i drained my social battery … long vlog 

"the more people know the more people can betray you with" is the realest thing ever. i've been betrayed by so many people because of how vulnerable i've been or people listen to me over share. and it's so tiring to think like that. we are all here for you, and if people are true friends, they will understand

i'm reading the comments and i'm in awe at the wholesome, little community you've created here. we found our little corner in this crazy world thanks to you, we love you steph

The struggle of being an introvert that loves people and wants to be a good friend whilst needing (a lot of) time to recharge alone is real. You’re not alone. ❤

6:48 I am SO thankful and proud of you for you speaking up about what you've spoken up about, and I'm so sorry people are treating you terribly because of it

Thank you for donating, never feel bad for helping out dying children and not supporting an ongoing genocide

steph steph steph💖 bless your heart, thank you so much for speaking about palestine and i know it’s so incredibly scary but i truly wanted to thank you for talking about these things as a middle eastern woman. i’m so sorry you’re getting attacked for that that’s so fucked

steph is literally like a safe place for me! love how she always makes me feel warm and comforting:)

As I come from a Palestinian family who were expelled from their homeland in 1948, I so appreciate your humanity and empathy this only reflects what a warm human being you are. Sending you all love and support and thank you for being brave and speaking up, you are on the right path indeed.

I just wanna say thank you so much for speaking up especially on such a sensitive topic like Palestine i feel like it is very brave of you and im so glad that i follow someone who’s not afraid to speak from the heart. When i saw your stories i was feeling super sad because of this whole situation that we have no control over and your story made me feel so much less alone and warmed my heart. Thank you so much steph for your honesty i understand that vulnerability can sometimes feel scary especially in your work but i want to let you know that this is exactly why i love and appreciate u not only as a RU-vidr but as a human being. Thank u and take care of you.

Having morals and humanity has become so dangerous lately now that everyone feels entitled to police your morals. If you have an ounce of influence, it sadly takes courage to voice your opinions in today’s age. I respect and salute you for standing your ground and not losing your humanity for brand deals or controversy. You gained so much love and respect (more than what you already had before) because every voice counts. And yours was very nice to hear. So thank you, and I’m sorry it had to be with the price of idiots in your DMs. But please know that you have more loving supporting and agreeing DMs and those bigots are just bored immoral brain dead losers who can’t handle the fact that we are against ethnic cleaning and genocide. I appreciated your stance; and I always will.

You are doing such a brave thing standing up for the oppressed people of Palestine. Thank you so much! We need more people of integrity like you!

sending the biggest warmest hug to steph

im so sorry if people are attacking you for your mere sense of humanity and empathy on palestenians. its not easy to talk about it especially living in america but thank you so much for speaking up about it. sending you so much love

It’s okay to not read the comments or the dms. You don’t have to engage with us if it is causing you anxiety. If you need to pull back it’s fine ❤

your vlogs are unreal these days, they make me feel so much better!!!

Steph I just wanted to let you know it made me so happy that you shared your opinions on Instagram . a lot of influencers are staying silent and I get it because I’ve heard so many stories about people being harassed for speaking up but the word is a scary place now and I believe we should not be ignorant to what’s happening . I’ve gained so so much respect for you, thank you for sharing donation links and spreading awareness . sending you a million hugs < 3

It takes a lot of courage and bravery to stand up for what’s right, specially if you’re a contact creator or someone famous. I have so much respect for you Steph, and I wish you a lot of happiness

words can't describe how you can light up my day with a single video

Hey steph. my name is nour. i’m from lebanon and grew up an hour away from palestine. the horrors that we’ve seen and heard will never make sense. you speaking up for us and posting about what’s happening means so so much it makes me respect you so much more you really are admirable. i literally never comment on videos but i hope you see this. sending you so so much love ❤️❤️

The amount of comfort and happiness I get from you is insane, like we’re literally besties ilysm

i feel less alone in my feelings every time i watch one of your videos, you've helped me more than you know and you're not alone!! thank you for being you steph and for also being so open with your feelings, i genuinely feel so so seen rn. its scary being vulnerable with your feelings and with hearing everything you're saying at the start of the video, it reminds me of how much strength there is in vulnerability. sending so much loving and healing energy your way angel!!💗

somethings thats been helping me with my anxiety about everything going on is to realize how much comfort and privilege i have. it really puts into perspective that things we take for granted. at the end of the day, we’re gonna get into a warm bed. thats something to look forward to and keep in mind.

