* Since publishing this video, RU-vid has been demonetized it saying it promotes recreational drugs. I hope you can see this is _not_ the case. I would never usually ask this, but anything you can do to support my work would be greatly appreciated - use my PayPal link to contribute: paypal.me/LauraTryUK (as the 'Thanks' option that is usually available on RU-vid has been removed from this video) Hit the Like button and/or share this video with someone who you think would find it valuable. Or write a comment on the value you gained from it. This video took me 11 months to make. I poured my heart and soul into it, literally, in an attempt to share insight and value. Thank you for your support 🙏 There are 1,800+ positive comments so far. I hope RU-vid accept my appeal. (edit: my appeal was not accepted despite many other videos on the topic still being monetized on the site. Oh well, what can I do?) * I paid full price for this retreat - it was not sponsored or discounted. * RESOURCES Here are some resources about psilocybin if you want to learn more: - How To Change YTour Mind by Micheal Pollan: amzn.to/3USBjHq - Huberman podcast: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-eIxVfln02Ss.html - Huberman podcast with Dr Carhart Harris: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-fcxjwA4C4Cw.html - Huberman podcast with Dr Johnson: ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-GzvzWO0NU50.html - Tools of Titans by Tim Ferriss (page 101 with James Fadiman): amzn.to/4bNmxbF
It's funny how you said 'being nothing, yet connected to everything'. I did a trip once, it was different to yours. I was in the calm abyss of nothingness, it was an open space with no time, going on and on, it was 'nothing' yet at the same time it was everything, there was endless creation of new stuff appearing and disappearing in this nothingness, it was ever changing in form and had no rhyme or reason to it..... at some point, without being able to control it, I felt something errupt from my belly up to my mouth and I gasped 'life is a gift!'. In the days following the experience I was able to make sense of it in my own way. It's a bit spiritual and I'm not into religion, but basically, in that existence 'on the other side' us souls are just floating in limbo forever, it's beautiful and peaceful but it is also mundane and never ending, when we come into this world we live in now, it is given as a gift, for free, to enjoy, you see, the mushroom world has no time or meaning, but here on earth, we get to experience real life, an actual timeline, a story, a life, emotions, good and bad.... it's just given to us and we get to do what we want and it's so much better than being 'on the other side'. Knowing that life is a gift is beautiful, you appreciate it more and you experience it with more ease and playfulness.
@@syproductions456 this is an absolutely wonderful comment! May I request you copy and add it to the main comments section please - I would love for lots of people to see and read it.
My 22 yr old son used to have anxiety. His mate bought over some🍄chocolate. He went for a nature walk with his mates and had it. He told me he now sees the world so different. He said the plants were shining their energy through him. He could feel their colours and feelings. He could feel our dogs energy...so deeply. He is now like a buddha. So relaxed, so calm, so at peace in his soul. He said it is pure beauty that he only sees now. He wants me to try a square of chocolate...I have been scared. But this video has given me some courage. Thank you Laura for sharing your experience. 🍄
Hey bud, ex Brit mil 11 years and contract close protection for 14 with complex PTSD also, just wanted to say it will be ok mate and look after yourself.
Brilliant! I am a 55 year old father and husband. I never really felt like I fit in anywhere. I've recently learned that it's not MY job to fit in, it's MY job to CREATE the life/job/environment etc that fits ME. This video is hands down the clearest, most honest and simply the BEST explanation and information regarding psilocybin on YT. I am being called to this Adventure. Thank-you Laura for your courage and honesty to guide me and others to finding the truth within ourselves.
I'm 65 and have never done anything like this, but have been intrigued. This was the most satisfying, comprehensive, well organized, and eloquently presented presentation of 'what it's like' I've ever seen on the subject. Thanks for taking the 6 months to make it, and for sharing so honestly and openly. I'm sure it will pay off for you.
If you have access, just do it. Wake up early one weekend, pop ¼-⅓g and go for a walk. Depending on potency you'll notice things are slightly more vibrant, or nothing at all. Maybe a bit of a tingle. It's a great introductory experience. A subtle hint every few minutes. Sort of "Oh yeah, I ate those an hour ago. Anyways..." If you choose to dive deeper, be sure you have a safe private setting. 1½-2½g then go about your business at home until you are pleasantly distracted. Depending on the strain, you'll feel warm & fuzzy or see kaleidoscopic visuals, a bit of "the walls are breathing" is always welcome. Not to discount the experience described in this video, the first time can be profound, or just a bit of fun. Sometimes we just want to assign significance where there isn't any. Wouldn't recommend flying to a foreign country and paying thousands to be surrounded by strangers when $20 will get you the same experience from the comfort of home. Would highly recommend dosing once every few years for a bit of a reset. A means of breaking repetitive thought patterns, or reestablishing a connection with those around you.
I gave some magic truffles to one of my work mates, the next time I saw him he thanked me while almost crying, he told me that he was colour blind and that he saw colour for the first time. 🌈
Not surprised by this story at all . I have perfect eye sight on shrooms. Off shrooms I have significant eye sight problems and wear glasses. It's unbelievable ..
I went on a "Hero Dose" three years ago: It was life-altering. I had many experiences similar to yours. Thank you for the observation! It is no panacea, but it was like 12 months of therapy that occurred in one day. One of the effects of the "Hero Dose" journey was the absolute and total loss of any appetite for alcohol. I had never thought I had an issue with alcohol consumption, but I realized how much thought and urge control was being spent on it. Some people view this as just another addictive drug. Nothing could be further from the truth! Doing another trip is about as appealing as my wife saying to me, "Honey, Can we have a talk?" While it's good to have difficult conversations, it's never fun. I have no desire to do another trip for many years. I had an ego-free look at myself and found things to change. But it was self-reflection with lots of self-love, forgiveness, and compassion. My family likes the change! I liked your thought that a psilocybin trip should be a pre-requisite for all politicians!
I know what you are saying about larger doses and not wanting to do it frequently. Hopefully you can try microdosing at very small levels, if perfected, this can be more powerful than the larger doses over time. I am barely scratching the surface in this comment because I am very tired, but I hope you can research microdosing and see that it can be even more powerful if done correctly over time. It allows different types of changes to occur more slowly, which can be much more profound and helpful.
