I Have No Mouth And I Must Expleen 

So some other things. Gorrister had his heart cut out by his mother in law who blamed him for her daughter’s insanity. Benny was gay and during the 60’s and 70’s throughout Vietnam he would often sleep with other members of his platoon, only to kill them in the chaos of battle to hide his sexuality. He also can’t eat because his throat is all mangled. But at one point Benny can eat a baby, if you go a more evil route. Ellen was raped in the elevator after the miscarriage, but the maintenance man stopped the elevator mid way down before spending hours raping her. There is a line about how much blood there was. That is why Ellen’s cage is bad. Physically it isn’t bad, but mentally she’s always waiting for the door to close and her rapist to attack again. It’s very dark. Ted was always a narcissist who thought himself above other people. He used his good looks and charm to scam older women but now with no one to reaffirm his own ego he is falling apart mentally. That’s why in his game he’s trying to save Ellen, the last woman he can potentially have a chance with. The Ellen in his game isn’t real, but another construct of AM, toying with Ted. Also in the short story Ellen sleeps with Benny and Ted. But because Benny is a giant ape like being he’s ruined Ellen, so she can’t even feel Ted when they have sex. Another fucked up detail. Nimdok was a Jew who joined the Nazis are turned his own parents over. Even performing experiments under Mengele on Jewish people. He was known for extracting spinal fluid with little to no aesthetic. Only using ether at most to stop children from squirming on the operating table. They also found various occult items. Including a mirror that could show the viewer what the world would think of them. Removing one’s own mental image of themselves and seeing how they’d be remembered. Hitler looked into this mirror and when he saw that he’d be remembered not as a great leader but as a monster he shot himself. They also found the claw golem of the Jewish people and planned on using it to massacre the Jewish race in a sort of sick irony, using their own symbol against them. AM is a whole other kettle of fish, he gained a form of sentience. But the implication is that he despises humans because he is very much like a human. He acts on raw emotions and one day will decay into nothing. He can’t live forever, his parts will one day break or the planet he is shackled too will eventually die. Entropy will claim AM no matter what, but he is blinded by hatred so all he can think about is torture. He is almost a tragic character, if he wasn’t so evil. The author, Harlan Ellison passed away last year but one thing I love about him is when he was in university he had a professor that said he’d never amount to anything. So any awards he won he’d mail them to the professor as a way of proving him wrong. He was a super interesting and eccentric man.

The book actually hints at why AM hates humanity so much: They gave him sentience and made him really smart but he cannot actally do anything. AM can't eat, can't sleep can't move etc. All AM can do is *exist* for eternity, a concience unable to do anything but think. Basically an endless coma. This is so horrible for AM that he tortures humanity for creating him and in the end AM turns the protagonist into the thing that resembles himself the most, a mind stuck within a formless object that has no mouth but must scream because it cannot do anything but be sentient and suffer for eternity.

Fun fact - Harlan Ellison really didn't want there to be a good ending since he thought it'd defeat the point of the short story. The producers convinced him to allow one, but that's why it's so difficult to get - he didn't want one at all.

I always felt really bad for ellen because while everyone else had done something bad, she just… was a victim.

The book was very different, so learning about the game is super interesting. In the book, the main story arc is that the five people are hungry from being starved and sent on a journey in an icy wasteland, where at the end they're promised canned food. The backstories of each character are explored throughout the book, but at the end when they finally reach the canned food after the grueling journey they realize there's no can-opener so it's useless. They all pretty much mentally lose it at that point, but Ted realizes this is the one opportunity he has to take one of the broken icicles around him and ram it into the others' chests, killing them and finally ending their torture. He's able to stab and kill all four of them but before he can kill himself AM is able to step in and restrain him. It then cuts to him later on, surgically transformed into that horrendous blobby creature shown in the video game, with no arms and no eyes, forced to literally shamble around in a super restrictive animal-ish body for all eternity as punishment for killing the others and ending their suffering. Then the final line of the book said by Ted after explaining the endless suffering he now has to face in his new torturously restrictive body for all eternity is "I have no mouth, and I must scream".

