i was pregnant, and i had a miscarriage

Подписаться 1,2 млн

Просмотров 546 тыс.

50% 1

In my first trimester of pregnancy, I had a miscarriage at 7 weeks and lost the baby. Trying to conceive with PCOS had been a journey, and we want to have a baby so bad. But this is our miscarriage story, trying to make sense of losing my first baby.
Subscribe Here! bit.ly/SierraSubscribe
Check out my Top Videos! bit.ly/SierraTopVideos
Follow Me//
Vlog Channel / sierrastephenirl
Podcast Channel / sierraunfiltered
Twitter / schultzzie
Instagram / schultzzie
I HAVE MERCH! www.thecurvycrew.com
This video was edited by Sierra Schultzzie
Shop My Equipment//
CANON 70D amzn.to/2l4KzGe
CANON SL1 amzn.to/2lDifO6
SIGMA LENSE amzn.to/2m52CA3
MICROPHONE: amzn.to/2kIE6EQ
AUDIO RECORDER: amzn.to/2m5inan
VLOG TRIPOD: amzn.to/2kIEByq
VLOG CAMERA: amzn.to/2QgrW44
#SierraSchultzzie
About Sierra Schultzzie
Hey! My name is Sierra Schultzzie and I make weekly videos about midsize and plus size fashion, try on hauls, brutally honest reviews, recreating celebrity photos, style swaps, body positivity and more!
I was pregnant, and I had a miscarriage
• i was pregnant, and i ...
Sierra Schultzzie
/ ucyklcayenpgj_05itvrly2g

Развлечения

Опубликовано:

3 мар 2020

Ссылка:

Скачать:

Готовим ссылку...

Добавить в:

Мой плейлист

Посмотреть позже

Комментарии : 5 тыс.

@SierraSchultzzie 4 года назад

I tried filming this like 4 times, and am still very nervous about posting this video, but there’s no right or wrong way to grieve. There’s no perfect way to talk about this. Miscarriage has been the hardest thing we’ve ever experienced, and we’re still very much working through it. Thank you for all the love and kindness, and understanding of me stepping away from youtube for a bit. Right now I’m planning on taking a few more weeks off and should be back to my regular schedule near the end of March. 💕 love you guys.

@keiwiuniii5024 4 года назад

Sierra Schultzzie it’s okay Sierra, I’m sure you will get a baby when it’s the right time!. 😁😁😁

@SanShine2309 4 года назад

I feel so sorry for you.. Take some time to grieve xx Don't lose hope, it will happen!

@jessicaturner4895 4 года назад

💕💕💕

@peachxtaehyung 4 года назад

Sure of course Sierra please take your time. We will miss you but we just want you to be physically,emotionally and mentally healthy ok? We love you guys!

@the1ladytammy 4 года назад

I think the positive from this is you are able to get pregnant. That is wonderful. ♥️

@wine_mom_810 4 года назад

One of my friends unfortunately suffered through 3 miscarriages, but now she has a happy, beautiful 10 month old baby girl. Please don’t give up 💕

@av950 4 года назад

my mom had three miscarriages, and now she has me and my two sisters :) Sending you love sierra

@kackahorakova2397 4 года назад

My mom too,and my friend. I'm here alive and healthy, and my friend has a 1 year old beautiful girl, healthy and full of energy. I know you can get threw it Sierra, you are one of the strongest person I know, you are inspiring. Sending ton of love.❤️

@MissGuidedMissi 4 года назад

I have had 3 myself, and now my baby girl will be here literally any day.

@haloolak 4 года назад

My mom had two miscarriages but now she has me, my sister, and my 2 brothers :)

@maddinauss6474 4 года назад

Melissa Peckham just seeing this now but I hope everything went well and your sweet baby is healthy and spoiled with love ❤️

@jacquelineellis3951 4 года назад

When Sierra said “I will be a mom” I was like “YES YOU WILL!” Stay strong. We all love you and are here to support

@gonewiththewindows4912 3 года назад

And now she is!! 💕💕

@tahneejenkins9444 4 года назад

I just want to offer some encouragement. I miscarried twice and then I had my son who is now 2.5. Miscarried twice again, and now I am 23 weeks pregnant with twin girls conceived naturally! Miscarriage is very sad, physically & mentally very painful. Do not give up! One miscarriage does not mean that you cannot have children. Multiple miscarriages does not mean you cannot have children. Keep your spirits up! I was married for 5 years before we had our son, I was 27! I am 30 now. It may take you a little longer to carry full term, but it can and will happen!

@reader596 4 года назад

Wow you are so strong!!❤ You sound like a really good mom!❤💫

@Laura-rd6yg 4 года назад

When you said “I will be a mom” I teared up. You’re so strong and I hope that you become a mother like you’ve always wanted to ❤️

@dixiemartin9874 4 года назад

IT SOUND LIKE YOU WERE TALKING TO ME. DOCTOR ME I SHOULD BE LOOKING INTO ADOPTION. HE DIDNT THINK I CAN HAVE BABIES

@christianaxtiana3297 4 года назад

she is a mom.

@cates6431 4 года назад

I did too. I know that feel. I have every faith that Sierra will be a bomb ass mama one day.

@MayaMoodle 4 года назад

When she said that I started bawling.