As a practitioner, people have to reword "addictive drug" cause it is not a drug since it's in its natural form. It is also not addictive, as mushrooms have a compound that deter you from taking more of it or create dependency around it. Mushrooms are what we call teachers, it shows you template reality(our real nature) instead of the programmed reality that we know. It is an Entheogen, never a drug.
@@user-ev7vh2is6b Been microdosing for about 8 months. 0.1g every three days and it has been life-changing. It has also made me lose my appetite for alcohol.
This brought tears to my eyes! You made this such a beautiful memory for me! I am very happy that I agreed to be in this group of people with you and letting you document it 🙏
I am so happy you agreed to be in the group also! Grateful beyond words 🙏 We get to share the experience and benefits with those who may benefit from it. I love the part where you say "Hmmmmmmm, I can try and talk" makes me laugh every time. You came out totally chill and zen and I was hyperactive 😂
@@LauraTryUK It's weird how it is such an blissfull and euphoric existence that you never want it to end. But after the trip it usually takes a year or a couple before i have the urge to do it again.
As an ex raver I can honestly say LSD, Mushrooms and Ecstasy changed me completely. I had both good and bad experiences but even the bad ones had a reason or lesson. I was very open minded/aware, so could pull myself out the less comfortable spaces. I have always felt connected to spirit, Mother Nature and that we’re all connected. My best art and poems were a a result of such practices. It’s very hard to see how closed most people are, disengaged, and uncaring about the natural world. I think many people who have experienced drugs have a much more open minded and aware state - even years after, or when they’re straight. I still feel energy, I still feel others emotions and class myself as a healer. I do think tapping into your higher self is crucial to happiness. Lovely video Laura, your channel is so humble and honest. Thank you
You do not need drugs to do that though. It forces a door open but breaks the door and it can never be the same after. You will soon burn it out if you keep drugging and then the anxiety will come so strong you will not know what hit you. The devil is real and wants your mind in an altered state where he can start to use you against your own self.
As a very old hippy of 75 and one day after a lot of experimentation, I had decided that all of it was 'in my head' and never took another drug, and it truly has always been in my head for 55 years. I've always carried those lessons learned within me and I hear you loud and clear and agree completely. Perhaps in a less insane world than the one we are being forced to live today.... these experiences should be a right of passage for all of our youths, to learn how to respect this beautiful planet we live on and formed us and how we must respect her and that we are all stardust connected to everything and everyone.... what an exceedingly more healthy, happy and compassionate world this would be if everyone knew. Perhaps finally, there is on a certain level, an awakening happening now globally, for freedom is far too precious to lose.... I know that I yearn for it for all of our sakes or we will perish through these malevolent forces circling our planet if we don't.
The worst thing that happens to me is I feel like I've wet myself and I feel like every th ing is wet and I'm wet and wonder how I managed to piss all over the walls lol! I can handle other people weird conversations stargange visions but my bladder never seems happy. 😂
@@lagringa7518I'm the same. I did coke one time and thought this feeling is already in me..now I don't even drink I just hold a bottle all night and get drunk along with everyone else without anything. I have never actually tripped off my nut without drugs though ..except one time I had alcohol poisoning and it was thw worst trip of my entire life... endless horror hole... so tippy and bad. I'd probably only take mushrooms when the situation was perfect now.
My mushroom retreat journey was overwhelming and entertaining. There was no huge spiritual revelation but in the year since I’ve made a lot of sense of it and integrated so much. My main takeaways are “I have everything I need” and to more freely express my love and gratitude. I thought these were big.
I am so sorry this video was demonetised. It’s a brilliant video, a fascinating topic, and you’ve given an incredibly nuanced and thoughtful take on it. I appreciated it immensely and I would happily pay to watch it.
My partner and I have just watched this and both agree that this is the most informative and realistic insight in to a Ceremony experience. It's so thoughtful and raw. Psilocybin changed my life profoundly, helping me to get off Sertraline and assisted in my healing of my sobriety journey (5 years sober in August), I'm so passionate about it and grateful to you for documenting your experience so well. Mother nature surely provides us with everything we need on every level. I'm so happy for the progress you've been able to make, it made me emotional to watch. 🖤
wow, thank you! I watched other videos about ceremonies and they didn't give me what I needed - the experience and the info. So I made a video myself. So your comment really means alot! Congratulations on your life changes 🙌 I don't know you but am proud of you!
Hey I am on sertraline now. I was wondering if you took a trip while taking sertraline? Or did you have to go off of it completely before you did the trip?
@@JJ_Smilez I microdosed psilocybin 2 weeks on, one week off until I had reduced the Sertraline altogether but did take macro doses during this time as well.
I agree Laura, the way you documented was realistic honest graceful and true to the experience. From the perspective of someone who also did it and wants the world to understand it instead of judging what they don’t know… I am grateful for your video.
This is the best RU-vid video I've ever watched. The descriptions and editing is outstanding. It even brought tears to my eyes. Laura is my favourite youtuber by far!!!!
There are so many wonderful comments here. I wish I could reply to them all. To let you know, I have read every single one up until this point, and I thank you so much for commenting 🙏
your open honest sincere intentions translates across the medium of yt video into the consciousness of those of us awaiting our own "signals" bidding us to open and enter the vast inner skyway that goes as deep as the stars are wide..both infinite and lovingly intersecting at this sacred point of, in and thru our awareness.. 🙏💜🕯💧🌱🐾👣🌿🌎🕊
Loved it, you could tangibly see the change toward yourself, the authentic you was given permission to shine and not feel "bad", the world needs your light so much, it was there shinning all along. I already loved you before your experience, but it really comes down to each of us feeling and seeing and believing that uniqueness and goodness within ourselves. I meet so many beautiful people who struggle with loneliness, fear, disconnection, addictions, depression or anxiety and they are awesome individuals but they cannot "see" it they only "see their shadow" as seen through past events or trauma. Stay in the light and don't hide it for it is who you are made to be.
I absolutely loved you sharing your wonderful amazing experience aswell as the elegant way you have shown it. And the after experience sounds like you’ve done lots of work on you I’d absolutely love to experience what you did. Where is the retreat can you or anyone add the link please well done you for moving out your mums and overcoming your fear of being alone too 👍👌
Her experience of out of body flying is what I had experienced when I was a young boy at around 14 without taking any drug to alter my mind. As a matter of fact I couldn't wait to get home after school to do it, it was awesome while it lasted, then one day it stopped and I couldn't do it anymore. I'm 70 yrs young now. Thank you Laura for sharing your experience, I grow my own shrooms but I only microdose, I'm hesitant to go on a drug induced journey. Maybe some day I'll have enough courage.
