Idk why but the part "Being lonely is only fun in groups, it loses it's charm when it's true" makes me laugh hysterically. I guess I like dry/ironic humor. XD
It's not really humor. It's more a poetic way of saying "Stop pretending to be lonely because if you were actually lonely you wouldn't be so satisfied when you talk about it to other people and they feel bad for you" It's funny because of how fucked our society is but that's not really a joke is it? It's real...
Two months later. The first month after getting on medication was absolute hell. The depression got worse but finally stabilized, and my creative drive completely died. Once they had a baseline, they changed my medications the second month and it's been a world of difference. I'm getting well. There's a lot of work left to do but I feel hopeful for the first time in years. Medication isn't a fix; it's a tool. Please, to anyone reading this who is on the fence about seeking help, do it. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain
Congrats on making those hard first steps, and don't forget to give yourself credit for it. The road to healthy is long, but when you're daunted by looking ahead and seeing more road stretching out before you, look back at how far you've come. Even a single step forward is proof you can change, and get the darkness out to let light in. So anytime something in your head says "you can't do this" look back and remember "I already did, and I can again".
I started a few months ago. Rocky but I'm feeling better, less and less "what's the point" running through my head. Definitely worth it. I hope every day is better for you.
For some reason, I love this now. It describes my experiences with getting "help" without making me feel sick. Usually, I'd just tune this out but every word hits home without hurting because it sounds like someone who gets it as opposed to someone who "means well" and honestly that's what I love about everything from this band.
Your lyrics videos are so well-made! Perfect timing and excellent use of fonts and edits. :) Thank you for making this and the one for "Hope of Morning", loved them both!
A very good friend introduced me to this band many years ago. It didn't hit me on the right level like it does now. I've suffered from mental health and traumatic experiences my whole life. The last eight months have had such great healing, that I'm now enrolled in classes to help others overcome their struggles. These government agencies are full of heartless uneducated people and aren't helpful. I'm tired of asking for help, let me help myself and others. We can get well, go tell the others we don't have to live this way ❤️
I love this artist. Very meaningful words, plus sung so well with addicting rhythms. But it's exactly as she says in the song; There is no charm in depression or any psychological/psychiatric condition.
I never got it before but I think I get the line "I quit it with the suicidal recital". A recital for a play is a practice, as in not the real thing. I think a suicidal recital is referring to a suicide attempt, with the finished play performance being a successful suicide attempt in which someone dies. So the singer is sick of attempting suicide.
I see it as reciting as in going over it in your head and that being the point you want out but that links most to my personal experience. Or she might mean people making mental illness out to be a phase and the in thing until someone attempts suicide. I think words like anxiety, stress, ocd, depressed get thrown about too much with no meaning and for those of us that actually have them it means more
This song gets me so #deep it can't be real. Everytime I listen to ICH, I feel they relate to my suicidal thoughts and I feel like they complete me. Everyday, I sing/hum/think of one their songs. They make me feel better when I just feel like falling of a mountain head first. I found this band when I thought of dying. Their music is specifically the reason I deal with the bullshit from my mom and school.
........ All I'm dealing with is my mother and school, and being bullied, and going to nuthouses and being adopted. Pretty much a normal person is all.
+TheBloodySage Are you kidding me? You're practically describing yourself. You are accusing someone of being a snotty brat for telling people what their life is like. Seriously, I think you're just seeking attention, to be perfectly honest, which is what brats do, so I think that YOU'RE the brat.
Dude I seriously hate mankind. School is bitch alright? And it's my fault since I'm stuck in a vicious circle! I swear to God people are psychos these days! Call me psycho but always forget the big picture! Fuck life and what it's going through. Fuck you +TheBloodySage and go back to your mommy bitch.
+Gothic Nightmare It's never too late to get better. Never tell yourself your too broken to be fixed. When something breaks it may never be able to be the same as it was, but in a caring hand and a strong heart, it can become something better. Keep on fighting, I know that you are strong enough to win, or at the very least to stubborn to give up. :D
So now you know all my secrets I want out, I know I don't need this Can you find me friends that don't rank me on what I've been through? The more battle scars the more attention it gets you I relate so badly!
Guys: This song is showing/ telling people there's a way out. They are not mocking poeple who don't get help. Which you shouldn't do as well. It doesn't help and makes it worse. People have reasons for doing what they do.
