I hid my cocaine and meth addiction for years 

Laying here coming off of a big relapse cocaine and alcohol. and came across this video and channel looking for hope. wow I'm in tears, this just encouraged me to not kill myself. Needed every word.

Congrats I been clean from crystal meth an Crack for seven weeks

I went to college with Jeff. He roomed down the floor from me an my roommates on the 6th floor of Dixon Hall freshmen year. Jeff was one of the cleanest, most suave guys on campus- smart, articulate etc. He looked and dressed like a celebrity, even back then. Very well-liked and respected by the guys...mainly cause all the ladies adored him. Had no idea he'd gone through what he's gone through with drugs, but good to see him succeeding in his comeback. In an article online, I read that Jeff wanted to send a message to the LGBTQ+ community... “Party and play is killing us.” But the drug/party culture is not just an LGBTQ+ problem...it's an American problem, it's a problem with western culture, including the US and Europe. ....young people need to know that it's possible to enjoy life completely sober. Sober partying needs to be normalized. All the best to you Jeff.

Cocaine almost drove me crazy, I was addicted for 3 years straight smh. As of now I am 26 years old have now been sober for 2 years and 7 months and I've never felt better. Whoever is struggling please never give up I am proud of you

I was a functional alcoholic for over 15 years. I never got a dui,had a car accident or hurt anyone. Not cause I was smart. It was the grace of God cause all those things should have happened to me. I identify with what he is saying. The sneaking, the lying to yourself and other people and the excuses of why you missed work. If anybody out there is trying to quit something take one day at a time. Just concentrate on getting thru the day, not tomarrow or next week. The days will pile up.Its been 20 years for me now without a drink. You can do it.

Coming up on 2 years clean from meth next month. This man understands it.

Incredibly articulate man, it shows that not everyone is what they seem. He looks just like any other typical news anchor, would never suspect he had an addiction of any kind. Stay strong!

Fetal position in a corner....wanting to get out of my skin....talk about being able to relate. No one understands addiction if they have not gone through it. Imagine not being thirsty but at the same time unable to stop drinking water....or standing in the rain looking at a dry spot in front of you but unable to take the step. To this day i struggle with addiction. It is hard but the first step is admitting you have a problem. I pray for all addicts out there fighting. STAY STRONG, STAY SOBER!

It started out fun , cocaine was like a party drug for me. I use to hook up with females and we would snort powda , drink liquor, listen to music , party and then have sex. After about a year the high was different. I was more paranoid....I isolated myself from everyone. I became depressed, lonely, felt worthless, no friends, no girlfriend, no life. I'm here today watching this video because I want my life back....im tired of living like this. I feel like im dead inside.....I started smoking cigarettes and one bad habit led to another. I'm here today to reclaim my life back

This video just humbled me so much. My sister is an addict and I’ve wrongfully judged her to the point where I’m now more ashamed of my judgmental behavior. Here my sister has needed me to be there for her and I turned my back because I believed addiction was more a choice than disease. Thank you for your humility in telling your story. It has truly changed my heart.

As i watched this high telling myself this is my last sack. I think im ready im not addicted addicted. But i know i have trouble thank you sir for your story very humbling mind over matter

This guy has a great ❤️ heart and seems like a nice genuine person. This made me cry. What most people that judge from the outside of situations such as this don’t realize, is that the majority of people struggling with addiction are some of the most sensitive, empathetic , misunderstood, intelligent and caring people you could ever imagine meeting, it’s the addiction that makes them behave and make choices they would never ever consider in their healthy state. My favorite story’s to hear are addicts that have overcome and go on to help others either with their story or dedicating their life to helping others daily in life. That is what I want for myself once I get the courage to get my issues under control. Being addicted to drugs is a nightmare, a daily nightmare that you relive over and over again. It’s not what most outsiders think, it’s not that we want to use and it’s making us “high” anymore, it’s just to try and survive daily without feeling absolutely horrible!! It’s a disease which is just beginning to be somewhat understood in this day in age. Anybody struggling with similar issues, just stay strong 💪, don’t beat your self up for making mistakes. Even the smallest step in the right direction is gigantic.

