didn't know that would've been our last time together back in 2018. I miss you...

I was engaged for a while. 8 years of leading with nothing but my heart. 8 years of working a job I hated but knew ultimately would bring in enough money to support a family. Work took me hundreds of miles away. School took her even further. We didn’t have a plan. I knew it too. The last time I saw her she was walking to her gate at the airport. I still remember the sadness in her eyes when she looked back at me. We both knew it was the end of the road. I lost my best friend and my soul mate that day.

i wasnt good enough, 24 hours really can change your life im sorry i wasnt enough, im sorry im too emotional, im sorry i cry too much, im sorry im too sad for you, im sorry that im annoying, im sorry that im not what you want, im sorry im stuck between letting you go and wanting you back, im sorry i want to go back to when it was all perfect when you still loved me and it came as easily as breathing, im sorry i couldnt make you choose me, im sorry that youll never hear this, im sorry i was bad at loving you, im sorry that i am me.

I wish things were different, I always remember those times I had with my boyfriend, he was such a sweet soul and always made sure I was okay. I’d wake up and go to bed with sweet texts, I adored him like he did to me. I moved away to another state but that didn’t stop me from talking to him and he would always call me. Until one night I didn’t receive a goodnight text like usual I knew something was wrong but I thought maybe he was just tired. The next day I get a call from his mother and was told he took his own life that night. If I could explain it better I would but I felt every string and fiber of my heart shatter and rip. I couldn’t breathe or focus at all like as if I dissociated to save myself from the reality of what happened. I attended to his funeral I begged god himself that maybe he would wake up. I felt so helpless and lost all hope after his burial. But it’s been a year since he’s been gone, I still cry and sit at his grave. I have a boyfriend now who cares deeply for me and treats me right. It almost hurts cause it’s like as if he’s still here with me cause this guy I’m now with is just as sweet as he was. I know he wouldn’t want me to grieve and stay stuck on him, he always told me that I should always do what makes me happy and for the best of things. It was hard trying to move on cause I felt guilty. I’ve learned to accept things will never change from that day on but I’ve learned and grown. I’m thankful for my current boyfriend I’m once feeling what I had missed again…

What hurts the most is eaiting every night for them to come back even tho you know they wont my head keeps on telling me to just stop waiting because they wont come back anymore but my heart just wont let go. Sometimes you just dont find the same person in that person again.

My dad passed away suddenly 2021. It was a month till my birthday and about 5 months til i graduated high school. I was the eldest and found myself the support of my mom and siblings. I tried my best, and they seemed to have continued forward with life. I am now in my 2nd year of college and find myself so lost in this world. Dark thoughts have begun to creep into my mind, and i started thinking there is no future for myself. I kinda just keep hoping the part of my head that thinks he is at work and is coming home soon is right. No one can describe the pain of losing someone who should be with you for many years to come. Knowing they would be there if you cried and loved you no matter what. Someone who would move mountains for you and cheered you on when everyone laughed in your face. But no one can escape death. And the pain of knowing what should have been will never be is what is killing me. No one can prepare you for that pain.

I couldn't believe It was possible to be that Happy when i was with her, and yet She didn't hesitate a second to leave me in the darkness

To anyone reading this, no matter if you lost a loved one or just having a hard time; you may feel like giving up but push through. You are so brave and I'm proud of how far you've come. You may not know me and I may not know you, but I love you. Stay safe out there. ♥️

Things don’t get better for people like me but I hope it does for the rest of you. Godspeed

There is something so beautiful about being sad. Like that something is out there that you can love so much that makes you feel that way. I see it as a reminder to live, as free as I can be.

man i just wanna hold my mom tell her i love her and hug her and start crying it all out like a child i want to see my dad happy and comftble i want my brother to never feel sad again i want my sister to be healthy yet i can't now but sometime soon i will i just hope that time don't take no one from me before i make it happen , my mind is 24/7 on grinding and working but it's never seem to go as planed for me but i ll never give up this list reminds me of my goal reminds me that no matter what i live or the situation i have i need to over come it makes me forget for a sec about how lonely i am and how alone i am it's a lonely road i chose

i didn’t know, i wish i could see her one last time to apologize.

RU-vid really knows what playlists has to recommend. It's my Dad's 2nd Death Anniversary, and out of the blue this song popped up. This triggers me to missed more my Dad, R.I.P to all our loved ones that have gone so soon.

this. this. because i keep thinking of him even though i know now, that we can never be together. because i didn't know that was the last time for me and him. because i didn't know that he'd go eventually.

