My name is Noah but for the longest time people have called me "bignoknow". I fell into a severe clinical depression with anxiety, and depersonalization back in May of 2011. In April of 2012 I discovered I had almost NO testosterone in my body via a blood draw and, for the first time in forever, I had hope. I have been documenting my experience on testosterone replacement therapy as well as every other thing I have done to recover and get my life back ever since.
My only goal is to help as many men and woman recover from whatever hardships life has dealt them as well to share openly and honestly about my experience with all things mental health, testosterone therapy, and my personal life as it pertains to these things. I love making videos and communicating with amazing and brave people from all around the world. I share anything that I may learn from philosophy to healing practices as well as reach out to my viewers who teach me more then I could have ever imagined.
Just got bloodwork done I'm at it says I'm 295 for testosterone. I also work night shift. I think that plays a part in being low. What was your testosterone levels before and after trt?
My brother left us 2 weeks ago. He was both physically ill with a disease, and an alcoholic. In the end, his body lost the battle. He left behind a very devastated mother, and he left me. Truthfully we felt he left us long ago, but we never stopped praying and hoping. Mom worked so hard to help him, but nothing she did could keep him sober.
That’s pretty cool. I’m not sure I’ve ever met someone who’s never even tried. What a blessing to not even venture down that path. Even people who don’t abuse alcohol still ingest a poison socially all the same.
All depression stems from spiritual separation from God. Only the fruit of the spirit ( Galatians 5:22-23) Can resolve all the misery of the flesh. Believe on Christ for Salvation
2 months sober it’s the boredom now at night that makes me miss it now dealing with a little Bit of insomnia and anxiety try to keep myself busy during the day but night time at home is when it’s the toughest
It's definitely different for everyone. I know my husband (51 yrs old) is blacked out when he has long loud conversations with himself outloud as though someone else is there. He will do it for hours and days even. He has recorded himself before and watches in horror but it still hasn't gotten him to stop. :/ He says he wants sobriety more than anything but here we are... as we speak, he's called in to work the last two days sitting around drinking. He's been in and out of blackout since Monday night. So I totally get it. I'm a sober person and have been for many years,. I don't have an addictive personality so it's never been an inssue. It's really hard watching my husband do this over and over and over. Sober for a few days or weeks and then back to this. Hang in there Noah! I hope since you posted this, you've been sober for years. Hugs.
A Carnivore diet may reduce Chris's 50% chance of liver cancer .Any keto diet protects against cancer by vitalising our cellular mitachondria .Although ,after his previous 'diabetic ketoacidosis ', he may may need to get medical advice before starting theraputic ketogenesis.
Drugs that actually make you feel good (adderall) you will not be receiving, you will recieve drugs which do the exact opposite, block dopamine. Also, you better just keep your issues to yourself because they could not care less, they're there to drug you up on sedatives and collect a check. Period. Anyone who claims it helped them, here is the translation, " i was there and wasnt able to harm myself". There is no assistance with social issues, no phones, and its freezing cold. You adopt the sane mentality of prison, cold miserable and you really have to try to never come back.
It’s the 28th of Augest 2024, after listening to this video all of my thoughts are now at the back of my mind and don’t scare me as much as they did. I used to have really bad panic attacks and only just started to overcome them with mindfulness but this video has just lifted a weight of my shoulders. I used to have terrible thoughts and let them define me and from now on I won’t. I will update this comment in a week from now and hopefully I still feel the weight gone or better than I did yesterday. Keep going people there’s light at the end of the tunnel
There are so many things you cannot control in life: that's the stuff that pisses me off, often! LOL But I imagine it does to a lot of people, almost everyone. But for those of us with these issues, it's much worse, I suspect. Just have to learn coping and therapeutic skills to get beyond it somehow.
P.S. Keeping yourself busy, engaged, distracted, working, whatever you need to do, daily, is fantastic to stop some of this. Don't be idle for too long.
In a week ill be at 13 months porn free, problem is my wife is divorcing me and im not sure what my goal with this is anymore. Watching some videos like these for encouragment/guidance i guess
Thank you Noah! Well Said. Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out. I have actually cut communication with people who constantly ask me that. It’s just exhausting to even hear it. Asking me what I’m up to, is a Much Better Question!!😊
My mood tanked at 26-27 years old. Got my test checked and it was 68ng/dl.......... yes 68. Starting trt this week finally. Looking forward to feeling better.
If anyone has depression, there is a huge folder of videos looking at depression from all angles from different people in the Playlist part of my channel on here, folder is titled…. Understanding depression