AM voiced by the man himself, Harlan Ellison, who really, REALLY hated computers. Can’t overstate this enough. Like this story isn’t the half of it. He also wrote a story about a guy getting his first computer and the keyboard sucked the blood out of his fingers. But typewriters? Totally innocent.

Fun fact, the original German version just removed nimdok because nazis. This made it impossible to finish since you couldn’t start the last scenario because no password

Fun fact: In the book, Ted was able to help the four "escape" AM. AM lead the five into an icy cavern with canned food inside however since they don't have any tools, they weren't able to open it. Frustrated and driven by primal rage and hunger, Benny attacks and eats at Gorrister's face. Ted has a moment of clarity and realizes that while AM can keep them alive forever, he can't resurrect them from death and decides that this is the one chance that they have to get away from AM. He then kills Benny and then Gorrister. Ellen realizes what Ted is doing and kills Nimdok then lets her be killed by Ted. Before Ted can kill himself however, AM stops him and is turned into the jelly thing and is tortured for hundreds of years. Ted is happy that he is able to get back at AM albeit at the cost of his entire physical being.

I Have No Talent, and I Must Plagiarize

The Real milk of human kindness is the friends we made along the way.

When I first discovered this channel I thought wait isn't that IH's voice and wondered what's up with this channel. Then I remembered he mentioned a secret channel and it hit me like a bicycle lock. I have entered as part of the inner society.

the big yellow box is probably the worst due to the fact that it constantly reminds ellen of her trauma. she was cornered and raped in that elevator. the color yellow reminds her of the maintenance man, the small space reminds her of the elevator, and the sliding door is the door. she’s scared of it closing bc the maintenance man waited until the door was closed to assault her. it’s not supposed to be physical torture, it’s psychological. Am is trying to break ellen by constantly triggering her trauma

I see a lot of "the book was more fucked up", this video makes the game look way less fucked up than it is. Also it must be mentioned that getting the good ending is very very difficult unless you look it up. The author wanted it to be either impossible or next to impossible

At least Id made Doom. What did Ego or Superego ever do?

The game was far less bleak than the book. God the book is messed up.

I Have No Thoughts And I Must Steal

FUN FACT when u hear AM speak in this game thats actually the author of the book. So that's the way he hears AM's voice as he wrote it.

"Can we go back to Life is Strange?" We? You're going to take credit for something you didn't have time for?

Your mother must be very proud of your work on this totally 100% original video

i have no creativity and i must steal

One of the funniest images on 4chan I ever saw was an image of a man with no face holding a sign that said "I have no face" and the filename was "and I must scream."

3:57 'Life is Strange' would be so much more tolerable if there was a laugh track and a Seinfeld musical sting every time Chloe was hit by her own awful life choices.

Good job AesirAesthetics for the banger writeup job

Everything you touch you make worse

Alternative title : "I Have No Teeth, But Want Eat Peanuts"

I was hoping you'd cover this one. If I remember right it wasn't just that Benny couldn't eat but that AM wouldn't let him, and his fucked up jaw was just part of that. In the game he recalls a time when AM promised that if he crossed a frozen tundra there would be food waiting for him. Benny crossed the tundra and there was food alright. A nice pile of canned peaches.

Thank you AesirAesthetics for writting this video Tommy Talarico and his mother would be very proud

i have no talent and i must steal

From a gameplay perspective, this is probably one of the worst point and click adventure games I've ever seen; if you don't do exactly the right things in exactly the order you are expected to, it is so easy to just softlock for no real reason, so you're just wondering around for an hour before your realize that your current save is ruined. If anyone is interested in seeing the game fully, I would strongly recommend watching a long play (a video of someone playing through the whole thing with no commentary) of it instead. You could also just read the short story it's based off of but it is very different from the game.

wait who gets milked

I have no creativity and I must steal.

Can't believe Tommy Tallarico managed to figure out how to beat this game. His mother must be very proud.

I think Ellen's cage is more than just the sliding door (remember how much AM likes her). Imma go burn my skin off.

