I've Just Been Coping | Story 2 

Salsa Recipe: This is supposed to be a copycat recipe of a restaurant I’m obsessed with in my area. I got the recipe shown in this video online but I have since obtained the actual recipe from the owner of the straunt so I’ll tell you both; 6 Tomatos 2 Yellow Onions 1-2 Jalapeños (depending on how spicy u like) 3 Fresh Garlic Cloves Some fresh cilantro Juice from 1/2 a Lime 1 TBS of Salt 1/2 TBS pepper 1 tsp cumin 1 tsp chilli powder Broil the veggies until blackened, blend all ingredients in a blender :) The actual recipe is way more simple; Skip the fresh garlic, lime juice, and seasonings. Just do salt and pepper. I actually prefer it this way 🤤

The "wild Jaime" transitions are everything.

Feel like the venomous snake is the perfect metaphor of letting toxic people go. Hang in there, I can tell you’ve got a lot of people who love you in your life ❤️

I am a surgical tech, specifically in open-heart surgery. I think all of 2020 and 2021 as the years I spent surviving and not living (I also worked in Minneapolis during the George Floyd riots/protests). I relied heavily on folks like you for an escape from everything; I am so glad you’re at a point where you’re doing what fuels your soul and allows for rest. Ambiguous grief is what I carry after getting divorced, especially when others are getting married. I hope you know you’re allowed to rest and do what you want to be doing; know the work you put out absolutely matters and makes life less worse in times of grief and burnout; keep on keepin on Jaime, I’m loving this chill and vulnerable channel ❤️

Can we all just appreciate the ASMR that's added into these? 👏🏾 You're always going the extra mile. I hope you're able to get some good rest. 🙏🏾

Jaime, it is such a privilege to be let in on these visceral glimpses of your story. This channel, so far, is capturing the beauty and the grief of healing. Amazing ❤️

My therapist once told me if you don’t take time to rest, your body will force you to rest (usually in the form of getting sick). I have also read “if you do not make time for your health you will be forced to make time for your illness.” I say this because you are an extremely hard worker and it can be so easy to forget to watch out for the signs your body gives when you need to slow down and rest. Be well, friend 😌

It feels like I'm watching a mini movie. Like an artistic Netflix series of your life. Everything about it is calming! The music, transitions, and filter (at least I think there's filters).

The “bring on the rain” cover though 🥺🥺 that song defined years of my adolescence and you sang it beyond beautifully. Love this!

I feel such an air of stress and possible depression in some of these clips sometimes and I just want to give you the biggest hug and tell you how great you are doing. Of course I love the smiles and laughs that I see too which remind me that there’s a lot of happiness there as well. I love you and your videos and I’m proud of you ❤️

How you kept trying to help the snake, to keep it safe while ignoring multiple warning signs telling you that it's YOU who are in danger BECAUSE of the snake you're trying to save... That's some deep stuff right there

My daughter has left home and we don't speak. I'm destroyed by it. I understand grieving someone that's still alive. Thank you for mentioning ambiguous grief. I had no idea that was a thing.

I really enjoy this channel and the more personal view you’re giving us. Also I love when you sing!

The doggo drinking water, absolutely poetic ✨🙏🏼

It's a great day when Jaime posts! Edited to add: You know, Jaime, we love you and your content so much. But you do work so dang hard. If you can tell that you are just worn to the bone, you have every right to take time off. Like, as much as you need. We'll miss you, but we'll be here for you when you return. I hope that you remember that you can do that.

Proud of you Jaime for feeling hard feelings and not avoiding them. This is the healthiest way to deal with difficult emotions. Sitting in an uncomfortable space until you are really done feeling that, instead of shoving them down or pushing them away. Much love

Your honest human perspective coupled with a curated eye for cinematography and musical accompaniment will always keep me watching. Thanks JF ♡

My Dad has been estranged from my siblings and I since I was about 9, and we have a semi relationship now, but nothing like I wish it was, I still hear certain songs, movie quotes, or smells that remind me of him, and it gets me sad all over again, but all I can do is make sure as an almost 33 year old wife and mother, is to not make his same mistakes, and never let my children or husband down.

My father just passed away 3 weeks ago. We hadn't had a relationship for many years. He was a lifelong alcoholic and verbally/ mentally abusive. Grief is so hard to predict how it'll affect you and can be different day to day. It's been hard but a part of me feels relief because maybe his soul is finally at peace...something I couldn't make happen and had to quit trying to make happen. Hugs to you Jaime... grief sucks no matter if the person is alive or not.