@lezaanvanwyk9202 4 года назад

Saw the title.. *AND MY HEART LITERALLY BROKE...* 💔😢 Honestly feels weird even liking the video.. 😔

@kathrinehmunk 4 года назад

It is weird liking it because I don't like this video but I want it to give my feedback

@gfysysgsyzrnntenbipjeqw5035 4 года назад

me too i am so sad for her 😭😢

@amylempkowski9887 4 года назад

in my eyes, liking it is a form of supporting sierra and letting her know you love her and are behind her 💘

@lezaanvanwyk9202 4 года назад

@@amylempkowski9887 I get it.. Like I work with kids everyday and this is like my worst fear especially now that I'm getting married soon and thinking about a family. The title is just sad because I knw so many people who would love to have kids and then get crushed through miscarriages.. Sierra is so brave.. Ive said it before but il say it again. She's an amazing woman ❤️

@annayako7992 4 года назад

I seriously dont understand why people would dislike this

@anasimpsonn 4 года назад

Anna Yako because their vision was blurred by their tears so they accidentally pressed the wrong button :)

@meganm9178 4 года назад

Max Shrapnel health has nothing to do with this

@nikkigerman9449 4 года назад

@@maxshrapnel8998 what's "best health" considered?

@thatthomaslife195 4 года назад

@Jeannette Howard Ummmm people can get pregnant on PCOS. Its just more common to have a miscarriage. It doesn't just go away. In no way is it OK to dislike a miscarriage video.

@lilacfaerie1619 4 года назад

Jeannette Howard PCOS isn’t something she can control. From the tone (and I could be wrong, please tell me if I am) it seems like you were insinuating that she was at fault for this

@cristydeming1465 4 года назад

2nd note: this topic should be a part of health education.

@kellybowker6466 4 года назад

Cristy Deming Agreed. I had NO idea how often this happened.

@threadrose524 4 года назад

I was only a few years old when my mom had a miscarriage, but I remember the two of us planting a tree together in our back yard. I think it was such a good way to grieve; we didn't talk about it every day, but whenever the tree grew noticeably bigger or was blooming in the spring it would open up a conversation about the sister I would have had. She was going to be named Lilly, so we called it the "Lilly Tree" and took great care in watching it grow. I think it was an outlet for my mom too, to see that she could grow be successful in growing Lilly in some way.

@Mahomies17 4 года назад

Rosie Bauer that’s so sad yet so beautiful😭 thank you for sharing❤️

@mandyerickson6435 4 года назад

That is an amazing thing to do. 💗

@mowganashwey 4 года назад

This is so beautiful, thank you for sharing

@lilychiasson2890 4 года назад

My mom did similar. She made a garden for who would’ve been my little sister and called it “Maia’s garden” ❤️

@shouldacomewithawarninh4974 3 года назад

That’s so amazing 🤩

@Sarahnfarmery 4 года назад

I found out I had PCOS a few years ago. January 2019 I had my first miscarriage. Then in August 2019 I had another one. September 2019 we found out we were pregnant with our rainbow baby. Now I’m 7 months pregnant with my healthy baby girl. Miscarriages are devastating but you will get your little miracle baby too❤️

@christamarie3512 4 года назад

Sarah Nicole 💜

@Babynameinspiration 4 года назад

Congrats wishing you a healthy baby girl and a easy delivery💚

@ashleyn5068 4 года назад

🥺congrats on your little one , best of wishes to your new bundle of joy

@alisalaska1786 4 года назад

So sorry for your losses :(. I have PCOS as well and may not even try. I may just move directly to adoption and not worry about passing my diseases on and/or struggle to get pregnant. I also have the MTHFr gene mutation that causes miscarriages.

@abbeysroad6695 4 года назад

“It’s okay if you’re not okay” - that was one of the most comforting things I was told so I hope it brings you some comfort. I’m 6 months out and it’s still hard for me sometimes. My mother-in-law is 30 yrs out and she still gets emotional about her miscarriage. It’s okay to not be okay all the time.

@haileyp320 4 года назад

Yes! Grief has no time line & I hope she doesn't put pressure on herself! Sending love to you and her!

@nelle1899 4 года назад

sierra: “i’m going to be a mom one day” me: periodt

@iambored678 3 года назад

AND THAT'S ON PERIODT

@shouldacomewithawarninh4974 3 года назад

@@iambored678 periodt

@lacydanielle1248 4 года назад

I plant forget-me-not flowers in my garden in honor of my loss. You find little ways.

@Hufflebear 4 года назад

I was thinking this too. You might want to look at winter blooming jasmine. It blooms at the last frost of the year, people literally stop their cars to ask about ours. My grandmother would say when everything else is gone something will still bloom.

@Marianna6843 4 года назад

Lacy Danielle I have a box that I keep a locket in with the date inscribed. It was a very early miscarriage so I don’t have much to keep.

@sstaj9945 4 года назад

That's such a beautiful idea.

@jenniferwinters9810 4 года назад

That's such a beautiful thing to do @lacydanielle 💜

@DandelionDream09 4 года назад

I think it's good she is talking about this so openly. And to Sierra: Take all the time you need! That's the least you can do. I'm sure you're gonna be one of the greatest moms ever one day. It's just a matter of when and how. You're so lovely, so caring. And eventhough it looks dark now, my mom always said: "Wenn du denkst es geht nicht mehr kommt von irgendwo ein Lichtlein her." (in English it translate something like: If you think there is nothing you can do anymore, there will come a little light to help you through... My translation skills are a little bit rough) And as I said you'll get through it. You can fight it. You can get better. And you still have your man on your side. I wish all the best to both of you.

