I Got Addicted to Heroin in Front of 1.5 Million YouTube Subscribers 

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Can you imagine how many other youtubers are drug addicts and people don't even know it?!

I had a friend that I tried cocaine with when I was 18, he introduced it to me, and I loved it once I tired it. I handed him some money the next day and said, "here's some more cash, get us some more for tonight". I'll never forget his response, "I think you like it a little too much, so let's not'! I never tried it again and I can't help but feel that he helped me dodge a major bullet😉

2023 update: Since this video Taylor had relapsed many times. She bullied and sent her followers to bully anyone who questioned her sobriety. She told people it’s okay to drink alcohol while freshly in sobriety and on. She then tried to get back with the “man” she speaks so poorly about after not being together for 2.5 years. When people found out all hell broke loose and people lost their minds. She then had taken a long break, got sober and happy to say Taylor is a year and a half sober! Recovery looks different for everyone, it’s hard as hell. So proud where she is today!

I'm really proud of her and I'm impressed with her integrity. She accepted both the good and bad of what's happened with her channel. i'm also really impressed with the warning for parents at the beginning. Really well-spoken girl.

Why did I think this was about some chick taking heroin for the first time on a livestream?!

97 days clean of meth. 3 years clean of heroine and pain pills. I’m working on my addiction. I’m 97 days clean. And that’s what I’m sticking to. It’s hard but it’s worth it.

One last time is what took my wife from me. She said the same thing, that we would do it just one more time and hold each other, then get clean. She overdosed and died in my arms. I've been clean since April of this year. She died in November of last year, only months after giving birth to our second child. I miss her so much.

i used to watch her when i was little, i’m a zoologist now. i’m happy she’s doing good now, i had no idea about any of this. thank you for sparking something in me :)

One more time, is the worst thing a drug addict could ever say.

She never said he forced her to do drugs. She says he encouraged her and was an enabler to her addiction problem.

To be a person addicted to drugs and drag a naive beautiful soul; who LOVES and wants to save you, into addiction so you won’t be alone is the most heartbreaking tragedy.

I started taking heroin since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be used globally for treatment of certain health challenges.

I did the same at 18. Almost a 4 year relationship and I told him that I wanted a new life for us. He promised to go to rehab but changed his mind last minute so I packed my shit and went to rehab in a different state. 55 days later I left the rehab but refused to return home and made a life for myself in california. I am almost 4 years clean and he is getting sent to prison.

138 days clean off Heroin. Stay strong and stay with the people in recovery.

i used to binge watching her videos back in highschool and i really liked her personality, then she just never posted and gone. her videos is one of the things that get me into reptiles, and now im in vet school. sending much love for taylor, i hope she's doing better now

Found Taylor when I got into fish tanks after my mom passed. Believe it or not it became a very therapeutic hobby for me. I had no idea she was struggling with this. I was shocked to learn this news. Very brave of her to share her struggles.

The title was too click baity to not click

I thought a vice employee was going to literally get addicted to heroin as a documentary to show us the symptoms of addiction and withdrawal. That would be crazyyy

This was filmed a few years ago when she first came out about her addiction. She’s sadly struggled with staying sober since then. As of now, she claims to be sober for almost a year. I was addicted to opiates at her age too, and I had the same issues with relapsing after months of sobriety. Finally it just stuck and I’ve been sober for over a decade now. I think she’ll get it. Hopefully she won’t fall back again, but even if she does I think she’ll eventually stay sober. Opiates/heroin is the absolute worst drug and hard to quit.

My best friend in my 20s intentionally committed suicide with heroin. Pretty tough stuff I was a pallbearer at his funeral. I’m 31 now and I doubt I’ll ever forget what he looked like after the fact. Anyone struggling with this you can do it as long as you have the mental strength. You got this.

Did heroin for 10 yrs, shot it the last 6 yrs of it. Started when I was 17. After I was told I'd never see my kids again and 3 short stints in jail, enough was enough. Now I'm 37, married, and been 10 yrs clean, 11 yrs next month. Did it cold turkey, 2 1/2 sleepless wks. I couldn't lose my kids, just couldn't. 3/30/2009

Vice didn’t add a single link to her channel in the description but somehow managed to find the time, strength and stamina to add 17 of their own... 😒🙄

He totally manipulated her into getting addicted to drugs so she wouldn't convince him to stop. Been through it in the past I send her love and everyone recognize what someone goes through on drugs is not them. I'm glad she seems to be doing better now

This is such a real subject and I appreciate how open she is. She comes off as very genuine and I appreciate her. I hope shes doing better these days and keeps growing. Everyone makes mistakes.