My grandmother died yesterday. I could barely be with her the last days. This hits so hard.

When I see her the only thing that goes through my head is all the old memories we had made and how happy she made me feel and how happy we were. She made me feel wanted she made me feel like I actually mattered to her she made me feel at peace and I always think about what we could have been... Maybe in another life I'll be with her maybe in another life I'll marry her and have a beautiful family with her and we'll get the chance to create more memories together and grow old together... I feel as if she is my purpose in this life... She was my special person... She will always have a special place in my heart

Stay strong little ones. It shall be well ❤

I don't know if there's anyone here that needs needs to hear this, but, it's not up to you to fix everyone and their problems. It's not your responsibility to solve everyone's problems, so don't burn yourself out trying to. Just be there to support those around you. And you don't have to be perfect. Humans make mistakes, and that's ok. Just remember to take a break every now and then, and take care of yourself, and your own mental health. Everything's going to be ok, I promise ❤

It feels like everything's going wrong. Losing my best friend because of her breakup with my brother, my boyfriend due to distance and having to find a new home for my dog. I know life isn't fair but this just feels cruel. Sorry if I sound like I'm trying to get attention, just wanted to vent. Edit: It breaks my heart to comment this, and also to announce the death of my brother. It was something I never though would happen. However, after losing him, I feel empty beyond words. A piece of me is gone that can never be replaced. He was always my idol, someone to look up to and aspire to be. But now, he is gone and I'll be joining him. Goodbye.

a short story how i met my favourite person: i met him through one of my friends: it started with a group call when he introduced him to me. we met face to face at a cafe with the same group of friends and it has been a few months since we have known each other. since then, there’s is always this good-feel vibe lingering around him and i knew he was a good person. we goofed around and hung multiple times, and in every hang out we developed a deeper feeling of friendship and bond. we make each other crack, laugh at little things and we allow each other to be who we are. now i’m in a confusing state, i’m starting to develop feelings… i don’t want this feeling to make our interaction awkward or could possibly ruin the friendship but it’s the fact that he lets me flirt and stuff like that. but he is flying to another country soon so i won’t be able to see him for a year. maybe this is a good thing to rethink and reclaim my thoughts to maintain this friendship. i know it will hurt, i’m already hurting even before he is flying off. i will miss him badly but he wouldn’t know. i don’t want him to know. i want him to be happy on his journey 🤍🤍

i dont want to live this life anymore

I’m really tired, I’ve tried so hard :(

My mum passed last October 10 days before my birthday and about a month before hers. The last time I saw her was two days before she left forever, only to be seen among the beautiful bright stars in the sky. Somewhere in the back of my mind I knew she wasn't going to make it but I was too stubborn to accept it. I regret not following her to the hospital that day, I should have instead of waiting for her to come back home. She never came and I never got to see her again or hear her voice or eat her food. I never got to hear her laugh or her words of encouragement telling me that everything was going to be okay. One time she was with me the next time she was just...gone. Cancer took her away from me. She didn't deserve to suffer as much as she did because she was so kind. My heart not only hurts because I lost the love of my life but because she suffered as much as she did. My heart breaks into even tinier pieces when I think of the pain she must have felt during that time and the fact that I wasn't the last person she saw. I loved her so much God I still do. I want to join her but I can't let all her sacrifices go to vain so i'm still hanging on, trying to be the best version of myself and not betray her trust. Mommy I love you so much. I love you to the moon, father away and back, to the moon and back again.

'All of the "what if's" keeps playing in my mind after that night'

I said goodbye at the airport, expecting to see you as soon as possible, like we always did for 2 years. It was April and you left me in June, and a piece of me remained there, saying goodbye, smiling. I miss you everyday Flavia.

Lost my grandma yesterday this play list makes it a little easier for the time being a thousand miles away is still a hard distance to cope with but I’ll manage r.i.p P.L.A

she was my last true love I don't know how to love after her

I just want someone who would love me. as a 12-year-old I feel like when I'm older people might judge me for what I do and look like.... life is changing...... a lot.... I want someone who will hug me and say ''everything is going to be ok, I'm here for you and I love you''. Tears of joy will come pouring out every time they say that. I will never get tired of that

dói lembrar do último momento que vcs passaram juntos, mas não sabia que seria o último

*Listening to dark academia tunes feels like wandering through the corridors of an old library at midnight, surrounded by the whispers of forgotten tales and the echoes of lost loves*

If anyone reads this you are enough and today will soon be a memory,Live life and don’t overthink .Love your mistakes and learn from them to be a better YOU.