Did you have any trauma in your childhood? My husband could lucid dream when I met him. He didn’t have a great childhood. Slowly, he has lost the ability. He says he thinks it’s because life is so good now he has no need to escape to a dream. Melted my heart. I am so happy he came to be with us. And that me and my son could help him heal simply by being his tribe. People he came to depend on…and us him.
Interesting to hear this. I also had the same experience. I'd not really given it much thought since, funny how our memories work. It was tangible and went way beyond mere imagination. I wonder how many others have shared this?
Interesting, I too lucid dream and have had out of body experiences and looking back I do wonder if my out of body experiences were my way of trying to escape the stresses of my life.
Dear Laura, what shines through, beyond the beautiful and stunning journey, is your humble and indefatigable spirit. As always, you share so authentically that you remove barriers for others along the way. Thank you! ❤
Laura's experience of sadness following the retreat reminds me of people who had near death experiences and struggled to integrate them into their daily lives. Also, longing for the feeling of oneness and encompassing love they had during their NDE I think can sharpen the pain of any emotional deficits in the life they're returning to. I see parallels.
@@LauraTryUK Laura, many people who have had died (NDE- Near Death Experience), came back to tell of their experiences tell stories similar to your 'journey' ... traveling through colors and light, the feeling of expansion into oneness etc. They also struggle with the integration of the experience ... the contraction after the expansion. It can feel like depression.
Me too. I'm 69 and have taken Magic Mushrooms a few times but I think Laura's experience is on a whole different level. I lived in Holland for a while, back in the early 80s. Happy Days.🏴 😅
I'm 51 and my friend is the person who flooded the UK with the truffle spore kits and became a multi-millionaire around twenty years ago now. His greed meant that Blair became aware and changed the loophole. I'm surprised that truffles seem new to people here, considering you're all my elders.
@@thekeysman6760 Not new to the awareness, but more the controlled and safe environment that Laura experienced. Personally I have never entertained anything like this before, I prefer a glass of wine and being in control. However, this experience, with these people, is attractive
@@Mark..P Interesting. I don't feel so "in control" with alcohol! It's a depressant and potentially opens one up to energies I'd rather not mix with, if you get my drift? Yes, there were spaces held for this back over twenty years ago in the UK too, including for Ayahuaska. And "not new to " is pretty deep and I'm not sure what you mean.
I experienced my first psilocybin retreat 2 months ago. I had mushrooms at 3.5grams and it sent me off quite quickly. About 10 mins in I was in discomfort and nauseous. I’m not sure if I actually vomited or the act of vomiting but as this happened I was able to see and feel the agony and pain of my ancestral lineage spilling out through a cosmic Milky Way tunnel. They all spill out as I was physically doubled over a bucket. I let out two hollowing screams that was not of my own. Then it was all calm and a Devine Spirit came to me. She was magnificent and glowing bright. She reminded me of me before human life and I remembered; the immerse feeling of home. She explained to me my purpose and my agreement to come into this life. Then I was reborn going through the cosmic Milky Way of some sort. My own Devine spirit separated from my human self. This is how I can explain it, my physical body and my Devine spirit became one and my human self was on the sidelines watching my Devine spirit in my human body moving to the icaros performed by the Shamans. Messages were sent through. I’m still processing everything, I can feel a shift that’s slowly happening. My anxiety is gone and I feel a profound sense of inner peace. 🙏
Very interesting, thank you for sharing your experience! That's a gift that you conceptualized and channeled the grief and tribulations of your ancestors. I'm thinking I could do this maybe 5 or 10 years from now, after I've established my career. As an Atheist, I now realize that I could experience some kind of personal experience with interactions of divine beings in my mind and the imagery that my mind associates with that, whatever it may be. If that happens, I'll have to accept the fact that under the influence, it will feel very very real. Whatever happens after that, I hope it is meaningful, and I hope that you find personal and interpersonal meaning in your experience so we can all make the world a better place, no matter our background.
Best video I have seen on mushroom trip. The retreat idea is great. organized and safe and with plenty of time for things. So well put together in this video. Well done!
This reminded me of a few experiences I had when I was about 20 years old in the mid-70s. In the late 60s and 70s, taking psychedelics was a common experience for many youth. We didn’t have the danger of drugs like fentanyl and you could take these things for five bucks. On one psilocybin mushroom trip I took, I started out with some friends and I eventually ended alone up in my bedroom, which turned into a garden of Eden. It was so beautiful with colors that I couldn’t describe and waterfalls that came alive. I felt a deep sense of peace. I felt that everything I had identified with fell away at a certain point. I was a working musician at the time and it was a big part of my identity. This identification fell away like the floor falling out beneath me. But it wasn’t disturbing at all. I felt my essence without any need for attributes and it was a purely satisfying feeling. In this state, I started laughing at the fact that I had identified myself so strongly with my personality and with being a musician. My essence was interconnected with everything around me and the personality part of myself felt superfluous at the time. These psychedelic experiences had a profound effect on me that lasted. Although I didn’t do psychedelics again after this period in my youth, I believe these experiences were what later inspired me to become a spiritual seeker, and to learn to meditate. Through these experiences, I learned that the universe is vast and multi-dimensional, and that our usual experience of is very limited.
I haven't been to a retreat, but I've been on a solo psilocybin journey since April because I'm very introverted by nature. Last Saturday was my 6th session and I was cosmically guided to take my very first heroic dose. There are no earthly words which can properly describe what I experienced, but it was extremely profound. It started out like any other trip, but then it quickly accelerated and I found myself absolutely bursting with Love. It was so overwhelming that I almost couldn't stand it. The light and colors that I saw do not exist on earth, I was on another plane which I can only describe as heaven. It was very similar to a near death experience and literally everyone was with me. We were all one big f-ing rainbow sourced from the same divine light and unconditional Love. I saw no human forms, only energy and color. I kept repeating over and over, "he never left. He never left us! He never f-ing left!" The Love filled me so much that I stopped breathing several times, but I was not afraid or uncomfortable. I felt very safe. I finally started coming down after around 6 hours, but did not fully come down until over 12 hours later. My mushroom trips usually last around 5 hours total. It's now 5 days later and I am still processing what happened and my gratitude and empathy is through the roof, as well as several mystical synchronicities. My severe C-PTSD and major depression feels so much more organized and manageable and it's actually scary to finally feel like actual progress is being made. All my Love to everyone who is on their healing journey or who are thinking about it. You got this!