Every time I leave my bird and cone back he’s so cranky and defiant. I think it’s their way of telling us their pissed we left them. Sensitive little creatures

I’m glad you’re talking about ambiguous grief. I learned this term after my daughter had a stroke in 2017 at age 6 and her personality changed so much afterwards. It feels like I’m raising a different child. Anyway, ambiguous grief is absolutely what I feel and it encompasses so many different situations! Thank you for talking about this complicated emotion and I’m sorry you’re experiencing it. ❤️

Jaime I know this is only the second video, but I swear this channel is quickly become my FAVORITE thing ever! You are absolutely gorgeous! I hope you peace, love and health! And some time to wind down and relax.

You are worthy. Even if "family" can't see it. In spite of their treatment, YOU are worthy. Always.

Ambiguous grief. That’s what I’ve been going through for so long. I feel like I can relate. I had a friend that I have lost touch with(it’s such a long story it makes no sense still no closure). And I miss her so much. I want to cry just thinking about it. And all I can do is pray. I feel like I’ve connected with you for some reason with that

Thank you for being so real & giving something I went through a name. Ambiguous Grief. My mom had undiagnosed dementia she ended up having strokes & should've died but survived almost 3yrs not knowing who we were or where she was. I never got emotional closure on that & when she passed away it was hard to mourn, the person who passed wasn't the same person that was my mother. Thanks for giving my grief a name.

As a workaholic, I'm constantly reminding myself that sometimes it's ok just "doing nothing." Never feel guilty for those quiet moments of rest or play. 😌

My mom was attacked by "family" members and thrown in jail (unjustly obviously, but it was so weird) by the attackers the day before my grandma was also murdered by these same "family " members. This was almost 2 years ago now. Dealing with grief in general on top of ambiguous grief from losing family in any way that was involved with the wrongful assult and murder has been hard. Even when I've tried to smooth things over I get told I'm "being too sensitive" by one of the ex-family members. It's been so hard. Thanks for giving me the space to share that. 💜

I spent all of 2021 in that state of grief over finally letting go of my (still alive) father. After 40 years of mistreatment, sometimes you just have to do the hard thing in order to heal and get to a better place. I'm sorry you're experiencing it as well.. but you're right, sometimes relationships w/ family just don't work out. I think it's really really REALLY healthy when someone can admit that and make a move to better their own mental wellbeing. Love and hugs. 🤗🤗

Thank you for the "ambiguous grief" definition. I've needed to hear that for years

It’s literally boring and unoriginal at this point to say you’re so talented, these vlogs are so good, I’m obsessed blah blah blah, but like…. I can’t even. SO GOOD. your honesty and vulnerability and just insane level of talent are so incredible.

I can’t believe the amount of work you put into these, like the scenes of you walking past the camera or up to it… you or someone had to put that there, so you walk back and forth to get a damn shot… that’s so much effort. We love you and we want you to take care of yourself.

"'I feel betrayed' why did I teach you that sentence?" LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL BECAUSE you're living some semblance of my life...

I loved all the vulnerability and honesty but your Hootie impersonation got me right in the nostalgia.

I didn’t think you could be more likable but hearing from you on the vlogs and lives has made me like you even more. You’re very humble and kind.

I love your “stories”, I’m really enjoying the variety of your content now. I really do relate to the ongoing struggle of ambiguous grief. At 17 I was forced to give birth and relinquish my baby to adoption and have never been the same since the trauma.

I am happy to know that there is a real term for this version of grief. I know grief all to well I lost my parents literally back to back. Within months of each other. And that about killed me. Mentally I stopped. I made it through because my best friend had the same situation I was in a year before me. So she guided me through that. And now, I grieve her. Because we have parted ways. So she is alive, and 2.3 miles from my home but we no longer speak. 8/15/22 will be 1 year since we spoke. And I haven’t understood this grief feeling. But I have went through some of the steps, of normal grief, with loosing that friendship. And now, I know this is ambiguous grief. Thank you.

Something about these vlogs make me feel so validated. We are constantly viewing the polished, perfect versions of those around us on social media, and we forget that those very people have bad days, sad moments, and just feel blah just like we do. Thank you for making these videos, I really enjoy seeing this side of my fave RU-vidr! 💖

Ambiguous grief.. hmmm. Perfectly describes my feelings about my dad and his side of the family....