@jessnye26 2 года назад

“Show myself grace” 6:25 and you now have your beautiful grace 💜 I remember watching this when you first put this out but needed to hear this today and see where you are to help myself heal too 💜xx

@alisalaska1786 4 года назад

10-15% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. That’s a lot of people experiencing it. It’s so good to see more people talking about it instead of secretly hurting.

@tracig1529 4 года назад

I’ve had several miscarriages, got put on progesterone as soon as I got pregnant and just dropped my three little girls (10,9 and 6) off at school. My beautiful girl you will have your babies.

@andreashields6983 4 года назад

Traci G same for me. I lost three & finally found a doctor that knew what was going on. I was put on progesterone with my son. He was born healthy. Ten months later I was pregnant again with my daughter.

@kirstinhettinger312 4 года назад

as someone also struggling to conceive, tired of single pink lines, timing sex, doctors appointments, guilt/worry/confusion, i hear you and i am with you. you will absolutely become a mother, an amazing one, and when that day comes, the struggle will just be part of the story. sending you and all the mommas to be out there all the love. ❤️❤️❤️

@jennaeberlin8817 4 года назад

I know my friends mom had a stillbirth while growing up and they ended up planting a tree that blossoms around the time they found out about the baby which a very special way of honoring.

@hopeharmony6895 4 года назад

When she said “I will be a mom,” in my head I was like, you already are. Even though little one isn’t with you, they’re looking over you and they are going to take care of you as you continue on this journey 🤍

@BLHxglam 4 года назад

People need to speak about this it’s so common for even “healthy” people to conceive let alone hide of us with medical issues, I’ve lost two babies myself before being diagnosed with with cancer, I’m two years past the last miscarriage and it gets easier but it’s still hard to this day, but I think sharing it will bring healing

@dirkjehoevenaars5347 4 года назад

Briana Hendricks I hope you’re okay. You deserve all the good in the world! Sending you all my love and happiness

@shadowkissed2370 4 года назад

I agree, you heal but that scar will always be there pulling and tugging reminding you but not hurting as bad as when the wound was fresh.

@leiaros3 4 года назад

I had a very similar experience. When I had a miscarriage, my baby was the size of a blueberry. We bought a blueberry ornament to hang on the tree at Christmas. Every year we hang that ornament and remember our little blueberry. All I can say is please please please be aware of grief, be aware of hormones, be aware of post partum. I got PTSD from my experience, and I brought that into my next pregnancy that festered into something very dark. I am not sharing this to scare you, I am telling you this because your emotional state is VERY important in the next pregnancy so take care of yourself and be gentle with yourself. I am thinking about you, and just know you are already a mom, just because you can't see or touch him/her does not take that away. They now hold a special place in your heart and you will cherish that forever! ❤️

@c3koz 4 года назад

I was thinking the same - that she's already a mom. It's not childbirth, but love that does that. She wouldn't be grieving as she is if she didn't love as a mother.

@AtelierNayo 4 года назад

that so sad and full of poetry at the same time i'm just " ;____; " even if i'm not into child or whatever but being an emotional empathic that makes me so sad i hope you the best too

@VeganEmerald 4 года назад

leiaros3 this is wild but my very close friends had a miscarriage and they named their lost bb blueberry and had like a blueberry bush and everything. Wow wow wow 💜

@mariagarcia6707 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage in 2018 and we also called our baby blueberry! This was nice reminder of my little blueberry ....I know I will one day meet him/her🥰🥰

@laurencenadon9746 4 года назад

The blueberry ornament is so meaningful and beautiful ❤️

@nannalundgaard6284 4 года назад

My aunt had a miscarriage in her third trimester, and since it was so far along, she had to give birth. This was in the late 50s, early 60s, and there wasn't even a funeral. It wasn't even something that was talked about then, it just got swepped under the rug. But her grief didn't. My mom had a miscarriage in her first trimester before I was born. This was in 1993. Still, there was this air of taboo about it. She felt very alone. Now, it's finally possible to break the taboo and talk about it, but it still must be so hard to talk about when you're experiencing so much pain and grief. I commend you so much for opening up and sharing your story. To talk about these feelings and the experience is going to help others cope, and if this ever happens to me someday, I'll know I'm not alone in my feelings, I'll know I can talk about it, and I'll know I can feel okay again.

@kaliaatwell6285 4 года назад

I miscarried almost 5 years ago at 19. From one angel baby mother to another: We may never have held them in our arms, but we will always hold them in our hearts. Stay strong, Sierra, you can do this.

@courtneythorsby1641 3 года назад

I miscarried at 10 weeks and watching this, and then watching your new pregnancy updates, gives me hope.

@doug-chelsybiederman183 4 года назад

I know you said “I’m going to be a mom,” but know that You ARE a Mom! The day that test said yes you became a mom and will always be a mom to that precious angel.

@lllmall7372 4 года назад

Very true. Your baby is just not ready to be earth side yet ❤❤

@TheSuefriend 4 года назад

This is very true. That little angel is just waiting on the other side for their Mommy and Daddy. Someday you'll all be together again.