I had my first experience, and the mushrooms showed me love. It was an amazing experience! They took me down deep into the earth…I felt like I was deep in the ocean, and at the same time deep into the earth…I saw colors and small creatures…loved it.
I so desire to re-experience my "trip" I had during early 80.s. it's effects and rellizations🎉have helped me cope with depression and anxiety . I cannot explain it . I am now toward the end of my life and want to live the rest of it without depression /anxiety. I can't afford retreats and hesitant to "pasture pick" the mushrooms. I will find a way. I must.
Holy guacamole .... or should I say psilocybin Laura!!! There's a reason why I'm subscribed to your channel. You're real, relatable, have interesting content and create great videos. This one knocked it out of the park. Thank you for your efforts and willingness to step into the unknown. Simply the BEST!
I visited Essence last July. It was my first psilocybin experience and was a combination of beautiful visuals and difficult revelations. Dealing with those revelations has changed my life. Thanks for posting this video. It brings back good memories.
@@creativityworkoutsforartan6951 Okay thanks, glad to hear yours went well, I am having some psilocybin therapy in Alicante next week and hope I get what I need from it too.
What we need to remember is that everyone’s journey can and will be so so different - you come into this world with ancestral trauma ++ you also have portals open and entities that can confuse your thoughts whilst on your journey .. and lastly everyone is looking for that aha moment but what you need to remember is that you are the aha moment - inner work is the key ..❤
You start by acknowledging peoples different experiences, and then you end by saying you know what everyone is looking for and how to find it. Universal is universal. Human beings are and will always be finite beings within the infinite. The infinite is knowable and we should try to know as much of it as possible, but at the same time we always will be finite and have limited finite connection/awareness/knowledge of the infinite. Meaning, a leap for many people is to understand it is not one or the other, it is all of the above, both the inner and the outer, the finite and the infinite. Unconditional love is universal and without ANY limitations.
Laura, Thank you for sharing and caring to include us in your journey. My story of silence started after being a victim of a mass shooting in the United States in 2008. Slowly I became isolated and extremely bullied, targeted and retaliated against. With no help or police protection, I became completely silent. I had dreamed, yearned to have dreams to take me away and to give me answers, but it never came. Until your video. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us!!!! 🙏🌹 Peace, love and many amazing trips.😍
I love how you explore the after phase. It is so important that the science and medical community continue to research this. It would be amazing to have medically guided treatments.
Of all the experiences I read and head about, not many focused on the integration, yet it's the most important part. So thank you for commenting about it 🙏
@@LauraTryUK Agreed! I learned so, so much after my hero dose. I believe that it's because while in that space, during the trip, I experienced such a profound sense of peace and clarity around everything being perfect. Having experienced that peace, I had the mental structure going forward to create that space for myself once again for healing. Once you know everything is perfect, the ability to bring up traumas and work on them, to process them, becomes easy and second nature. There's no fear there any longer. What is trauma in the face of perfection and complete wholeness? This is the gift mushrooms gave me: The ability to heal myself. Such a beautiful plant medicine! Peyote works similarly, and I've had amazing experiences with nature, myself, the universe and others while working with Abuelo.
yes and no.... big psilo would be a tragic disaster and we must not allow this to happen....so no, it would not be amazing to have medically guided treatments....not at all....what you are really saying here is that you are scared..... and thats ok to be scared, but own it..... and explore what is already here around you.
I’ve taken it many times, every experience is different, I’ve had ego death, it’s aided in my shadow work, it’s helped with my addiction and mental disorders, it truly is a beautiful experience and I absolutely love your experience 💗 it helps with so many things and made me change my perspective on the world.
I took l.s.d. in the late 60s and at first loved it and was mentally addicted, unfortunately I think the human mind is not capable of living in ecstasy and I suffered many bad trips which took me many years to get over, but even after all the suffering I still believe it was worthwhile for all the wisdom it gave me and turned me into a loving and caring person.
That ‘now I understand’ at the end gave me chills. SUCH a fantastic video, Laura - maybe your best yet! Thank you so much for sharing this incredible experience with us, thank you for your courage, vulnerability and open heart. Wishing more joy, love and peace for you. 🙏🏽💛
You will only ever regret the things you didn’t do. Please don’t wait any longer. Your happiness is your birthright. Give to yourself what the world never will, which is to live your life fully with all your heart. You are loved …In fact, you are love itself. Happy travels! ❤
Wow. I smiled for the last 30 minutes of the video no stop. So emotional, filled with joy and empathy. I have had a similar experience 10 years ago but with another substance. I then got the message "I am you and you are me" nothing matters - in a humble way. Thanks for reminding me of this 🙏
I tried the mushroom as a tea and it has changed my life. I have been on over 60 different drugs and nothing ever helped me until I started micro dosing with mushrooms. It is the only time in my life I want to be alive or say " I can do a day like this if I were on mushrooms it's not so bad" seriously helped change my life for the better. Ty for sharing this.
Beautifully described. No idea why Psilocybin has been demonised when it’s so useful . I had the best time on mushrooms and it’s given me the mental resilience to deal with everything life throws. Massive love to all my lkindred spirits in the comments Thanks Laura ❤️👊
I can’t imagine what it’s like to not have constant overwhelming negative chitchat in my mind. No amount of meds, talk therapy, meditation ect seems to alter it. Thanks for making this option not seem so scary. Congratulations on your breakthroughs 🙏🏻
Do you have any experience with cold plunges? I have used them when I am feeling down and nothing has ever come close to the immense and natural feeling of relief. Apparently it literally doubles the amount of dopamine in your system which I know can be desperately needed when mood is low enough.
@@SamBarrassthank you for the suggestion! My psychologist recommended this but I’m let to try it. She suggested sucking on ice or using an ice pack - something to do with the brain not being able to stress or be depressed when the nervous system is being triggered by sudden temperature changes. I’ve heard there are many health benefits to cold plunging. I’ll give it a try!
you did such an amazing job here, this is probably the best piece of content on RU-vid about the topic. you nailed the calm welcoming presentation energy and approached the whole experience with so much respect. you really inspired me to make a RU-vid video sharing my mushroom experience.