To everyone in the comments saying they're in the recovering process or have recovered from drug abuse I'm so proud of you 👏 👏👏👏

So she basically was young, lonely, and lead a sheltered life- which made her a perfect victim for a heroine addicted psychopath who lives by using women. ...Its a wonder she got out alive really.

She was one of my absolute favorite youtubers growing up. I watched her videos at my worst times. This is heartbreaking, but i am so proud of her.

18 months sober it’s important to know that this drug and specifically does not discriminate doctors lawyers girls boys all people young people get addicted to opiates and it turns into a hard-core heroin addiction

Almost 365 days clean from HEROIN and alcohol! Much love to all my fellow recovering addicts

When she gives parents a warning about their child watching her video , that was actually very very cool. I like that. 💜

I'm 3 plus years from heroin and cocaine and you can do this! your story touches me and i love that you love your animals very much. You were so truthful and you're so strong. I'm here for you and very proud of you! I know how hard it was getting away from heroin and just getting off it. Whenever something's going wrong or bad in life remember how hard it was to get off and how shitty life was before.

Been a fan of taylor for quite a while and watched this all happen, very proud of her for what she has overcome

I watched her for ages, then she was gone, then all these people were talking about how awful a pet parent she was. Next thing I saw she had a video about her struggles and I was like 😳

I'm using this quarantine as an opportunity to try and really focus on my sobriety. Spending a lot of time with family.

As an heroin addict my self, struggling with co dependent relationships, I can see my self in alot of things she said. I used for about 5 years since I was 17 when I first met my ex gf that gave me some weird brown powder to smoke. I loved it from day one, it was everything I ever wanted to feel and I struggle extremely up holding my life without it. I was a functioning heroin addict. It made me cope with my life I only stopped shooting up or smoking when I met someone I really loved. But the relationship became very codependent we both had the same issue with love and we split and I instantly fell into it again. Now I am clean since 2 months and My last time shooting up was in July on my birthday.

I was a heroine IV user for ten years I was clean 3 years then broke my leg got back in and relapsed again moved to az and got into fentanyl and now I’m back to being clean it’s a struggle for sure

Two days clean . Broke. Depressed. And got Twins on the way. Time to set the drugs aside . And This video gave me hope I can break the cycle ! I’ll be back in a year with an update. Today’s date is September 25th 2020. See you next year.

Such a powerful story. I was a homeless junkie. Got clean in 1995. This November I will finish EMT school and have plans to go on to paramedic school and am blessed to own my home. there is always hope. 💚

I can't watch anymore. Thank you for bringing this to light for the public, and for struggling addicts also for those in recovery.

True story: I met Jonny Craig once. His band were playing in my hometown (sort of, nearby), and my band were the main support. We were more fans of DGD than Slaves but we needed the exposure, and my drummer was a big Jonny Craig fan. Nothing really happened that was all that serious, but the guy was a little out of it. Nothing shocking to any of us, we were all fucked up, too. But, halfway through his band's set he started screaming at the audience telling them to "fucking start moving" or he was "going home". He didn't go home, but he did angrily tweet about the Plymouth, UK show for like two days after lol. He didn't realise that he was playing in a total deadzone. He must have been accustomed to very different types of crowds. TL:DR; Jonny Craig is a little bit delusional.

It’s really shocking that people would think she doesn’t take care of her animals. I have a close family member who is a recovering addict and they thrive in routines. Feeding and taking care of animals is a routine which could help reinstate stability back in her life. So glad she’s doing better!

Please don't flush needles! A hospital can dispose of them correctly for you.

Making mistakes publicly and the internet eating people alive is such a real conversation.

I took a perc a few months ago and it had me feeling like I was on top of the world, I’ve always had issues with addiction but normally it was whatever I could get my hands on as a teen, but after I tried that perc once I started wanting them everyday and it made me feel so depressed that I had let myself do that, I stayed strong and still am and haven’t touched it since, but it was scary because I really thought I had let myself fall into addiction with a substance that has a lot of potential to kill me, and seeing how my dad was on it for 20 years, I knew it was best to just hold on tight and not fall for it. Not everyone is as fortunate as me to drop the pill before it becomes a habit, and I have nothing but hopes and prayers for the people who fell for the devils tricks.

i really feel for her. i can’t imagine being an online personality, being constantly critiqued, and then getting addicted to heroin. everyone has an opinion today and everyone is a keyboard warrior. instead of spreading hate, people should try to support and uplift. i’ve been watching her youtube channel for a while and she seems like a really genuine person. hope she’s doing okay!