I’m so proud of you for speaking out for the Palestinians! I love you so much and this makes me love u more! Stay strong 🫶🏻🫶🏻❤️

Kylie seems like the sweetest soul! I’m so glad you’ve found an anchor. Growing up is tough, but you’re well and truly on your way. x

Heartbreaking. absolutely heartbreaking. The fact that she only stood by what’s right and faced this... what a cruel world we live in

Thank you so much for speaking up about the atrocities that have been happening. Don't ever feel bad for that, you do't have to. You did what is right.

i can’t even begin to explain how much i LOVE your video’s steph! these long vlogs are genuinely everything

anyone who is making you question your safety for speaking up about what’s right shows exactly how much empathy and humanity they lack. I, along with so many of your other subscribers appreciate your speaking up so much. don’t let those trolls ruin your peace. you did the right thing and you can go to sleep at night knowing you spoke up for a population that desperately needs us to speak up for them, unlike the people in your dms who aren’t blinking an eye at the genocide unfolding right in front of us. love your videos, we got your back :)

Steph u don’t understand how much comfort ur videos bring me. For the past few weeks I’ve been extremely anxious as I have family over in Palestine and I haven’t been sleeping properly in fear of finding out they have been unalived. So I started rewatching all ur old vids out of comfort and they made me feel so much better. I’m so glad I found ur yt channel during quarantine, and I’m even prouder that I’m supporting someone who supports human rights. U are the most genuine soul ever and seeing u spread awareness made me so proud of u for speaking up. I wish u nothing but success🤍

having anxiety about everything that’s going on is completely normal. ive been feeling it, everyone i know has, you’re not alone. theres many people who you can reach out to and learn how to navigate this situation.

You don't understand how proud I was when I saw the Gaza emergency appeal on your Instagram bio! Keep believing in the cause, it means you are still human with feelings and empathy😍❤

You should be so proud of how you use your platform to speak about the things you truly believe in. It breaks my heart to see you so anxious, consider it's your content that always makes me feel better when my anxiety is bad. I really hope things get a bit easier, and saying no becomes simpler. Thank you for being you

So you're gorgeous, you have an awesome personality, AND you care about humanity?! Genuinely the best RU-vidr out there. You have no idea how much you're speaking out means to so many people! Moments like these shows the true character of people, and I am so glad that you presented nothing but kindness. We all love you even more now

Oh Steph! Usually when I find new influencers I take a second to subscribe or follow (not really sure why maybe just to be really sure I want to follow them) and I have to say when I saw you post about whats going on in Gaza, I immediately followed because it showed me that you really are this sweet, kind, loving human that you come across online. I can’t even imagine the anxiety and pressure you must feel with tons of people hating on you for standing up for human rights. Do whatever you need to do for your mental health I’m sending you SO much love❤

I don’t know if it’s just me but watching a Steph vlog makes me wanna be so productive after. Even if Steph is not doing anything in her video but making coffee. I don’t know I always watch these vlogs to get me out of procrastination to do my school assignments after. It’s like I get energy from these videos lol.

You’re the only book tuber/ books tag rammer I’ve seen speak up about what they believe is right and wanting to help make a real change and I’m so unbelievably proud! You should never feel afraid to speak for what you believe and never let other people scare you away from something so important

I am not usually someone who tends to comment on things but I have been following you for years and this video was so raw and vulnerable that even though there will be thousands of people that will say the same thing, I also want to tell you that you are not alone in feeling the way that you do! You are not being irrational or too sensitive or anything negative that you may be telling yourself. Living by yourself in a new place is so difficult! Your videos were a big part of my comfort rituals when I moved half-way across the world by myself, away from everyone I know, to get the education that I wanted. I do not know if you actually understand the emotions you incite in us, because even calling us your fans feels too impersonal. I am a fangirl through and through, I can fangirl about any show or books or movies that I become obsessed with but your videos and your take on life and relationships and everything in between and more are comfort companions in our lives. I hope you continue to feel better and understand that the anxiety you felt will likely come back but it is moving forward and learning how to make yourself feel better that will count into the progress you want to make. I hope that makes sense :) One last thing: speaking up about the wrongs in the world or whatever your beliefs are is a strange thing at the moment because especially for people of your position who have a platform can never do the "right thing" for everyone. There will always be people who criticize what you say for the wrong things. That's fine, they can go *duck* themselves because at the end of the day, you did help. Your posts on Instagram were heard by your followers, and that is a formidable contribution to efforts that help real, actual, and deeply hurt people. I am so sorry that you receive the DMs that you do about it but know that there is hundreds of us supporting you for every threatening, anxiety-inducing message you receive. Anyway, thanks for being our comfort, hope we can comfort you in your time of need in return

