I met God (on shrooms)! 

My experience was similar in that I saw shapes and patterns initially, but later it took the shape of a floating eye hovering right in front of me oscillating between brilliant turquoise and copper. I swore it wasn’t my third eye opening, haha, because I am massively skeptical. However, the next morning I walked to the lake and watched the sunrise, and watching that sun come up was one of the most beautiful moments in my life. I immediately felt connected, not just to nature, but to all of humanity past and present…and I came away deeply impacted. I swear…whether it was spiritual or chemical- it makes no difference, because the net result was a peace of mind that has forever changed me. I hope to have the opportunity again someday.

Well done :D This is one of the bravest videos you have ever done. It's never easy to talk about things where you are still processing what you have learned - and it's certainly given you lots to think about! Thanks for sharing in such vulnerability. Oh and you are not 'nothing' or 'nobody' or 'worthless'. You have helped more people than you can possibly imagine, and also helped others (like me) to help others in their turn. I don't call that worthless :D

For anyone thinking of doing this, never ever go cold turkey off any type of medication without speaking to your physician beforehand. There are really terrible side effects some of which can kill you. Be safe. Be smart. It’s incredibly risky to make medication adjustments on your own especially depending upon how much you are on and what type.

This was very interesting to watch. I'm a fellow atheist, but have also experienced energy in different forms around me. I no longer hold tight to militant atheism. I think I needed that at a time in my life when I was separating myself from Christianity and the God of the Bible. I'm much more open to spiritual experiences. Mainly I find those when I go out alone to hike in Mother Nature. I feel very connected and rejuvenated being outside. If you decide to share more, I'm here for it! I think modern society took us away from natural remedies and now we are getting back to them.

Thank you Lloyd for sharing with us viewers. Sounds like you had an awesome trip.

Absolutely incredible. Being raised to believe the dead are dead makes it hard to understand how people can possibly think they talked to the spirit of a loved one, for example. However, I’ve had that experience and still haven’t shaken it. Thanks for sharing.

Sounds like a spiritual awakening Lloyd. Buckle up! It's a joyous beautiful but painful ride!

I was so happy to see this title! I'm an EXJW who followed you for some time now. I've done big doses of Psilocybin (It is legal in my country) I have had many profound experiences, including meeting and speaking with an entity who used my voice to communicate (instead of calling her god, she was my higher self). She reprimanded me left and right on all my life choices.

While i don't use shrooms or anything, I enjoy meditation and i can feel the world around me and the life of everything. Even looking at the sky i can feel it especially at night. I'm an Ex-Jw pagan witch ♥️ much love & light whatever path you go on in life.

I clicked on this so fast 🤣 I'm so glad you got to experience this!

My heart goes out to Lloyd and anyone else needing to take anti-depressants of any kind. Personally, I haven't known a bad day in so long that videos like this reminds me that I must truly count my blessings!!!

Happy for you Lloyd, I hope your spiritual journey continues on with richness and Grace

And that's how the book of Revelation was written 😆😆

I'm glad you did this. IFS therapy helped me to understand that those conversations on shrooms with other consciousness are actually parts. Psilocybin helped me a lot.

Hi Lloyd! As an ex JW/ atheist I've also had profound mushroom experiences where I saw dragons that felt truly other worldy, very strange. It really did feel truly paranormal, as if I was seeing demons. I don't believe it was truly an otherworldly experience, regardless of how it felt. In part this is thanks to a book I read called "The Believing Brain" by Dr. Michael Shermer. I'd highly recommend reading it yourself, or anybody else who has had such experiences, it helped me escape the cult years ago and also helped me process what I experienced on that trip. Glad I had read the book before taking them.

This is amazing, so happy for you Lloyd! I’ve had similar experiences on my trips and integrating is the hardest part, thank you for what you do

Let’s chat if you’re interested, my uncle is at bethel, my grandfather was an elder and died because he refused a blood transfusion. My entire family was fractured and destroyed by JW. I’d love to share my story.