@guciablueblack6140 4 года назад

This made me cry oh my god God 😭☹

@Vi.wo13 4 года назад

Oh my god this made me cry

@eyachakroun8266 4 года назад

I love this comment more than I love myself

@kaitlin.88 4 года назад

Had I not miscarried 4 times prior, I would never have met my 2 sons who are my world. This is the hardest thing you will go through but you are strong and resilient. Praying for you 💙

@eshwarinaidu9262 4 года назад

You are such a strong woman 😇💙

@MeghanCollins 4 года назад

I wasn’t educated on miscarriages before had one back in July 2019 and I blamed myself to the max and nobody talked with me about it cause it made them uncomfortable. It really does need to be talked about more. Luckily for me I got pregnant with my rainbow baby in September 2019. Now I’m 27 weeks and I’m still anxious about something happening. I hope you get your rainbow baby once you’re ready 🥺 🌈

@meagandaniellemorse858 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage the day before thanksgiving in 2017. I ended up conceiving again 3 months later. I’m currently laying in bed with my 16 month old son in my arms watching this video. I, as well as so many other moms, know your pain! Don’t lose hope!!💕❤️

@katej7135 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy also. Give yourself time to be sad and for your body to heal, but try to stay positive... I was convinced my body was against me and that it would never happen for me. 4 months later I was pregnant with my son and now I am 12 weeks with my second baby. Knowing pain makes the joy even greater, it will happen for you.

@allyhiggs 4 года назад

I sobbed hysterically through this entire video. When I was 19, I had a miscarriage. I was in an extremely abusive relationship, both mentally and physically. Things got really bad and I ended up being pushed down a flight of stairs, he broke my shoulder and I ended up losing the baby. It was one of the hardest times of my life. So I completely understand what you're going through. It takes forever to even somewhat get through what happens. You never fully heal from a miscarriage. It takes a toll on your body and on your personal well-being. It will get easier day by day. Even now two years later I sometimes still think about it myself. But I feel as if I have healed a lot more than before. The two of you are such amazing people. I believe in both of you. I think that y'all will be amazing parents one day. You are so strong and passionate about this that I know it will work out for y'all. I can't wait until you are sharing with us about your rainbow baby. Prayers and love from me to you. 💕

@aliciasummers5048 4 года назад

I'm so sorry, you had to go through such a horrific experience.

@cloehhg4102 4 года назад

I'm so sorry and You're so strong for getting through this and breaking free. Just keep going 👍🏻❤

@theeasydiy 4 года назад

Someone has probably said this already, but I wanted to say it again. When you said “I will be a mom, just not from this pregnancy” I want you to know, Sierra you are a mom. You carried a baby inside of you. It might not have been a full term pregnancy, but you’re still a mom.

@richadhakal4669 3 года назад

Exactly :)

@IceNixie0102 4 года назад

Oh, honey, my heart breaks for you. Congrats on being a mom, even for just a few weeks. Because yes, you are a mom. Even if you never got to hold your baby, they were there, growing inside you. They existed, and their loss is unimaginable. This is so hard, and next time there'll be even more fear (so it'll get worse before it gets better) but I'm so hopeful for you

@ceecee9591 4 года назад

I was 2 months pregnant and I too was due in October and miscarried 2 days ago 😞 I knew the emotional and mental aspect of this would hurt but I didn’t know how much it would hurt physically 😞💔 I’m still in pain and can’t stop thinking about this 😞 I was soooo excited and bought our baby’s first book and onesie and it hurts to look at it 😭 my hubby reassured me we will try again but i hope I will have the heart to try again! Idk if I’m ready to put myself through that again😞 I love your videos Sierra and you are so relatable, but I’ve never related to you more than ever right now🥺 I know and believe this will happen for us 🙏🏻

@vampkitty1365 4 года назад

Sending you love, healing and strength. You aren't alone sister 💜

@cora6434 4 года назад

Sending you lots of love and hope ❤

@peachxtaehyung 4 года назад

Oh my gosh i am so so sorry for your loss

@sydneyvixx6983 4 года назад

So sorry girlie😢 stay strong your rainbow will come ❤️

@tamaramaria5867 4 года назад

So sorry ❤️

@Andrea-ish 4 года назад

I have miscarried as well, it's definitely one of the hardest things i have ever been through. But many years later, I'm 30 weeks into my pregnancy. There is hope. My heart is with you.

@cora6434 4 года назад

Congratulations love!

@Andrea-ish 4 года назад

@@cora6434 thank you. After miscarrying before though, my brain is still trying to process it. Even at 30 weeks, my brain can't believe it's happening lol

@maurae8779 4 года назад

Congratulations

@sydneyvixx6983 4 года назад

Did the fear of losing another baby ever go away for you ? :(

@punkybrewstar83 4 года назад

Yay- congratulations x

@amanda.elizabeth 4 года назад

honey, just remember that no matter “how far along” the baby is or was, it was still your baby and that made you a mom!! so even though that sweet child didn’t get to see the world or call you “mom”, you’re still a mom and that is something to celebrate!! 🤍

@pierskryslak6048 4 года назад

It is so important to talk about this. Women need to know that they aren’t alone and a lot of women have miscarriages. Thank you for putting your story out there ❤️❤️❤️

@briannamacquarrie4009 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage in September of 2019 and even though I didn’t have any ultrasounds and didn’t get to hear the heartbeat it was still devastating to us. It’s the hardest thing ever to deal with, especially when you haven’t announced it yet and therefore don’t have support that you sometimes need. I’m currently 14 weeks pregnant and I STILL get nervous every ultrasound, I try to stay positive but it’s so nerve wracking. I feel for anyone who has dealt with pregnancy loss

@fatash87 4 года назад

Congratulations on your rainbow baby ❤️ sending well wishes for the rest of your pregnancy.

@samschamaun5784 4 года назад

Praying for you 🙏🏼

@toocoolforschools4529 4 года назад

Congratulations on your sweet rainbow baby! 🌈

@Dwilson167 4 года назад

This absolutely crushes my heart. I can’t even finish this. Praying for you Sierra. Never knew I could be so devastated for someone I don’t even know

@isadorafenrick5320 4 года назад

You took the words right out of my head!!

