Just a heads up. I did delete my discord account as well, but it will apparently take two weeks to show as deleted user. Therefore, though it appears as a normal account, I should caution folks against sending messages via discord. It may not look like it, but that's a dead profile.
Heh, I appreciate you man. While I don't think I'll actually delete this video anytime soon, I'm also not taking down the channel or the videos. Discord was taken down, profile deleted, all that stuff. In terms of youtube, I may end up posting content again. It's just that right now I need a break. Thanks though. I sincerely appreciate the support, means a lot.
Hey Otto. I know I have not been around so much and we haven't spoken as much but just wanted to say I respect your decision. I personally never had an annoying experience with you, but either way I am very glad you see where ever you may need to grow as a person and are addressing it in the way you can. It is a sucky thing that sometimes people start to distance themselves whether it be because of real life or other reasons. I know if I could have been more active, I would have. Just here hoping that you never think badly about that, even if it can be sad at times. I think you should be proud of having and sort of leading a good thing, at least for a while. But if you ever just want to game casually or such, feel free to reach out to me or my dad cause we'd be down, no strings attached. All the good luck to you!
Thank you, Mallie. I truly think of you and your father fondly. I appreciate your sentiments and am certainly grateful to hear that I never legitimately annoyed you. Thanks also for the open invitation. Maybe our paths will cross again someday. Until then, please accept my best regards.
end of an era. here's to the dawn of a better one. 🥃 my social battery has been needing replaced for while now. but if you ever see my stream go live in the future, consider yourself welcome.
I'll drink to that, Ritten. A new chapter. Thank you for your words of support. I will most certainly keep an eye out for your content. Social battery, eh? I like that metaphor.
Man, I get you there. it's always a bit sad to see the end of an adventure, especially one that build communities. Kat and I entered your streams as often as we could make it but you know a bit of our life and I'm sure understands that we don't always have the time (rarely in fact) it doesn't help that we are pretty much on the other side of the hemisphere ^_^ If you feel like it's the right thing to do then do it, you will be missed. Kat hasn't said a word since your video started but she is also feeding Amicia so there's that. Don't ever feel sorry for rubbing people the wrong way, if they can't take a joke then that's on them I know that you never meant for it to be mean. I didn't close my discord server but left it to die and it's now only populated by bots, it's sad it really is but you have to think of yourself and your owns first. So long partner, it was a really nice ride and I'm sure you will see a few more views on some of your older videos as I know your x-com series is one of Kat's comfort watch.
Endings are a bit sad. That supposed final chapter, but as you know it's those chapters in between, the bulk of the thing that serves as a true testament to whether we had fun or no. And I'd be lying if I said that I hadn't had a lot of fun along the way. More than I could ever account for. You were there. Kat was there. Hell, Kat was the door man in my case. She checked the invitation list, saw the desperation in my eyes, and said "Wait here, I'll see if I can get you inside." And she did. Then came big fun. I'm eternally grateful for the both of you. Though this sounded like a lament, and in a way I guess it was, I'm not really sorry for people taking a joke the wrong way. It's more when I'd be aggressive in upholding what I thought was reasonable. Sometimes that austerity would get me in trouble. Like an annoying paladin that cant refrain from lecturing people for perceived errors. Anyway, I have some longtime friends that are either immune to it or see past it, and I don't know how they do that, lol. Certainly the channel content will remain where it is. Especially the older stuff like that xcom series. Thanks again, Kevin. Please, give my best to Kat and Amecia.
I will be taking my time, Tru. And I wish I could say you can hold be to it, seeing you soon that is. That said, this is a fairly definitive move on my part. Seemed like the right move for a long time, and probably overdue. Thank you for keeping the faith though, and for your support over the years. Take care of yourself, man.
I care about you too, Otto! Thanks for reaching out with this video and letting all of us know so we dont worry. Its been fun! Discord is a strange animal, and we're all in a lot of them. I personally don't see the popularity of them as evidence of anything meaningful, except when its going well it can be fun, which is all that it should be if it can be. I'm here for this journey, and you added to it!
