I Want To Talk About My Brother Passing Away 

Started to follow for the skating, stayed for the person behind. Much love and all the best Dan.

Dude, this was actually precious! Seriously, I'm certain your brother would have been EXTREMELY proud of you. Thanks for sharing this dude.

Fuck it Dan this is your channel we love you kid! And support you regardless! Speak your mind homie!!

Wow Dan. This one really hits home for me. Except I am your brother Ryan in this situation and my younger brother of 4 years is you. Hearing this from the perspective of a younger brother broke my heart. I also have substance abuse issues, I’ve been clean for about 3 months this time and I just don’t know how to reach out to my brother to say sorry. I would love to have a relationship again, we were so close when we were younger. I’m 28 and I haven’t heard my brother say more than a few words to me in probably 10 years. I don’t want to be overbearing, after all I understand it’s up to him if he wants a relationship with me or not. Thanks for posting this and being vulnerable Dan. It’s given me a lot to think about… if I have one question to you it would be: When your brother was in active addiction and you guys weren’t on the best terms. Would a text message, phone call or letter have even meant anything to you at that point in time? Peace and Love Dan! ☮️💜

Definitely relatable. My brother passed away a few years ago due to fentanyl overdose where he thought he was getting something else. He also got me into skateboarding. He was almost five years older than me, and that happened 3 years ago. So I will be going through some of those same thoughts about being older than him. His birthday just passed this month. Thank you so much for sharing your story with us and letting us see another side of you. I'm personally grateful because I know that I'm not alone with those emotions, thoughts and feelings that you experience and shared with us.

I cry every time you talk about Ryan. I'm always reminded that you're the perceptive and touching person you are and that's what makes you the ribbing and boisterous person you also are.

i'm watching this on my last day in rehab and appreciate you posting this. for all those struggling with addiction, please keep fighting to live and know there are people out there -- even if they are complete strangers -- who care about you. and most importantly, there _is_ a future available to you of recovery and a full life of sobriety, no matter how bleak or hopeless things are in the moment.

I’m sorry for your loss. I’m glad I found your channel. You made skating curbs look so fun, I got back on a board after almost 20 years.

Im so sorry for your loss Dan, I hope you can feel some semblance of peace which is hard even after so many years. My brother passed when I was 19, he was 22, always thought he was 4 years older though since his bday was over 2 months before mine. I had some similar feelings to you. I loved my brother, but he did physically/verbally put me down a whole lot as a kid, and even when I was in my teen years, he could see I was kind of a reserved loser and wanted to help me, but in his own ways it was really harsh. He was that way with anything he tried to teach me, like working out or skating. Though, even through all of our issues, I loved him a lot and actually missed him before he was even gone. I thank God I was able to actually spend time with him the day before he passed, we were working on our parents backyard grass and just cracking jokes and what not. His addiction was graffiti. He was an artist and even though he got fined and had jail time, etc. He ended up dying doing what he loved on a bridge. Im 30 now and recently just got into skating, my brother skated for a while and I even got a deck made and tried it out when I was around 14-15. I dont remember if i ever got to ollies, but it didnt last long then. I was actually recently watching videos i filmed of him skating on an old sony minicassete camera i forgot about. I was able to transfer those old tapes to digital thankfully, maybe Ill make a cut with some music or something and upload it as a keepsake.

Thanks for sharing this, Dan! It's evident from your honesty and vulnerability that you have done a lot of personal work. As a skateboarding therapist in my 40s, I love the variety of your content. Love to you dude!

Lost my younger bro in 2006.. age 19.. was from drinking.. im w/ you 100% Dan, youre always gonna have thoufhts of "what if i said this?" or "could i have saved him?"..... they'll never go away, but i know that they're thoughts that hinder me & are unimportant in this moment.. love ya for doin this video Dan 👊🏻👊🏻👊🏻

I am right now stopping with prescription Fentanyl and Oxycodone…, and it’s so heavy for me now!!! Thanks for the video, it comes out at the right moment for me 🥰 stay strong

This hits really hard for me. I’ve lost a lot of friends to overdose and suicide. There are songs about it on our page. I relate to you talking about being as old as your brother. I’m turning 42 soon and that’s how old my dad was when he blew out his brains. I was 16. It turned my world upside down. I ended up in juvenile hall that day and the following two weeks because nobody came to pick me up from school. After that I was in 6 group homes over the next two years. I feel like we’re old friends Dan. I watch your videos every day. I know you don’t know me at all, but just know that a lot of people care about you a whole lot. Much love and respect Dan.

