I'm a straight woman, and from my experience, a lot of people in Southern California have many options, and when they can have a variety, they don't want to commit to one person. Commitment happens when the dating pool is small.
The title hit hard. I often wish I was straight too, because we are terrible to each other when it comes to dating. And btw, i woukd absolutely ask you out on a date.
Heterosexual people treat each other no differently, the dating scene and hookup culture overall in general is terrible. There's no need to shame yourself for not fitting into Christofascist societal norms. Love yourself and Love will come to you.
@@rosevidalita Thank you for saying this. That grass definitely ain't any greener girl! Almost every straight couple I know that has been together for years don't even have sex anymore. Screaming kids, no time for yourself. There are so so many downsides to what they have to go through... We all got our own struggles 😮💨
I genuinely love how honest and genuine you seem. I hope you don't feel awkward with.. you coming off as awkward but I think it feels like an ACTUAL vlog. But as for dating, It's such a combination of things. I want a genuine relationship that feels like a relationship, movie nights, dates, buying gifts for each other, etc.. But it's also hookup culture and along with that is a lack of communication. Leading people on for months is apparently less effort than being honest about what you want [obvious sarcasm] but its also hard to be outwardly queer in conservative states. Obviously it's okay if people want to have sex with each other, but the thing is that make it clear that you only want hook ups so you aren't wasting other peoples time, you know? I'm 20 and I don't label my sexuality, but I do like,, whatever sex/gender, and i've been in so many LDRs and have had like,, 4 irl relationships and it like,, sucks. Off topic to that, YOU ARE SO GORGEOUS MAN!! Everything you bought looked so fitting on you and compliments you heavily
This! Love how I can relate too. I just wish we lived in a different culture… the men I assume are into me, are just screwing other men and can’t commit… I’m gay, demisexual and I’m over Grindr. That’s the worst app ever. Too many fakes and flakes, it’s having me just go to give up. (Sorry, it’s not fun)
@@susanstorm7910 And adding to that, I still live with my parents because I'm having trouble with finding my own place and such - so even when it comes to apps such as Tindr, or Grindr, and such, I just can't really use them to the fullest if that makes sense But, for advice, you shouldn't let those things steer you away from dating or wanting to find someone. I'm sure the right one will come to you with time, just know you aren't alone in this situation and people do want more than sex. You'll get something in return man, I promise you
Please never censor yourself or your honest opinions even if you think they might be unpopular or controversial! I think a lot of people feel this way but don't want to say anything because others might think they are "slut shaming." At the end of the day, everyone just wants to love and be loved, and since sex has become so commodified and transactional, especially within the gay community, it's very hard to actually connect with people and build a real relationship. I'm so glad you started this channel, please keep speaking from the heart and encouraging candid conversations! ❤
You won’t be lonely forever. NOT a celebrity like you! I’ve dealt with the same feelings of resenting gay culture while also being magnetized to it. I mean, there are sweaty men there and we all like that but that’s not where you find love. It comes when you basically stop thinking about it. I’ve been married a year and a half and can barely remember life before we met sometimes.
Often times love finds you when you are least expecting it. It is so important that you are working on yourself! All that time and energy that you are spending working on yourself will pay off. You will attract someone who is worthy of your time and affection.
hi vitaly, i understand completely within being in a conservative state and being lesbian, ive been bullied for it majority of my life since middle school and thankfully im graduated and 18 next week. i love your content from your main and personal channels and you always make me interested and smile within your videos. never give up. 💕
Какой потрясающий влог, мы очень скучали, влоги, как раньше, с прогулками и своими мыслями, как всегда супер-искренне! Ты, главное, не отчаивайся, ты обязательно найдёшь своего человека в жизни! Спасибо за этот влог, Легенда-Виталян, мы в ожидании следующего) Как здорово, что ты вернулся! Мы тебя любим❤
Hi Vitaly! Listening to your stories about dating and I can completely understand your frustration and pessimism as I also live here in LA and many of my friends struggle finding their someone too. But you are so young and have such a great head on your shoulders and a good heart. Don't give up and never settle for less than you're worth. I've been with my now husband for fifteen wonderful and monogamous years. We love, respect and support one another. If it happened for us, it will happen for you. Thank you for sharing and good job getting out of your comfort zone.