3 years clean from heroine & pain pills. Stay strong everyone (:

i’m so proud of her and how far she’s come with her rehab

I love Taylor so much. She and I got sober around the same time and her responses to me were so sweet and uplifting. So proud of her. ❤️❤️

Moral of the story: never trust someone when they say it's "no big deal".

Almost a year havent touched a needle and bout a month and a half haven't had a drink..wheres the emoji for when you jump in the air and click your heels?

God bless you and your channel and all that you do that obviously your subscribers care about and watch on a regular basis to make your channel such a success. This is the very first time that I’ve seen your channel and I watched this post from start to finish, it brought tears to my eyes to see such a genuine post coming from someone that truly cares and loves what she does, and what you say on your channel matters. I think thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of people could benefit by watching this one video. If they see no other post of yours this could be probably one of your most important ever. This is the type of content that could very well save the life of someone that’s experiencing the same thing that you were and God bless you for making the decision to do the right thing by getting yourself clean 🙏🙏and getting away from the person that introduced you to one of the most evil drugs in this world known as heroin. I know that having your personal testimony as part of your channel and being real with people about what you’ve gone through and have overcome will be a big part of your channel and know that by doing so you touch the hearts of many and could be potentially a part of helping save someone’s life. I’m going to subscribe and share your channel with others in the hopes that someone in need will see your content and know that people care and life is worth living, regardless of where you are.👌🙏🙏☺😊😋💋💋

Respect to her for being honest and open, hard to admit you have an addiction.wish her the best.

The fact that the guy made it seem like the heroin was a drug to kick back and watch movies and chill had me dead lol

When she said she was really outgoing and loved meeting new people but she was too anxious about it... I felt that. A lot.

I reside in the BRONX, NY AND I HAVE BEEN WHERE YOU AT......... IT'S NOT EASY AND FOR SURE I DO HAVE MY DAYS THAT ARE VERY HARD TO COPE WITH, BUT I LOOK BACK BY LOOKING FORWARD!!!!!!......... DON'T WANNA BE WHERE I WAS!!!!!!!!!........... DON'T KNOW YOU PERSONALLY BUT YOU TRULY DON'T NEED THE APPROVAL OR PRAISE OF ANYONE, IF YOU LOVE URSELF THAT'S WHAT IS IMPORTANT!!!!!!............. REMAIN STRONG AND ALWAYS BE STRAIGHT WITH YOURSELF!!!!!!!

Well done getting away from the devil's dandruff... It's so easy to fall into addiction and so hard to get out of it... Take one day at a time and if you fall dust yourself off and move on and forget about it... I wish you all the best and life's happiness... God bless... I know it's hard but you saved that girl for falling into that life and many more people that you don't even realize... Stay strong 💙💙💙🕊️😇 😇😇 God bless 🕊️🕊️🕊️

Im proud of Taylor defeating her addiction and escaping that man.

FYI: *Do not flush needles.*

I watched her and loved her pet videos. So many people started hating on her when she confessed she had a heroin problem. Always felt bad for her though. I ironically was also addicted around the same time she was under similar circumstances so I was able to empathize with her a lot.

What’s crazy is I know her in person and she is a very sweet girl!

“This is echo. Echo’s a gecko” lol the perfect name

Drug addicts still are people. It can happen to any human. It took a lot of guts to make this video, you are brave and authentic. There will always be haters that make rude comments simply because they hate to see somebody happy and doing well because they are just jealous and need to grow up. You got what it takes, don't let nobody tell you different. Keep strong in your sobriety. There are many who wish you the best.

She is unbelievably strong for being able to come out and show that’s she’s looked in the mirror and wasn’t happy and decided to fix it. GOOD FOR HER!!!!!

im happy people come out with videos like this it really helps bring out the issues some people struggle and can help them a ton and i love that

Am I the only person annoyed with how many "click" animation sounds there are

My brother was an addict, he’s no longer with us because of the toll drugs took on his life. To everyone struggling and to those in recovery, you can do it, this world is better with you in it I promise you this.

