JACK | Short Film (4k) A look inside the mind of ADHD 

The worst thing about ADHD is always disappointing everyone, even yourself, beacuse yopu know you could do so much better. And you dont want to let anyone down but you just cant help it. Everytime people get mad at me for not listening or cleaning up after myself I know its bc of my ADHD, but it just sounds like an excuse to them.

I found this really sad, especially with all that is known about ADHD, that it is still so hard to define how it makes the daily simple things so hard.

This made be bawl like a baby, because no one really knows how HARD it is, ppl assume it's all fidgeting, and running up walls like a spider-monkey, when in reality this video explains what it's really like and how it can be sometimes. Thank you for making this video❤👍🏻

Nobody understands the anxiety and depression the ADHD minds have. To all the people with ADHD try to become aware of yourself. Do things that make you aware of yourself. You need "YOU"

The image of him covered in post notes was so powerful. This accurately shows the turmoil. You never know how to answer a parent about why you fail... You're labeled defiant or lazy and unmotivated. This actor is really talented... I'm holding back tears.

This....and parents that didn't care to try and understand where my problems were coming from....This really hit me with my own experiences.

The thing that hit me the most were all the papers. They're like all the mistakes that were made, but didn't have any control over. And the crying near the end hit me like a truck. I started to feel his emotions of guilt and disappointment over himself "being a bad kid" when in reality, he is an amazing person. I always feel disappointed in myself when I can't do my work when it's not even that much. It happens almost every week and I'm so tired of it. I know that just doing the work would get rid of the guilt, but my body and mind just can't do it. I'm always so disappointed in myself, but mask it away.

This is very well done. On top of ADHD, I happened to have abusive parents ("Could you just go" likely would have had me struck across the face by my mother, and with whatever implement she might have had in her hand to boot). I was never diagnosed and was always punished for my disability, and morally admonished as well. I was almost always the smartest kid in class but had nothing to show for it. I was constantly in trouble though I was never disrespectful to teachers. Now at the age of 47 my only accomplishment is not going completely insane (having finally come away from that edge only a few years ago) and raising my (13-y-o) daughter pretty damn well if I say so myself (so far, so good). But I am still on the brink of homelessness most every day. I knew what his answer was going to be when he actually answered the clinician's question of What do you want: "I don't know." Just the other day I had to again remind my father that I am not a stupid lazy asshole, that I have a serious disability. He constantly forgets it seems; but I manage to get him remembering these days (and without showing him anger), so maybe that's some kind of small accomplishment as well; but it's not without a lot of heartache each time. We need more awareness to this day; that is clear to me. *I didn't even understand my problem until I really started looking into it a few years ago.* Peace and love to all, especially now to those who suffer from this thing. *HANG ON, PLEASE JUST TRY TO HANG ON.*

So very powerful. My daughter went through hell before we both recognised it was adhd. She is inattentive like Jack, so it’s not outwardly obvious. Many years of mental health issues before we finally got the diagnosis. Onwards and upwards now. Thank you for this. Every teacher should watch it!

my son who I love dearly has ADHD. I have been researching and reading all I can to help understand what he is going through. Something that I really dont think anyone did for me when I was younger (depression, not ADHD). I am much older now and have a better understanding of mental health, mainly from trying to understand myself and through this I am trying my best to help my son understand himself so we can work together to try to find ways to help him navigate a world that wasn't built for the way his brain operates. Trying to get others to understand and be compassionate is a completely different story. I hope that I can help him to understand that he may be different but not lesser than anyone and he may have skills and abilities yet to be tapped. Most of all I hope he knows his dad will never give up trying to help. Its when you start playing the game of life with no instructions and set on difficult mode.

I rarely got reprimands because I have inattentive type and it was all bottled up inside, but yeah this was pretty much my experience of high school. I hated it so much and was so glad to leave. Only got diagnosed eighteen years later.

the scene where Jack's trying to answer the therapist is so accurate... 😔

"Did you take your medication" - sometimes medication helps. sometimes you need a different medication. Sometimes INTENSE exercise helps. Sometimes it just seems like more work. But, always, it helps to try to speak with others and help them to understand how you struggle and how you feel. A simple "I'm sorry, but I really am trying as hard as I can" may help. I really do wish people had a better understanding of what ADHD means.... it's so hard too because even "ADHD" looks so different in many people. It doesn't always look the same. Great film!