Living in Chicago, not quite like LA, I have to say that the gay community with men in particular is similar in some ways. It doesn’t seem as hard as it is in LA, but as a woman who has mostly gay male friends, they have such a difficult time finding commitment in other men. When you talked about wanting to feel actually in love and to feel loved, I mean that’s universal. I think most people feel that way at some point. But you are also so young still, I have no doubt you will find someone. Have you thought of dating long distance? I mean finding someone in the US? Make a connection online and really fall in love? Maybe then move them down to LA.. hey you never know! Oh my love I hope you find someone special!! I’ll be putting those vibes out there.
I feel what you say about dating. I never hooked up, I wasn't quite good with human interactions and still learning. I am pro polyamory, but I'm also wishing for a couple dynamic, no other partners involved, no cheating, no open couple. For me. The only relationship I ever had was toxic and it started with the best of intentions. I don't think you have to give up, but I understand the struggle. The best thing we can hope for is to always have someone that loves us, regardless of the kind of relationship. Hookup culture comes with a lot of ignorance and lack emotional intelligence, so please don't feel like you're wrong, ever. You might question your principles, but don't gaslight yourself into bending for others' tastes.
Hi Vitaly, You are not alone in this. I'm 53 and going thru the very same feeling and emotions as you. It is frustrating, but yes! Take care of yourself, focus on you and hopefully gate will come thru and before you know it your with someone who really loves and cares for you as much as you do them. Keep us posted, stay safe of course and never give up on love. Yours truly, Russ
I understand what you mean by living in a parallel universe watching men and women date. I'm envious of how easy it is for females to date the hetro men that I'll never have a chance with. Constant torture 💔
And by the way, although im an LA native, ive lived in multiple big cities in the U.S. and from my experience gay men are the same no matter where you live.
I understand your point. What I see is that gay people from Eastern Europe (let’s also include the Balkans, Türkiye, and the Caucasus) are not openly out in their own countries. When they come to the States, they are often surprised by how prevalent hookup culture is. People from those countries are mostly raised with traditional values, where there is a family with parents and children. Even though they are gay, they usually have the urge to continue the traditional family structure. Being gay shouldn’t clash with creating a family. They often seek same-sex relationships that resemble the traditional straight relationships they have seen throughout their lives, which is extremely understandable because that is what they have been exposed to. This is not the case in the US. I don’t know if I expressed what I have in my mind in the best way. However, I’m sure you understand what I’m trying to say.
You can not compare hetero to homo... there is nothing wrong with being gay. Now if we stop listening to those who constantly tell us that we are unnatural I say stfu
You can still find gay guys that want a more "traditional" structure in their lives. But guys like that are probably harder to find in LA for sure, but I think that's the case in most big cities.
whatt im gay in Russia and it is almost impossible to find a partner for a relationship everyone here is looking for one night sexx and that’s all, probably friendship but it’s like ‘don’t you dare to say anything about relationship’ cause omg there are too many other yammy gay guys, why focus on one guy, they want to taste them all, this is their typical mindset i think it’s common for gays throughout the world, even in ‘traditional’ countries
Dating sucks for eveyone now and days especially for the gay community. I am struggling myself, but I deserve something good and I hope it will find me one day. I am not willing to settle for less and I know my patience will be worth it.