@@LauraTryUK the effect it had on you and the care and time you took is totally evident 🙏 not to give a spoiler for those still watching, but i think just about everyone who has tripped has the same feeling you shared towards the end, "if everyone in the world did this once probably lots of the world's problems would go away." it's unreal that it's treated as an illegal drug
Thank you for sharing this experience with us. Very informative and compelling. I find all your videos educational and inspiring. Thank you for all the work and time you put into them. You are a magical, amazing person!!!!
Everything you said about thinking people didn't like you because you knew the old you and didn't like what you saw, and depression for life, and self sabotage were such relatable moments and I have gratitude towards that vulnerability as I really do believe videos like this need as much in-depth information as possible, and just wanna say you did an amazing job at that in the first 10 mins. I also have major depression and psilocybin seems to be the only thing that can help my depression, either micro dosing, or heroic dosing. Great video, thank you.
Thank you so much for sharing. I suffer from heavy depressions and PTSD for decades. Lot's of therapy didn't work for long. I never found the courage to try mushrooms/truffles, but it seemed to be a good thing. Your journey gave me the stamina to say YES, i'm going for my journey. ❤❤❤❤❤
My recovery journey from PTSD, anxiety and depression was aided by the constant use of psilocybin mushroom, got hooked up with this dude that helped me on how to go about it, also have Adderall, Xanax, Oxys, Lsd and many others.
This is so strange. I was just looking at getting a pair of these shoes. And then today on a course, I was talking to a lovely lady about this exact experience. I'm in tears watching this. All feels like it was meant to happen today. I'd love to know more about the place you went. And I'm so proud of you, as I could feel your anxiety about how it was all going to feel in my tummy. You make me feel like I could maybe do this too. Thank you. Sending love x
As someone else that's 'travelled', you explained the experience perfectly. So much so that you brought the feeling back to me as I watched and listened. Smiled and cried remembering. I described it as the world is in HD after taking it. I agree, every single person should try it. The world would be a much more beautiful and magical place. This video is incredible, you should be proud of yourself Laura. Well done.
@@LauraTryUK thank you for your wonderful video! Must have taken so long to put together (coming from a fellow editor). Yes, I had several watching your video. The feeling of unconditional love came back to me as you were describing what you went through. I can’t tell you how eloquent you were with your language. I’ve struggled to explain what I experienced to others for years & you absolutely nailed it. You will require top up sessions to keep that magic. But my last one was 18 months ago & I’m only just feeling called again. In fact I’m taking this video as a sign I need to go on another adventure. Life can easily bring you away from that feeling & I think a dose every couple of years is a great way to maintain it. Incredible to see the after affects for you. There’s a reason this stuff is called magic 💫🤍 Thanks again Laura. Love your channel.
Laura, As I watched I felt exactly what myvanworld said about your video. Beautiful, intimate, truthful and hopeful. I am now a subscriber. Thank you for a wonderful piece of art!
I have never seen or watched you before Laura. In fact I really don't even know how I came upon this video. It must have been fate. At first I was just curious about this type of experience. Then I saw your name (we share the same) and heard you describe the reason you did this, I completely felt you speak into my being. Your sceptical approach and history of judgemental self-talk with bouts of depression is personally very familiar. The type of images you saw & continue to see (intense beauty of nature, ie the Lamas) filled my heart with a desire for the same for myself as well as the whole world- in particular, our leaders and our physicians and teachers. I cried tears of joy for you and am grateful that another being has experienced something so profound and beautiful that it has changed your life for the better- that you now are able to experience more joy, awe and wonder in everyday living. I honour your courage to be vulnerable and authentic... and open in your sharing. What you have done here is totally relatable and gives those of us who question what is wrong with us (as we are) to take an inward journey and trust that we may discover our inner being is fully connected and lacks nothing. I hope I too may have this type of freeing experience one day. Thank you sister! May the Avvatar-like beauty always surround and dwell inside of you.
This was possibly the best account / trip report I've ever listened to. The way you narrated the experience was brilliant and almost felt like I went through it with you. Your experience came across as extremely positive but have to remember everyone's experience is different because we all have different reasons that took us to this point. Great work and tha k you for sharing
So much baggage in the psychedelic term, so much negativity heaped onto mushrooms. Thank you Laura for helping to clean up this mess, thank you for helping to heal us all.
Hi there! I just went to a similar retreat last weekend. My experience was quite different. I had a lesson from an invisible being in how to use my new learnings with the psilocybin into my life. I called her “cogumelinha”, the Portuguese name for little lady mushroom. I think cogumelinha was the part of myself we call higher self. The voice told me that people are afraid of expanding their conscience because they are afraid of the void, and loosing their individuality. The voice told me we are part of the void, and everything else is our manifestation. We decide what to manifest, the shadows or the beauty. I saw very little. Just in the beginning I saw the light net. The one that takes care of nature. And learned we should do our own for the humanity. I drew whatever the voice told me, I read the books in the altar at the center, and I felt totally connected to nature and the people at the retreat. As I am in the path of learning about my real self it was a light trip. I do prefer mine without psychodelics. But it was a nice experience. It didn’t change me, but I learned more tools to go deeper within, and to be there for others that are willing to do this dive. The change will come after I use the tools. Conclusion: it was beautiful and insightful. BTW, it happened in Brazil.
Thanks for sharing, indeed we are all part of the void, we all share this world, and our consciousness will come together, but we will still know our as individuals, Joy and beauty to you 🌛🌛🌞🌞💜💜
I admire you, Laura, for being so vulnerable and showing us, your viewers, your inner scape experience. You are in my heart....why am I crying as I watch you crying? Mirror neurons? Thank you for being a true journalist....a life journal. I learn more from these type of videos than reading a book. Again, thank you, Earth sister, for sharing your life journey.
This is one of the most important videos on RU-vid. There are so many messages of pure positivity, love, and trust. Even if I never try magic mushrooms, I have gained so much from this wholesome and beautiful video. Thank you so much for sharing everything about the journey and for being open about your experiences with depression when you were describing your reasons for going on the retreat. Thank you Laura :)
What an absolutely beautiful and profound journey you've taken us on. Great story telling and visuals. It really took me back to my experiences. I used psilocybin recreationally and often while at college in Texas, where shrooms and cows were abundant, especially in east Texas. The last time I journeyed was with a small group of friends a couple of years ago, and although much of the journey was directed inward, when I shifted my focus outside I became aware of a light behind me, consistently following me. I kept turning around thinking someone was shining a light on my back. Since there wasn't any artificial source, I assumed "I was the light." I'm very happy for you Laura Try. Aloha from Maui, Hawaii.