Seeing you with Kylie is so wholesome!! Sending you so much love steph❤

that friendship moment on the couch with the shared blanket is so wholesome

it's natural to feel anxious after dealing with people who have no humanity. just know you are on the right side of history. you did the right thing. you are actually 1 of only 3 book tubers i follow that said something (you, cari can read & a clockwork reader). it's so disappointing to see SO MANY big book tubers with a platform choose to ignore everything going on around them. thank you for speaking up 💕💕💕

Steph, you are one of the few book bloggers I watch and follow. Although I love to read, I was never interested in what other people were reading or feeling about the books I read until I came across your platform. Your energy is infectious and beautiful. I admire your bravery, strength and compassion SO much. Moving to a new town is hard, meeting new people is hard, voicing your opinion on sensitive matters and standing up for innocent lives is hard in this cruel world. But look at you! You embody all the strengths and characteristics we read on our pages every day so effortlessly and you bring those visions to life. Sending you lots of hugs and love, brave girl!

steph, i can’t even express how much i appreciate you enough. your vlogs really remind me that my struggles are valid and that i’m not alone. thank you for being you, i’m so grateful i found your channel ❤️

I feel like everyone is going through some rough patch at the same time and it’s a least a bit comforting. Sending you love and peace of mind right now Steph! ❤️

steph, you're literally my comfort youtuber. i just love all of your videos and your vlogs are always my fave ones to watch. it makes me so so happy seeing this new chapter in your life with being in charleston. you deserve everything good in this world and i hope you are reminded of how amazing you are. you are truly loved steph, sending you all the love and hugs!!💗🌟

i think feeling how you felt at the beginning is so important to learn more about yourself and how much you can do, im so happy you feel comfortable sharing moments like that because its really comforting and relatable!!

Steph you don't know how much it means to me that you decided to speak up online. It has been really sad seeing the people you look up to, stay silent on topics like this. You mean a lot to me and the fact that you decided to share your opinion shows how much courage and humanity you have. I have been having a hard year when it comes to friendship breakups and your channel has brought me so much joy and comfort. Thankyou for being the amazing human being you are. I love you❤

33minutes in is where im reminded of how humans are pure and beautiful and that there’s still love in this world

Omg the shakey voice has me tearing up I FEEL YOU GIRLY!! omg I wish i could be your friend because I UNDERSTAND the social anxiety, Just know you are loved

you're probably the only youtuber who i'll watch talk and do things for 40 mins straight and still feel like it wasn't enough. you have no idea what you mean to people like me. soo sooo happy to have found you

Girl I actually felt this coming for you. As fun and exciting as it is to have so many people reaching out and wanting to connect, especially in a new place, it is emotionally and socially exhausting after a while (esp for someone who I feel like is an introvert at heart), and when you were talking about constant new plans with new people and being so busy I was wondering how you were handling it all and thought I would be exhausted if I were you. You are not disappointing anyone or missing much by taking time for yourself and having a break.

Okay I’ve only seen a few of your videos in the last couple months, so I am not super familiar with all of your content but as a STRANGER watching you open your gifts from subs I WAS CRYING TOO! Made me very happy to see good humans reaching out to you from all over. Hope that made your week much better. ❤

OMG MY MOOD CHANGED SO QUICKLY WHEN I SAW YOU UPDATED A VLOG AHH IM SO HAPPY PLS WE NEED WEEKLY VLOGS

thank u for showing that vulnerable side of yourself, it means a lot in the world where social media seems so "perfect". we love u

i understand how much anxiety comes with all of a sudden pouring your life onto the internet since these videos weren't really your thing before, but I've been watching you for many years now and i want you to know how much hope this brings me because im a highschool girl and ive always felt out of place in school and so i cant wait to move out of my hometown and explore the world like you are. these videos genuinely makes me so excited to see what the future can bring me when just a couple years ago I didn't want to even live to see it. so thank you so so much even when its harder for you to get up and post these ❤

These vlogs genuinely give me so much peace x appreciate you Steph

Words can’t describe how cozy it is watching this videos luv u Steph

this is so real of u !!! i feel like this pressure of being the best in the room when you’re in a new place is truly paralyzing and makes every social interaction so much harder. im a through and through extrovert talk to strangers on the street kinda of extrovert but there are certain people and situations where the expectation ive placed on myself or society have placed on me is CRUSHING and i cant do anyyyyything but stand there x

The parts with you and Kylie made me smile so much!

i wish i could give you the biggest hug 🥺 so proud of you, steph, thank you for being here and making folks like me feel less lonely!

this…is a video I personally needed. I’ve been feeling the same way recently. I’m a senior in high school and I’ve been putting so much pressure on myself to do all the things bc I know that this year will go by fast, but it’s draining. thank you for sharing what’s on your heart and being a genuinely kind person. so so grateful for you!!