I put the video on pause, just a few moments in, to post this... I spent much of my younger life (growing up in North Wales ) wondering if I would ever meet my Prince Charming. I am thankful to say that after many years of kissing many 'frogs' , I was lucky enough to find my soulmate... and over 20 years later, we are still together. if it could happen to me, it can happen to you... and usually when you least expect it x
Gay culture is similar everywhere, focusing on yourself is the best thing you can do for now. Dating and life also has no formula you know. However loving yourself is enough, another person doesn't complete you, they compliment you. You will find your own groove. 😘
I also went through this when I was 26. I'm straight. I found someone who was ready for an adult relationship I realize now because he was 13 years older and had hit the wall. He had been around that track enough times at age 39 when i met him to know he wanted a fresh young thing. I was young and I was with him til he died for 27 years. He's been dead 5 years and it's the best thing that happened to me. Relationships aren't important with family like mine and a loser and a user like that who really needs enemies. I was brainwashed into thinking I needed someone. But I would have been better off alone. Now I have dogs. I'm finally happy. ❤ it sounds like you have an anxious attachment style. Look it up on wiki i also recommend a book on the topic called Attached the new science of adult attachment by amir levine
you're not the problem , You shouldn't have to like what everyone else likes, culture is different in many places. If culture is superficial it doesn't mean you're wrong for not being it. I know it can feel lonely to have to choose between the options of adapting yourself to what is available in your context or just having to wait for a person who thinks like you or have the same values. But I promise it's worth it and they exist ! my context is very different, but this is something my friends and I talk about a lot. We live in a city in México that it's particularly catholic and conservative . As a nonbinary person I usually present myself as a woman , and since I started dating as an adult between 18-21, I felt I had to adapt my identity or my values just so I could get into relationships with men . That meant being more femenine, or superficial, or dropping the idea I had of a relationship where , like you say , I wanted someone to actually see me for me , respect me , care for me , and feel enough confortable and safe to do the same and truly give my love. Fortunately after that period of time I could meet people in college who think like me, and that also criticize that superficiality / mysoginy and seek for deeper interactions. Now I have a partner that is also My friend , actually love / care for , and has the same level of sensibility that I do In conclusion I know culture/society/capitalism/(whatever You name it) has a twisted perception of love and relationships, and It's usually minorities that suffer the most of it as what we seek already trascends those values of cis/heterosexuality, but there are always people who are besides that ! The only way to find them is looking for them and having clear that what You feel / want is always valid You shouldn't have to be straight just because You want to experience intimacy, I'm not sure why gay hookup culture works like that , but that it's just one of many options people should have Algo sorry if this came of really intense haha but I just felt really moved and truly hope you for the Best , I always watch your videos and they Make me so happy, I started listening to Tokio hotel because of You. Thank You legend , and You Will see everything works out for you !
I’m new to both of your channels and love your content. But this channel specifically is so refreshing cause it reminds me of the OG RU-vid when people were just sitting in front of a camera and talking. It’s awkward and vulnerable and funny and genuine, I hope LA doesn’t change you!
I don’t wanna be the person to say it but I really believe gay dating for men is so difficult because we are talking about men... I think men tend to be less responsible than women and women provide a lot of support and stability to a relationship, if you think about it, women hold a lot of power when it comes to the dynamics of a relationship and they hold a lot of the ‘no’s’. ( I am talking about healthy, normal relationships, yes there are men that are abusers and don’t understand boundaries but I am talking about most cases of normal behaving men ). When you remove that, you’re left with men who don’t have the same sense of responsibility anymore because there isn’t that balancing force anymore. For example, straight men have less sex because there are higher things at stake, such as having children which are a huge responsibility especially for women so the women are the ones controlling this aspect. Gay men tend to be more promiscuous because they don’t have to worry about that. I also think the idea of ‘liberation’ has gone a bit too far, at this point it also feels like rebelling for the sake of rebelling, not to actually achieve something. Hookup culture is way too normalized with gay men to their own detriment because a lot of them feel the same way as we do but when the culture we live in keeps promoting this idea that ‘sex means nothing’ they feel like this is how things should be and all the things traditionalists say are bad and are meant to oppress which is just not the case with everything. I also think it depends on the place you are in, some places such as LA are more like that than others. I do think there is a problem with the gay community but whenever you express it, you’re called self hating and that you’re internalizing homophobia which is just not true, you’re simply seeing what works and what doesn’t. I think gay people have been oppressed for so long that we don’t yet know how to have healthy and normal relationships, but by only being honest with the mess in our own house we can move forward because self sabotage is real, and it’s not always the straights harming us. Sometimes it’s ourselves. This is a HUGE conversation that I could go on for hours because there’s so many perspectives to take in account but I just put forward a few ideas. My english is also not the best.
No its changed, it was totally different before the rise of the internet and the apps. You wanted to meet someone you had to leave your house and meet people and have them see your face and talk to people. Men now hide behind the phone. I now see your penis before I see your face, asking for a face people seems to upset some men, they feel a nice looking cock is all I really need and all he needs to show me.