@abigailroy7577 4 года назад

I just can’t wait for when your children years down the road watch this and say wow look at how much my mommy loved me even before I was born or wow look at how strong my mommy is.

@jessicat5558 4 года назад

As someone who’s experienced one on her first pregnancy as well, my heart goes out to you. I cried watching this because I remember those feelings and I would never wish them on anyone. It’s true what you said, how there’s always that piece of sadness, but learning how to live on from that. My heart goes out to you and your husband and I wish nothing but good things in the future for you both ❤️

@paolayepez7302 4 года назад

“I am going to be a mom.” You will Sierra!❤️

@feebeci 4 года назад

Coming from someone who’s had a whole heap of miscarriages . It’s totally normal . The good thing from this is that you can get pregnant! You’re baby is coming

@deemoney6145 4 года назад

Wow that's a good point seriously never thought of it like that! Xxoxo

@dumbweeniegirl 4 года назад

Madeline May everyone should like this! i so feel like sierra needs to read this!

@kalis856 4 года назад

According to the Wikipedia article on miscarriage/John's Hopkins/the NIH 30-50% of conceptions end in miscarriage, it's totally normal!

@mamamalet 4 года назад

Kali S it doesn’t heart less to know that. I’ve had a miscarriage yesterday and I can tell you that it’s not easy even knowing that it’s common.

@kalis856 4 года назад

@@mamamalet I am sorry that happened to you. I think if more people are aware of the rate of miscarriage, less will feel like something is wrong with them or their body and they might be able to emotionally prepare before it happens and understand what it means when it does happen. ❤️

@nalies13 Год назад

Just went through my first pregnancy and it was a miscarriage. it’s hard not to feel sad and like I will never be a mom, but I loved how you said “I will be a mom” and I’m going to take that with me, thank you 🤍

@melissaborelli4868 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage when I was newly married & didn’t even know I was pregnant. I then became pregnant two years later, I bled throughout that pregnancy but all the stress was worth it because I have an amazing 16 year old daughter! You WILL be a mom and an amazing one at that!!!

@jaykaytherapy 4 года назад

My little one would have been 3 at the end of this month. It does get easier to function...but baby never has to be forgotten. We planted flowers in "her" honor. They came up when she would have been born. SO it isn't a constant reminder but a beautiful thing we look forward to each spring.

@cortneychaput4827 4 года назад

My heart breaks for you. It’s been 3 years since my miscarriage and I still tear up when I think about it. It does get easier. I thought I was never going to be able to smile or enjoy life again. But I do and I am. I was lucky and have been lucky to have had 2 healthy pregnancies and babies since then. Don’t say you’re not a mama! You were pregnant, you will always be a mama. To all the others dealing with a recent miscarriage, it’s not your fault, don’t ever think it was your fault! Don’t be afraid to show your emotions, love yourselves. It will get better. ❤️

@adisonlopez181 4 года назад

Cortney White yes I agree she was definitely a mom even though she hadn’t given birth yet and seen the baby face to face❤️

@christinamiller6011 4 года назад

As someone who went through 4 miscarriages in one year, one ending in a D&C, I turned to prayer and study of God's Word. No one and nothing else could fill the hurt and loss I felt. During that time, I found myself ministering to others who have also been through miscarriage. It is more common than we think because women don't really talk about it. I was going through fertility treatments at the time, so the blessing I have is an ultrasound of each baby I lost. They are framed and with photos of my daughter and son. My daughter knows she has brothers and sisters in heaven. ❤️

@tiffanyferg 4 года назад

All the love to you Sierra 💛💛💛

@jordybabe8795 4 года назад

I miscarried the day after Christmas 2019 an it’s really hard. Hung in there and don’t give up! Keep trying!

@faithcurtis3189 4 года назад

Jordybabe87 !! I miscarried 2 days before Christmas in 2018

@youbelong2me 4 года назад

I miscarried 2 days after Xmas 2009. ❤️❤️❤️ Hugs to you ladies.

@msanchez1527 4 года назад

I’ve once heard: “Let your pain become your purpose...” You have been in my prayers, hun! Love to you and Stephen! 💛

@DesaraeGilbert 4 года назад

I am so happy you’re on RU-vid spreading awareness about miscarriage and PCOS. Sending love and light to you and your husband, you’ll get everything you deserve💕

@breathingandmakeup 4 года назад

Biggest hugs and all my love. As someone who suffered through 2 in a row, it's helpful when people actually talk to you about how common miscarriages are. It made me feel less alone and isolated in an already devastating situation. Healing is a slow process and everyone has their own way of coping. You are doing amazing. 💗🤗💗

@dawntucker1131 4 года назад

My daughter was stillborn 5 years ago when I was 7 months pregnant. My Aliyah would have been 5 years old on March 1st. My heart breaks every day, I miss her so much. She's the tiniest love of my life, and my only child. But she made me a mother, and I am so grateful for her. The day I birthed her was the day I said good bye to her, it was both the best and worst day of my life. First, I want to say I am so sorry for your loss. Second, you are a mother, don't ever let anyone tell you that you aren't. You carried a child, you and your husband are parents. Third, yes y'all will be ok, but 5 years from now if you're still crying, if you're still sad, know that you have every right to feel, and express that. Losing a child is a pain beyond any other, and no one can tell you how to grieve or that you've grieved too long. So much love to y'all. My heart is shattered for you, truly. Remember to love and lean on each other through this. You need each other more than ever right now ❤ much love and many hugs, sweet girl