It killed my niece and cousins wife. Heart DAMAGE, she died at 35. Almost has killed my other niece.

5 years 1month and 16 days free from heroin. Living life again.

This man kinda looks like an older Tupac Shakur

This story was extremely from the heart, what a good dude. If you’re reading this man, if you fall off the wagon ever or anything, it happens. Don’t look at this video as “hypocritical” or anything! Seriously inspiring. Almost cried.

This guy is so sweet ..Poor guy breaks my heart to see people broken up because of this evil thing

I’ve watched this video several times and on a day like today, just after a slip, the power of Jeff’s words are what I need now. Thank you Jeff for so eloquently describing the process you’ve gone through. You encourage me that I can do it too. Peace and Love.

Damn that was really good. So so proud of you and how far you've come! That's amazing. Towards the end really hit me cuz even tho the substances are different and we have totally different lives...through this horrifically painful and devastating path..the only thing that's kept me here is that it's shown me what I do have passion for...And it's people like myself...even through complete self hatred and self destruction,I know when I've tried asking for help or when things happened to me that shouldn't have, it's shown me what I want to change in the world, even in one person's life...it's humbled me entirely, to the core. I've never been judgemental,but I have more empathy than I even did before. Toward any one suffering and struggling with mental illness and addiction of any kind, I've been through so much in my life that I feel like there's no point but I keep saying IF I can get out of this...I know what I need to do. And who I want to fight for, and who I wanna be a life line to. Because you can see yourself in others and I want to be that someone that I've helplessly cried for thinking there's no way out and I still do a lot of the time. But I really relate to that....I have multiple co occurring issues going on and I don't know how I'm still here honestly but I know if I can do this, then I will have found my voice,and can carry out my true passion...it's taken a lot of reflection, all my life I thought I couldn't do any thing and I had no skills or drive...But maybe for some of us we have to go through hell over and over and realise that we can be some thing, some thing so powerful and we can save other people... I always knew I wanted to help people but now looking over the last 10-15 years, I know exactly how I want to help..And there are so many ways that I could.. if I can just figure this all out. Thank you for sharing your story, and also helping me hang on a little bit longer. 💜💜💜

Currently trying to come off of a relapse. I’m panicked, scared, paranoid. But trying to get through it by telling myself to have hope.

Thank you for sharing and I'm so glad I ran into this story !! This has been so helpful to me and I'm sure has helped many others ....your a great man and I applaud you for coming forward and I'm sure life has gotten 100 times better for you !!

Thank you. Your story has inspired me. I appreciate your honesty and speaking from the heart.

You've really helped me sir- thank you.

Story was soo powerful, thank you for sharing and stay strong brotha you da man

His such an elegant man! Is incredible u never know who is doing what! I’m glad he is out of that!

What an amazing testimony, I hear Jeff completely. It's tough because we convict ourselves first and then those who find out convict us too. The destruction of oneself takes us to hell, but we can get out. God bless you Jeff and everyone who hears this message.

Great video. Keep uploading more videos like this please. Thank you~!

Thank for sharing your story .keep your head up

Thank you Jeff for sharing your story

Year clean this April was tough but my will is tougher with each day

You are a symbol of strength and hope .. I've never done drugs but Meth is becoming a big problem here in New Zealand.. I guess I'm trying to learn about it .. thanks for sharing your story

Thank you so much for sharing this. It’s a godsend

An inspiring story - beautifully told with deep authenticity

A well spoken man dealing with his problem😮

Nice, nice honest man.

Fantastic. Listening well done continue on your amazing journey

Thank you for your story. Reminds me of just how hard it must’ve been for someone I once knew.

Well done man!!!😊

Keep your head up bro. You very brave for this confession that will help others. God bless you.

Thank you for sharing. There is hope , im hoping .

