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I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM ANYMORE... (Life Update) 

bignoknow - Noah Thomas
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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.
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@margaretmunce1501
@margaretmunce1501 3 месяца назад
Noah, you’re such a gentle soul. So very sensitive. I absolutely admire you in your struggles, and your determination to be sober and get to a better place in life. I have a son who is quite similar to you. He’s 43, and we are Australians. Never, ever give up on yourself, and know that you are loved and accepted by so many. Even us who have followed you through your dad, Dr Paul, for many years. God bless and keep you, Noah. May He strengthen you in every way. 🙏🏼❤️🇦🇺
@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex
@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex 3 месяца назад
Noah 🙏
@Mike_Cosentino
@Mike_Cosentino 3 месяца назад
Been watching your journey for nearly ten years now. It’s been a rough ride for both of us. It does get easier with time and having the right mindset. My first sip of alcohol was at ten years old when a waitress served me a glass of white wine during a family wedding. Realized it wasn’t apple juice, but I thought to myself back then that this could be something I’d be able to drink again someday again. I did in my early to mid-20s when my drinking was at its peak. Was drinking bottles of whisky, going through 12pks like water. Cut out liquor in 2019 thinking that’d change the situation but I’ve realized by now no amount is good enough. And believe me when I say that you ARE a good dude & I have never met you but you’ve always been gracious and kind, and for that, thx..
@susanlilley6918
@susanlilley6918 4 дня назад
God bless all who read this comment and remember the power of God.
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 3 месяца назад
12 Days Clean & Sober today. No turning back!!❤ Last week I almost died. I had been extremely sick and in agonizing pain for 15 Long Miserable Months. Doctors and Specialists kept running me around in circles with no help in sight. So last week I was rushed to the hospital and I had to have extremely serious emergency surgery. It was my first surgery. Miraculously I have started getting well now. I’m finally healing. I have had drug & alcohol addiction problems for many years. I quit the drugs in 2016 but I started drinking again during covid19. So I’m 12 days sober today. Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. My birthday is next week and I’m a little concerned about getting through it but I Shall Not Drink! Maybe I’ll spend the whole day at meetings.? ❤
@briarrose4747
@briarrose4747 3 месяца назад
Spending the whole dy at meetings sounds like a great idea! :)
@patriotoffreedom6429
@patriotoffreedom6429 2 месяца назад
Congratulations and praying for you. Many people care and most of all Jesus loves you! Remember that + the blessing He has given you. God bless you
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 2 месяца назад
@@patriotoffreedom6429 Thank you so Much!💞
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 2 месяца назад
@@briarrose4747 Thank you! I’m hanging in there and doing my best to get well ❤️‍🩹.
@TrishaKnight-ti1oq
@TrishaKnight-ti1oq 2 месяца назад
Sending you healing my way. You can do this,🥰🙏👍
@Zeuskazoo
@Zeuskazoo 3 месяца назад
Love that you’re focusing on recovery and just being. Stay cool.
@Zeuskazoo
@Zeuskazoo 3 месяца назад
What a great video. Feeling chills
@DaddyThomas2024
@DaddyThomas2024 2 месяца назад
Also right now i feel im finally turning a corner, i have night terrors with years, also lately im breaking down crying and really soul searching, regrets eat me alive, its only now im living, i wasted my life til now. Suicide attempts, just real real sick sad scary sinister lonely suffering. Its amazing how im not dead genuienly
@mbaxter22
@mbaxter22 3 месяца назад
I just wanted to say I'm not an alcoholic (but I AM an addict), but I've been following you for many years, even as my own life has gone through a rollercoaster ride of highs and lows, love and loss. One thing you taught me is that no matter how f*cked I might be in terms of my life and my relationships and my mental health, I can at least take control of my own body. No matter how much of a f*ck up I am, I can at least exercise and control what food I eat. I have that power, and least. In all my struggles this has been my best tool in keeping my sh*t together when everything else is my life was falling apart.