Thanks for sharing Dan. I over think like crazy too. It is hard to rewire your brain too, to question those negative or random thoughts that are coming out of nowhere. Talk therapy seems to help many. I need to take my own advice sometimes.

It's absolutely a collapse the first time it hits you hard, like full blown emotional meltdown, I always try to encourage my friends, especially younger ones still getting in trouble to think of their Moms and how much they love their kids.

I have followed a lot of skaters, but your channel is one of my favorites. You're a real dude and it's so awesome to see all the improvements you've made and the growth you've had. It almost is like you're the skate industry's Older Brother.

Much love dan. I can’t speak for everyone, but I appreciate the occasional glimpse into your life like this. I wish you the best and hopefully you can find ways to bypass that yawn metaphor to be able to process emotions and shit properly. I feel the same way about mine. If you figure out how to do it, let us know please lol

Hey, Dan. Thanks for sharing your experience around losing your brother. I lost quite a few friends to opioids back in the 90s, and we lost a couple of my kids' classmates to accidental Fentanyl overdoses... I feel like I'm living in Groundhog Day. Thanks for keeping it real. You're an awesome carrier of the stoke for skateboarding, and you willingness to open up about your personal experiences is a massive gift to your followers. When folks are in pain, or carrying around some pain for a while ago, it really helps to hear other people talk about how they processed it. Grief is a real motherfucker, it sneaks up on you all the time... being reminded that it never really goes away is helpful. I'm a 47 year old dude that always tries to share the stoke of skateboarding, but I always take time to talk with folks about the heavy shit they might be going through, too. The skateboarding community is part of the reason that I'm still alive. Skateboarding is a pure, personal experience that you can share deeply with others. it is unique and magical, and skateboarders are, too.. I have had hour-long conversations with kids that I just met at Burnside about their fucked up personal lives, just so that the kid would feel like there was someone listening. I have shared my emotional pain with skaters while waiting for my turn on my first visit to a park. No other activity but skateboarding has allowed me the immediate depth of connection with people that I've just met. Fucking magical! Thank you for being so fucking rad, and for sharing your joy and pain with us all! Now, go skate!

Hey Dan, sorry to hear about your loss. I lost my father at age 15, and my wife at age 22, as well as several others. Loss always hurts but time will make it less. It's going to suck in the short term though. Skateboarding is a great outlet for grief.

Hey Dan. Thanks for this. I lost my little brother one year and 11 months ago. Shit sucks, man. Miss him everyday. It's good to hear other people's experiences around this, helps to hear how other people are getting through life after loss.

Thank you for talking about your loss. As someone who hasn't had a lot of loss in their life yet, I'm scared shitless for the years to come.

Thank you for sharing this with us. I lost my father last month to stage 4 cancer. From his diagnosis; 3 weeks later he passed... Him and I didn't have the most healthy relationship, he was an alcoholic. I spent most of my childhood in survival mode, and as such I have trouble allowing myself to feel emotions in an organic way. I completely relate to this video, and in fact I really liked your analogy of looking into the room of emotional shit, but not quite allowing yourself to access/ unpack it. Thank goodness I have a therapist to work this shit out with.

Much love and respect to you and your channel Dan Corrigan. ♾️💜

This was the most generous video I can remember seeing. Thank you for being so open.

the strength you have to be so open and vulnerable is commendable and refreshing, hope others can find the strength through knowledge you offer, much love dude

Not easy to be so open man. I recently came to the realization that you shouldn't hold back to let people know that what they do is important or means a lot to you while you have it because you never know when/if it can be taken away. Im 41. Started skating again 3 years ago and you are a huge part of this.. I now have a mini ramp in my heated garage and a flat bar so I can skate year round (I live in northern ontario Canada.. snow man... It'll git ya) anyway. I know it's only 5 dollars Canadian so like 15 cents usd but Thank you. You are literally a part of my daily ritual and I knewww something was up when you didn't post yesterday. Stay healthy man feel free to not respond. You do enough already

I watch a lot of different types of content on RU-vid. Dan is, by far, the most down-to-earth and genuine creator I've seen. What a great human being to share with us like this. It is so helpful for those of us who have our own bullshit to work through. I am grateful. Thank you, Dan.