LMAO 13:33 made me actually laugh out loud when you were talking about your frozen kitten dream 😭

Your vlogs are always the highlight of my day they bring me such comfort and joy 🥹🫶🏼 I’m sorry that people are being rude and threatening you for standing with something you believe is right. I’m Palestinian living in the west bank and it really meant so much to me when you spoke up 🙏 I hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourself

aw, we love you, steph. i feel you so much. i’ve been an anxious mess lately too, and it helps to hear that I'm not the only one feeling that way, but I promise that you’re doing more than enough! it just isn’t possible to be everywhere at once. it’s okay to take time for yourself! it’s quite literally needed. i feel so guilty too when it comes to friendships because my social battery runs low so fast, but your friends will understand! they’ll want you to put yourself first, plus it makes for a better catch-up whenever you guys do! since you’ll have so much to talk about🖤

Sending you hugs Steph 🫂 as someone who's part Palestinian i really appreciate you for speaking up and im sorry you had to deal with such vile people who lack so much empathy. Just know your feelings are super valid ❤

You are truly such a sweet and kind soul. I’m sorry you’re dealing with the anxiety, I can empathize with those awful feelings that come with it

Kylie is so fun Omg need her in more vlogsssss !!!! Loved this 👯‍♀️

i don’t hardly ever comment on anything but i wanted to comment on this video. Steph, you are so incredibly compassionate and kind. I look up to you because of how you carry yourself, because you’re so incredibly inspiring. You make me want to live my life to the fullest and i can even attest that you do that to others too. The people who are awful in your comments and dms do not compare to the thousands of others who support and stand by you. Those awful people are ruthless with themselves too, they’re so unhappy, don’t let them poison your spirit. And being alone is the best feeling. Never forget to prioritize your peace and alone time because at the end of the day you are your closest friend and the most important one.

I've definitely felt way more anxious than usual recently (especially with everything going on in the world) and finally just deleted instagram and tiktok to give myself a break, I know that's not realistic for you but just remember that the only people that matter are the ones in your real life. People can say what they want online because they feel safe being anonymous. You've created such a wholesome and loving follower base and I think that should say a lot for the type of person you are Steph, hope you continue to feel better ♥

I can totally relate, Steph! Sharing your life on social media also makes people think they know you inside and out. People make a lot of assumptions based on a few social media posts. Sometimes it's okay to take a little break for yourself and just sit with your thoughts. Social events are really exhausting at times, when you constantly have to be your "best" self. I'm an overthinker, and I always wonder what people think about me, or if I did a certain thing wrong or said something wrong. It's okay to feel this way. Thank you for being so humble and honest. ❤️

I was so happy my gurl steph was such a kind soul just as expected ❤❤❤ to share her voice for humanity and for whats right … im so glad ,,, sending u a big warm hug all the way from UAE ( Dubai )

steph! i love your vlogs and i really really hope everything gets better

I struggle with draining my social battery as well. Because I’m introverted and really enjoy my own company. But I came up with ways to be social within my own barriers and not overwhelming myself. My favorite one is streaming parties with loved ones. That way we can watch a show or movie together but I’m physically by myself. I suggest narrowing down who you want to be around and building relationships with those people you don’t need to do too much. And as an adult alot of your closest friends you barely see. As far as worldwide issues I recommend standing your ground in your beliefs and what you feel is right. But update your settings so your DMs aren’t open to everyone and change your privacy settings. Take care of yourself and your peace.

cant wait to watch another vlog

i loved the beach part!!! it was so comforting to watch and the music omgggg it's so satisfying and chill

You are the best steph ❤ thank you for speaking up about palestine ❤❤❤❤❤❤

i binged all the recent vlogs and girlie keep them coming, these hit veryy different, calming and comforting. Also you wanting to make fulfiling female relationships is so real, they seem very nice and you seem very happy

Living vicariously through you Steph. Any content you put out is so good and it feels like you genuinely like the things you put out. I also understand how you’re feeling with the FOMO, burning up your social battery, and the anxiety about speaking up for ways right and getting hate comments/threats because of it. I also want to thank you so much for speaking on what is happening in Palestine. You’re one of the only influencers that I watch that did and I respect you even more because of it!!