I can speak a bit about this topic. I’m an exjw who’s had a lot of psychedelic experiences. Around 30 lsd trips, around 10 shroom trips (two of which were heroic), and around 30-40 DMT trips. I’m an agnostic atheist right now but my experiences have opened me up to the possibility that reality has a lot more going on than we realize. More importantly, I am so much more aware of my own feelings and the experience of others

Woohoo!!🙌🏻 Religion is living someone else's belief or story. Spirituality is your unique personal story. Wonderful new beginnings await you Loyd ❤

I remember being on shrooms in the middle of Saskatchewan and looking up i never seen the milky way so clearly. I remember purples and blues. It was the most amazing.

After my experience with it, I was able to respond to my JW mother’s “come back to Jehovah” commands with “I never left God and God never left me.” She was dumbfounded for a while until she remembered to accuse me of having demons. I ended the conversation then because being accused of being an evil person or of having demons violates my boundaries. Plus, it’s just plain rude.

I was also atheist coming out of the JWs. I had several mushroom trips and was convinced very quickly there's much more out there than we can process. Glad you had this experience Lloyd.

Well done Lloyd!! As an ex JW i have worked a lot with plant medicines and they have helped alot with healing from the JW indoctrination. Mushrooms and Ayahuasca have been the most life changing!!

I did a lot of neo-shamanic rituals on mushrooms in my twenties. It's natural to see the mushroom fairies as angels, demons, or gods. I did for several years. I saw them as angels initially. Interestingly, I was taking care of schizophrenics at the time. I once hung out with the most amazing schizophrenic man I ever knew coming down from a trip. Ultimately, it may just be neurochemistry. My personal take is that the mushrooms shift our awareness to a place where we can see into another dimension. The inorganic creatures you met are a transdimentional hive like collective consciousness. They are made of pure energy. They are actually more like a different species of being than an agent of divinity. This doesn't negate the value of the experience in the slightest. The mushroom fairies are incredibly insightful and love to teach. Matter is tremendously energy dense. They are simply energy. We give off a lot of "heat" which they essentially charge themselves with. I have some of their energy and they have some of mine. In their dimension that makes us "family". The important thing, which if you spend enough time with them you will discover, is that they are not divinity. Worship and adoration, as well as fear feeds them. So they like to make us think they are angelic or divine. I think they are the origin of the trickster gods. I highly recommend you watch Terrance McKenna videos concerning mushrooms. I have had similar struggles to your own, and psychedelic experiences have been central towards my healing. The wisdom and insight can set you free. I just want you to understand they are a species of inorganic being. They don't know the origin of reality any more than we do. Their consciousness is far deeper and more profound than ours, however. I know that's a lot. Welcome to the family. My time out there with the mushroom fairies were the most important experiences I have ever had. Glad you had a top notch guide. I wish you the best on your journey. I would interpret "you are the suffering" to mean that "your suffering is a consequence of the position of your consciousness." You are not responsible for all human suffering. Humanity as a whole is responsible for human suffering. The past several years I have been meditating (with the Headspace app) and studying Buddhism. The Buddhist perspective is very helpful for healing suffering and understanding the psychedelic experience. The Heart of the Buddha's Teaching by Thich Nhat Hahn is the perfect place to start contemplating Buddhism.

After 150 LSD trips and lots of weird dreams, I have concluded after 74 years of life that if none of them persist being true in normal wakefulness, that these are not in any way real and can be disregarded as indicating anything true about life!! All they can teach you is what you already knew but hadn't fully realized before!

Hi Lloyd! Thank you for your channel. I’m from Fresno Ca, we just had our first Psychedelic Summit here. I grew up JW and my family are still in the religion. I’m more spiritually inclined, and I’d like to hear more about your journey. Something I’ve been doing to deconstruct my JW beliefs is reading the book Sapiens on human evolution, creation stories from other cultures, and just generally looking at human history from an objective point of view. But life can only be lived subjectively. Your experience is valid, and you are not alone. The Inner Work by Mat & Ash has also been very helpful to me. All the best, - Eryn

5:30 I don't understand if your main perspective is to help Jehovah's witnesses who are waking up. They are already fearful. Why would they want to listen to you after you experience such a mind-altering substance? I think it's kind of selfish of you to take that avenue of hope of them waking up away from them

I took shrooms a couple years after leaving the cult (multiple times) and theyve completely changed my life. The first time i did it i felt absolutely divine, etheral. Visually it was beautiful, i felt like i had regained my childlike sense of wonder. But spiritually and internally i felt like my years of brain fog due to depression lifted. I started crying and smiling , talking. My partner had said he hadnt seen me smile like that in awhile (i was dealing with the passing of a family member as well.) I felt within my body again, in love with life. I recommend it to everyone and anyone.