@hypnaudiostream3574
@hypnaudiostream3574 3 месяца назад
Teaching and informing and warning others is a beautiful way to grow oneself. Thank you. 🙏
@travisrolando8205
@travisrolando8205 3 месяца назад
You're a true blessing Noah! Stay strong brother! You got this!
@TheBontekraai
@TheBontekraai 3 месяца назад
i often think we want to help others because we can't help ourselves and it is easier to want to help others than to face our own pain. i am working through cptsd, split personality and a sick cat that won't get better. but i am learning to take care of myself first. and work through it all first, or you will keep sabotaging yourself.
@vincesza8464
@vincesza8464 3 месяца назад
Hey Noah, I enjoy these updates it’s always great to hear from you in these videos. I am doing better personally since I commented last video. You always help me pull through tough situations.
@Cheese-is-its-own-food-group
@Cheese-is-its-own-food-group 3 месяца назад
It sounds like you’re going through a real spiritual awakening.
@user-lq4zt5ls4s
@user-lq4zt5ls4s Месяц назад
Noah ,I am so glad I got to hear you speak about the steps and how you have been dealing with drinking,I must tell you I could get into step 9 and understand it.This is all from the other side and being married to an alcoholic it was fresh air to listen to you because it is all the truth .Not made up.Step 9 really means a lot to me do to it being someone standing up and apologizing which I never recieved..Thank you for sharing .
@matthewy8768
@matthewy8768 3 месяца назад
Matthew 11 28 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. Find Him and never thirst again.
@CMoore8539
@CMoore8539 3 месяца назад
Noah, I’m very happy to hear that your marriage is holding up Strong against the storm you went through. My husband seems very happy and content that I decided to quit alcohol too. Day 12 alcohol free and it feels so good! Take good care of you Noah!!♥️🫡
@mikaeusbznd744
@mikaeusbznd744 3 месяца назад
You can change all you want, still my platonic crush from across the world 🥰
@shirleygoudzwaard7985
@shirleygoudzwaard7985 3 месяца назад
Noah I'm so very proud of you. Remember the " higher power" is God. Will continue to pray for you. Please pray to God also. ❤
@mikebordner3820
@mikebordner3820 3 месяца назад
Great to hear you’re doing well Noah and staying sober. Continue on your journey of discovery and helping others, just as Douglas has helped us through, you are helping so many find peace through your videos and now, video chats. Keep up the good work brother.
@javier4060
@javier4060 3 месяца назад
Just for today.!
@WuWeiFlow
@WuWeiFlow 2 месяца назад
The big thing to create consistent change is realizing that thoughts and thinking are not the same. Thoughts come and go like suggestions. One can call them functional thoughts or signposts. Their job is to just give you direct info right now and then they leave. There is nothing egoistic or damaging about them. Either you follow their advice or you dont. Psychological thoughts however are egoic thoughts. Talking to you in "I or me" mode. These thoughts are a result of you thinking your thoughts to try to control them. They give you a sense of control by making you think you are figuring something out or solving something. In reality, it is all a scam. You have no control over your thoughts when you think them, no progress is being made in the content of the thoughts that we seem to believe. After you think about them they still move on without anything at all being better or solved. Unless we stop thinking/engaging with our stream of thoughts, we will never be in our true power of wholeness and clarity. Effortlessness and joy. Health and abundance. Good luck!
@TheChiGirl1
@TheChiGirl1 3 месяца назад
Have you tried Keto and maybe the Wim Hoff method? Just a thought maybe it could help some ❤
@Lisa_RNHealthHub
@Lisa_RNHealthHub 3 месяца назад
Hi Noah 👋 ❤ Good to hear from you.
@everydamnday
@everydamnday 3 месяца назад
YAS! Noah you are awesome as always. So glad to see this update. I love knowing what is going on, what you struggle with and how you manage. I love to see you laughing and smiling and you did a lot of that in this video. This is the best you I ever seen you. PERIOD! Keep being awesome buddy.