Mad props to you Dan for having the courage to be so vulnerable…takes some cojones. Love and respect my brother 👊🏼

Much respect Dan. I spent decades in addiction, overdosed multiple times, and wasted years in state and federal prison for distribution. Ive been sober for about 4 years now, and have less than a year left before I can obtain my license for chemical dependency counseling. Far too many incredible souls have been taken early because of addiction. I always think about the impact that my death from an overdose would have had on my 2 brothers and parents. Its just something that is too hard to think about when you are lost in it, and it becomes a snowball effect of negative outcomes, and the need to numb yourself and escape which leads to more negative outcomes, and so on. Appreciate your openness homie. Thanks for sharing

I'm really sorry Dan. I can't imagine losing my brother.

Identifying your mental health challenges fairly and accurately is an enormous step towards achieving real balance in life. Stay strong! Keep nailing it.

12k views and 1.3k likes in 24 hours, thats what a truly heartfelt video talking real shit can do. So many people relate to this. Thank you Dan.

I agree 100% with you on how everyone has challenges in life no matter what. We’re judged by how we handle and learn from them.

Ive been going through alot this video really helped me not feel alone. Thank u dan

Thank you for sharing Dan. Losing a loved one is hard. Dealing with emotion is hard. Sharing with people is hard. I think it’s great to use your platform to talk about and share your own experiences with these things. I wish you the best. Stay strong brother.

Ive just recently stumbled across your channel. Im 43 and have been slowly yet surely been deciding to buy my first skateboard since inwas a teenager. I really appreciate your content and much respect for putting yourself out there and helping others that may be struggling.

You are incredibly genuine and just seem like a good guy overall, my mother took her own life and I have yet to get over it, I don't think I ever will, I'm so sorry for your loss Dan.

Thank you for being open and talk about this.❤ Wishing you all the best.

I needed to watch this. It has a great tone that is real, open and not structured. Grateful!

thank you Dan. We really appreciate you. it’s crazy, you really are a staple in my house. My gf knows you, so do my friends. You’re apart of peoples lives, and yeah, i just wanna say thank you. Been watching Dale since day 0 and the same with you. One foot in front of the other dude, you should be very proud of yourself

Sorry for your loss Dan. It takes a lot to be vulnerable in front of people and as men we're conditioned to not show emotion (a very counterproductive approach to healing). My older brother got me into skating when I was 14. He got me my first wheels and bearings. Sadly he passed before Christmas that year under also very tragic circumstances. I held it in for 10years (which caused a lot of damage) until I finally honoured him with a beautiful poem. I still honour his memory today by carrying on with my skateboarding in spite of all the hardships I've faced and a gnarly car crash that nearly took me 2 years back. Keep pushing on Dan and keep making awesome skate vids! ❤👊

Sending love man. You’re an awesome human.

💕 lost my older brother 2 years ago it's tough. Sending some love your way 🤙

@Dan Corrigan, I appreciate you being real about this, and I appreciate you opening up about it for me to listen to/watch. I'm 52, I'm a Baltimore(South Baltimore, PIGTOWNE) native and still live in Maryland. My sister also passed away from complications of being an addict. It's been years now since she passed, but I still cry about missing her on a regular basis. I feel your pain, and I wouldn't wish it on anyone man. Thanks again for all that you do, the skating in your videos really makes me want to be out on my board more. You genuinely look like you're having fun, and at this age that's all I'm looking to do!! By the way, we have a few mutual friends man, I've known Jason Chapman since we were teenagers. I've been going to Charm since the day they opened the doors.