While shrooms are far from the ideal way to this discovery, I''m still so relieved you've joined spirit at last! Religion is for people afraid to go to hell. Spirituality is for those who've already been there 😊 and you can never let go of it once you've discovered we are all actually God. Personally it was experiencing telepathy a few times that opened my mind and heart to the possibility of a power outside the known universe.

I'll never do psychedelics, too terrified since my mental health isn't great already. Some say it helps, I'm skeptical. Maybe too skeptical. I'm reminded of the Tony Soprano scene where he did peyote and ended up using the experience for evil. In any event I'm a lucid dreamer and the stuff i experience (yes, lots about JWs) is crazy enough for me. At least if i get too uncomfortable i can wake myself up. I can't imagine being in a trip that's inescapable for hours.

At 4:15 you called your SSRI anti-depressant medication a "serotonin inhibitor," but it's almost the opposite to that. It's a selective serotonin REUPTAKE inhibitor. This means it inhibits the reuptake of serotonin, so you have a lot more serotonin levels available in your brain. Imagine an SSRI as putting a plug into the bathtub. It doesn't speed up or slow down the tap. It just stops the water from going down the drain. An SSRI has a similar effect. It just allows you to hold on to your naturally produced serotonin for longer.

Congratulations! You have touched the spark... AKA you had a peak behind the vail. You can't go back now...

Thank you so much for being vulnerable and sharing your experience. It’s amazing seeing other people have spiritual experiences (I’ve had my own, as well). I thought I’d be an atheist for life when I left JW at 22 (raised in the religion) but found my true God ten years later. I hope to hear more about your journey with your spirituality!

Thank you for sharing your experience Lloyd. You are an extremely intelligent and dynamic individual. It's good to see that you have become more open-minded to things that are not always explainable. I've had several experiences with a non-verbal presence that showed me interesting things I could never have imagined on my own and gave me a feeling of being loved.

This "we are all actually god" makes no sense to me. God is usually defined as a seperate entity, with supernatural powers and optionally created the universe and may or may not answer prayers and interceded in human lives and events in the world. This reminds me of pantheism, wherein god is redefined as the whole universe, or perhaps the laws of nature. In which case, what is the word for the seperate conscious supernatural entity who answers prayers; the one most theists believe in? It's just playing fast and loose with semantics to call the universe god. We already have a word for the universe "UNIVERSE". Likewise with the human race. We are not all god by any conventional definition of god. We are collectively the human race. We didn't create the planet or the universe. We can't listen telepathically to anyones prayers or do anything supernatural to intervene. How is it helpful or meaningful, to redefine the word 'god' as a synonym for the human race? I've had many an acid or mushroom trip. The sense that I was god never occurred. But I can appreciate it may happen INSIDE THE MIND of the person tripping. I could always reason that these experiences were not objective. The only thing present other than my brain/mind is the substance effecting it. I know the molecule psilocybin doesn't have a mind of its own. It isn't a god. Ergo, the only conscious entities present (other than other people) are myself and the ones I'm imagining. All this demonstrates is what the mind is capable of doing. Hallucinogens definitely unlock something the mind is capable of doing, but it's not part of objective reality, nor external to the mind.

Wow! I’m so glad you shared, and look forward to hearing more of your journey. Glad to see and hear you’re doing well, Lloyd. ❤

You are a very honest man able to say "I don't know" when you don't but also able to be opened on possibilities... I am admirative of that!

I’m happy for you, and I’m glad that you’re so willing to be vulnerable on this public platform.