I'm genuinely touched by the notion that in this strange journey I might have brought a little fun to the table. Thanks man. Wishing you the very best for the future. Discord is a strange one, heck, so is youtube and truly any online social network as best I can tell. I don't detest them but sometimes they're a bit much to handle. Take care, Alex. Thanks again.
First let me say thank you, you brought a different aspect to gaming. I have enjoyed your youtube content. I was not always able to catch it live. But, enjoyed it all the same. I will not unsubscribe and look forward to your return how ever far into the future it may be. I dont know if you remember what I do for a living. I found your content one night and it took me away from the sadness that my career piles on with each run. I will miss you and have to say that I am sorry 1. For not being a bigger part. 2. To see you leave. I wish you and your family well and hope only good things for you. Thank you again and be well.
Thank you, Arnold. I do remember your name and I believe I recall what you do for a living. I absolutely appreciate you speaking up in the comments here, and I'm sincerely grateful if even in the slightest of ways I was able to distract you from what the streets throw your way. I will be posting something soon. Put out a follow up to this video tonight. Thank you for bearing with me. I hope you're doing really well.
Well I had fun playing Sea Of Thieves and Path Of Titans with you, was definitely fun. I wont be unsuscribing and hope to see you back soon. Would be good to stay in touch as well
I'm grateful to hear that, Alhoon. I generally had fun playing, but even playing became less and less frequent on my part. So I guess I should make clear that while, sure, I'm nostalgic for the 2016 community I had fun with all manner of folks that came later. I mean, I didn't know Rob until 2020 or something. Still had fun with him. So I hope I'm not coming off as saying I haven't had fun with any of you guys. I certainly did. Anyhow, I'm not sure if or when I'll be back around, though I appreciate the sentiment. Be well, my friend.
I have to say, this saddens me. Mostly because I have missed out on a lot of chances to hang out and stay connected. I have pulled back quite a bit myself socially. I don't know when the last video was I posted, or the last time I talked to anyone in discord other than my daughter while she was in college. If there is anything you ever need from me, if I can do it I will. You have my support and friendship regardless of if you have a Discord or not. Take care buddy and hope to bump into you again sometime out in the ether.
Gary. Goodness, my friend it's a boon to my spirit to see you here in the comments. In thinking back over the years your name has certainly crossed my mind over the last few days. It may have been awhile, but I continue to hold you in high regard and will always do so. If there's ever anything I can do for you it would be my privilege. I know this is somewhat of a soft goodbye for so many, but I remain hopeful that our paths will intersect again in some way, shape or form. Until that day, I wish you, your daughter, heck your entire clan nothing but the very best. Again, it's really a delight to hear from you, no matter the circumstances.
No, I should hope not. I'm currently trying to figure out how to arrange an alternate way to stay in touch with you, man. I would still very much like to be your friend. I'll elaborate here in a bit.