Dan, my dad died before I was born, at age of 32. Heart attack took him in minutes, leaving my mom pregnant and a 4 year old brother. I had the EXACT same feelings when I turned 32 and realized how young he actually was. I thought I would never be much older. I am now about to turn 52. I have two sons, 10 and 13 and I want to be around them for as long as I can. But life is a ride, man. You just can't know what will hit you next. My marriage of 14 years is dissolving now. I am absolutely crushed, trying to process it all. The abandonment feeling I had as new born, even if I didn't know it at the time, came to haunt me now, 2 years later. So I am learning how to deal with my trauma. I love that you are doing internal work, man. It's SO important. Good work and thank you.

Sorry about that Dan! Appreciate your vulnerability. I agree that life is tough for everyone and we could all use encouragement and help along the journey.

Thanks for sharing. This makes me extra grateful that I almost, but didn’t lose my brother the same way. I’ll share some love with him, with your family in mind.

I’ve been skating again for 3 years. I’m also recovering IV addict and am in school to become a substance abuse counselor!! I’m coming up on 1 year clean after relapsing after having almost 2 years clean. THANKS FOR SHARING THIS DAN🧡

Thanks for sharing this man. It helped me by listening to it. My friend passed away last year of an overdose. Also my cousin died who was like my brother 4 years ago. You’re a great person.

thank you dan. i just lost my childhood best friend last month to a fentanyl overdose. i really appreciate this video. i really relate to your feelings when you say you can't open up to people. and that its hard to get emotional like you feel like you should be crying and letting it out but just cant. the friend i lost was as close as a brother and i for sure let him know how much he was loved while here... may these beautiful souls rest in peace while we skate and hold it down for them

your bro is always with ya man and always know he's hyped at how amazing his little brother turned out.

Really appreciate this video, just wanna ~relate~ to it and don’t worry about responding… btw I’m the guy who responded to your IG story saying I traded my skate hobby for a bonsai hobby lol I still skate here and there but I’ve gotten much more into plants/bonsai this past year. So long story short I lost my Dad last year. Came outta nowhere. Not long before he passed he mentioned bonsai to me and that he though I would like it, and I eventually did get into it, and it hurts not being able to share it with him. His passing hurts in many of indescribable ways, I’m sure similarly to you with your brother. Losing a family member just hurts differently… I just wanna say I hope you find the opportunities to let your emotions out/cry/let yourself really absorb the loss, no matter how long it takes you. The first couple weeks after my Dads passing I felt like I cried a lifetimes worth of tears. I believe that helped me in the acceptance process in some weird way. A year and a few months later I still have emotional moments when something reminds me of him and things I wish I could say and share with him. But at the end of the day he was suffering and struggling with addiction and his general health and I feel a sense of relief for him that he’s free of all of that. It’s hard to focus on but I hope you can come to the same conclusion with your brother. I’m an only child so I don’t know what it’s like to have a brother but I can imagine it’s similar to connecting to my Dad the way that we did at the end of his life after my parents separated early in my life… long ass comment here lol really appreciate this video and wishing you the best Dan. Keep shredding 🫶

Bro, the amount of pleasure you bring into my life cant be measured!

Oh my fucking god the yawn thing but with emotions. I’ve never heard so well said or related so much. I feel like I’m not as crazy now😅

You are 100% right. I'm 5 years sober from heroin and meth use myself, what got me clean is there was a guy who wasn't my dad but played the roll, we got strung out and it lasted like 10 years, we got into it and he overdosed before we made up and at that moment I kew I was done because I never wanted to make my kids or family feel that feeling I did in that situationm good shit san and very ballzy. I quit skating ten years ago and only keep up with it via your channel and wn occasional my war videosm keep doing what you're doing man not many people out here who truly mean well but I believe you are one of the few!

Dan, thanks for being so transparent with us. I lost my older brother to drugs and suicide a few years ago and it’s really rough. Therapy and staying active has helped out a lot though.

I feel you man. I was actually a good skater back in the mid to late 90s then I got jacked up real bad in the street and ended up on painkillers, almost ended me. Been clean 17 years now but shit derailed my whole life. Drug addiction is hard to deal with. Sorry about your brother.

Thanks for sharing, Dan. You're one of the more thoughtful skaters posting vids.