I followed you from the beginning, I love all your videos but this one moved me to my core. Thank you for sharing, I cannot express or convey with words, all the emotions in me, watching this. You’re awesome x
Laura. After a break up and divorce tangled up with some narcissistic abuse and gaslighting I’ve been struggling over the past few years. I ended up pursuing reiki and understanding more about energy and the universe in a bid to rebuild myself. Part of that journey involved microdosing psilocybin in tiny doses over 8 weeks. What happened over the time was I became progressively more angry, more aggressive, literally ready to jump into a fight at any moment no bullshit. On the last day of dosing I found myself in tears sobbing and in a really dark dark place mentally. I never took the last dose it obviously stirred up a lot and taking such a mass dose like yours I don’t know that I could do it. I heard all the stories about how it would reduce my depression and increase my flow state where everything just works and I’m firing on all cylinders, but none of that happened. I set my intention to release me from what was no longer serving me and I felt like I got thrown into the depths of the pit of that emotion. It was a scary place and I didn’t like who I was at that time. I salut your bravery
Psilocybin certainly reveals what is lurking within - the good and not so good. It's great you recognised what it was doing to you. Sorry you didn't get exactly what you needed. Perhaps it did more than you realised? I have travelled and micronised since - I can relate to what you say. The psilocybin find the cracks and opens them up, revealing all that is inside. It can be painful and agonising. It can also be a healing process. I hope that helps and you can feel better soon xx
I'd like to share that the accute large doses where really helpful for me, but microdosing, not so much. For me microdosing kept me in a weird mental place all day long for weeks and during that prolonged period your setting is changing all the time so you are really susceptible to absorbing your environment, it's difficult to control the environment for long periods of time to ensure a positive experience. Personally I wouldn't write off a single large dose whilst discontinuing the micro dosing. Either way I wish you well.
i think you kind of have to go through the mud to come out the other side. perhaps you are allows to feel angry and get that out of your system and then peace will the follow afterwards
@@syproductions456 Agreed. Large doses are where the big catalyzing messages and visions come through. Microdosing, I feel, is not very helpful at all without some big doses from time to time. Microdosing helps integrate the messages from the larger doses. If you look at cultures that practiced psychedelics for healing, it was almost always larger doses. If you go to a retreat like in this video, its usually moderate to larger doses or they work you up to it.
you’ve been through a traumatic experience and there is no by passing the grief, anger, etc al that comes as part of the healing…walking through the dark to get to the light. Nothing is wrong with your experience; perhaps finding support while going through your healing will be a welcome point. Much love to you; I’ve been through that valley and feel lucky I came out alive…it took time, longer than I had expected; perhaps the psylo will speed the process but it won’t bypass it.
I haven't traveled for more then 15 years, still, watching your experience pull me right back into the experience. Not as in experiencing a trip in my head or body, but it's end result and it's afterglow. Noone without the experience can ever come close to knowing what it's like to travel. So, it's quite natural to feel apprehensive about taking off. You will get that feeling even if you have done it before. If I want to compare it to anything, I'd compare it to sex. You won't understand what it's like until you tried it, and you can get jittery when you know you're going to experience it most every time you do it. Taking psilocybin is like having the most intimate experience with the Universe
“I want everyone to feel this feeling”. In my understanding, the powers at be does not want us to feel it. To be free. Thanks for making this. I want to try it. ❤
Wow.......this was really, really well-done. And I am totally impressed with the results so far. It's quite surprising that some of the social barriers have melted away, allowing you to better enjoy people and form new relationships. The shrinks, I am certain, would say this is exceptionally healthy. Thank you, Laura. I need to think about this!
@@LauraTryUK Laura, your experience and other studies I have done on the use of psychedelics for "improved cognitive function" really has my attention. I see the possibility of a "short cut" in dealing with persistent psychological/emotional issues....the type that prolonged therapy and medications fail to resolve (huge problem, rarely discussed). As I watched your video, I was thinking about a fascinating series of video made way back in the early '60's (I think) where a group of patients with fairly serious mental disorders, e.g., schizophrenia, severe depression, etc.) entered a very controlled study administered by trained psychiatrists. The patients were counseled before, during and after being given LSD in specified dosages. The therapists wanted to know if these patients could be helped via a combination of counselling and the hallucinogenic. Again, a very controlled process, with the therapist using verbal 'coaching' tailored to the individuals condition. After the LSD experience, the patients received continued counselling and were closely observed for a long time to determine effects over time. Results were miraculous, almost too good to believe. Post-treatment, even the patients who had disabling mental illness prior were able to resume a normal life, usually with healthy relationships and the improvements were sustained. I cannot post links, but a google search of LSD studies in the early 60's, late 50's will get you there. There's many reasons these results did not lead to use of psychedelics in mental health treatment, but the main one was a strong resistance to hallusinegenics by the government and pharmaceutical companies beginning in the early 60's. The mind tries hard to retain "ego barriers" that prevent significant changes in our thought processes.....and as you suggested, the psychedelics might have the unique ability to lower those barriers long enough for the "rewiring" to take place, over a relatively short period of time I'm totally excited about this recent video......and could almost see it spawn a series of similar videos delving into this incredible new possibility, since the potential is so vast for improving lives. Sorry for the book....and thank you again!
Wow… I’m sure by now you realise what you did for us, without taking this journey ( Yet ) has already done something, at least to me.. I felt like you took me on a personal journey walked me through it with utter care and consideration… that was so powerful.. emotional and beautiful, seeing your transformation and just following through and trusting, even if I’m sure it got tough along the way.. c Can’t thank you enough ❤ for taking the journey and taking us with you…. This video is very honest and it’s touched many hearts 💕 Thank you 💕❤️💕
I have ALWAYS loved your channel. This full experience video was incredible. Thank you SOOOOOOOO much for sharing. I have wanted to go on a psilocybin retreat before but now it is going on my vision board with strong intention! CONGRATS on your results!!!!!!!! And YES this 'post' part was also VERY helpful and inspiring!!!!