This is very well done. Having ADHD myself I can relate to a lot of this. In particular the task/information overload that occurred at home. Even being consciously aware off all of the things you are supposed to be doing can be overwhelming.

This short film's depiction of the struggles that coincide with ADHD was phenomenal. There was a direct link between the depression and anxiety comorbidities discussed in the opening and the ways in which the people around Jack failed to understand him and accommodate his ADHD. Kruz Maldonado's acting was incredibly real and deeply felt. Thank you for this.

It’s saddening to realize from this video how much I relate to him and how I act similarly to him every day…I don’t have any diagnoses so I’m not sure what all mental issues I have..I have been searching around and observing trying to figure out myself and how I’m different from others..

I cried the same times he did, the same way, hell... I even look like him, school was absolutly terrible, I got bullied for most of it and fought over 30 times, got suspended, all the bad behaviour tickets. Treatment is important, we gotta see the bright side of this. Loved the part of the many voices, people don't understand what is it to have this, so hard to regulate our focus where we would want it to be, but hey why not think of a 100 super random ideas non-stop when we should be doing something else? The part I enjoy is that we live in the moment, it is hard... but we also have to try and look ahead

I've never cried because of a film before. I feel like you've somehow endured living inside my head, and then turned what always seems to be ruining everything in my life into art. People don't realise how isolating ADHD is sometimes, but this made me truly feel less alone. Thank you so much

First part of life (undiagnosed), I’ve put all my energies in behaving like expected and tried to cope with all the challenges which are just easy tasks for others, while beeing effortless very good at others which are struggle for others, but not vital for a social normal life (the rewards of hyperfocus in some topics). Second part of my life, after a few years of transition (depression), not understanding why it came to it: Only later I understood, that depression was the effect of this unbelievable energy consuming aim over decades, to try to understand what was expected from others, then relentelessly trying to behave like expected. Then the diagnose came, I was somehow relieved, thought I could bend a few bad and past consequences right, and get my life from now on in the right track, the one I wanted: a « normal » vitae. But from there I had to aknowledge, that the world doesn’t see it that way, will not react « with relief » and adjust in a kindly way if I now name my « small, insignificant (so I thought) » differences openly. I just had new experiences: silent rejection is then the reaction, instead of how it was before, where people in the different systems I was in, reacted confused, annoyed or openly judgemental. I’m now just the « trouble » they want to avoid and the trouble they expect but will not talk openly aboiut it with me. Not less, not more. So, nothing changed. On the contrary, my smart skills, who were before aknowledged and somehow sometimes rewarded, have now the taste of « not worth the trouble we expect, she’ll bring us. ». I therefore now accept that I put two faces on: I now pretend to BE like expected, knowing judgemental reaction will come soon or later after the first « you’re highly welcome: you’re so interesting and highly skilled », because I’ll not fulfill the(ir) expectation of « normal », however I show talents and a smart mind. I know, that I’m not bonding sincerely while others think we are bonding sincerely. I accept the gap of perception I’ll not be able to clear for the good of everyone involved. I accept I put the face of a recognised skilled professional (psychiatric nurse with high expertise, recognised for my work ahead to a progressive inclusive society when it comes to mental health and a recovery oriented open-psychiatry with peers)… while inside, with my true face, I know the system does not see their double standards then when it comes to mental health in own colleagues, these like me, with ADHD for example. No effort will be made to take them for full, to avoid stigmatisation in the own house of loud calls of « end stigma and stigmatisation. » So while my home is a mess, my job vitae is a mess, my love relationships are a mess, my finances are a mess, my feelings are a mess, my interests different, my weaknesses and strenghts different, I accept the gap i live in. Fortunately, I have at last two people in my life, a friend and a my daughter (who has ADS), who love me like I am, take me for full, love me at a whole and give me strenght for being like I am. Professional helpers, coaches and therapists, gave me so many different points of view, so differents advices that I just feel more messy and inadapted. I just got to the point, where I accept ADHD and do not try to fit in anymore, feeling socially isolated but at least, just trying to not judge this as one more failure, trying to find and slowly finding peace within myself as I’m. I’m 54, got my ADHD diagnose 4 years ago, already a psychiatric nurse since decades (with others jobs here and there), was then at the end of my bachelor studies in science of nursing. I thought this extended diploma, would help me professionally to be finally « good enough », this time on the long run, for the workfield of mental health nursing system. I thought I could help better to implement the « diversity inclusive open psychiatry ». It didn’t help. It just extended the gap between my expertise in the topics of diversity and inclusion, and what the reality of work is when it comes to inclusion and diversity in this very same workfield. I hope there will be more awareness and diversity inclusive school and workplaces, ADHD friendly, for the coming generations. 🙌 💝 🤝 Love on your way to all of you out there, with your lovely different-attention-different-interests way of beeing 🙌 💓 🤝