I've been watching you for a while, and I appreciate you sharing this with us. I've been sober a little over 4 years, and I recently got back into skating and really enjoy all your videos. My 14 yo son and my 3 year old also recently started as well, and its so much fun. Its great physically, mentally, and emotionally. You learn to work through struggle, and make it through to the other side and develop an appreciation for not only the end result, but the process of getting there. There's a lot of overlap between life and skateboarding, and many lessons that can be learned through trying something new. I'm very sorry for your loss, but I think you speak to many, and I know I listen. We all deal with hardships, but sharing them with others is the only way we heal.

I can relate to you losing your brother. Both of my sisters are dead. The pain will never go away. Sometimes it hits really hard even to this day.

Thanks for sharing your story Dan. I struggled with Meth, fentanyl, alcohol, basically anything that changed the way I feel. March 21st, 2021 is when I surrendered and did something about my addictions. Your videos helped me a lot and got me back into skateboarding. Thanks so much for all the effort you put into your videos. Praying for you, your friends, and your family. Much love brother.

I appreciate our conversations in New York, a lot.

Thank you for sharing this. Loss is a tremendous part of our journey. We lost our brother to fentanyl in Febuary. None of it makes sense. It probably never will. all I can say is let the tears fall. Let it all out. The pain needs to be released. Even if its with an empty room. Its the only way forward. One drop at a time.

Much love to you Dan, thank you for speaking your mind and being you every single day. Losing someone sucks and we can all resonate with that ❤️

Truly relatable throughout🙏🤝 May the health concerns subside, you will conquer through it and keep growing💙🌱

Beautiful,humbled, energetic,lively,determined soul..

Thank you for sharing Dan. Seriously man, it means a lot. My family disowned me when I was 16 and didn't speak to me for almost 30 years, Last year I moved back where my family lives and tried to reconnect... Turned out they were super happy without me.. It hurt a lot... but it made think a lot about trying again with what you said... in my heart i know it's not going to work but yeah... thanks man.

Thank you for posting this Dan! Im sorry about your brother passing like that Dan. I understand. My cousin just passed away 2 weeks ago from fentanyl too. I moved here to Florida to be closer to him and reunite with him. I loved him so much and miss him terribly. I always tell the people I love that I do. Guys take it in a weird way at first, but after a few times they break down and say they love me too😁.

thanks for sharing I've lost my dad the past two year's cancer crap i still feel people's presence 😊 when gone

God bless Dan, all seriousness here no jokes this time. You're being prayed for homie

It is empowering to watch you face that room, especially after so many years. Growing up I watched my mom lose a lot of her family, and she used alcohol to deal with that loss. In a lot of ways this resonated, because now, I have things I need to say to her. She is only sober because I left home, but how sober is sober? I could never know, after all, they're back home on the East Coast, and I am in LA. In many , many ways, I felt this. The need to slow down, the need to share. idk, thanks dan.

My dad died when I was 2. I hit that same mark (being older than my Dad made it to) at age 22. It was pretty heavy. Although I didn’t expect it to be, I just realized it one day that year. Anyways… I forgot about it again until I turned 32… And realized I was 10 years past how old my dad was. I think every 10 years it will kind of hit you again

Hey Dan my sister passed away I understand what you're talking about keep doing what you're doing talking about it and making videos skating cause they help people like myself im actually in recovery and I'm grateful to be clean I've lost so many friends from drugs so I understand, thank you for being vulnerable in your videos

Dan I've got a younger brother too bud im so thank full he didn't go down the road of drugs and stuff bless your older brother bro i hope you always enjoy the good times you had with him addiction affects every one friends and family ❤

Man this fentanyl thing is taking so many people. And so many that didn’t want or know they were getting fentanyl. I got addicted to opiates from a car wreck and ended up being an IV heroin used by the end of it. Thankfully I was able to shake it after many years of not even wanting to live anymore. Regardless of how long it’s been I’m sorry for your loss man and I appreciate your channel for so much more than just the skating. Definitely has become one of my favorite channels.

Im sure your brother is proud of you. As well as your family. Sorry for the loss of your brother. Keep doing what makes you happy. N thanks for sharing with us.