What Strain mate? Could it be from the Hawaiian cyanescens, the potent magic mushrooms of the Panaeolus cyanescens family, showcased by an Übermensch?”

Psychedelics can be healing, but they can also generate a lot of confusion. Be careful

In 2016 I started experiencing all kinds of weird symptoms of some sort like shocks in my body and dizziness and forgetfulness. Things kept progressing. In 2017 I was diagnosed with a fatal disorder will a life expectancy if I was lucky of 10 years. I didn't know what to do but I had remembered in 2016 when I started experiencing some symptoms I came across someone that just happened to have some shrooms and I decided why not. It was the first time in about 2 months that I had any relief in the shocks that I was having throughout my whole body. They want to wait for about 9 days. So I decided to give myself a dose of shrooms once a month for 3 months. I have zero symptoms for I think around 9 months. I did another dose I think it was a year before I had any more occurrences and took another dose and gone. It does a complete reset and gives you a whole other perspective. I recommended this to people that have MS and depression.

Nature is here to help us get back into ourselves. And you need you, Lloyd. Soooo excited & also felt so warm you had the chance to experience this :') We are nothing yet we are something & what you experienced is sooo damn logic. Nothing scary or mystic about it, just plain greatness & love. I want to keep on writing more but I stop haha Saving this video to check more comments from others with similar experiences because it's truly about yourself, your higher self, love, light.

Haha I never expected you to try shrooms and you came to Canada?! Would have been awesome meeting you! Anyways posting this vid must have taken a lot of time and energy just to finally sot down and talk to the camera about your experiences, I applaud your efforts. 7 grams?! I couldn’t even begin to imagine doing that much! My first time I ended up taking only 1 gram around friends and family at night. My most memorable parts of my trip were: •I became extremely productive at the beginning doing a bunch of housework. •Ended up going on a 14 minute sprint (when I previously couldn’t even do more then 1 sober due to my asthma) •Had a deep connection with my environment while running and walking outside •crying while laughing on the floor because of seeing my BIL new haircut (he was previously hiding it under his hat) •my mind and body wasn’t held back by my autism, intense anxiety and depression •it also helped me take big steps towards getting over my car crash (it was previously destroying my mental health) I hope and want to plan on going through taking a large amount like you have and taking the steps you were put through to see what can unlock in my brain. Thank you for this video and sharing some of your experience 🙏

the brain is fooled very very easily

Hi Lloyd! You (and other apostates) helped me and my wife to leave the cult JW. This was way before the ”Lloyd scandals” and this mushroom video. Im not so sure you are sending the right signals to PIMIQ with these kind of videos. If your maingoal is to help people leave the cult you should take into consideration that they most likely still are brainwashed and need educational videos and more ”sushi” type of videos to start question their believes.

Hi Lloyd, just another Canadian here who cares about you. I am so happy to hear you are opening your mind to the possibility of God. RU-vid is full of people's stories of meeting God or being transported to the next life. Some are near death experiences. Next Level Soul channel has really opened my mind to what could be.

Hey Lloyd. Very long time. Great to see you looking well and questioning the nature of things. I've had the experience you describe as well, and I've come to feel we are the Universe looking at itself -- "we are God". So glad you're feeling better because of it. I've practiced mindfulness meditation for going on 6 years now and it has a very similar impact once you get the hang of it (though not so intense). That might be something you want to look into. Take care and be well!

Whatever you end up making of this, I'm glad for you to have had the experience. I don't know how much interest you have in near death experience accounts or what you think their possible metaphysical implications are, but just reading those and listening to experiences like yours (which I think can be of a similar nature regardless of the means by which the transcendent experience is reached) have enriched my life and sense of being, sense of something more real than me as I perceive myself. It has given me a much better outlook on life and removed most of my death anxiety. This video reminds me of this NDE where someone, I forget who, finds himself in a void with all these pinpoints of light. Being an atheist or at least agnostic, he asks the question "Does God exist?" to which each dot answers something different. I think the word "God" is a placeholder for whatever limitless ineffable something it represents. And so it is beyond the idea of existence vs no existence.