Absolutely! It's incredible to see how psilocybin mushrooms and psychedelics have the potential to make a positive impact on mental health. They've shown promising results in treating depression and anxiety. It's exciting to think about the possibilities they hold for helping people.
This is BY FAR the best video ever made on any psychedelic experience ❤ THANK YOU 🙏🏻 ❤ I took mushrooms with no effect, LOL. But I ALREADY cry when I see animals, insects, random families and children. Because of the BEAUTY and MAJESTY of life!!! I already am like that. I’m have a kind of synesthesia 🤷♀️ I already KNOW everything is one. I grew mushrooms myself, even the truffles or philosophers stones and yep. No effects. It would be interesting to test my brain for inner communication 😊❤
You didn't take enough. Try 5 grams of dried cubensis on an empty stomach alone in the dark..What Terrence McKenna called a heroic dose. If that doesn't work your brain is one in a million. Don't take it as recommendation though. Theres also dmt, which is way more potent and interesting.
Thank you so much for this Laura. I did a journey but with 5-MeO-DMT during my grad school days. It’s very true that the accounts often talk about the trip itself but not so much about the post trip integration. The trip itself was intense but the integration is way more intense. I had so much anger and fear I needed to address and I also observed that my inner voice didn’t sound so harsh - I was able to stop myself easily before I got to a super negative spiral, which I used to fall down so easily before. The kindness and the wish for everyone to feel the same way was huge. I have been thinking for a while about trying again, this time with psilocybin, and this video confirmed it. My dad (who went on the same retreat) also said the comment that potential politicians and leaders should try this before even thinking of going for a position - seems like we’re not alone in this idea!
That’s exactly how I felt after psilocybin, now I understand. It’s overwhelming a bit at times. But I’m so grateful for what has been revealed to me. Truly changed me and how I will live the rest of my life. TY for sharing your journey. 🙏🏼
I do believe it is universal. This idea that people say that everyone has a different experience la de dah etc.....no....it is universal.....we are one.
Laura, well what can I say, the way you tell your story of this experience is absolutely brilliant. I have used magic mushrooms in the past and totally understood everything you went through and at some points I was crying with emotion at how beautiful your 'travelling' was and the things you shared like 'I wish everyone could experience this', the world would absolutely be a much nicer place. Thank you so much for making this video, you smashed it girl!
What an amazing video Laura! You explained all your emotions and apprehentions so well. All the visuals you used were amazing and really gave us an insight into your trip/travels. I have taken magic mushrooms but a long time ago and only recreationally. There is always a come down after and a feeling of over tiredness like you explained. So glad that this all worked out so well for you and has had a positive impact. I remember having the same idea about the world leaders taking it after I took it! You really are one of the best RU-vidrs! No BS just authentically you!
Thank you so much for this post. Watching it helped me experience what I already had a glimpse of through my spiritual work, which is to be no body and connected to everything. Your video was so beautiful that brought me tears. Now I am wanting to go to the retreat and go on the journey myself. So much love from Japan❤
I am so intrigued by your journey. It appears you really had a beneficial journey. I have these types of experiences twice a week with strobotropic brain entrainment. Sometimes, I see the universe unfold while I lay still. My mind projects fractals into my mind's eye...or the projector onto my eyelids. Much like your trip. Light can produce this effect. It calms me. Mind you, I work in the downtown bus station in Las Vegas. I see humanity as grity as it can be. These sessions remind me, I am not gritty. I am there to hand someone a clean towel to wipe the grit off their hands. Yet, I don't let them pull me into the muck. This takes balance!
Thank you so much for sharing Laura 🙏 I did 2 mushroom sessions 6 months apart last year and am still experiencing the healing and growth 12 months on! I found watching your travels confirmed so many things I experienced too. Especially the knowledge of how beautiful our world is and would be if everyone went on one of these adventures 🦋🧚♀️ Lots of love to you LT ❤
I’m still experiencing benefits, ups and downs on life’s roller coaster 🎢 but just seem to manage things better so I don’t feel the need to do it again now. I would in the future because this is by far the most effective method I have ever had for managing depression etc 🎉 Love your channel and how much you Share ❤
I feel a sense of sadness and deep anxiety watching this. For some it’s a beautiful experience for me it was different, I wish I could heal myself through psychedelics. I did try and it produced ptsd and panic disorder 15 years later I still have panic disorder. I’m so glad you had this experience but it’s not for everyone I dare say. I think a balanced and careful approach is always needed when considering this journey. Again I’m not trying to say they’re bad at all, but for me it did a lot of damage to my psyche, It can be great for some people and for others not so much. ❤
I absolutely agree that it's a decision that requires a lot of research and careful consideration, it's a powerful medicine. People respond very differently to different substances, prescription medicines and even food, what is right for one is not necessarily right for another. My own experience was a positive one and probably saved my life. I did a lot of research, found a retreat with a private session (better for me, due to social anxiety) and prepared myself as much as possible. However, I believe that it's potentially safer to start with small doses and lead up to a heroic dose if it feels right for the individual. But the illegality in many countries makes it difficult to do multiple guided sessions over a long period of time. People either do it in secret, without guidance (which has risks) or go straight to a large dose at a retreat. I definitely think that safe use of this medicine requires legalisation.
It is very difficult if not impossible to properly communicate on these comments and much can be misunderstood. With the best intentions and love towards you, your particular experience can be caused by many complex factors, of which psilocybin may be only a small factor. It depends on what exactly you used, how you used it, when you used, etc. I do not understand your intention making a negative comment that does not provide necessary information for anyone considering this type of therapy. Maybe you are being sincere, but please consider others and how your comment can impact others and mislead them. I very much disagree with making such blanket statements without any details, its like a smear on psilocybin (if thats even what you took). Also, if you suffer from these panic disorders, I very very strongly disagree that taking psilocybin gave these to you, this is simply not the case. There are many complex factors in your life which contributed to you suffering from panic disorders. It is simply much more complex than trying to reduce it to and blame a singular compound. Psilocybin helps the body to heal through neurogenesis, it does not cause damage. It is possible you had deep unresolved trauma in your mind and the psilocybin reconnected you to this and that is what causes your negative experiences.