Have you ever looked into CPTSD and the various types of triggers there are? The ambiguous grief you describe sounds a lot like an “emotional flashback.” You even say the word triggered. Might make sense of some things. Also wanted to mention that grief can come from any loss. Not just loss of life but also loss of relationships. Loss of childhood. Loss of a job even. It comes in all shades and you are totally valid for feeling the way you do. My heart goes out to you, I love your personality and values and hope to see your continued success, you’ve been working so hard for quite a long time, you deserve it! ❤️

First time hearing the term "ambiguous loss," but sooo helpful and relatable. Three years ago I gave my dad the choice to either seek help for his issues or lose contact with me and my family, and he chose the latter by default. Doesn't believe in therapy and all THAT. I totally can relate to your waves of grief over things that trigger memories (paint, snakes). I still experience those waves, but I read this quote by a psychologist who studied how to heal from ambiguous loss, and they said, "Grief is love, looking for a home." And suggested that folks funnel the love they had reserved for the absent person elsewhere: into others, or art, or a cause they're passionate about. Hoping that your waves of ambiguous loss become gentler over time, and that we can both fill those spaces with other people and activities that make us feel whole.

I totally feel you on the grief that comes from the rejection and abandonment by a loved one. You can't beg for affection or attention, it's so hurtful to you and inevitably you figure out they just don't care. I'm sorry you are going through that. I had to mentally put my Dad in a hot air balloon and let him go. The ambiguous grief is real though.

I feel this grief so much. I am grieving the loss of my brother and father who chose not to be in my life. And I thought I didn't care. 😢 Feelings come up. It hurts. Its reality. There's nothing I can do but feel the emotions. But yeah, that pain I'm going through right now... ❤

Just know you're also not alone trying to find work life balance. I'm a full time mom with 3 children, one of whom has special needs. I homeschool and also take care of all doctor appointments and therapy visits during the day. I'm now having to return to a fast food job to help make ends meet and pay off debt. I feel so embarrassed working fast food as a 32 year old when all my coworkers will be teens. I miss my kids at night when I'm at work. It's all hard.

I am loving this channel, sis. Thanks for being who you are, so relatable and lovely.

I lost my mom to Alzheimer's but it took a long, long time. She was lost to us, my "mother' was gone, but there was still this grace filled being left behind. Grieving while she was still around felt wrong. My grief when she finally passed felt wrong. Ambiguous is the perfect description. And you missed the obvious signs of danger, but you were smart enough to walk away once you realized the situation with the snake. I hope that you can allow yourself to walk away from the relationship that ended. Don't beat yourself up for not seeing it coming. Just know that you are safe & doing the ok'est you can.

I'm sorry Jaime, I'm having the same thing with my brother and I appreciate the term "ambiguous grief" it sucks and feels shitty.

The workaholism of being a YT'er feels like the 9-5 for me. I spend more time with my coworkers than my family, and I'm a remote worker. I can't even imagine having to film, write a script, keep the brand deals straight. You're doing an amazing job.

Ambiguous grief… explains my relationship with my mother. My granny raised me. I feel for you. Praying you’re doing better since this was last year. ❤ lots of love - I feel like we’re close friends. Your channel is my absolute favorite. You’re so talented, with your film, your singing, your editing, your comedy, even your makeup & clothing aesthetic. You’re awesome, Jaime! ❤❤❤ I hope we get to meet one day.😁

Healing from trauma is no joke. And I don’t know if it’s possible to fully heal and feel a-okay or when it can happen. I spent a good part of my life downplaying trauma I went through as a kid and decided this year that I was gonna face the music and the emotions in therapy. It has not been easy, but it is worth it. I am definitely way more aware of my triggers and how to cope at 46 than ever before. I’m so glad you’re letting yourself feel the feelings. It’s so important. ♥️

Lol oh Jamie! That was so sweet that you wanted to make sure the snake was okay, but it’s def a copperhead.

I love this alternate side of Jaime! I adore your humor, but I absolutely love this other side. Please keep this channel up

My ambiguous grief is my mom. It's good that we don't speak. She's a very toxic, hurtful person. Doesn't mean I don't wish I had a mom. Especially since my Dad (greatest person on earth) died this March. I'm sorry you have someone like that too. I hope it gets better for you soon. It can sometimes be so hard not to focus on it. Not to think about it during all those times you're supposed to be happy and having a good time.