Please don't take this as a personal attack. I experimented with drugs after leaving the org so I totally understand why you would experiment with it too and want to share your experiences. However, I think a video like this harms your cause. I used to share your videos with questioning JWs. Now I don't think I can do that anymore. If I share one of your videos with a JW they won't listen to your message and just scream "see everyone who leaves Jehovah ruins their lives with drugs, sex and pleasures of the flesh!!" Although I enjoyed hearing your experience and gave the video a thumbs up I'm begging you to remove this so that questioning JWs will not be scared away from your content.

I'm glad you're finding yourself, man. That's all any of us need to be concerned about anyway. I feel I've "grown up" watching your videos and you've helped me so much. Hell. You just about pioneered the way for Exjw activists on RU-vid and social media. Whether or not you actually met glob, the epiphany you had that we're all insignificant is absolutely true. I had the same one on shrooms when I was about 15. Keep on your journey brother, whatever you do ill always watch your vids and be rooting for you :)

You mentioned that you wanted to do some additional research in philosophy and spirituality. I highly recommend Alan Watts, he was a great communicator of spiritual philosophy and metaphysics. I also consider myself an atheist, but with a "spiritual" appreciation of existence and human experience. I found him a great resource to understanding the non-duality of reality without the baggage of religious concepts and dogma. You can find all kinds of lectures of Alan Watts online, and he wrote a lot of good books as well.

We are all One. Happy New Year, Lloyd.

Good luck on your journey Lloyd! I'd been reading "trip reports" for decades before I tried mushrooms and my experiences were in line with that I'd noticed in the reports: no truly new information. The insights you have while on a mushroom trip are things you really know already but don't spend enough time thinking about. What I've been looking for in all those reports is something that the person on the trip *couldn't* know - new knowledge. If there really was an external entity, I expect this entity could give you this. The experience is profound - the euphoria and the loss of a sense of self, making you feel like "self" is the whole universe, this is something I wish more people could see for themselves. But I couldn't find a god there. Also, there was an interesting study where people were given psychedelics and some were given placebos. Turns out some among the placebo group reported all the experiences of a trip and thought they were on psychedelics. It's pretty amazing that apparently some people don't need anything extra to walk around having deeply profound experiences. Perhaps this is how some religions got started.

I really enjoyed hearing your perspective on this Lloyd. As it happens the first video of yours I watched was your pillowgate rebuttal whilst on my first LSD trip in 2018. Not exactly how I’d choose to spend a trip now, no offence 😂 My exit from Jehovah’s Witnesses and subsequent entry into the world of psychedelics, philosophy and most importantly, gruelling therapy sessions with a professional psychologist have fundamentally shifted the tone of my life from seemingly bottomless depression and suicidal ideation to genuine happiness even in the face of some trying personal challenges and childhood issues. I’d love the chance to chat with you about it sometime if that would be interesting to you. I have been privileged enough to have reasonable experience with a range of psychedelics. I don’t have the answers to deeper questions, I’m just a guy, but if a friendly conversation appeals to you, let me know. I wish you well on your continued journey into the fascinating world of your own mind.

Happy new year ❤😊❤

This is one of your best videos yet! ❤ Love watching you be so in touch with yourself and your listeners! ❤🥰 💞

In all my years of going to the KH I have never heard or I can’t remember them reading or explaining psalms 86:2 when Jesus said “l have said, Ye are gods; and all of you are children of the most High. When you mentioned God responded back to you in your voice it reminded me of the Scripture above.

I pray for you man….. whatever you decide to believe we totally love you man. Thank you for helping me wake up and helping so many others. Let’s get to 120,000 subs. Go Lloyd!!!

This is so interesting! Thanks so much for sharing this Lloyd. I have recently been reading about mushrooms and how they can help people with their trauma. I’m glad you had a good experience!

Been following you since 2010/2011. In 2012I had a 7 gram experience while disfellowshipped and it was the most spiritual experience of my life!