Haven't watched the video but I already liked it because I know it's going to be a great one. Edit: oh my god Laura, what you express about your depression is the exact same feeling I have felt since I was a child. I'm crying. I understand that feeling and I hope this helped you, 🤗
Great video and explanation! I’ve always felt too afraid to try this for all the reasons you share and mainly the lack of control to get out of the trip if needed. Watching you share your experience has really helped open me to the idea of this kind of experience. Thank-you.
the idea that there is a "grip" that "you" need to "get" is an illusion, as she presented. when you do try it, don't attempt to resist anything, like the professionals guided Laura
My wife was talking to me last night about a friend who took mushrooms recently. Gotta love how yt is listening to my conversations and decided to share this with me.
What a shame there is such a person who would report you. People should be more openminded and let others just be what they want to be. I liked your video a lot and appreciated the content.
Thank you for making this video. It is absolutely amazing and so informative. I’ve watched every documentary I can find on the subject. I have now seen this 3 times and shared it with friends. 👍🏻
I wonder if it’s a little like Ketamine therapy , sounds very similar. A couple of doctors have suggested I try Ketamine for chronic pain as I’m in end stage renal failure and on dialysis…..🙏🏼❤️
On Ketamine you dissociate, leave your body, your consciousness travels. It's not under your control however, so if you have a high need for control it will be scary. It's not a drug high like alcohol, pot or opiods. The onset feels like going down, like in an elevator or a plane, not a great feeling, but then that goes away. It really helped with my executive functioning, which then helped my mood secondarily. It's 40 mins for the IV procedure, which can cause emesis, and about an hour til discharge and then a 90-120 min nap. You feel sort of drunk at the end of the procedure, balance a little unsteady.
It absolutely was Laura! I've been toying with the idea myself, i even grew some mushrooms from a kit I bought online, but haven't had the courage to do the heroic dose yet. I struggle with many of the same issues you speak of but was scared to dive into it. I've been micro dosing and it seems to have had a subtle but positive effect. I have a friend who does cocao ceremonies among other spiritual gatherings who has offered to facilitate. Now seeing your experience has made me less apprehensive about the whole thing. So thank you, i think I'll give it a try sometime this summer. I just want to say you are such an inspiration doing what you do. Xx
This is *so* well done. You really put a lot of effort and thought into this clearly and I think this will help a lot of people interested in this therapy. Congratulations!
No words can describe the experience, and no amount of research can give you an idea of what it's truly like. It is not something that can be controlled nor should be, and every time is different. You have to accept and give yourself to the mushrooms in a sense and accept anything and everything that comes your way.
It's a shame. I have 2 accounts - this one (where I post videos) and my main account (where I just watch). I'm subscribed to Laura on both accounts but I only got the recommendation for this video on this account (where I follow significantly fewer people). Usually Laura's videos are recommended to me on both my channels, so I'm guessing this video was suppressed by RU-vid for some reason. And from watching her videos, I know that she put a ridiculous amount of time into shooting, scripting, storyboarding, and editing this (and it shows - her editing is leaps and bounds above where it was even just a few videos ago!). Again, it's a shame, but this really is an incredible video and even though it won't maker her as much money as some of her other "challenge-type" videos, I'm still just grateful that she took the time to edit this. Thanks Laura. Wishing you all the best on your RU-vid (and Life) journey!
I was diagnosed with chronic depression. 7 years anti-depressant SSRI and no answers in a pill, just dangerously flatlined emotions. Since discovering the "majic" of mushrooms, I resent and leave pharmaceuticals behind In a world of so many questions there are not many answers, Psylociben helps us understand to enjoy and engage the mysteries of life great analyzation of your experience. beautiful thank you
I had a youth and young adulthood full of cosmic, spiritual, inner travelling through psychedelics. We never treated it as a healing thing but as a reconnection with the world and refinding our place in the universe. That is what I always took from it, how connected we are with everything and everyone. That was a long time ago in many galaxies far,far away but inside us always.
The great lesson is if you want peace and love cast no ONE out in your mind. You can't invite everyone over for dinner, but you can embrace or accept a love that includes all within yourself Unconscious guilt or the belief that we are separate from our source is the only problem and source of suffering we realy have. So we awaken in a world of illusion that we created as a substitute for what we threw away and like the prodigal son that wandered into a far country where everything rots and dies lost in a maze of sacrifice of pleasure and pain we learn once again that what we see outside is a projection of what we believe inside
Thank you Laura, by your courage I was able to go through with this. I wish everyone could experience what I just experienced. It was tense but a deep appreciation of awe & gratitude to life! Anxiety & depression have robbed me of this. Don’t be afraid to live it!
Very well produced documentary film in every aspect. This is the first vid of yours I have seen but I'm subbing your channel now, and going to check out the rest of your content.
44g! 😮 I did some truffles once in Amsterdam and think it was 2.5gs and had a lovely time, can’t imagine this much! But loving this video so far (couldn’t wait until I got to the end to comment)
What a fantastic and beautiful video ❤ and such a great way to show your raw experience. And the retreat seems great too, a great way to experience psilocybin safely with the aftercare. You can really see how much of you went into creating this video ✨
I wish I could afford a retreat like this. When I was young and dumb I took window pane acid. I was in a bad mood coming home from work. A friend came by and asked if I wanted to join him. He didn't know I was in a bad mood prior. I had a horrible, horrific trip. I remember it vividly. Afterward, I asked him why I had such a bad trip and explained to him that before he stopped by, I was in a horrible mood he just didn't know it. He then explained that's why I had such a bad trip. I will say we were at a park, and when we first partook, the grass was greener than green...it was beautiful, but we left and went back to my apartment...omygoodness..it all went downhill from there. It scared the pants off me, to say the least. I've never touched anything like it sense, and I'm now in my 60s. I would, however, feel more comfortable doing it in such a setting.
I don’t know why watching this video made me so emotional. You describe your personal experience in such a lovely way. I’ve had some experience Microdosing but I’ve never taken a hero dose before. I’d say Microdosing has had a positive effect on my mental wellbeing but it’s not legal where I live so it’s difficult to access. And I’ve had some very difficult struggles in life in the past 10 years; losing several loved ones all within a short span in time really impacted my life. I have managed to cope but not thrive. I feel stuck in paralyzed state or survival mode. I believe mushrooms really do help people and I hope in the years to come they become more understood and available. They really are an incredible resource for healing body and mind.
What a great video and so informative. Didnt know about the 2 weeks rewiring. You were very brave to do that amount for your first time. Thank you for sharing your fear and anxiety and being so honest about it. This video is really helpful, thank you so much 💛