@BatyBug 4 года назад

Dawn Tucker I’m so sorry. Much love to you 💕

@YoGirlMiamiChannel2 4 года назад

😓😓so sorry

@iselaherrera7405 4 года назад

Prayers for Your broken hart

@alignthestars 4 года назад

Dawn, I know this comment is intended for Sierra, but I can't tell you how much I needed to hear this. I've had 5 miscarriages and no live births, and it's so heartbreaking how much you don't feel like a "real" mom or like you should hurt as much because the baby wasn't born living. We're still trying, but it's so, so hard. Thank you so, so much for sharing. It makes people like me feel less alone in the world

@dawntucker1131 4 года назад

@@alignthestars Sydney Heinert I am praying you get to bring home a little one soon. I've only ever had Aliyah, and never been pregnant besides with her. Her father and I divorced last year. He simply just wanted someone to take care of him, and me having another child would have gotten in the way of that, and he would have had to step up again during my pregnancy. I have since started dating, and have a great boyfriend, and he knows of my struggles through my marriage, and losing my daughter. I'm scared to death that if the day comes that I remarry, and the man I'm with wants a child that I may not be able to give that to him, and I don't want to have to go through losing another child. And the not feeling like a "real mom" Ugh! I can't tell you how much it hurts to have birthed a child, and be treated as if she never existed. I have several stories of people just being down right nasty to me during Mothers Day events, and family outings. To hear that my cousins child was the "first" great grandchild, or great niece tears my heart apart. My younger sister is the only person in my family who has made me feel like a mother, and I'm so grateful for her. I don't think I could go through this without her. If you ever need to talk or anything feel free to message me. And to anyone else who reads this, the same. I never want to know what it's like to go through something, and not support someone who went through the same or similar. And I'm sure you may know, but there are lots of Facebook pages if you ever need support, and most of them are private so you can post without outside comments. Much love to yall who read this, and thanks for the condolences

@mya2357 4 года назад

My mom had misscarrages and had tried many times to get pregnant before I came. They tried for 7 years before I was born. You will get through this and will be ok. Don’t worry❤️❤️❤️🥰

@Saphira_29 4 года назад

ERI Same with my parents and me finally arriving :)

@sanne2299 4 года назад

My parents tried for 6 years, did ivf treatment etc. I was supposed to have a non-identical twin but he/she miscarried. After that my mom had another miscarriage. I was basically a miracle

@mya2357 4 года назад

sanne2299 yea my parents say I was a miracle too

@TheLizzyMorris 4 года назад

I know you mean well b it saying “you will be okay. Don’t worry” doesn’t help. FYI

@mirandagutierrez2640 4 года назад

This video was so comforting as someone who is still grieving from their loss (I lost my baby on New Years) in complete isolation. I’m not in a position where I can share this information with any family or friends, I happened to stumble upon your video and your words were exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you for sharing your story, your children are going to be so lucky to have such a strong mother. 💗

@kelseyd3066 4 года назад

I’m so sorry Sierra. You’re being so strong and I wish you the absolute best. Thank you for sharing. This will help so many people who have been through it or who may experience it in the future. I hope you heal quickly ❤️

@missmoniquejay 4 года назад

“These things aren’t supposed to happen” but they do girl! And I am so proud of you raising awareness and being so raw. I’m so sorry that you had to go through this and I hope you reach out to the correct sources for support. Lots of love

@tawneyemerick4120 4 года назад

He is like the sweetest husband. You're so lucky to have him by your side.

@madelinekempff 4 года назад

Oh Sierra. This situation is so hard, and you’re right; it is dark and lonely. But this community of mamas who have been exactly where you are is STRONG. I am here for you, and I am for you 💕

@elizabethzuravel8950 3 года назад

Hi Sierra, I've been a follower for a while. I remember watching this video when it came out. But now I'm experiencing my own miscarriage. And I have felt so alone. But this video has helped validate my emotions and make me believe it's going to be okay. So thank you for opening yourself up and being honest

@caseymintzer 4 года назад

Sierra, I cried when you said you know you will be a mom. That's so true. I was told I would have infertility issues at a very young age and it took me over 15 years of self destruction to realize that I could actually be a mom and there are options. I'm so happy you are steps ahead of me and already know this :) btw, I'm a mom.

@tessaturner335 4 года назад

“I will be a mom” You’re already a mom Sierra ❤️

@katie66990 4 года назад

Tessa Turner sooo much love for this post! 10000% agree! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

@purplehair7224 4 года назад

Yes. Already a mom 😊

@albernpanda621 4 года назад

Yes!❤

@amandamercedes3480 4 года назад

I was just about to say! This ^^^ exactly! All the love to you mamas! 💞

@gripitl6878 4 года назад

Tessa Turner So true..

@makingyourlife 4 года назад

You two are so beautiful. Steven's support and Sierra's strength is so amazing to see.