I’m a 21 year old female heroin addict (I’m currently still using but are working my way towards a serious attempt at recovery) And the amount of stigma I’ve experienced is really shocking. I’ve dealt with multiple serious mental illnesses but nothing could’ve prepared me for people’s judgement. It’s seen as a moral failing and spiteful criminal act. I’m not dodging all responsibility but an abusive childhood and years of my life spent on psych wards may provide a little explanation (not justification) I’ve lost so many friends when I’ve asked them for help and there’s just an assumption that I’m going to lie and steal

It's always a sad thing to see in addiction when people who either don't know anything about it, or have been told whatever in school/after school programs about it and think that makes them adequately informed when all you can know from that perspective is the factual things like what's dangerous, the effects, the risks, the price, how it looks, how it's administered etc. But what they (And the majority of mainstream "sources of information" about drugs, drug use, addiction) think is not misinformed and incorrect, often it's dangerously incorrect. So almost always as far as understanding or "getting" addiction people don't, but addiction will absolutely "get" them. And then it already has you. That's why peer support, talks with addicts in recovery with a lot of clean time and experience is SO important and not only for people still in active addiction and the chaos that surrounds it but the teenagers who're all just hearing and being shown the same recycled heavily biased misinformation and rhetoric are either just tuning out entirely or any of the information they DO take onboard is incorrect/harmful. But having recovering addicts come and talk to them, being REAL with them about what that life is like and everything surrounding it, what addiction is like, withdrawal, the things you'd do that otherwise you would never ever do just to get out of withdrawal, and even life and its daily fights AFTER addiction is what really needs to happen to make our younger generations better informed on this disease that's become so incredibly widespread and deeper engrained than ever before, it's in everyone's face, in the street outside. But it'd also help the kids to see and realise that addicts aren't just people, they're almost always very vulnerable, damaged, abused, traumatised and discarded or forgotten people. And a lot of those people are more than just addicts, they're GOOD people who BECAUSE of the life they've lead and what they've witnessed or experienced - if god forbid you found yourself the victim of a random attacker on the street with members of the public all around you? Those same addicts are the ones who'll often run in to help you while everyone else is recording on their phone or just completely ignoring you and often not because they just don't want to get involved, but because they don't care that it's happening to someone else - as long as it stays that way. I bet pretty much everyone here either has, knows, used to know, or IS a person who suffers with addiction and is still fighting that daily lifelong fight. We've got to make sure our kids don't even set foot in the ring in the first place. Stay safe all, love ya, appreciate ya. 🖤🤍🖤🤙

When I saw her boyfriend's name was Jonny, I was like "wait, is that the same Jonny who keeps getting kicked out of bands?" so I looked it up, and yep, it's Jonny Craig.

I’m two years clean. Never heard of this lady till now but she seems like a kind person and I’m sending her all the love

This is my first time seeing this video but ive followed nicolenfor a while and my heart has always broken, yet always beated for both her and Johnny. Something she said in here about the screaming hit a nerve in me with my significant other during a time i was with him when he copped heroin and its left such a trauma inside me but it makes me happy cry to know ANYONE can go through these things and come out alive. I live for helping struggling addicts (literally my day job) but seeing beyond that those that can be open and receive support, just makes me see such bigger things for this community.

The part where this dude said, that she can't be resposible for those animals while on drugs is just wrong. Sometimes addicts even treat their pete even better. That is because, pets are for some addicts their closest friend and the living creature they trust in the most.

At least she had the balls to admit it and own up to her shit.I am glad she rehomed many animals. You look fantastic Nichole!Everyone loves a good comeback story! So proud of you!

it’s terrifying that this man is going to be a father

I'm trying not to judge her for it, but I really don't like the way she didn't seem to take any real personal responsibility for her own actions with the whole abusive relationship and It was her boyfriend who caused her to try it

I didn't realize her bf was Jonny craig. I played a show with him like 10 years ago where he stole someone's phone and laptop and just walked onto his tour bus with it. Didn't realize that guy is still kicking around ruining people's lives.