Thank you for spreading awareness on fentanyl. I almost died from it. I've been clean 2 years in January. Sorry for your loss.

just had my daughter and skating and skate content these days are keeping me and baby alive 🙏 so relatable! I quit meth in January and bought a board this summer! I can still skate❤

Your brother would have been proud as fuck of where your life is now. Drugs suck...dont do that. Big love man 🤘

Hi Dan, I’ve had the same emotional issue throughout my life of allowing myself to feel emotions. From what I understand, it tends to be a coping mechanism and develops for a good reason. It’s just that, at some point, it becomes unhelpful when you need to process emotions. It’s usually a tactic to keep pushing forward, but eventually, we need to be able to stop and process our emotions. When we’re so used to pushing them down or trying to ignore them, it can make it difficult to allow them to happen. This has been my experience, anyway. I’ve been seeing a psychologist for a number of years, and she’s helped me to be able to identify and acknowledge my feelings more easily, but it’s still a struggle. It’s interesting because my brother also beat me up a lot growing up, and he got into drugs. He is also four years older than me. Luckily, he managed to get off hard drugs, but our relationship is still very strained, and we don’t really talk to each other. So, I really related to your story and what you shared. I’m very sorry to hear about your brother passing, and I hope you’re making good progress towards learning to identify, acknowledge, and accept your feelings. Much love, Jaime

All the best to you Dan. Always stay real.

Dan, one of my best friends on the planet took his own life a month ago, and it's wrecking me. I wish I could formulate more things to say but it's honestly just... So fucking heavy. Just want to articulate that I'm very grateful that you're talking about this.

Dan the man, please please please please keep making these videos. The skate community is still strong and this is a growing sport. You are the best skate content on RU-vid - please keep having fun skating, and sharing it with us. I will Stan Dan forever. #standan

I understand completely how gaining the ability to see your emotions that need expressed but still not having the skills needed to express them makes things so much more frustrating. It's easier to not see the room and not enter than see the room and not enter.

Thanks Dan, take care! Love from France

appreciate you modeling this kind of vulnerability and humility, man. I work in mental health for a living and run skate groups for kids that it could literally save their lives. They need to see skate champions like yourself being honest and real. We lose to many kids, to many adults, and too many community members to our mental health and addictions. I often tell people that skateboarding is one of the main tools I use to help transform my feelings into something positive. Keep the medicine moving. We need to see impactful role models like yourself sharing in a meaningful way also your hilarious. Keep on keeping on man.

we are your unpaid therapists dan! we love you not only for skating but for who you are as a person, we all have been thru some shitty situations, and your own blood dying is a hard thing to have to deal with rest in peace to your brother by the way im so sorry, you have built a family within us and we can all help each other out, stay strong brother ❤

I hope you read this Dan. I met my big brother/best friend through skating in my late teens. He was a few yesrs older and the coolest guy ever. He rode on the flow team for Ride SnowBoards and we both got the hook up at the local shop. (He worked there.) As insane as it is to say this we started a hardwood flooring business together. I shocked me when you brought that up. lol We skated, snowboarded and partied together for years. Luckily for me I didn't have an addictive personality. Unfortunately he did. It spiraled into a personality changing addiction. It made him someone else. He went to a rehab in Cali and got clean for several years. He actually worked for me doing floors for 2 years after rehab and stayed clean but eventually he drifted back into that life style. We grew apart but hooked back up here and there to work on flooring jobs. On the last job we did together I could tell he was getting high. It ended up in an argument, almost a come to swings situation. I left and we didn't talk for about 5 years. He got really bad off psychologically and dependency wise. At the start of this past summer he shot himself sitting in his recliner. I think about him every day and wish I could have told him how big an influence in my life he was. I think he knew but wonder if I had just closed the gap between us if thing would have turned out different. I know I can't cling to the what ifs but it sucks. I got an old set of Indys and some Bones wheels his sisters gave me after his death and put them on a deck that was a brand he skated a lot. The board sits in a chair in my living room and no one is allowed to skate it. It's set up for him when I get to where he is one day. I cling to the good years, the fun we had, all the memories of partying, skating and snowboarding to get by. I don't let myself focus on his death, I focus on the cool ass years I had him as a big brother. Life isn't fair but we just gotta keep swimming. I don't know you but I enjoy the videos and will keep you in my prayers. It's good to see you living out a lot of skaters dream and keeping the skate life real....James East Coast for life. lol