@amandatown800 4 года назад

When you started tearing up at the end and your voice was cracking I almost started crying too. We can all see how much you want this and we believe in you. Like you said you WILL be a mom one day. No question about it, and when you do become a mom you are going to be such an amazing mother and any children you have will be so lucky to be able to call you their mother. We all love you so much 💕💕💕

@Styledandorganized 4 года назад

Holy shit, I wasn’t even feeling like crying until you said “all I know is that I’m going to be a mom” 😭 of course you will, Sierra!! You have so much love to give and it shows! Stay strong! And remember that all the pain you feel for the loss of that baby only translate to how loved he or she was and will forever be even without you getting to meet face to face. You’ll be that baby’s mom forever 💕

@amelia3047 4 года назад

Miscarriage is so normal. I learned how often miscarriages happen in my developmental psychology class (if I remember correctly 17% of fertilized eggs become babies) but it doesn’t take away the pain you are feeling. It’s hard to have something so magical happen to you and then lose it in such a short period of time. I will keep you and Stephen in my prayers while you guys are on your journey

@janellehoward2112 4 года назад

I just went through this around the same time as you. We were so excited for our first pregnancy, and it seems so cruel to have it taken, but your baby will come. Just know I feel the deep pain you're feeling, you're not alone.

@katherinegouwens5769 Год назад

Sierra, I’ve been watching you thru my own 3 year journey to parenthood and going thru the miscarriage of my first right now, this video is incredibly comforting and helpful. Thank you for being so raw and vulnerable. You expressing this in the past has impacted me in the present and it is such a gift ❤

@sarahbottoms6720 4 года назад

Having PCOS and having had 2 miscarriages, my heart goes out to you. I will never forget my first pregnancy but am so grateful for the 3 kids that I was able to bring to term.

@jess-tu6jc 4 года назад

I miscarried less than a week before you. Thanks for stating a conversation on a topic that is soooo common but not talked about. I haven't watched the video yet, but I will later when I have time to be emotional (lol) Love you 💕

@monicaarencibia4431 4 года назад

jess c 😢 hugs to you

@courtneyj5409 4 года назад

Sierra - I really love your openness and you are helping soo many people with this. You are in my prayers and this is just another part of your journey !!! Stay strong!

@accioanna 4 года назад

I am so glad you said fostering

@Ana_reads 4 года назад

“These things aren’t suppose to happen” They happen , people just don’t talk about it . Thank you for sharing . Been through this my self and it’s scary and shocking and an emotional rollercoaster all together. I wish you the best hun

@jacquelinecruz1126 4 года назад

“I know that I am going to become a mom” 😢that made me tear up. Take all the time you need. You will definitely come out stronger. I’m so sorry this happened to you. I believe that you will become a mom no matter if the baby actually comes out of you body or not. You will both be amazing parents 🥺 stay strong 🖤

@Lifeonmarslooksrad 4 года назад

Thank you for being so raw and vulnerable with your viewers, it takes a special kind of strength to do that. Grief is a long process, take time healing and we will all be here when you’re ready to come back. we’ll support you xxx

@AmandaRosePhotoWNY 4 года назад

You are such an inspiration in so many ways. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I’m so sorry you’re hurting. But you’re right, you WILL be a mom!💛 we all love you, support you, and are here for you

@veritytreadwell 4 года назад

Anyone that has ever had a miscarriage, stay strong, your time will come and one day and you'll end up with a beautiful baby. If you need to talk, I'm here 😊

@AllTheCloudsArePink 4 года назад

And even if it doesn’t, you can still survive and have a happy life. The pain never goes away, but if you are lucky you find ways to manage it.

@AFamilyBrand 4 года назад

After Ella we had 5 miscarriages it never goes away and you just get reminded everytime someone asked "don't you want more kids?"

@veritytreadwell 4 года назад

@@AFamilyBrand Don't worry, the main thing is that you still have a beautiful daughter x

@veritytreadwell 4 года назад

@@AllTheCloudsArePink Good advice xx

@AllTheCloudsArePink 4 года назад

Verity Treadwell ❤️❤️❤️

@samantharuiz3543 4 года назад

i can’t wait for the happiest outcome when you have a little rainbow baby

@purplepeggy9027 4 года назад

awwwww, A widdle rainbow baby. 😢🛐

@lianavantreese9837 4 года назад

You're so genuine. I recently went through this and having someone to relate with is so helpful. Thank you so much

@MiseryLost 4 года назад

You did so well to do this video. A few of my friends have had miscarriages and i was surprised at how common it is, and it still hurts them now. You're so brave, well done for sharing your story and showing people who have had miscarriages aren't alone.

@niccimorrida6373 4 года назад

I had a stillbirth at 35 weeks pregnant with my first child. He would be 7 this year. It's still so flipping hard to deal with. I do have 2 beautiful little girls since I lost him and those 2 pregnancies were terrifying for me, but they make it easier to deal with the pain. Also, you're a mom and your little one is in Heaven, you'll see him or her again one day. Sending you love.

@someoneawesome578 4 года назад

It’s so important to talk about miscarriage and the emotions that comes along Every year in May my mother became depressed, after a couple of years she realized it probably was because she had a miscarriage in may and after she started therapy it became better Lots of love to all ❤️ So so so sorry of my English, it’s not my first language

@ThatOneLadyOverHere 4 года назад

Your English is great! As in I never would have guessed that you weren't a native English speaker. Speaking another language is hard (I would know, I also speak Spanish) so props to you.

@mlmj1994 4 года назад

Lol your formal writing is better than some native speakers 😂

@OfficialAshlynnBabb 4 года назад

Your English is great!!! ✊🏻

@someoneawesome578 4 года назад

Kewtie Thank you! ^^ People on the internet can be so grumpy if it’s not perfect -.-‘

@someoneawesome578 4 года назад

Marissa hahah 😂 yay thanks 🤪

@KTN567 4 года назад

Hey, I just discovered your channel. The likelyhood of you seeing this is probably very slim, but I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. I too have PCOS and have experienced 2 miscarriages. It is the worst feeling in the world, but we will come back stronger, and we will be okay. You seem like such a lovely person and you will get through this. Also, my second miscarriage falls in the same timeline as yours. We hurt together, we must heal together as a community. Thank you for sharing your story, as many people, including myself can relate and can take comfort in knowing we are not alone.