Way to go Jeff! Incredible story

This was truly beautiful and inspiring. Im currently in recovery having quit meth myself. Wish i could hug you. Stay resilient and i will do the same myself. Thanks for sharing your story this was great to watch and take in :)

This is a Courageous Awesome Testimony. It is very encouraging. Many people undoubtedly will be helped and saved by this. Thank You Sir.

Wow very inspiring story ☺️

Good job Man! Stayed prayed up sober! GOD IS GOOD🙌🏾🫶🏾

Identical. God bless you buddy. 💯🙏🏼

Thank you for your courage!!!!

i feel so ashamed that i let myself try meth in a moment of self hatred. at the time, i was declaring war on my body, i had nothing no hope in the world. nobody around me could handle the truth ab my use, i hated everything about being awake. im 3 days clean third time i've tried quitting, because i want to wake up and love life again

powerful, thank you!

I relapsed this weekend and it was terrible! And the hyper aggressive sex made it worse! Some days I want to die and others I’m myself, I’m tired of this cycle

Godbless you for sharing your journey❤

His story reminds me of how Whitney Houston was able to hide her drug addiction for many years until it unfortunately took her life

Amazing story✅

bless you man

Moving, very moving, God bless brother.

you are a good man JEFF.

I think he was Tupac

What a amazing Guy. Good luck to him in life

I wanna quit powdered cocaine so this is giving me hope I have a hole through my septum in my nose because of how much I've done in the past 4 years and I'm only 23 so my New year's resolution this year is to get clean...

Thought I was Kobe Bryant for a second on the thumbnail😅 a good story though❤❤

Good stuff buddy hopefully I can get were u are soon because the pain hurts to bad

Very inspiring

I'm only 17 months into my daily coke habit and yea, I completely understand the suicidal ideation and thinking it is the way out. I've attempted 3 solid times this year alone. January 5th I shot myself in the head with my favorite 9mm pistol. June 1st I held a police officer at gunpoint begging his fellows to kill me for 33 minutes. The 3rd attempt I cannot put into words here. I understand. I really do 😢

I was addicted to coke for 6 years. I tried quitting many times, took antidepressants, called my family, my friends, asked them not to let me out of home for a week or so , but then I would always relapse. But I never gave up trying to quit. It was a 2 year very tough journey, with suicidal thoughts, but I never gave up trying to quit. At every relapse, at every 2 days awake without sleep followed by profound remorse and despair and lack of hope and concern , at every depressive paranoia awake at 2:00 pm, despite all that I never gave up quitting. One day, for some reason I simply quit all together and I’ve been sober for 5 years, got a good job recently and I love my girlfriend more than everything in life cause she never gave up on me . Don’t quit trying . If you’re down now coming back from a crazy night and depression is creeping in , let it feel the pain , feel it , it sucks but let it feel , the anxiety , the panic , let it come , it will eventually go away . But never give up trying to quit . Many many many many people do it ! And life is so damn good

I got cravings for it now I been 6 days clean

Tupac

First I most congratulations to all of you who are sober now. Rehab and recovery are one day at a time. sometimes it can be baby steps. If you want to get clean you must change who you are around and hang with. You can't hang with the same people who you would get high with.when addicts who are recovering substitute one for another anything that will keep your mind are hands busy. if you relapse don't come down on yourself. you can be clean for yrs. and one day something happens and you relapse. don't give up, try it again.

It’s been a year since the vid…I hope ur still clean Jeff! If not, there’s nothing stopping u from starting again except ur mind! Best wishes.

Imagine if Chris Burrous decided to get help and get clean. He might still be here today and maybe share his testimony like this man

I tried cocaine a few times when I was in my early 20s. It made me want to be still, quiet, and take a nap. I didn’t see the appeal (thankfully!). Years later I was diagnosed with ADHD. Stimulants don’t give me that euphoric feeling.

If you are reading this comment after a relapse, please know that you haven't failed, it's all part of the process. But it’s up to you to keep moving forward, and you can and will get out of this hell, just keep trying. You're so worth it to me. You're so lovable.