I'ma StL native. When I had a bird (RIP Skittles), I'd go to the bird store over in Parkland area. LOVED that store. Hell I'll still go in there just to see the babies they're hatching. I've had major major grief (for years) for someone still alive. I think it's fairly common with breakups. Especially a sudden, traumatic one where that person is in your life one day, then not at all ever again.

I (32) had to go non-contact with a parent a little over a year ago due to narcissistic abuse. I went through targeted therapy during the process, which was incredibly helpful, but I continue to feel that same grief and feeling of loss you feel immediately after losing someone. I think that's the tricky part of ambiguous grief.... there aren't any defined edges or closure, so it perpetually feels fresh. Thank you for being so open and raw about this experience. It really helps me to feel like I'm not alone. I don't know you, though we are from the same area, but you feel like a friend. I hope that isn't weird.

Ambiguous grief lives with me, and I think I need to do that. Much like you said, I’m letting these feelings come instead of pushing them down. I need it to grow, and this is what I love most about growing up-as painful as it can feel. It’s my own path to healing and growing

Hi Jaime! I think there is no time limit on grief so I wouldn't be too hard on yourself. I like the analogy of grief as a ball inside a box that might be huge initially and slowly diminish in size with time, but every time it bumps a wall of that box you feel the pain again. My maiden name is French and we definitely all have the same traits! 🤗

I lolled at the for Wild Jaime transition, that was so So You Think You Can Dance 🤣💃🏼

Triggers are a very real deal. My 20-year old daughter is suffering (man, is she suffering), & I'm powerless to help. My advice has been for her to feel it all. Go through it, because there will be an end eventually, and to reassure her that I'm here for if/when she needs me. I feel so much for you right now (I'm not crying, you're crying). Also, on a more upbeat note--thank you for posting your salsa recipe because I was drooling when I saw you making it. Much love to you (there's an end to your tunnel too).

That cabin is a mansion lol looks amazing wish I had a place like that to go

16:11-16:19 🤣🤣🤣🤣 We love you too through your journey Jamie!!

I have a family member I'm mourning that's still alive. I caused the conflict, so that's another level of grief. Sorry for the loss of your relationship. A pray for your peace and comfort.

Ambiguous grief is very real and you are really brave for sharing to let others know it's ok to not feel ok. Experienced same thing with my bio dad and I'm almost 40 now. You are seen, heard, and we love you

Ambiguous Grief. Thank you. I now have a name for this and it feels less of a weight on my soul

This video really resonated with me. The concept of ambiguous grief is not something I realized I’ve been dealing with for the last year. Thanks for letting us in on your story 💛

I've grieved both my living parents for many years. Currently my father is very ill and likely dying. He's been absent most of my life and I tried repeatedly to have a relationship with him. I went to see him to make peace for myself. The person he's lived with the last 30 years has tried to make me feel guilty for not dropping everything in my life to be by his side (I live 750 miles away from him). Besides having to come to terms with him dying, I've dealt with this person he's lived with treating me like I'm this awful daughter when my dad has never showed up for me. It needs to be normalized that "family is everything " is not always the case. And being estranged from family may be in someone's best interest. I'm rooting for your healing. 💕

This channel is 50% ASMR for me. But 100% awesome 😃🥰 Hang in there Jaime ❤️ Grief is never easy or quick. So just take your time and process all of those emotions as they come. 🤗

Ember makes me want a bird so bad!! But I know it would be a huge commitment. And that cabin makes me want a cabin in the woods!!

I have dealt with ambiguous grief over the years.....missing what was, that I wasn't being missed. Decided to focus on me and not them anymore, and as gotten older now see it as people enter your life for a season. There will always be seasonal changes.

The goosebumps that ensued after Jamie sings "Bring on the raaaaaaain" 😵

I miss these videos so much. I don’t know what it is but they’re very calming after a long day of work. ❤❤ BRING THEM BACK!! 😢😢 I miss these Jaime

1. Thank you for starting this channel. It’s so soothing to watch you go about life. 2. Thank you for sharing your knowledge of ambiguous grief. I had a best friend of 9 years disappear from my life with no explanation years ago. It hurt for so long and I didn’t know what to do about it. It’s like a breakup but different. If feels just as painful. Praying you experience healing. 🤍

You hit it out of the park again with this one. I love this new channel. Also, if you could just post a 10 hour loop of all those rain shots.. That would be amazing. 😄 They were so soothing to listen to. And also, I am SO glad you are safe after your snake encounter! 😱

Jamie, your vlogs are so well done they make me feel like I’m watching an actual movie! Love every moment of this. Thanks for sharing & putting some much effort & time into them!