I love how open and honest she is now about her addiction. My ex who is my son's father and I were using together for 2 years we ended up losing our son our home living on the street during the coldest winter and eventually we lost our freedom my addiction ruined my life. I quit cold Turkey after using fentanyl for 2 years I am now almost 2 years clean and I have. Full time job and my son turns 8 this month and I am here and alive to see it. Sadly my son's father hasn't taken the same road and we separated but I will never again trade my soul my happiness my health and my son for anything ever again. Stay strong girl we do survive ❤

Addiction isnt a joke, affects everyone one way or another

Kinda feels like she's blaming her boyfriend for her own decisions?

She seems like a very sweet and caring girl to be honest. Definitely did not deserve what happened to her... But at the same time, there's honestly nothing wrong. Mistakes were made, she's a victim, not a criminal. Her story is amazing tho - dipping in and out of addiction THIS fast! Some people slowly get hooked for years and still don't get clean. She speed ran that experience. Respect. Her mind & heart are in the right place, and that's all that matters really. The rest comes naturally (and with help of course, when needed). Very good.

Are we gonna talk about how jonnys statement said “the addition of his first child”, meanwhile he has a whole ass other child he abandoned years ago and has never even met

Gosh, her looks change so much that it literally looks like several different people in this video

god i feel so heavily for her when she talks about trying to get her partner help at 9:35 most people unfortunately learn the hard way you can't help people unless they wanna be helped and get sucked into that world

As a RU-vidr who also struggled with heroin, I got clean 6 whole years before I started my channel. Out of all the relationships I’ve made due to this channel, I can’t even imagine being currently addicted. I just celebrated my 9th year clean on November 1st, 2023. I’ve always been open and honest with people, as I hope my story reaches the masses of those who are in the struggle of addiction right now. I always tell people, if I can do it, you can too! I don’t look down on Taylor. I’m actually glad she got through this. Heroin addiction, opiate addiction in general, absolutely is the worst. Luckily for Taylor, she didn’t have to go to prison like I did. I’ll tell you one thing, I wouldn’t change it for anything in the world. It’s made me who I am today! Proudly.

I reached out to collab with Taylor a few years ago, as I liked some of her aquarium content. I got a rude email back telling me to never contact her again. Now I understand she was probably very sick. I hope her story serves to help others with addictions. I can recommend anything by Gabor Mate if you’re reading this and suffering with trauma or addiction.

I used to watch her religiously as a child and she got me into reptiles. A few years later i realised she existed again and the first thing I saw was this. Makes me tear up seeing my childhood favourite be so sad :(

Addiction got her more fame, it just ruined what little I had in life. I got clean ON MY OWN, with NO help, and now I work 60+ hours a week and can't afford basics. Life is shyt and unfair.

Anxious of meeting people….but not anxious enough to make your life public….but soooo anxious…not anxious enough to not peddle useless items….but sooooo anxious

That damn mouse click sound needs to die. Jesus Christ, we get it, don't need it for every transition.

I am 515 day's clean off heroin! I'm so happy to have my life back. It's possible if YOU want it. Congratulations to everyone in sobriety! We fckn did it!! xx

When I first started my channel in 2020, I was a drug addict (IV meth), ceased 2021, deciding to try to help other addicts. My channel has varied topics now, but I shared my story too. (Clean over 2 years/addicted 17 years). I admire you for your honesty. I didn't know of you until I subscribed to VICE, but I want to tell you that you are enough! Thank-you for sharing, and best wishes. (I am a small channel with only 123 subscribers). Lots of love Taylor. My channel covers addiction, trauma, etc. uploaded last year. xx

I have 4yrs off heroin and I love this video… stay strong and stay focused on the good in life… there’s literally so much that you’re capable of when clean compared to addicted

To quote a very wise man: "Drugs are bad, mkay?"

I too battle a raging heroin/meth addiction that started with pills. I lost a decade to my bad decisions. I almost lost my life, my arms, my leg. 6mm pulmonary embolism severe AFIB, calcification of the heart valve. Luckily no hep, no HIV. I'm now sober and my life is like a dream. I never thought my life could be what it is. And it really started with one step and I've never looked back. To anyone struggling with addiction. We're both living proof that there is life after addiction. And it can be better than you could ever know. God bless.

I feel this so much addiction is crazy and when you are clean you can’t believe you’re still standing and it’s a blessing. Loved this - 10 years clean from cocaine 😇

A year clean from crack and herion. The pandemic was good for something at least.

“I was born with glass bones, and paper skin” Wow, that’s really a thing.

my toxic trait is getting really stuck on “let’s flush the needle”

she's so pretty