Hello Lloyd, thank you for posting this and being so honest with your experience. I found it very interesting and I think you've been quite brave to post this when some of your audience might be a bit uncomfortable with the content. I really appreciated your open minded (yet not too open minded) view of your experience. I'm personally very interested in this type of experience and I find it especialy interesting when athiests/critical people have them. I'd love if you'd ever choose to share anything more. I'm glad to hear you're feeling better, I hope things continue to improve for you in the year ahead. Really agree with you on the state of mental health care, and fascinated with your thoughts on the mushrooms.

Lloyd - by all means take mushrooms and enjoy the trip. I've read that certain natural ​Hallucinogens can actually be beneficial for mental health. So definitely go for it. But please don't lose your critical thinking faculties along the way.

Your experience is totally valid. Mine was after leaving the organization and marrying my "worldy" much older husband. I had a caffine crash that mimiced a meth addicts withdraw. I wound up in the hospital because k couldnt feel my body. I was seeinf everything in black and white and sometimes all green. I remember everything was like a badly dubbed chinese movie where mouths were moving and two minutes later the audio would come. I was exceptionally scared. I thought i was on the brink of death for a week and would cry every minute of the day. I would sleep and wake up and start crying. My body ached. My husband came out later and said he thought about putting me in a clinic to get help. Both of us were praying. The weird thing is we were both sober and a voice spoke in my head and i was like whoa did you hear that. And my husband said it sounded like someone say im here. For the next week we would have experiences of my husband having missing time for hours because God was speaking through him and he was consistantly speaking about himself as 3rd person like it was normal. When my husband did remember bits of it he said he felt like there was a voice in his head and the voice would speak in my head and finish sentences through my husbands mouth. It was the same voice. We both felt God was in his 20s doing the dishes because that was the sound we would hear and my husband would also start doing the dishes at the house that we were at. A week before this i asked God to reveal himself if he was real because i was tired of suffering. My withdrawl symptoms lasted for about 2 weeks. Weve talked about the experience for a few years. We even had an angel visit us sitting where my husband was on the couch and speaking through him. He told me i wasnt going to die and im like dont be stupid it happens to everyone. The angel got angry and aaid your not going to die because i said so. Then there was this circulation of air and my parents didnt have air conditioner in their house and the ceiling fan wasnt on. The only thing i can think of for the sudden ghust of wind was his wings taking off in flight and a beam of energy flew through my body making me sober instantly. Every feeling of the withdrawl left emedietly and my husband and i sobbed on the couch for a few hours. The whole experience was so wild and i learned how we were all connected and we have files in our heads that God can use at any time to help heal other people if you didnt know the information. He can retrieve it all in a second. I was taken along the ride with him like i was living 2 realities at once. But i remember the whole encounter like it was yesterday. I had left the organization for two years up to that point and never had an experience in the organization like that. So your experience is completly valid. Thank you for sharing.

Happy for you pursuing something that makes you feel better.

Doing mushrooms is what the Bible is about. That is why the Jewish priests wore mushroom looking hats. And they were called High Priests, Same as Catholic Cardinals dress like the amanita muscaria mushrooms

I’m happy for you Lloyd, don’t stop healing, don’t stop your search.

Thank you so much for sharing this. You are definitely not alone in your experience.

Things like this are suspected of how some splinter groups of cults or religions have started up.

Bravo Lloyd 🎉 great video thankyou . I'm happy for you, Lloyd and so delighted that you had a great experience. Yes!!❤❤

Regular microdosing psilocybin is known to have beneficial effects for depression. A full dose done properly can be therapeutic for cluster headaches and it's a lot of fun.

Oh and I am an ex Jehovah's witnesses as well. Through the divorce of my parents, in 1990. I discovered you through a myth vision podcast last week and I've been watching some of your podcast ever since. You side that I'm not familiar with. I have some interesting experiences in the past that are troubling. Although since 2018 I have to say that I think that they are involved with me secretly. I still am not aware of their intentions although I do hope that they are good. One thing I can say is I wish that I would have been taught the ways of man. In 2018 I woke up to a world that I did not know and I've been fighting it ever since, in a spiritual warfare. It's been absolutely amazing and completely horrifying at the same time. I still have not been able to fully function as to the norm of everyday society. Everyday I have not just one but a few voices/spirit/demons I communicate with. And the things I see and feel are something I can't tell in a comment.