Those feelings are so real and honest. As an introvert I understand how you feel. It is ok to have a small group of few good trustworthy friends. Don't put pressure on yourself to please everyone and to be perfect. Be yourself and trust that people will like you for just being you.

Love seeing you hangout with your new friends and being fully relaxed after having a breakdown made my heart happy❤

we love you steph, you are literally the sweetest person. its so important to prioritise your mental health and do whatever it is that ensures that. if its not responding to comments then that’s completely ok and please dont feel anxious or guilty for choosing you. keep smiling beautiful ❤️‍🩹

Literally my comfort youtuber. Never stop posting these long vlogs cuz I will eat up every second of them always. Sending all my love to you 🩷

Steph thank you for using your voice to help and donate you don’t know how much respect I have for you ❤ it shows how much you care and always have the purest heart, so sorry that you have to deal with the negative consequences of having a good morals, sometimes people don’t like when other don’t agree with you and that’s OKAY, a lot of people receiving such a horrible DM’s lately but they literally have a keyboard to write the most disgusting things and CANNOT do anything lol Stay safe and strong, praying for your safety and comfort Love you ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹and free Palestine 🇵🇸

Whenever I feel overwhelmed or not understood I just watch one of Steph’s videos and I instantly feel better and less anxious

hi Steph! i have been a long time subscriber but a first time commenter. i just had something i wanted to share that i think you might appreciate. a couple of weeks ago you posted an instagram in that outfit you wore to the pumpkin patch and i looked at the photo and thought “wow that outfit is soooo cute how come my sweaters and jeans never look like that when i put the same outfit together!” and then you made the comment about how you weren’t even sure the outfit worked on you. it just goes to show we ALL get so far into our own heads about things and in reality, we’re all doing absolutely fine. im sorry about your stress and anxiety, but just know there are those of us out there feeling it too, but we’re all gonna be okay in the end. you got this steph :)

I just got home from a very long event, and I saw the title and the first 5 min and I feel so seen and understood lol

steph, so many are with you and it is incredible to use your platform for what you believe in. john lewis is one of my heroes and his quote always identifies with me whenever im scared of speaking my mind - "Do not get lost in a sea of despair. Be hopeful, be optimistic. Never, ever be afraid to make some noise and get in good trouble, necessary trouble." You're doing good trouble!!! People can be so cruel but dont let that keep you from speaking your truth!

Steph slick back ponytail looks amazing on you!!!!

wait you & kylie seem like you’ve been friends forever - I love her 🥹

thank you so much for speaking for my people. we don’t have a voice, the media/mainstream tv etc is NOT speaking for us but social media and real people are advocating and it’s making a difference the world is waking up. in previous wars or conflicts we never ever got to see both sides so idc what anyone says but thank god for social media!!!!!

Girl.. I have a flip phone, it’s a wonderful thing.. whenever I need a social break I just turn my phone off and just carry my flip phone that has like five numbers saved in it.

I loved Kylie's energy

I just started watching the vlog and it hasn't been up to two minutes in and all I can say is, Steph I honestly relate so much

Steph don’t cry please you’re my favorite person in the world I swear 🥺🥺🥺 Your videos mean so much to me, every time I see notification I’m so happy , I love u to the Moon and to Saturn 💙💙💙

You listening top the vault tracks was such a girlhood-moment like it resonated with me so much😂 the fangirling & analysing the lyrics & relating them top Haylor>>> the whole video in general gave me so much comfort but especially that scene

Omg i found your channel a couple weeks ago when i was just watching moving vlogs. I came across your videos and i’ve never felt more calm and relaxed. You were able to keeps my attention and that’s never happened before. Your so much like me 😭😭 I never thought of moving to south carolina but ever since i seen your vlogs i changed my mind. I started doing research and now i plan to move there when im older, thank you for inspiring me.

i literally love steph's personality and her laugh 🥺🥰🥰

Steph im middle eastren and this genuinely means the world to me, youre making a difference💞

always save these for a bad day💛 always gives me a lil smile and comfort 🫧

Honestly it's ok to feel those feelings, and you talking about it makes you even more relatable and we love you so much more for doing it. ❤

Not me having lunch alone at work watching this cause I’m in a moooood today 😂 thanks for keeping me company. Stay safe!