Sorry for you loss Dan. I am dealing with the death of my father. He was in a hit an run over a month ago in Mexico City and had to get a lawyer in Mexico to get his body released to a Mexican funeral home. Paid for a funeral service in Mexico that no one attended and flew his body to Ohio 3 weeks after he died. Then we had to wait 2 1/2 weeks for the courts in Ohio to allow us to cremate him. Just got the OK on Monday but have to wait another 1-2 weeks for them to process the legal paperwork. Such an insane process. I was like you I’m the fact that I am staying strong for my brother and mom and flew back to Ohio to sort through my dads files and financials and moved money for my mom to cover all these expenses. The Mexican police still have his clothes, ID, passport, keys, luggage, etc. been over a month and we still haven’t reviewed the death certificate from the US Embassy. Was about 3 weeks after he died and I was back in San Diego getting ready for work and *BOOM* all the emotions hit me at once and I bawled like a baby and called out of work. I knew I needed to cry too and glad I finally did. I’m sure there will be more crying sessions sooner than later. Most likely won’t get to have a celebration of life until December or maybe next year. Going to take another week or longer after the paperwork gets processed to actually get him cremated and prepare for a party at my moms house back in Ohio.

Thanks for the sad sappy sucker of a rant, Appreciate the real...Made me think alot about my life and relationships with people I should probably work on a little harder, ty.

Lost a friend that way. And luckily one of my best friend’s wife had formerly been able to quit when fentanyl was just hitting the streets. Could have gone either way. And with a brother who has and continues to struggle with mental health, I’m always waiting for when he’s no longer here. Life is hard and beautiful and hardly worth hard drug use.

thanks for sharing man. you're right - we all have our crosses to carry - sorry to hear about yours man. i hope you stay positive (as you actually seemed) and manage to become authentic to your own feelings. it's super hard...

Sorry for your loss Daniel. Just lost my mom 2 weeks ago, and she was on fentanyl the last weeks for pain relief - was hard to watch.

Loved this. Thank you for reminding me to appreciate and love the people closest to me while things are good. Being vulnerable is weird but this gave me that 2020 insight before it’s hindsight.

thanks for sharing this, Dan. though not totally similar circumstances, I've dealt with a similar situation with my uncle. And i'm sure you probably know this, but we all handle grief differently, and there's no "right" way, but rather the way that works for you. I only hope that you allow yourself some grace and compassion in dealing with it. It can be easy to get down on ourselves cause we're not doing this or that, or feeling a certain way, or processing grief in a certain way. As long as you keep putting one foot in front of the other, taking it day by day when you need to, moving in a positive direction... things will work themselves out, and you'll hopefully arrive at a place where you can look around and feel content. All the best, man.

Dan.. no one should have to go through what you have been through, dont ever think the audience you have built, because people like you for your personality, that you cannot share your whole life with this audience, because you can. As skaters we are all a huge family, just by stepping on that board we have a mutual bond.. and that bond means we listen, support and encourage all our fellow skaters. We love you Dan and everyone here supports you!

Hey bruh Big thank you! Your videos and others have been my escape. Yo! thanks for sharing

Dan please don’t ever feel like you’re “wasting your life.” You’re doing what you love every day and found a way to make a living doing it, and there’s nothing wrong with that. Love the videos man, keep ‘em coming. Please no more music tho 😂

Much love to you, keep doing and talking about whatever you like, I think we’re all here for it. Hope your health improves and does end up sidelining you.

Dude, I feel this so much. I just turned 36, the same age my dad was when he died. It was drugs with him too, but they were prescribed by his doctor. He abused them. Everyone knew he was doing it, he lived in a mental health group home, but nobody stopped him. The night he died, I was 18, he called me and I could tell he was stoned so I just dismissed everything he said and wanted to get back to hanging out with my friends. I'll always wonder if I could have changed something by just staying on the phone with him that night. We weren't close but I'll always miss him.