You are really cool 😎 Lloyd. I love your videos ❤ Watching you grow and change over the years has been both fascinating and beautiful 🌟 Happy New Year

That's sad! Stick to the mushrooms you can eat.😢

Religion, atheism, politics… all paradigms handed to you on a silver platter by this construct. It doesn’t care which 1 you choose, just pick 1. Going within is the only way out. Shrooms help speed up the process.

For f***'s sake , Lloyd

Interesting experience! Thanks for sharing 🤗

So, while I am a deconstructed Christian who is completely unchurched and do not consider myself to be at all "religious" these days, I've also never felt that I could really refer to myself as an atheist. Although I no longer feel that my former religion, or any religion, has a thing like "The Truth", I've never been able to shake the feeling that life is somehow, if not eternal, at least goes beyond our current understanding of consciousness. I've never done mushrooms (would be very open to the experience!), but I am an epileptic. My seizures are well controlled now with medication (haven't had any for years now), but when I was having them, they would always start out in a rather "ecstac" state; that is to say, there have been points at which I've felt like I was in the presence of God (for lack of a better label). Of course, right after that feeling of being in the presence of the divine, I was then overtaken by the seizure becoming global and knowing no more until I regained un-epileptic consciousness (quite the comedown going from "I am about to know all bc I am in the presence of God!", to struggling with what my own birth date is and where, precisely in space, I am 😂). I have this very infant theory that, eventually, humanity will evolve far enough to realize that what we currently think of as God or the divine, is merely a higher level of our consciousness or the natural world. I suspect it will have something to do with quantum physics, but I haven't figured out the details. 😂 🤔

From a hardcore atheist with years of experience with Psilocybe mushrooms, that also have had "entheogenic" experiencies with "god" or "transcendence", I'm happy to know that you had that kind conscience expanding experience. I'm still a convinced hardcore atheist. 🙂

i have read a lot about other people's psychedelic trips and they all sound very much like all the visions that are recorded in the bible, i am quite sure thats what happened back then and i dont think that there is any more to it. explains a lot for me haha

I appreciate your sharing of this experience. I've been interested and researching this type of thing for almost half a year now, since I left the JW's a couple of years ago, I still feel like an infant in my journey of trying to understand spirituality. I left the witnesses as a staunch atheist, and while I don't have or want to have any religious affiliation, I do feel like even those of us the most convinced there is no god, would acknowledge that there is some innate desire for something to revere - A greater plane or existence, I don't know. I plan on moving to Denver Co. This year, and it happens to be decriminalized there, so I will likely cultivate my own and have my first experiences with it, then

Lloyd, mahalo for sharing your experience. Whatever happened is true for you, for however long it lasts. Everyone is on their own journey…but as I like to remind myself, “We are all alone in this together.” I’m happy for you that you got to peak into something greater than yourself, and at the same time, the truth being in the paradox, you got to see yourself. Very interesting about the “suffering makes it real” thought as well. Part of the human experience is that we get it all: the ups, downs, and inbetweens. Suffering is somewhere on that spectrum of life experience, and it can be an amazing teacher. Without it we cannot become capable of compassion, nor receive the humanity of others as they reach with loving arms to gift us when we suffer, for there would be no cause to focus energy toward. There’s no rationalizing anything on these deeper levels, just accepting them, accepting what we cannot fully put into words once we put the veil of understanding back over our face after we “awaken” from a trip like the one you took. And that’s okay. I hope your introspective journey continues, and I appreciate you taking the time to share.🤙

I don't know, Lloyd. It sounds to me like you decided to quit the medication that a doctor prescribed to balance your brain chemistry so you could get stoned, then hallucinated a god you still wanted to believe in. A god who only speaks to you when you are high--is such a god better than one who only speaks through a bunch of old farts in Brooklyn? How wise is this, and how wise is posting a video about it? You have just handed your critics a huge gift. I'm not against you, Lloyd. Overall I respect you and the good you have done to the ex-JW community, but I think that lately you have made some poor decisions. I hope that this does not come back to bite you with respect to your family.