There's always a reason that can be seen only in hindsight, I mean that the universe has a plan for you and part of it is the journey you take on the way that allows you to be in the right place at the right time for the right person. You are gorgeous, intelligent, well-spoken, fit, and seem fun and interesting to be around. You have a lot to offer, and someone is going to be lucky in love with you one day. This part of your journey to that place. It is hard nowadays, there is no doubt. It can feel hopeless. Keep being you and doing you, your time will come. ❤
Honestly, when I saw your first video on this page something just gravitated me towards you! Maybe it’s the nostalgia you bring? Or your amazing down to earth personality? But I’m here for it king! Really enjoyed this video and can’t wait to see more from you! Hope you and yours are happy and healthy! Love you 🤟🏽❤️💕🧿
I was born in the Czech Republic, so I understand the Slavic comment. But honestly what you describe is like everywhere. Here in Miami it's the same thing. But honestly even the straight world is not so different when it comes to dating. I understand what you mean by traditional values. Not many are raised that way anymore.
Vitaly to a mannequin: "J'adore myself... as you should, legend. As you should." Your little slightly nervous giggle is adorable. As we'd say in the ye olde MySpace days - Ur a qt3.14 XD (cutie pi) Also, your skin is glowing, utterly RADIANT 😮 Looking forward to coming back and finishing the vlog
You also have to consider that so many of us are damaged from not having the typical childhoods replaced with shame instead of love and acceptance. It's definately a harder climb to find someone in a population of maybe 1-2% and then to have to mesh with that person not only emotionally but sexually. That old saying, "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger" holds but it does killl many of us by suicide and now by disease. Emotionally many of us never grow up until our physical desirability limits our chances for connection. Too many of us are still trying to be 20 something at 40 something. And lastly let's not forget our incredibly high expectations of physical perfection.
Don't worry Vitaly, dating in LA, even as a straight man, is impossible. I was born and raised here, I've never had luck with landing dates. Never been in a relationship, despite this city being so freaking massive. Stay strong!!
…at 26, you have time to follow your interests and your values, be they related to your career (work) or hobbies… enjoy being in touch with yourself for a while… learn who YOU are… get comfortable with YOU living in LA … 🥰
You will never find someone until you love yourself and you are secure with yourself. If you don’t trust someone or vice-versa your odds of having a long lasting relationship decrease and it’s not healthy for at all. You are a very handsome, articulate and talented kid. Just make yourself happy and prioritize what truly makes you happy, your person will be in front of you at the right time.
privyet vitaly! Seeing this side of your life is very refreshing and hearing you say you are excited to do this vlog channel made me happy! I hope you keep it up. ^_^ I'm sorry the dating game isn't going so well, I think its mediocre all over. I am near LA and maybe young people have been hurt so they are out to hurt others in retaliation. who knows... I have had to deal with a lot of nonsense as well.
You will know that a relationship is worth pursuing when they make you a priority in their life. Any other situation might result in a few pleasurable encounters but you can be sure they are not really into you.
Hey vitaly, love watching your y2k videos. My first video I watched of yours was Lina Morgana being sacrificed. Just wanted to let you know I’m also Russian, I’m from Arkhangelsk and I’m also gay too. I’ve been dating my boyfriend since April this year!
I love you taking us with you on walks around LA🤩 I have never been there and I live in Europe so it really feels interesting to see how it looks around there! I hope you continue sharing this type of videos with us🥰
Remember when it comes to gay dating, there’s a lot of trauma that affects dating, it’s hard for people to be comfortable with being actually close due to fear of rejection. You’ll date many that maybe like or want to date you but can’t sustain a long term relationship. It’s also the case that you may have trauma when you do meet someone who is ready for what you want and you many have a hard time doing it! Just make sure also that you work on validating yourself that you yourself are enough to be ready when someone healthy comes along 💜💜
you are so handsome and your voice is just.. amazing. LA can be very superficial so I can imagine the dating sucks. I grew up and live in miami and its the same here!
I’ve pretty much accepted the fact that I might be single forever. I live in NYC and dating here takes way too much time and energy. I’m LGBT, but I’m starting to distance myself from the “community” to be honest. I’m a conservative person and the scene isn’t for me anymore.
A conservative gay dude in NYC? You need to move to Dallas or somewhere in Florida haha you'll have more luck there, even if you find a good guy to date, if he has strong political opinions that oppose yours, it will be harder to make it last.