To all who is reading this , life is an incident because perfection is impossible so why even try to make it happen like that you will never know what is exactly right or wrong if you would then evrything will stop so it is totally an incident this life don't stress

My girlfriend is in the psych ward, I haven’t seen her in so long…I’m hoping she’ll come back one day. I’m tired of hiding the fact she’s always got a chance of never coming back…I’m not sure if I can hold on much longer, but this music helps, thank you.

There title of this tag is so heartbreaking to me because I actually had only one last time to see my best friend and didn’t know it.

Some times i imagine hugging him but instead i gotta hug some grass with a tomb stone.

It's amazing how many people can be fooled by a fake smile. It's more impressive when someone can diffrentiate being happy and forcing happiness. To be honest... it's pretty easy to tell when you are close to someone, but impossible for strangers to see without it being too late.

Out of seven billion people i chose a heart that dint beat for me 😔

Хотела написать по английский старалась но не смогла. Когда слушаю эту песню я чувствую свободу от своих проблем, но к сожалению от них не сбежать. Даже когда плачу не становятся легче. У всех в этом мире свои проблемы. У кого то любовь, у кого то здоровье а у меня с собой. Я просто хочу быть где мне нравится делать то что мне нравится и иметь свой дом. В котором можешь быть собой. Спасибо этим песням мне немного стало легче ❤

As I lay here, late at night, thoughts clouding my mind.. I have to remind myself that there are people who love me, and people I love. No matter how scary or hard everything may seem, I know that there will be better days. No matter how heavy the weight on my shoulders seem, I remind myself that not everything will always seem this difficult forever.. With every darkness, there is light. Don’t give up. Don’t forget there is that light. That comforting warmth that makes you feel happy and safe. Even when it seems like the whole world is against you, and you’re all alone. You are not really all alone. Remember that. And eventually you’ll see that light in yourself as well. 🖤

Two more minutes Two more minutes is all I need To take away this pain, this feeling of grief Two more minutes locked in your embrace To feel your love, to steal your breath, to see your face Two more minutes with-out sin I’d trace my fingers across your skin Two more minutes to hear your voice Speak for hours if I had the choice Two more minutes to take your hand Walk one more time along the sand Two more minutes for another kiss That kiss, I miss, our kiss, our kiss Two more minutes staring into those eyes We bared our souls, no disguise Two more minutes for our favourite song Tears down our cheeks until they’re gone Two more minutes is all I need To take away this pain, this feeling of grief I still love you HK ❤

What hurts the most is when you find someone who changes your whole life without even looking...only to be driven away because others can't accept our love...we both lost our self-respect and I don't know if anyone can ever understand our love but God. She's everything I ever hoped for. She's everything I desire. I might do prison time because I loved and cared for someone who needed saving, just like me. I know Gods timing will unite us together someday. I cry and pray every day for her. I hope no one ever goes thru this, and if you do/are, have faith and trust God's planning. I love you so much, janell. From the sweetness of your touch, from the pureness of your heart. You're all I desire

Це те, що допомагає мені триматися в депресії і тривожному розладі вже декілька років. Дякую за це маленьке зцілення моєї душі і бажання не здаватися попри всі труднощі і випробування ❤

She left me yesterday... 4 years, gone. I feel empty. I just wish I knew the time before would be our last time together. Edit: (It doesn't get better)

It's not fair that you get to stay 38 forever and I have to go on living, getting old and ugly without you. It was supposed to be you and me till the end. You are my Person, and I am Yours. You said you want me to be happy, to love again, but how? There is nobody like you. Rest in peace, my love 💔

. Proof I was here

Find or discover a way to use this heartbreaking pain as fuel to become the best version of yourself. Be mindful of your self talk with yourself be kind and loving to yourself. Push yourself to over come, to grow! Self reflect on your progress whether good or bad progression, slow or fast, keep moving forward never backward.

The man I love and I are really going through it right now at this very second. Thank you for this playlist. I love him so much but there's nothing I can do to make him believe me. I've never done him wrong, I've only ever tried to show him I love him but he doesn't think he deserves to be loved and that breaks my heart.