Real talk though. I feel like the dynamic shifted drastically after Di’s passing, and it doesn’t feel like the same ever since. It was like something shifted, and then it just felt like people migrated away, and kind of formed their own subgroups within the community, and we became divided. And after that, some of us changed how we interacted with each other. Not gonna lie, though, I feel like I have been MIA in terms of hanging out with the gang. I did kind of drift away and start doing my own thing separately from everybody else, and I did want to apologize about that. I did get tied up with Real life, things and my job and then of course, coming back to the original reason why I started it by channel as you know I am quite ambitious when it comes to that and I am starting to feel the problem of it being like a second job to me, and the more that I need to invest time into the less time I have for anybody else and their needs. I’ve ended up, not playing quite a few game nights because of my commitment to making my content. And I’m starting to kind of see the struggle of trying to maintain a friendship with other people, while at the same time pursuing my very time consuming goals of trying to be a profitable RU-vidr/content creator . As a result, I haven’t really hung out in your server like I typically did, and we became largely unavailable for our usual hangout times. While work was partially to blame, it was also my own ambition to foster a community of my own. I know you had reached out to me about my absence and I do apologize again like I said, I have not really been able to be around because of what I have been focusing on, but I don’t want you to take that as a reflection on how I feel about our friendship I realize it in pursuit of my socialization interest that I will ignore a lot of the things that I’m working on and I can’t seem to balance out both of those things unfortunately very well. The nights we would spend playing grounded or path of Titans, or sea of thieves till six or 7 o’clock in the morning (sorry, Mrs. Mattak) was something that I begin to realize was distracting me, and contributing to my laziness with making content on the regular for myself. I enjoyed the nights with you , Kaspa, Smoke, and Joooodah and our nightly see of thieves galleon moments. I missed those from time to time. And I don’t want to sound like I am tooting my horn here, but correct me if I am off base, but I tried to be more of a community hype man and would pour my socialization output needs, and I feel like I stopped doing that which contributed to the decline and casual conversation that took place in your discord server. I realize that the majority of posting that goes on in any of the servers that I have been a part of aside from Rob’s is just people sharing their socialization links. I can understand why you would step away and remove your server. I have thought about that often myself in spite of the growth that I do see because it still feel very artificial and it is definitely a lot of work to foster a community even with somebody with my level of ambition. I feel like I would be blowing smoke up your ass though if I did say that I will try to be around for us to hang like we used to because I know that I will go back to originally why I focused on my RU-vid channel. But I do consider you a very good friend of mine, and hopefully you do not vanish quietly into the night and returning to me not knowing you anymore. And I don’t mean death or anything like that I mean just you leaving RU-vid and discord completely lol. Hopefully I was able to get my point across here. It’s not that I didn’t want to hang with you guys, I just know that I wouldn’t get anything done if I did.
I'm skipping ahead in my responses just to let you know that I've read this and I hear you my friend. You touched on a number of things that I want to address in more detail, and I will of course. All I'll say prior to that is thank you for your honesty and your well thought response. I'll say more very shortly.
I feel like yes and no with the Di part. Yes, I agree that things changed afterwards or around that time but I also feel like they had already started to a little bit prior to her passing. It's something to consider though. I know that around the same time as her passing I was busy getting into a prideful war with Smoke, and I'm sure that that didn't help. Given the circumstances of the moment, I should have gotten over myself. Especially considering how fond I am of Smoke. Still, all that aside, her passing did break the house I believe. When i eventually pass away I'm going to sit her down and have a long talk about that. With all respect to everyone else in the community, there was a comfort and comradery around the folks you named. When it was You, Kaspa, Quicksmoke, Jooodah, myself, and the occasional special guest we were in top form. What's stupid is that I didn't know it at the time or perhaps more aptly I took it for granted. Until it was gone. Jooodah was around occasionally, but the remaining four were almost a nightly quartet. And when you get four friends in one of these MMO games, whew they can do some damage. Until the server gets its revenge anyways, lol. But late in the channel, late in the discord server, those were the days. You nailoed it. Then it was you, me and Kaspa. Eventually just me and Kaspa and most often not even that. I wasn't streaming, wasn't even playing a fair amount of the time. You had your priorities, and believe me when I say I understand and encourage. I want you to do what is best for you. What is right for your ambition. And it is clear that you are, so I would never hold that against you. If I didn't care for you as much as I do, Zul, I'd selfishly prefer that you shelf your goals and play until sunrise. Admittedly, I did get a little paranoid and reach out to you, especially after messages in discord disappeared. Your answer more than satisfied me though, and I was hearted to just know that I hadn't driven you off. You were a sort of hype man on the server, i think that's very appropriate. Kaspa too. Odd as well. For some stretches I feel like you guys were keeping it going, and I think after awhile you have to ask yourself why you shouldn't dedicate those energies to your own channel, to your own server? The answer is obvious. You should. And you're right in saying that the majority of server posts seem to be advertising anymore. Which is fine, I guess, but it kind of saps the interest. You're also correct that if we took to doing the quartet all night again we'd get nothing else done. Those were days that I'd sleep until 4pm if a could. I generally couldn't. It made the days harder, as I'm sure it did for you too. And then when night fell, it was like, well the day was so damn lame that I can't wait to get back on with the quartet again. It easily became the highlight of my day, not just because it was fun, but also because it stripped the following day of anything meaningful. It was a weird trap, but good memories all the same. Your standing, in my eyes, can never be diminished. Even if I were to circle the earth and return, I should hope that you will recognize me as I do you. Your genuine friend.