So inspiring

He's really fine

Your a top man

So how do we go about helping those that are obviously using. What do we do? Any suggestions? I have tried offering rehab and told the person it would be our secret. But he denied it. I say I love you snd want you better. Still nothing. Do I check this person in a hospital? Not sure what I can offer to help. What is the 12 step program???HELP…

Wonder where he at now

Love you 😕⭐️👏🏾🤴🏿

thought this was diamond city/ good neighbour at first.

I've had my family that has passed on my mind all day especially my brother that was on meth he tried to run from some very people there was only one person knew where he was at! Same one that was hid out with him! The only one that left to get drinks snacks and more drugs. They paid her alot of money to give him a bag. Which she did not touch she told him she going home to bathe. He made it to a friend's house about dead. I never forget the hurt my mom and rest family went through The Doctors told us this was no overdose.this was meant to kill him! It crystallized every organ in his body, it was a slow painful death! you go in his hosp room.. it was a oder, that would take one breath! No one could stay for very long in his room. The stint was awful I don't understand how it could happen he said he could tell by the color if it was meth or it had bad stuff in it! When he smoked it! Anyway! I got to get back to bed for work in a few hours I just want to say I'll be praying for all those who have an addiction no matter what there is not one addiction any better then the other! Not judging, just want to pray for each of you! And the family we suffer too!

Is this tupac

Trying to get off flakka everyday I relapse the day time I'm king of the city at night when I come down I be very sad

I never was a consistent meth user but I did it at least once or twice a month back in 2018 from fall all the way to Christmas. It started hurting my chest. As long as I don't do it anymore I'll be okay right? Or should I tell a doctor about it?

Idk if it’s just me but his facial expressions his mannerisms to the way he speaks, it resembles Tupac. Even at first glance he looks like it from his left eye to the cheek bones etc. I know it doesn’t look like him that’s prolly the point. I see it, do you? Or is it me?

2 years today clean ... lsd helped me ... sounds stupid but I had a major problem... someone recommended lsd for addiction and I tripped for 2 days straight... never looked back ... I was using crack and coke ... got a grip of it and feel better... if anyone reading this needs advice it’s lsd for the mind and spirt

Wow!!

Never been on any class a drugs ever just been through depression that’s all. Good luck though.

Every night when I lay down to go to bed I crave cocaine so bad and I wish the cravings would stop even though I haven’t done coke in 7 years. I just need to write it down on here and get it out of my head because I don’t really have anyone to talk to about it… Been thinking about going to meetings again… but it’s really hard to deal with

My name is Jeff!

Damn!

I call myself a functional crackhead and i hate myself

2pac a life?

What a great man and interview, I really hope many youngsters can watch this to empower them that there is more in life to live for than destroying themselves with drugs. Amen 🙏

The one thing that's kept me away from "stuff" is dealing with the mindsets of addicts . . . I can't and I won't. One of my ex was a coke addict (who got off of heroin in the 70s, got on coke in the 80s (insane), the other weed head (would act totally stupid if he could not get a hit) BOTH would act crazy as hell, them and all their friends. People who don't wash, people who talk crazy and itchy. These people aren't bad people, just in a bad way.

What it smell like?

Wish i was a meth addict instead of having to battle depression for so many years.

A functions addict😮for a while

Tupac back!

“I’m not that person shooting up, so I smoked it” no, you are that person

I am a fragrance addict. I buy a pile of fragrances from online, fed ex arrives, boom I hear that box hit my doorstep and I was asleep. I open that door, open the box, and rip that plastic off a fragrance box, spray that sucker on my arm and take a big ol snort wiff like a giant line of coke on my arm. Ah ,,, and its like a super light version of doing coke. Oh man the first time that new fragrance hits your nose and brain, oh my gosh it might just be a banger! Sometimes its amazing. Sometimes it sucks! You dont always know which adds to the anticipation. After the first time Ive smelled it, I still like it, but that whole first run is the shyt man.. It just knocks my head off.face-green-smiling

Niga is that 2pac?😅🤷🏾‍♂️