I am so sad to hear that you feel lonely and all that you're going through. Anyone would be lucky to take you on a date! Don't give up though, continue to focus on you and things will come. As far as getting too into the love game, I think a lot of us do that. I was never good at keeping my friends when I had a new boyfriend. ALL my time was spent on them, and then we'd break up and I'd be like "where my friends at?" It's a balance that takes a lot of time to figure out. To be honest, I've been with my partner for over 12 years now and any time I'm not with him or out with friends, all I want to do is get back home to him - and put on pajama pants of course. I'm still figuring it out myself :)
i totally get the “i wish i were straight thing”. i absolutely love being a lesbian but my love life is DEAD and sometimes i just wish to at least just have a fling with a girl, whilst men keep asking me out🫠 which makes me think if i were into them id def have something, or at least some entertainment
I'm over 60. When I was young I thought it would be great and easy if I were gorgeous like you. I felt to inferior. Gays that say, no fats, no fems etc.... I'm not overweight but I am effeminate. I can't do anything about it. It was very painful for years. The fear of rejection stopped me inless I was drinking. Now I'm old so don't bother with grindr etc.. Over the years I've observed how so many very pretty guys suffer and are so insecure. I'm confident with who I am but took a long time. New Cloths look good on you.
16:23 I agree it’s so rare anymore to find love in this gay culture. I’ve never had a relationship ever and I don’t know if I ever will. Time is so fucking cruel and I’m almost 29 and have never had a kiss with a man let alone been in love. Everyone around me in this small town that is gay only wants to hook up and be one and done. I completely understand what you mean when you say you just want to fall in love and have the chance and time to fall in love with someone. To be completely vulnerable with someone and give yourself completely to them and have them do the same for you! Unfortunately, I don’t love myself enough either to have this happen. I’m working on it and trying to accept who I am and love myself also getting counseling. It’s hard though and I feel as though when I finally get the chance to love someone it will be too late. Maybe I’m just meant to be alone, as much as that shatters my heart saying that! Thanks for being so open and honest with us! I feel like there’s more of us out there stuck in the same boat! 🤟🏽❤️💕🧿
You just described perfectly how I feel, I am going through the exact same situation, I just don't get why most men in the gay community have to be so promiscuous, not all of them but it is true that it is quite difficult to find someone with conservative values who believes and wants a romantic relationship. To some, it may sound contradictory, but conservative gay men do exist.
I think we all wish something in our life was different but we all have our issues. Try to focus on the positives, and what you are grateful for, eg you are an attractive, young guy with your life ahead of you. Much love x
I'm 27 gay male, live in the UK, it is exactly the same. I have never been in a relationship either. Just know you're not alone, there are many of us out there who would like a normal monogamous relationship but struggle to find one. I have realised recently I am more pansexual, not attracted to cis women but I find trans men and non-binary people attractive too and have found they can be more emotionally intelligent and can be more relationship focused, so I have been exploring that more recently as cis men just seem to be a dead end and only good for hookups lol.
So proud of you breaking through and stepping out of your comfort zone. I love to see it. Living for this content, Keep it up , I’m enjoying these vlog type vids I’m subbed here too now!
Me too! All my straight friends are all married with kids and I’m the single one, but don’t give up. You’ll find your guy, it’ll happen when it occurs. You’re a good human, never give up hope. You got this!
Also!!! No one is judging! You rock the emo! Two patterns is NOT too much, put that hoodie with that T-shirt AND some striped pants. That's also emo culture lol
Honestly, the straight dating scene isn't all that great either 😂 Hookup culture is a big issue too, especially with men. I feel like nowadays, finding actual love seems to be even more of a rarity.
Honestly, the two prints match! They've both got romantic bones vibes, and I like how the pink glow peeks out of the unzipped hoodie like a hidden heart.
Vitaly ❤ really u stollen my feelings 😢 same thing im also experienced in my life being a south asian and western world there is no differences. All people are looking for only short term pleasures perhaps mostly are bi also.
Ugh... I remember those feelings well even though that was a lifetime ago. It's hard and we've all been there. So, just take your time and do what you need to and try to keep the paranoia and anxiety under control. Easier said, I know, right? You've got wit, charm and great looks but most of all a beautiful and genuine soul. Don't lose that.
Don't compare yourself with others, it will only make you sadder. Maybe you're still single because you have to explore yourself. And hey 26 is nothing, I'm 43 and feel like 20. It's all in our head.
Thank you for sharing with us. You seem like such a fun guy who wants a genuine human connection. I know your person will find you and give you the love you deserve.