I understand this so deeply! And I am so happy to see this side of you!

Hi Lloyd. I am an ex JW turned spiritualist person not in the same old religious way we were taught in the organization. When I heard you say you could hear your own voice in your head I too have had that experience, but through mediation only. I believe the voucher heard your soul or your higher self talking to you. I believe our souls and higher selves are the bridge to communicate with the divine, including God himself. Something which as JW's we were taught was never possible or allowed. When I first discovered this I was upset and angry with the Jw's for misleading people as they have been doing. Then I realized that many religion's make their way of worship the be all and end all of your access to God and the divine. Now I worship God in my own way and the fact that I know God loves me even if I never set foot in a church brings me comfort. I just want to to say I'm glad you have exposed the deep inner workings of the Jw's as it helps x JWs who are thinking of returning think twice before making that mistake.

How does he know it was a God?? Anyone can say that.

One of my NLP trainers now also provides these sessions. I’ve been considering ayahuasca before, but might join her session with shrooms one day

I’ve done it also, hero dose and had the same experience… turns out it was me talking out loud to my thinking voice basically

Interesting! I think many people have experiences that are somewhat similar to what you are describing (relating to another consciousness) at least once in their life. In my opinion the lacmus test for the "reality" of any "spiritual experience" is if it somehow makes us less ego-driven, more relaxed and more compassionate towards others. If not it is just a fancy and interesting experience, which is totally ok, too.

Ooh my God Lloyd you are very honest person i have eve met..May you feel better us you wish ..

Good for you! I’m all for mushrooms 🍄 and the legalization of them.

I have experienced something very similar to this, on a different drug. The experience for me was not conversational, in that I was not speaking to God and so I didn't get the privilege of discussing anything. I certainly felt like I was God, and everything else was God too. After all, if there is a God, and if that God is omnipresent, what wouldn't be God? I felt that it was the most objective insight I ever had, and it did lead me away from atheism, but it does not have to lead you anywhere in particular. You do you, as the saying goes. I could go on forever about it but my purpose in writing this comment was to say how happy I am that you have experienced that. I hope it brings you the meaning in life that it has brought me. Feel free to reach out in what way you can and if I may be so bold as to recommend someone - Alan Watts helped me navigate those experiences the most.

People when drugs alter their perception of reality 😱😱😱

10:42 have you ever heard of ”parts work”? I first experienced it via NLP and it shows we have different parts within ourselves. Like a board room with board members there who manage us. You can get in touch with these parts within ourselves and get valuable insights in how you work, what drives you, what believes lead you, ...

Glad you are feeling good ❤

Lloyd, I definitely want to see you happy! It's great to hear that you are feeling better and opening your consciousness to new things. I believe we are consciousness at play... Some people call it god-consciousness. The flower of Life is a cool concept... Where we started as a single cell that wanted to get to know itself so it replicated so it could look at itself... And it just kept replicating to experience more and understand more. That brings me peace.

I love that your sharing love you always Lloyd ❤️

Happy for you Lloyd! I have also recently dipped my toes into the psilocybin world and have enjoyed a positive mental shift. Would love to hear more of your thoughts on this in future videos as you progress through your journey. Cheers!

Hi LLoyd, I feel for you, I struggle with these same things too. Just be carefull though please, I have had MANY direct mind to mind telepathic conversations with pot plants & other inanimate objects while on certain substances. these conversations are more direct thought to thought or direct consious transfer as opposed to words & are profoundly meaningful in feeling. If it was God I was talking to & not pot plants I would definately invest alot of myself into the experience, but I know it can happen with anything. Im not trying to break anything here, just relaying my experience as youve shared yours with us. I love your work, I am one of the many born in oppressed pimos. Cheers Travis.

I can definitely see a change. Youre positively glowing.

So glad you have decided to engage in medicine work for healing. I am xjw was in for 26 years I've been out for 27. I have been a trauma therapist for 27 years. I am now a psychedelic support specialist. How about that for an ex JW😂