Not at all correct. This song is a calling out people who use depression as an aesthetic for attention, and don't actually want to get better or are just faking it.
@@bigchuncky6061 Oh I've read the definition and meaning of the song I wrote there but what you said.. it can be seen as that as well. People want to stay/be sick so bad but don't want out, even tho there's a way. That's how I interpret the song rn as I'm starting to work hard through all my trauma and that voice keeps telling me to just stay in my sickness cause ey..it's easier. But I fight that voice and want out.
Ouch, this song is... painfully true. I have unfortunately known a few people like this. Years ago I had a friend who loved to complain about how much her life sucked and used it to gain sympathy. On the surface, my life looks pretty good (well, I guess it is good, I can't really complain too much) but it's not perfect. Everybody has their own crosses to bear. I won't got into detail about HOW my life hasn't been perfect but just know that it hasn't. Anyway, I've never really been one to talk too much about my problems. I usually keep them to myself, unless I know that other person really well and even then I kinda follow this philosophy that one should bear their burdens mostly silently. Probably not the healthiest way of thinking, and that's not to say I won't listen to a friend or family member when they need to vent or are seeking advice, but... yeah. Anyhow, my life looking somewhat perfect on the surface + my tendency to silently endure + my refusal to play her game and call her out when she seemed to be over-exaggerating her problems for sympathy = she basically targeted me and pulled the victim card whenever I called her out or said something nasty to her. ...Or argued with her. Admittedly, I do feel a bit bad, because some of those issues of hers did turn out to be real. On the other hand, I do still think that some of it was over-exaggerated and played for sympathy. And god forbid I mention something that she would use as ammo against me, using it as evidence that I had a good life and could never understand the suffering she'd gone through. *sigh* Suffice to say, I wish I'd just walked away from that friendship but she had my best friend manipulated and on her side, and back then I'd rather suffer than be alone. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I did leave... Ah well, you can't change the past I suppose, you can only move forward.
I've been through the experience, and I know what the difference is between being alone and being lonely in a group. Being alone to me is fine if no one bugs me about joining their group so I don't feel embarrassed. It only felt bad when I'd watch the other kids play. Being lonely in a group is.. torment. I had to play along to their jokes and pretend to laugh and enjoy what they did. I just didn't stick to them, and they didn't stick to me. They were this group of "popular mean girls" (they didn't bully anyone but they're pretty much the stereotypical spoiled white girl) and I never really gave any of my input. Fortunately I found a group of friends only a couple years later, and I can actually be myself with them.
David Harding It's on the 2K Forums, and the same character is actually in two different ones. KOW (Kings of Wrestling) and RWF (Ring War Federation). Her name is Amy Valentine, but I play her differently in both feds. KOW Amy= Fucking insane. RWF Amy= Aftermath of KOW Amy, far more sane.
Interesting, I've never done any Roleplaying on the 2K Forums before, but I'm in two different organizations as well. I play multiple characters in both. The first organization I joined was the XWF, X-Treme Wrestling Federation. It's a good fed, with amazing RP'ers and a great staff, but it's defiantly more, let's say, adult than what you're probably used to, no offense. It's like the attitude era to the eighth degree. The three characters I play are Alexis Riot, a streetwise rebel from Chicago, Mike Emerick, a Bray Wyatt like cult leader, and Mike L. Green, a MLG stereotype/big fat nerd. The other organization I'm in is the EWA, E-Fed Wrestling Alliance. While the XWF is composed of entirely original wrestlers made by RP'ers, the EWA takes real life wrestlers and allows you to put your own unique spin on them! The characters I'm currently playing are Matthew Cardona (Zach Ryder), an up and comer tired of being treated like a joke, Los Ice Creams (El Hijo Del Ice Cream and Ice Cream Jr.), a goofball tag team from Mexico, and Sasha Banks, a talented but arrogant female wrestler. Sorry for the long comment, but I just love Efedding! It gives you the chance to live out your dreams of being a pro wrestler without much risk and helps improve your writing skills! I'll check KOW and RWF out, but I'd suggest at least taking a peak at the XWF and the EWA!
David Harding Nice, I'll check it out. As I play a character who's an orphan, constantly bullied, went into depression, and takes medication to help with that, but all it does is make her happy for all the wrong reasons...I think I'll be able to give XWF a shot. LOL. For the record, I DO "own" RWF, but I'm more of a creative executive in the actual booking process.