We will, and so do I. I posted an update, or a follow up today. The server on discord was the biggest issue for me, and I'm really glad it's gone. Deleting my discord account is something I've wavered on, however. I thought it was the right decision but like I mentioned in Dracos stream, I've made some pretty rash decisions in the last month. Anyways, I appreciate you, Rob. Always have, and I can promise that I'll be around. Thank you for the kind sentiments.
Otto! I didn't know you really talked like that!!! I've always said you are a man of many skills. : ) : ) I've had the some of the Best times of my life with you... talking, watching and gaming with you. You have my full support, love and thanks.
I know, Jooodah. I say that with the most sincere, grateful smile on my face. I know I have your support, and you know you have mine. Yes, we've had some wonderful times, some of which entered my mind within the last twenty four hours. I thought, am I sacrificing that!? Ah, but my consolation is that you have my number. You and I will certainly be in touch for many years to come, God willing. I'm grateful for that, Jooodah. I'm grateful for you.
@@OttoMattak I feel the same way man. Many Years. I've been thinking about you a lot b/c I may have been going to a Geeks and Gamers/ Nerdrotic meet up in Las Vegas in April and I was thinking that I would love to go with you. If you don't know about them and Friday night Tights...you should get acquainted with their shit. It's like I've ffound my extremely non-woke, with receipts, funny nerd clan! Real men. Real woman. no bullshit. But the tickets have been sold out. They'll have another meetup though...maybe closer to us.
always been a fan. found your channel back when you made that cop series lets play. it was "manny faces" that recommended your content. cant say i ever hung out much in the discord, but you know times change, people change, time schedules change. i once had a youtube channel, (still have it) but i stopped making videos on it because of reasons. then at one point i got mad at the whole youtube sceme so i privated all my videos. hope you dont delete all your old content here. but hey you do you. have a good one, and to Di, stay safe up there. F
Mr Vein, holy shit there's an old name from the community that most folks in the new crowd could only pretend to recognize. Those of us who know, know. Di was one of them. It's great to hear from you. I appreciate everything you related. Sometimes hanging it up is the best call. I miss Manny Faces, held him in high regard but like so many we've drifted away. I won't take anything worthwhile off the channel. Wanna keep it here for posterity. Thanks again, old friend.
I use discord, but never built a discord server. Always seemed to be more trouble than it's worth to me. Got enough trouble dodging drama bullets just streaming. It was a good run though. Met some good peeps, some not so good peeps, and had a bit fun. I applaud your graceful bow out and wish you well, sir Otto of Mattak. Hope to see you out there.
Spot on, Greyson. Discord and maintaining even a small community can feel like navigating a minefield. Personally, I think it can be kind of draining. And half the time people are biting their tongues as other say some stupid shit. Quite a balancing act, and exhausting. You're right, streaming can be bad enough on its own. I'm grateful for your reply, also for your time over the years. Mostly your mastery of language. Your opening chat comment was always the stuff of legend. I hope to see you down the road Greyson.
Lol, thanks for the laugh, Zul. Thanks for everything, my friend. I think you'll appreciate this. I try not to suffer fools. You don't either, I think. But recently I got a laugh out of this notion, true or not: "You can't not suffer fools, and create an online community." That's gonna make it sound like my community was comprised of fools, but that's not what I mean. I just heard that statement and thought, damn that's profound. With that in mind, I wish you the best with your rapidly growing channel. This particular fool will be around to support you, my friend.