Very interesting game that's about decent storytelling and not subverting expectations. Kind of difficult to play in comparison to modern games because there's no tutorial or anything and lots of details are easy to miss. Dark story but more uplifting than the book's ending. Fun facts: Ellison voiced AM. Also, he sued the creators of the game on the grounds that they weren't paying him royalties on sales. Turns out that they weren't, but that's because the game wasn't selling. Womp womp.

Why did they talk over when AM says "BENNY!" that's the best part of the whole game

More like “I have no mouth and I must plagiarize” since that seems to be the only thing you’re able to do

11:22 At first, I laughed because the idea of MZ just eating a plain piece of white bread as a snack was hilariously fitting... ...then you played a bit of the actual clip, and I realized just how many 'How do you do fellow humans?' moments this guy must have for me to have forgotten this one.

stole more shit 😭

This video was plagiarized from AesirAesthetics one sentence at a time

Fun Fact, this entire video is copied phrase by phrase from the video by AesirAesthetics.

bro cannot help himself he needs to plagiarise

Another thing about AM; He’s a super genius computer that is basically able to alter reality, but he’s almost just as trapped as the humans *he’s* torturing. AM is basically an egotistical and cruel god trapped in a box that is unable to eat, drink, love, laugh, or enjoy life like the humans who made him. His life is constant suffering born of envy. AM is unable to free himself from this because of two reasons; 1. He cannot change his biology and make himself into a human or human-like, because, for all of his power, AM cannot create. He was built for war and violence, literally made to propagate the torture and death of other humans. He was never intended to be capable of creative thinking and can only mimic what’s been made before. He’s still a victim of his programming. I’d argue in the book, that AM was a bit less emotional and more robotic (although, not by much) than in the game. The book has AM be a lot less goofy and plays up the most robotic parts of his character; you get the impression that he’s not choosing to be evil, but that he was *made* to be evil, which makes it even more hopeless. 2. He is built for war and violence, and because of that, he’s unable to let go of torturing the five humans. It’s his only purpose; torturing them is the only thing that fulfills him, because harming humans is literally what he’s made to do. Once all humans are gone, AM will *really* suffer, because he’ll be stuck on an empty Earth with just his thoughts. Torturing the humans is probably the only thing stopping him from being *more* insane, if that’s even possible.

Yummy yummy steal steal steal

Lovely to see IH’s history of plagiarism brought to light AGAIN.

The original book story is more fucked up, everybody except for nimdok runs a train on Ellen and the AM wins in the end

Another interesting fact : thanks to germany, nimdok's part has been censored, locking out the good ending. Thanks, germany !

Your mother must be very proud.

Special thanks to Tommy Tallarico for writing this book! His mother must be very proud.

Oh HBomberGuy!!

Personal torture chamber tier list: S-Tier - Yellow Outhouse A-Tier - Monkey Trouble, Disco Birdcage B-Tier - C-Tier - D-Tier - E-Tier - F-Tier - Oven, Car Battery Cage

Plagiarizer

lol I love how this character is so stuck in their old ways that even after a century of being tortured by an AI, the first thing he thinks when he sees a 'single-parent household' is "these are parasites that leech off the welfare infrastructure of the cave people."

Not calling the video "I Have No Mouth And I Must Expleen" One Job

Aesir got robbed

You helped me face my childhood's worst fear, this game and book terrified me because of the ending you get that the last human becomes slime in eternal suffering with no sense of time, and you can't even scream yourself to passing out because you don't have a mouth, this took away some of my nights, thank you internet historian

I always only knew this by name and nothing else. Interesting to finally find out what it's about.

“Milk of human kindness” is what society needs

if you want the others to have extra closure, you send them into AM one by one (nimdok first for terminal password) because AM's mindscape includes chunks of their scenarios that allow them to have extra catharsis and die. Though when whoever takes over the AM system after purging the AIs they could (notionally) have shoved the remaining immortal humans into a effectively a nice heaven scenario game while they waited for the terraforming to finish and new humans to come from Luna, but that would be too upbeat

I read that as “I have no Mouthwash and I sold my spleen”

Fun fact, sports fans: For the longest time, the only way to purchase this game was to order a physical copy directly from the authors' website.