Anyone coming into these comments and writing out a story about how bad your life is... this song is mocking you. It is not sympathizing. There may be one or two of you, who really do have problems, but then, if you're one of them, this song is telling you to stop feeling sorry for yourself, and to do something about it, because nobody cares anymore, having heard every variation of those stories from the fakers who think being miserable is fun. Well, at least, that's my take on this song.
What you just said sounds like a friend (not really a friend anymore) I had. I'd call her by a nickname similar to her name and she'd say my name really loudly to make people hate me, then she'd say, "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT I WAS IN MY OTHER SCHOOL!" and she steals friends from me all the time. I'm in the process of figuring out a way to become better then her to prove everyone she is just desperate for attention. She lies, tricks people, and whispers to your friends behind your back just to make you feel bad. She jumps person to person, being their best friend then leaving them. Don't feel bad for me, anyone that reads this. She's got something coming to her. #GirlIssues
i can find more possible meanings in this than just that one, that one is true but, i can find another one right off the bat, like i found the meaning of in mental hospitals when they go "insane" they are left alone but that is possibly one of the worst things you can do for them, plus they most of the time aren't really insane
well, i hate people who are complaining about problems that they should be trying to solve, so i guess i can say that this is my song... by the way, i wanna explain this song to someone, any idea what they mean by "suicidal", it might be literal since it's about mental health, but i don't see any evidence for that from the context, so maybe they mean dangerous?
Sadly why I find it so hard to make friends nowadays. Fought tooth and nail to survive with my disadvantages and finally Starting to see redemption. But I’m surrounded by people complacent in their misery and would just rather make TikToks about it like it’s quirky and thinking their storm cloud attitude is completely fine.
Im suicidal and Im tired of faking being normal and not wanting to die and I desperately want to get well. I dont know if I want to get well to please my friends and family or if Im genuinely ready to accept help...
BridgeToNowhere1994 I wouldn't know that either, but I had a similar problem. I have my own baggage and yes I told everyone all of it, but in my case it was for clarity and context, not attention. I talked about the mental conditions I had to get attention, but that was so I could get medical attention not sympathy points. So the question is who are you telling and why? You should be telling your family and your doctors. Tell anyone who is actually capable of helping you using more than just their ears. Don't go telling random strangers this stuff, there's nothing they can do about it. If it all it took was talking to them, you'd probably be cured by now.
+Ethelia Jumper I also think I hear the "elp" as well. we just know it mostly as "hurts like hell" so that's what our minds hear at first? possible? not sure how that works.
The whole song is about how an unofficial support group becomes an enabling group. The speaker isn't content with where they are, and they find other people who understand their problems. So instead of hiding their pain, and show it. They embrace it, a little bit too much. But instead of fixing themselves, it becomes a game of becoming more hurt, than the others, or more than before. They becime proud if being broken, and break eachother more. By the time The speaker realizes how the group is becoming toxic, they don't even know how honest everyone is being. Everyone that needed to be fixed, instead, is caught up in weating they're suicide attempts as if they were acheivements, parading their scars around the same way you would new shoes. But, they are all still broken. And while the speaker wants to get out of it, there is (at least) a friend they tell about how they feel, and ask them to try to get well with them, because even if you've been hurt, you deserve a better life, and can live past the pain.
yea, but when I want a lyric video to watch, hers are always appealing. I listen to the song by it's self and whatnot, but ill just go here if she has it.
Ember Hermin As a tumblr user: Yes. This reminds me of the debate between folks recovering and the Anti-Recovery users saying that Therapy Is Fake(tm) and that recovery is Bad and Makes You Normal. Jfc
@@ursfan Anti-recovery??? I get that some therapies or therapists can do more harm than good, but being entirely against recovering from or at least learning to manage your mental illness? Tumblr is even more insane than I thought.
I know this one girl she has told me she cuts herself and she showed me but it's so hard to tell if she's doing it for attention because on social media she shares the edgiest of shit claims everyone hates her in her new school or if she is actually depressed.
Self-harm is serious whether or not it was done for attention. Anyone willing to hurt themselves to get attention is in serious need of help whether or not they have depression. Sharing edgy shit does not invalidate mental illness. It's not your job to fix her, but if you can, encourage her to get real help.