Remember, is better to love and lose that never allowing your self to love from the beginning.

" To find yourself, think for yourself . "

She's moved on mentally and now finally moved her things out of our home. I am left in this shell of a place to live to endure the emptiness. To be alone and feel nothing but ache and regret until it can be learned to move on for the betterment of my own life. I feel what a difference a friend's prescense could make, but also realize that true strength must come from within to move forward toward true happiness. To anyone else feeling alone, know that you are not the only one, and we have to cling to the hope that this all gets better one day if we push through. We need to be strong for ourselves and for each other to inspire such change.

I was not even sad untill i read the comments, why is everyone so poëtic 😢

People who need this: i love you and i will always care about you and there is someone that really love you and never give up ❤

she will always be special to me despite everything

Im slowly starting to forget everything about her but i dont want to because im the reason our friendship that has been the only thing i could count on since we were kids had to end i just hope shes happier without me because i will never be the same

Every time this comments making me more cry😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔

I basically cried happy tears to this playlist. Thank you

Now i have to live with the fact that I will remember you more than i knew you 😔

Sometimes all you can do is reach your hand out in the dark, in hopes there might be someone who will take it

Fell in love, turns out he's moving far away in less than a month. Now I'm wondering why I didn't confess my feelings. Feeling trapped in my own skin due to it. I guess love isn't for everyone due to how unlucky I am with it. But maybe one day. I still look at his pictures to not ever lose sight of what could've been and to not forget what he looks like.

bro i didnt know itd be our last phone call damn i still think about her 5 years later

This hits hard.i just had to put my 16 year old dog down. I’ve known him almost my whole life and am going through the worst time in my life to anyone who is also dealing with loss please know you are not alone and there are things to live for.

Kulang ang mga salita para ilarawan kung gaano kasakit ang palayain ka. Sa pagbitaw ko sa'yo, walang natira sakin. Mahal kita kaya ibibigay ko kung anong makakabuti para sa'yo. Sasarilihin ko na lang lahat ng sakit. Kahit ako na lang ang magdusa. Alam kong masaya ka na sa buhay na wala ako. Salamat sa limang taon. 💜

I don't care when people says "time cures everything", no it doesn't, it hurts like the first day and I don't see any diference since he left.

I'm sorry I wasn't enough to convince you life was worth living. Though to be fair, now that I struggle to convince myself, I see how useless I must've sounded in such a situation.

No puedo dormir, pasaron 12:00 am, ahora son las 2:09 am no puedo dejar de llorar 😢 No puedo dormir y tampoco buscarlo.

two days ago I found out that my best friend committed suicide, and I couldn't stop crying since then, I didn't realize at all that that day would be the last moment I spent with her, it's true when you say that ,, you only care when they are gone'' I didn't realize how beautiful my life was with her in it until now, I wish I could turn back time and be with her to hug her and tell her that everything will be fine. and to all of you I want you to enjoy the beautiful moments you still have with your friends and families, you never know when it will be the last time you see them.

i just can't anymore. i feel empty but at the same time so overwhelmed. i feel hungry but at the same time i struggle to eat. i just need a way out.

Remember after the storm comes a rainbow after the darkness washes over us we get to see the world in a new sense. We begin to notice all the colors around us and the small things in life that truly bring us joy

Clearly i say it doesn't matter where you start reading the book coz in the end we will remain strangers