wow. this is an incredble short film, yet it is extremely underrated. i love ths sharp cuts- the way they make you feel like time is flying and you can never catch a break or a second to breathe. i love the bits when the music swells and there are a million voices inside his head. i love practically everything about this film. keep up the great work, jackson.

This... Just made me cry like a baby, having ADHD feels just like this, I feel just like this

I think this was an important way to depict ADHD. There are way too many societal problems with the root cause being misunderstanding. Thank you! 😅

9:19 to 10:29 is so me struggling to communicate (+people losing their patience and yelling at me because of it) and never being able to say what's wrong or convey my feelings (so i remain mute)😢 Great film👏

When other people are crying like that, I have the urge to cry ;-;

TO PARENTS: This is not the only side of ADHD ! Depression & anxiety do not define this condition. Your child may predominantly seem like a dreamer, or be alternating between overfocusing on some specific stuff while being unable to focus on what seems less interesting. I'm probably lucky, because depression was not an issue for me. I was just busy being into my own stuff.

This is me, Omg i heard about ADHD just yesterday, I'm 22 years old and studying textile printing engineering, It's so difficult for me to pay attention for anything, my mind thinking about millions of things at the same time, need help i got tired

This film literally made me cry it really sums up how I feel all the time and I've never really been able to express it I am glad this film exists because it shows me I'm not alone and can hopefully bring more awareness to the reality of living with adhd that isn't just the hyperactivity and inattentiveness that everyone seems to think it only is

this is exactly what it feels like every day and I can't talk to anyone about it because my family doesn't believe there are mental illnesses so I struggle everyday alone.😕

That scene where he gets all the demerit slips and sat there covered in them, really hit home. I walked around with those slips pinned to me for nearly 20 years after leaving school. If I had not been diagnosed I'd still be wearing them today; really powerful imagery. Great short film, thank you for telling the story.

My teachers KNEW i have adhd but the problem was that they never trated me according to it. They acted as if i just didn't have it.

I can‘t explain it but it hurts so extreme to See people in such torment as me and so many others with mental dissorder. Thank you so damn much for showing that something like this is Not just a simple quirk or something alike. Long Time ago that i cried so much

Bravo. This kid did such a great job. All involved nailed it so well. It's hard enough describing It to people, let alone making a movie about it. I cried along with Jack. I really felt his pain b/c I have been there.

I relate to all of this, unfortunately. Even the part where he cried, but not a whole lot of tears came out. I delt with suicidal ideation because of my undiagnosed status. Feeling like I was running around in circles on a wild goose chase trying to find what I had until I finally figured it out when it all came to a head. I cried so many tears beforehand, that when I found out and started on the road to diagnosis, I thought had no tears left. Then I found out anhedonia(lose or lack of the ability to experience pleasure and thus an inability to show some intense emotions like sadness)which usually comes with untreated adhd and can lead to major depressive disorder if left untreated. I really hope that more people find this short film, feel seen, and can use this to communicate to loved ones how they feel so they can go get the help that so many of us waited for or never even got.