She is so funny it always catches me off guard when she starts singing and it’s just really lovely.

Lately, I know nothing is TERRIBLY wrong (def things wrong, like pain and common issues), but every day has just felt like overwhelm and autopilot and just not good. Im with you. Sometimes I feel bad because I haven't personally experienced a tragedy recently, but then I remember we weren't made for this world and it's okay to feel it. We just gotta hang in there until it's all taken care of and we get to LIVE. You're doing great! And take a break :)

Absolutely Love your videos, Jaime. Im an introvert with very few friends, but I consider you my friend. Especially because I lost my friend, Jamie (that was her spelling) from cancer years ago and I miss her so much. So now, you are my Jamie.

Jaime, I wish we could help your pain. You are such a gift to us all. There must be something very sad in a person who doesn't feel like they deserve you in their life.

I remember commenting on the last video about getting rid of a toxic family member. It does get better I promise. Just keep reminding yourself the personal growth you can accomplish without extra unnecessary stress and toxicity. Also glad to hear your C19 wasnt too awful. Remember to take Jamie time. I never take that advice myself but I can still give it 😜

Jaime thank you for being so vulnerable regarding your personal family member situation, it really hit home with me. My relationship (or lack there of) with my sister is very similar, she's been in and out of my life throughout my 30+ years of life. Whenever I allow her in, when it starts to feel like she and I are bonding; she completely pulls out of my life and becomes distant and cold. There's been times where we haven't seen/spoken to one another for years at a time and this has been happening ever since I've been a kid (she's ten years older than me). On your first video you said something that truly resonated in me: "don't ever go out of your way to receive affection from someone." Thank you for that reminder Jamie 💜 Also, I strongly believe that the copperhead was placed upon your path for a reason Jamie. I wholeheartedly believe that was the universe reassuring you that you cutting off the head of the snake/getting rid of the venom/poison from your life (the toxic relationship that is your birth father) is the right choice for you and your well emotional state. I love these types of videos from you, thank you for all you do!

This video is very helpful. I'm disabled mentally and physically and I'm 34 so it is very difficult to watch everyone else just go on shopping sprees, and everything I can not do but not put the times they are struggling so I feel less weird. Your channel has always been a good time. You always make me laugh and it makes my day brighter. Thank you for that. "My family member" is my mom. The song by Megan trainer bad for me, helps me get through it. I stood up for myself when I told her I wasn't having guest for Thanksgiving cus she's been coming with my nephew the last few years but that messed me up cus i was like I miss my nephew so much but it's gotten to a point where I will be ugly to her and that's not me. If she only knew how I felt but she has been so selfish and horrible for my mental health since I was 2 and she left me and my 4 yr old sister with my dad. I still feel like I need therapy and I want to go just is very difficult to open up to someone when your own mom won't or doesn't have time to listen to you.. If you have to go a week without or Frick even a month for your own sanity that is the #1 priority.. I wish I had you as a friend.

Jaime we love you and our prayers are with you. Try this the next time you are having ambiguous grief. Write down your feelings in a letter and then burn it in a fire or a bbq. Allow yourself to go through your feelings and express them. Take your shoes off and ground yourself in your peaceful aurroundings. Meditate. Get some therapy it worls I promise or even speak to someone you trust and are most comfortable with. Take a freaking vaccation girlie you deserve it! Don't vlog it just enjoy yourself. We have one life to live while our physical body and soul is upon this planet and now is the time to enjoy it!!!!

I haven't spoken to my childhood best friend in over a decade. I knew her for fourteen years and loved her more than almost anyone in the world. We had problems in high school and our relationship fell apart when college came. I was devastated for years trying to adjust to my life without her in it. And I still struggle with knowing she's out there somewhere, as I live my life totally disconnected from hers. I didn't know there was a name for that feeling, but it's one I am very familiar with in my own way. The grief ebbs and flows in intensity, and there are always little reminders of her that sadden me. I'm sorry you're going through your own ambiguous grief, Jaime. Loss is hard. Much love to you.💜

That cabin is beautiful. I would never want to leave and the land you were given is just as beautiful. I would build a small cabin there.

I love listening to you sing and wish you’d make an album!

It’s nice hearing that other people are triggered by random things in their life and how you admit that means a lot. I have been struggling with some severe anxiety lately. Love these videos!