This is all so complicated. My best friend and I know each other for 4 years now. We started getting close when she suffered a medical condition which affected her nervous system in her lower legs last August, 8 moths ago. Since then she is in need of a wheelchair and i started helping her. At first i was only bringing her to some doctors appointments but after a while we developed a deep connection and intese friendship. The disease is curable with the right treatment, but through her early childhood trauma and many other mental illnesses that she has, she was never able to bring herself to get the right treatment. After a while she even used the pain from her medical condition as a way to inflict herself pain by not taking pain meds and going outside during Winter where she dissociated and became unconscious by the pain. All to not feel the emotional pain anymore. The Situation worsened and her boyfriend couldn't handle her anymore and decided to distance himself from the situation because he couldn't handle the emotional pain she inflicted to the people surrounding her by harming herself. I kept supporting her through every step and didn't manage to study anymore. 1,5 months ago, at the beginning of March after an emotional outburst by her boyfriend in the middle of the night she fled the house and drove in a dissociative state through half of the city in her wheelchair. I followed her. When she came to herself we got back to their apartment and went to sleep. After waking up I could feel she was emotionally in huge pain. She suddenly escaped into the bathroom, shut herself in and starting cutting herself. Meanwhile I was frantically trying to open the door, while I hear her crying and repeatedly cutting herself. I managed to crack the door with an Allen wrench 30 seconds later. There was blood on the floor but she was nowhere to be seen. The window was open. I sprinted to the window in panic. She was still outside ready to jump. I got to her and held her while her feet were already dangling over nothing. With the help of her boyfriend we managed to get her up and the rescue squad came soon after. Since then she got an additional Trauma from that day and from the psych ward, where she was released only 1 day later (don't ask me how). After that she distanced herself from her boyfriend because of all the emotional pain he caused her. I stayed by her side. From that day on she stopped eating. At first it was a mechanism of control to her, but after a while it turned into her wanting to die by not consuming any calories anymore. We started living at her mothers. We grew ever more attached and we both already confessed to arising feelings for eachother. She told me many times that I am the only thing conflicting with her decision to die. Her body started deteriorating. She told me many times that she is thinking about cutting me off to get through with her decision and to protect me from having to watch her slowly deteriorate further. Yesterday was the day she cut me off. I went back to my apartment. I haven't slept in 27 hours. I am currently drinking. I've cried the last 4 hours. I want to be by her side, even if it means watching her die. At least I would be by her side in her last Moments. She won't let me. I can't bear not being by her side. I've tried everything, but anything just brings her more pain. I feel like shit. Many things I didn't write because it would get too long and too complicated but I think you get the gist if you managed to get this far. I am still writing her even if she barely answers, and if she answers it's to say goodbye. Her mother still wants to try some things, but my best friend ,whom I realised I love, doesn't have much time left. She hasn't eaten anything besides drinking Milk in 7 weeks now and is not even drinking Milk anymore, just Tea. Our last Moment together felt forced. I won't be able to forgive myself if it was the last time I saw her. I will be trying everything to be by her side whatever happens, but currently I just feel pain and fear of never seeing her again. I had to get my emotions out somewhere. Thank you for anyone reading.

To turn back time would be the greatest possible thing to save myself from this feeling, or lack there of.

she left me yesterday because she couldn't see a future with me and she needs to focus on god. how do i explain that she was a definite in my future, that i prayed for her when i didn't even know if i believed in god myself.

God brought us back together, but God also has the power to tear us apart.

why does love hurts so much!?!?

I cried about him for days and weeks, he left me pregnant with our baby alone. He wished him the death... in the end everything come true. The baby died in my belly. Maybe because of the pain i felt. No one can ever prepare you for this pain. Life can change in 24h completely. And a world like you know it before, will never be the same.

To anyone who sees this I was in a 5 month relationship with the girl I thought was forever it made me happy and i felt okay and healed but it started to feel like i couldn't talk about how i felt without something happening or without me getting like nothing after and today was it I did something stupid that ended our relationship and ill forever regret it but i was hurt and needed what i couldn't get from her from somewhere

It hurts every waking second, every sleeping hour. It hurts-the heartache, the addiction I've developed. My family sees me as a failure, and I see myself as a failure compared to my past. I've done a lot for others. So, can I just punch my own ticket for me?

Yesterday he said next time he wont give me cigarettes, i reminded him there is no next time.

so my girlfriend left me like a month ago we havent been togheter for longer than 2 months but it was enough for me to fall in love with her more than she could imagine i never loved someone like her, i sit every night and remember her at least 7 times a day, im now crying, wishing that she would come back to me, i know its not going to happen, and she probably lives her life, but im in pain my chest phisically hurts when i think about her and im starting to forget what her voice sounds like, it makes me feel like im just alone, she was like home to me, every time i talked to her i felt safe even if we were long distance and i never even touched her, i still love her more than anything, i didnt know that was our last time togheter

My heart hurts so much 💔💔😭😭

Last week i lost my kitty, my precious Simba, he was just 2 years old. That day I was going to uni and I was running late, so I couldn't pet him, I said "don't worry baby I'll pet you later". Not knowing that later, I couldn't do it. He vanished, I searched and searched, I called out his name for days, but still nothing. I won't stop waiting for him. I miss him so much. My life has gotten worse. Simba, I hope you'll return. I miss you

I’m gonna die alone

Its not the feeling that i feel lonely it the feeling that I could never look into your eyes............