@jnlvandriel 4 года назад

So sorry you went through this hardship. Thank you for recognizing the power in sharing your story.

@karlieditter 4 года назад

Hi Sierra, Just wanted to send you my love! I had a miscarriage when I was 23 and 12 weeks pregnant. It ended in a dilation and evacuation. Almost exactly one year later, I found out I was pregnant again. Now, I’m typing this while I’m looking down at my 2 month old daughter. You will absolutely get through this and you guys will become parents. Everyone’s journey is different, please don’t get discouraged. Thank you so much for sharing.

@christamarie3512 4 года назад

Karlie Ditter 💜

@mizbrkmn1 4 года назад

💕💕💕

@arielr2431 4 года назад

Had mine at 13 and it ended in a D&C as well. My baby was supposed to be due May 22 2020. It’s heartbreaking getting closer to the date

@christamarie3512 4 года назад

ariel r 💜

@cirstie_crossing 4 года назад

My miscarriage is still the hardest thing I have ever been through, and I’m a cancer survivor. I think it’s about the control. There’s things I could do to fight the cancer, there’s nothing you can do to prevent a miscarriage in most cases. I also have PCOS and since my miscarriage, I have carried on to have 4 beautiful healthy babies 🖤 I wish you the best in continued healing 🖤

@Melexploreslife 4 года назад

You and Stephen are amazing! I’m sorry this happened but so proud of you for handling this such grace !

@alexapadilla1140 4 года назад

Oh man, when you spoke about the alternative ways to become a mother my heart felt it. You’re so very right that you WILL be a mom. Either your own or another child who needs a good life. You got this girl! My love and light are being sent your way. 💕

@Allison_647 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage this Valentine’s Day. My heart aches with you, but we will get through this and eventually become what we were meant to be.

@DJoy222 4 года назад

💕😔💕

@BeautyLit 4 года назад

Allison Hoffman I also miscarried that day. It was my second miscarriage, no love children yet. We keep trying until the pain of the loss overcomes the pain of not having children at all.

@felicitylittler 4 года назад

Im only 15 but my cousin had 5 miscarriages but now she has 2 beautiful girls so even though its very tough but there is always hope

@JuliaSteindl 4 года назад

Momma I feel for you. I had a miscarriage the same day. It was my worst nightmare. I was 10 weeks. I just had a little spotting, but as soon as I saw it i realized I haven't had nausea or any other symptoms. I was by myself when the ER doctor told me. My husband thought I was just overreacting. I dont want to celebrate valentines day ever again. Seeing everyone so happy... I wanted to just die that day.

@mapirojas 4 года назад

Allison Hoffman omg I’m so sorry I hope you are so brave you’ll get through this ❤️❤️🥺

@sylviagonzalez954 4 года назад

I had a miscarriage late June 2019 and at first I just wanted to deal on my own and grief silently but I ended up posting on social media for the fact that not many speak about and I’m still working through it especially since my due date was March 20th but having family and friends help my husband and I process and share their stories were such a blessing. I know you will get through this and you continue to be in my prayers 🙏

@sharonsnipes8792 4 года назад

Sylvia Gonzalez I’m sorry!! Hope all is well!!

@reneeleah5878 4 года назад

I’m so sorry Sierra. I’ve never been through such a horrible ordeal and I cannot imagine the pain you must be feeling, but I want you to know that I am keeping you in my prayers and send you all the love in the world 💗

@afriefeld1 4 года назад

Thank you for sharing. I feel like I've become friends with you through this platform and appreciate you feeling comfortable sharing this with the RU-vid community. I see how much y'all (creators) go through by being so vulnerable online and am amazed at your dedication and authenticity through all that.

@tasha4192 4 года назад

I’m so sorry Sierra. I can’t even imagine how you must be feeling. Take however much time you want off from RU-vid and media!

@sarahar4702 4 года назад

that "I know I'm going to be a mom." ❤️ definitely and you will be a great one

@MedicineandMascara 4 года назад

I’m so sorry for your loss love 💛 I’ve had miscarriages before my son was born, and I know it’s so so hard. Keep your head up, you guys are in my thoughts

@marykathryn7584 4 года назад

Miscarriages happen A LOT and they need to be talked about so people feel less alone in their experience!

@bethany5638 4 года назад

"We couldn't find a heartbeat" is the WORST most devastating thing to hear. I've experienced it twice and it stays with you and that sucks. I'm so sorry that you're going through this but I'm glad that you're talking about it and being open about it.

@meganpaintz4599 4 года назад

Just to lighten the mood on this subject... When I was little my mom tried explaining to me that she “lost a baby” and I wrote a whole story in one of my classes how my mom lost her baby at Walmart and never found it. My teacher called my mom after she read it. 🤦🏻‍♀️

@Sammic1215 4 года назад

I'm sorry that's funny

@pamelakrier 4 года назад

My heart breaks for you and I admire your approach to the grieving process. I struggled with secondary infertility, something many people don't talk about, so I understand what you say about people not talking about these things. I've always found it to be incredibly powerful to share my story and I know you sharing your story will help out so many women out there!

@thuhapham6497 4 года назад

Thank you so much for having the courage to share all of this with us! You are an amazing person, you helped so many people by your channel, I wish I can give you a dearly hug! Thank you so much!