@freyavanderwesthuizen7281
@freyavanderwesthuizen7281 3 месяца назад
Noah this the first time Ihave watched you vlog. Whatever you think and feel is what makes you the person you are, which appears to be a kind sympathetic caring man . I think most of us have no idea of how what and when , we are all on the same destination. It’s just the journey in getting there is different for us all, I wish I had the answer to life’s travails and why some of us suffer more than others .I think that as long as you harm no one else then you are successful.Try keep trying and you will be more than you ever hoped for .From what I have seen you are already there. Now you just have to see it and believe it! You are all that you need to be and more ! Good luck on your journey Noah, you still have time to be the person you want to be,you have much to offer and so much to teach , oh and love , you give us much love .Someone somewhere loves you .Well done you are good enough , you are more than good enough
@deathshaker0026
@deathshaker0026 3 месяца назад
I am well. I just want to remind you how awesome you are. For me I have been stuck in a good way for a long time. I hope you take care.
@natanletthem
@natanletthem 3 месяца назад
I Am is that I Am. Nothing more, nothing less. A genuine being cannot explain or answer the question, "who are you?" It's an absurd and ignorant question to those with discernment. I simply Am that I Am...🌗
@hypnaudiostream3574
@hypnaudiostream3574 3 месяца назад
❤ Jesus loves you bro. Keep going
@RobLewis3
@RobLewis3 2 месяца назад
Thanks for the videos over the years. Pray to God brother, for guidance and strength
@chadcranston8193
@chadcranston8193 2 месяца назад
Yas been a long journey brother, you give me hope
@SuperhumanUnchained
@SuperhumanUnchained 3 месяца назад
Great video thanks for the upload hit that like button and great motivation
@wtpwtp
@wtpwtp 3 месяца назад
Good to hear about your recovery progress & process. Have you thought about holding in-person The Phoenix classes at your gym?
@Jonathan-me3sp
@Jonathan-me3sp 2 месяца назад
Yas keep going don’t look back
@kassiep
@kassiep 3 месяца назад
YAS 😊😊 Always await your videos :) you doing well dude and it's good to see. Been a fan sinse way back
@gregdescant4121
@gregdescant4121 3 месяца назад
Thanks! We love you too Noah!❤
@bignoknow
@bignoknow 3 месяца назад
Oh wow…. Thank you for this. That’s incredibly generous.
@969Garage
@969Garage 2 месяца назад
Been weekend binge drinking for about 8 years now since i cant smoke weed anymore due to anxiety and depersonalozation. I slowed down the drinking recently because im getting anxiety and depression symptoms even after drinking only 15 beers on weekend. I think i need to stop all together .
@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex
@ChristinaUniverse-lq1ex 3 месяца назад
Noah, keep going, keep growing, your great 👍🙏
@95ireyna
@95ireyna 3 месяца назад
Stay strong Noah🙏
@GunsAndFishingU.S.A.
@GunsAndFishingU.S.A. 3 месяца назад
It's ok to remember the past just rely on God's grace ok brother? That's what is beautiful don't beat yourself up. You are still under construction 🏗️🚧
@otismeotisme7987
@otismeotisme7987 3 месяца назад
I was just thinking of You, thanks for your Amazing Inspiring Lesson 🙏💖
@straightflush6095
@straightflush6095 3 месяца назад
I hope I can get to the point where you are now someday. Struggling with addiction at the moment. I want to overcome this so bad
@bignoknow
@bignoknow 3 месяца назад
I’m rooting for you. I needed tons of help.
@grupal5
@grupal5 3 месяца назад
Yas
@johnCjr4671
@johnCjr4671 3 месяца назад
Like the introspection concept .