Yall are such a beautiful & loving couple. I just got married less than a month ago and seeing y’all work together and laugh gives me so much joy & uplifts me ❤

My brother and i had a falling out recently. Its sad because we were really close once, but he refuses to see that just because he doesn't like my husband doesn't mean I have to not like my husband. Or tolerate his talking about us behind our backs and not be upset by it. We have to protect our hearts, even from people who say they care about us or people we care about.

Oh my GOD I remember Big Time! We had one at, I think, Geauga Lake in Ohio [when it still existed...Geauga Lake, not Ohio. Ohio still exists, I guess (I know it exists - I live here)]. My brother and I recorded "The Sign" by Ace of Base. It was an audio recording. I was so embarrassed when they played it over the speakers at the park, haha! I wonder where that cassette tape is now. 🤣

I know you are really busy & working hard but please, PLEASE take time for yourself to cope & deal with all the emotions. You feel what you feel & those feelings are real - you deserve the time to cope the same as anyone else.

Thank you for bringing us through the waves of grief you had crash over you. It helps the rest of us see that it's OK to nurture ourselves when we are feeling emotionally scattered and exhausted. Hugs for your healing process! 💔

The universe has a very funny way of throwing signs at us. Love this channel Jamie💙

Ambiguous Grief. Wow. Now I have a word for my feelings regarding my dad. He moved to Bali (from Europe) four years ago with his new wife. Although he keeps in very loose contact, I haven’t seen him for four years. He came back for two weeks in June, but chose the exact time I was on a vacation that had been planned for more than a year. But as you said in your last video, I gave up trying to make him love me. Or let’s put it that way: I’ve given up hoping he’d SHOW me that he loves me, because I know he does in his way.

Listen, your videos are seriously my favourite to watch because you are HILARIOUS and your skills are perfection. BUT Jaime girl, take a break when you need. Nobody should work that hard. I'm soooo happy to watch you and your everyday life. You and your husband are so fun to watch together. I want Jaime happy and not so over worked!

Wow I can’t imagine having so much financial and family support that I could just take a week or five off of real life to spend at my family’s cabin and enjoy drinking daily lattes and contemplating the work/life balance that most ppl don’t have the opportunity to enjoy because real life is actually hard.

Praying for healing and peace over this relationship. I understand that it hurts that the most successful "boundaries" in place for some, is to simply not be around each other at all due to the toxicity that transpires. There is someone I grew up with whom I've had to cut out of my life completely- it's not easy, in spite of knowing that reconnecting with them would be harmful to my mental health. However, while heavy moments of sadness still hit me sometimes, the quality of my life has improved so much in their absence that the desire to get back in touch with them has greatly diminished, for which I'm so thankful.

I love all of your content but there’s something so special about these. Seeing more of your gifts displayed not just in what you show, but I can tell how much hard work you put into these. So excited to see more of what you’ll do - whatever that is! Thank you for sharing with us!

Listen -- ambiguous loss is absolutely a thing. And I'm proud of you for embracing your limits and taking breaks and spending time with your friends and family as much as you can. I'm going through something similar like...very similar. Started when I was a kid and now it's like, come to fruition. And honestly it's almost harder, to me, than just straight up losing someone. Because there's still that little voice in your head that's like "This person is still here, you need to try and make this work, you need to put in more effort" and it's just this unhealthy conversation that happens over and over and I feel like you don't get that when someone just passes away. And honestly watching this video has helped me come to terms with some of this, and I just wanted to say thank you so much for putting yourself out there like that. It's not always easy to be the real you, especially when you don't necessarily feel like you're the real you due to a situation or loss. Anyways, I hope you know how loved you are. Because you are. You are an amazing, worthy person. I hope you are able to continue being kind and gentle to yourself, and giving yourself permission to grieve and to heal. Love you girl. -H

I think ambiguous grief is worse than when someone has actually passed away. It may not make sense if you haven’t lived it, but when you think about it, at least with a death there’s an obvious end to life on earth with the person as you’ve known it and you’re forced to have closure to some extent (although you may continue to grieve of course). When they’re still alive, they’re not in your life as you’ve known it, and you never know how they are, what they’re doing or what they need or when they might pop up next to hurt you…or if they won’t pop up again ever. So cut yourself a break and know that God can and will provide peace that surpasses all understanding! Beauty for ashes, Grace for fear

Jaime in the wild is beautifully done. Thanks Jaime. ❤️

That music you used is super calming. Living vicariously thru your cabin trips. Looks soo relaxing :)