Dear handsome Vitaly, you'll find love when you least expect it! And understand that each experience makes you stronger and even more beautiful. Lots of respect and love from Rotterdam in the Netherlands 🙏🏻✅🩷
Love your honesty and your humility. Please keep up your amazing attitude! Don't forget that forever doesn't happen all at once. Love is patient, and love is kind. Love is surrounding you without you even knowing it because you are already loved by so many here. Keep that in your head and in your heart. You're such an inspiration to many. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Peace, my friend.
I don’t have a solution but every single thing you said I heavily related to!!! Single for so long, losing hope, getting really caught up when I like someone, etc. Esp at 30 now, I do feel like I’d have love by now if I was straight. It sucks idk. Good luck superstar 💖
Just when I thought I couldnt love and adore you any more you go shoppping and make this video. You are one of the most loveable creators on youtube/people in this world!!. I normally hate haul videos and I actually watched this (and wanted to) and loved it. You are going to get so big I hope you are able to stay humble because you really are a diamond in the ruff.
Bless you I totally understand your situation, same for me in London. Not many people want to commit and invest time and energy in just one person. In 2001 I was in LA West Hollywood staying with my Dads ex Girl Friend. I met a guy a bit older than me but yet again he was a player and I took my broken heart to the dance floor for a while!! I'm sure you will meet someone quality in time. John x
Aww, Vitaly...I love that you want a relationship and want someone to love and to love you. 🥰 That is so sweet. You deserve to find someone. 🙂 You're not alone in your feelings. 💛 I like you're new channel. Glad you made it!
you dont have to be lonely as a gay person. i promise. try to meet people through hobbies and shared interests where you can actually really connect as people, where you can make real friends. if you are talking to shallow people in shallow situations, like dating app or bars, sure, you went to the circus, you got the clowns. ive met my long term partners in online communities for different interests by being genuine. if you have hangout spots or events in your irl area related to your interests, use those. even libraries can be ways to meet interesting people, they might have weekly events and things like that. ive never been on a dating app so nobody would ever find me there, if they were looking for a person like me. anyway, fun shirts you bought, looks great on you. i really understand the feeling of looking starry-eyed at these shops and items we couldnt have access to when we were kids/teens in different countries. im happy for you that you can treat your inner myspace teen :) i also had similar experiences when i went to another country. finally i could see all these things in real life that i had admired in photos, and go buy things i could never buy before. but as an adult im more aware to the effect these mass-produced items have on underpaid workers and on our environment, so i limit myself from buying much if its not thrifted, but just looking and taking photos is fun too.
yes dating in the gay community is terrible! I gave up also and all of 27 i didn't talk to anyone and just focused on myself and now being 28 i feel a bit more ready to try again
More vitaly!!!!😊 I could feel your nervous laughter and wish I could go shopping with you! You remind me of my gay bff who passed away 😢 thats not a bad thing as he was amazing and charasmatic!💯🙏💅 XO LEGEND 💯✌️💖
Don’t worry? It’ll come to you when you least expect it. I met my husband in a cruise alley. And we were together for five years. Your not bitter. You have a big heart. Don’t do apps you’ll never find it there. Find yourself first. “B-happy😊.
Bro, gay culture sucks. My partner and I get along with straight guys other than gay guys. The big thing I’ve found is it’s hard to even have gay friends because there is the underlying tension of sex. A lot of my gay acquaintances are all friends with each other and they’ve all had sex with each other. Like, it’s hard to even just hang out with gay guys because there is the eventual expectation of sleeping with each other. I’m not a saint but the hookup culture is so engrained that I feel like it supersedes everything in the gay world and it makes it so difficult to have friends and relationships in the gay culture
I heard a study seeing we change our preferences many times along our life. It did for me and I’m 39. 40 next may. I feel that it’s best to just be calm, not stress about it. Not get embarrassed or overwhelmed or feel guilty for what we like along the way. In all legalities of course 🩷
I'm a straight woman, living in Washington DC and dating here is BS too. 28 years old.. it's difficult to find someone i like that likes me back enough to commit. Perhaps it's me and the "vibes" i give off.. I'm pretty much at the point of giving up. It's very difficult to not take it personally, so I think right now it's not healthy for me. Plus the emotional stress is distracting me from my goals.. it's just difficult to be approaching thirty and fearful that I won't find someone.