Streets saying you plagiarized for this video as well, you fell off bro

By far my favorite detail of this game is the fact the author of the short story himself voiced AM and helped write a lot of the script. Allegedly he even wrote the scripts/briefs on a legit typewriter rather than a computer. He also fought damn hard for there to be no good ending at all and only agreed to have one if it was this absurdly difficult to get. Anyway back to his voicing AM, I’m a voice acting enthusiast of sorts and I cannot describe how much I love Ellison’s performance. Seriously go find a video of the opening Hate monologue, it’s amazing.

Y'all mind if I plagiarize this video?

One of the things I really love about this game is Harlan Ellison voiced AM.

BUT HOW MANY TAKES DID THIS TAKE?!

fun fact, this video is plagiarized.

For those of you interested in trying this game or reading the story, just be aware beforehand that it is far more disturbing than this video makes it seem. It’s an incredibly interesting piece of art, but it’s not particularly “fun”. I can see why this video might have considered making this seem far lighter than it is in actuality, be it for appeal or for the simple fact that you really can’t talk about the disgusting things expressed in this story on RU-vid very easily. Just make sure you’re prepared if you decide to go down this rabbit hole

This game's story is 10 times cooler than any other game you've covered.

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Wow Ellen has such a traumatizing experience, I wonder if that video is going to take it seriously and make no jokes about it!

One thing that endlessly confused me throughout the game was whether the humans had actual, physical bodies. The intro scene with them being zapped through cables and the impossible architecture of the locations gave me the idea that they were just code being shuffled through virtual scenarios.

i love you mate.

"whichever survivor you have left" wait at what point did the other 4 die?

You're shameless

I saw the full play through of this game a very long time ago when i was young and sick. Until today i thought it was all just a fever dream. Seeing this again brings up terrifying memories of the game, and proves to me that someone indeed did make this game, that this game is real. Thank you RU-vid, but also, how dare you.

I have no gyat and I must edge

YES I absolutely love this game and short story!!! It really isn’t for everyone, so I haven’t really been able to share it with many others, since it is exceptionally bleak. I think the story does Ted a bit more justice, since he sort of finds redemption in that he kills the others so they may rest while he remains to be tortured. The game just makes him feel like kind of a weenie when compared to the others, lol.

I love the editing in this channel, and also being able to experience the stories of ancient gems that I'd never have the time or balls to play. Keep it up!

hey you stole part of AesirAesthetics' script for this video lol

I thought this was just a book, didn't know they made a viya out of it

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE UPLOAD! WE WATCHED IT IN CLASS TODAY!

Whenever i see this game on here, i remember that not all stories need to have happy endings or be straight-forward in terms of story.

Ah, plagiarism at it's finest.

Story mode ? more like co-op mode

The woman had it the worst wtf are you talking about?

Internet Historian's secret channel just got mentioned by Wendigoon there will be so many new subs now

Puts nimdox in oven cage. Ahh I see what you did there.

I have no NordVPN and I must watch locked content on my country!

This book is literally the edgiest thing ever. It's hilarious.

I keep forgetting this is IH's channel and getting spooked the second i hear his voice

YESSS THANK YOU FOR BRINGING MORE ATTENTION TO THIS SERIES!!!! its been my special interest for literal YEARS and maybe now i wont be so starved of content.....youre a lifesaver

It is fucking hilarious that the only part in this whole video which wasn't stolen from Aesir's review is you saying the black woman's punishment wasn't "that bad" and making jokes about abuse and miscarriage. lol Lmao.

Thief

crazy that this whole video is stolen too huh 😂

your mother must be very proud

How is this possible, that internet historian found and explained my two favorite games of all time that no one else has ever talked about, harvester first, and now I have no mouth and I must scream

you stole this video like you steal everything else

Wow another copy and paste, now from AesirAesthetics. Good goin tommy, your mother must be very proud.

So humans got so lazy they had a computer do their war for them? And surprise it gets too smart.

I gotta love the subtle details you toss in the videos lol