@giuliagiacintucci5890
@giuliagiacintucci5890 3 месяца назад
Could also explain why people after rehab tend to cut off their loved ones? My boyfriend was at rehab and it’s been very hard during this time and when he came back initially he was loving and soft like he used to be before to me but out of the blue he blocked me everywhere when I just asked why we could not meet since he came back… I don’t know why he cut me off without any explanation when I just wanted to know what was going on… I want to talk to him in person and get some answers… he said he was feeling very unsettled back home but why did he just block me??? What happened during these few days? Cause we were talking literally few days ago about travelling together and building our future and when I asked why we still haven’t met in person and asked to clarify it he just blocked without saying a word… it’s so hurtful and painful… I’ve been put on hold and missing him for so long
@bignoknow
@bignoknow 3 месяца назад
That must have been so hard for you. Sorry to hear this.
@giuliagiacintucci5890
@giuliagiacintucci5890 3 месяца назад
@@bignoknow it is still very hard yes. This is why I asked this question cause I’d like to know what a person after rehab is thinking about relationships? is this temporary what to expect etc. I thought coming home was going to cause him a lot of good emotions
@leonhorak3422
@leonhorak3422 3 месяца назад
much love.
@DaddyThomas2024
@DaddyThomas2024 2 месяца назад
Im 32 , no clue who i am. Used to drink myself nearly to death
@briarrose4747
@briarrose4747 3 месяца назад
My outpatient mental health program didn't workout so i now find myself bored at home :( ive found myself the last few dys obsessed with dating apps trying to desperately find a boyfriend so embarrassing..i almost went on a date yesterday with this dude i felt very uncomfortable with he sended me a 🦆 pic so thats when i blocked him but now back to square one being lonely.
@teresahunt5521
@teresahunt5521 3 месяца назад
Yaasss queen🤗
@rafaelsaldivar
@rafaelsaldivar 3 месяца назад
I love you always my friend
@dahemshammari
@dahemshammari 2 месяца назад
I feel the same I don't know why
@audeo1613
@audeo1613 3 месяца назад
YAS see you in the gym.
@BackFireZz
@BackFireZz 3 месяца назад
Have you ever tried cerebrolysin? It is great for overcoming addictions.
@hypnaudiostream3574
@hypnaudiostream3574 3 месяца назад
Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas
@bignoknow
@bignoknow 3 месяца назад
😂❤❤
@dstenberg
@dstenberg 3 месяца назад
Yas!
@user-lq4zt5ls4s
@user-lq4zt5ls4s Месяц назад
YAS
@savagemolonlabe9234
@savagemolonlabe9234 2 месяца назад
How’s your gastritis?
@bignoknow
@bignoknow 2 месяца назад
Mitigated with PPI’s. Not fully resolved though.
@savagemolonlabe9234
@savagemolonlabe9234 2 месяца назад
@@bignoknow so is it manageable? I’m so hopeless right now been dealing with this since February chronic gastritis from a medication an antidepressant called Prozac gave me this I hope it isn’t permanent
@travv88
@travv88 Месяц назад
@@bignoknow I hear BPC157 can help with gut issues?
@UriahWarner
@UriahWarner 3 месяца назад
How’d u beat dpdr
@mz3735
@mz3735 2 месяца назад
I believe at the root of all of this lies low selfesteem. A sense of worthlessness, a hatred for oneself. The only cure to these problems is love.
@scholarscircle786
@scholarscircle786 3 месяца назад
I invite you to Islam my brother.
@DG-EditsYT
@DG-EditsYT 3 месяца назад
Religion isnt always the answer
@CheesusSVT
@CheesusSVT 3 месяца назад
@j0eyravi0li2
@j0eyravi0li2 3 месяца назад
Y.A.S.
@badpuppet616
@badpuppet616 2 месяца назад
Yasss lol
@sirfuxalot3315
@sirfuxalot3315 3 месяца назад
I’m not trying to be rude but you seem really self concerned. I think you should try and focus more on others.
@chubbywubby90
@chubbywubby90 2 месяца назад
Wow.
@donleinhart
@donleinhart 2 месяца назад
YAS
@annkilleen4236
@annkilleen4236 3 месяца назад
yas
@chancehansen1714
@chancehansen1714 3 месяца назад
Yas
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