Well made - my deceased husband had ADHD and placed on drugs from 8 years ... he described like this. A kid surrounded by people with no empathy.... never going to turn out well. A mother not noticing or finding time... a teacher that doesn't care at all should not be teaching.....

Ohh Bless you Jack. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression at age 26, so needless to say school was complete hell for me except for certain subjects that I excelled at. NO focus what so ever. Tests were a nightmare. I had no clue what ADHD was growing up. Years later when I turned 45, I found myself back to going to a wonderful Phycologist who asked me if I had ever been tested for ADHD. I had not! She had me take a test, like a questionnaire and was asked to give another copy to my Mom. She lives in another Country so we did it over the phone instead. I told her to honest even if she didn't want to hurt my feelings. I needed to know what was going on, so this was very important to be truthful. After that test, I right then and there was I was diagnosed with ADHD. Talking about this with my Mom had answered so many questions about "why I am the way I am". I'm no longer ashamed or embarrassed. I no longer have the fear of disappointing everyone in my life because sometimes the simplest thing to others is VERY difficult for me. It is what it is. I have wonderful people in my life that love me WITH my "quirks"....I feel this one to my soul🥰PS..I have been the "Sticky note Queen" for years!

I can relate to this so much! I have severe ADHD :(

This film should remind us all that people, especially children behave in certain ways because of things outside of their control. To punish these kids for being who they are is abuse. We must have empathy for kids and all people because everyone is struggling with something and we all need some support once in a while.

FUCK! Last minute got me, because I sat there by myself, crying like that not knowing, what to do for 40 years!!! Feel9ng noone would understand. But since diagnosed, embracing the adhd and a support system now this Depression, Anxiety and Desperation are almost gone. Keep on fellows. You can live a happy life, even though on some point it doesn't look like it. It didn't for me all my life until I learned to love myself for who I am! ❤ love for all!

I feel like this is a really great representation of ADHD. The struggles pictured in this video and the emotions felt through it are very accurate. As someone who has ADHD, I feel like people have a completely different idea of what ADHD is like, how it affects your relationships with others (I especially had difficulties with my parents). It is not something to be taken lightly, for it personally is a challenge to live with it everyday. ADHD is also present in different ways, not everybody has the hyperactivity side of it. Please don't make assumptions about people with ADHD. If you are struggling with it, it may be a good idea to reach out for help. I never wish for anybody to have this disorder. I hope you all stay safe and remember you are not alone ❤ Thank you for showing light on this disorder that is still misunderstood by many

What makes it very difficult is we look like a normal person with normal neurological development. So people will easily judge you from the outside and make quick assumptions. At 55, I'm really trying, but still struggling.

Dealing with adhd aint easy and props to them for using joyner lucas song at the beginning its called “adhd” when i heard it in the background it blended in so perfectly

I used music at school as my escape. The music classes where the only classes I got A’s in. I would go to sports camps in football and basketball, I was really pretty good, but because of my grades they would punish you by not letting you play in a real game. I always thought that was cruel, because for many people it can be an escape, or something they can do well. The school system when I was a kid ( I’m 49) was about punishment if you could not learn by the way you were being shown. I knew how to read, but I hated to read a book, I could never get past a chapter without my mind wondering away. I was actually struck by a teacher, and another made me sit outside the door on the concrete walkway, for the entire semester because she said there was no point of me being in a classroom if I cannot be taught. I’m just now, as of 2 weeks ago diagnosed as having ADHD. When I think of that little boy I used to be, and how I was treated.. I weep. Not being good enough for college, getting minimum wage work, struggling very hard for every thing my entire life… could have been a lot smoother if someone would have helped me get the help I needed. It really hurts

My son is 9yo and struggles with ADHD and ODD and I see the frustration in his eyes when he tries to communicate. God help is all be better and communicate better.

"What is wrong with him." Heard that my whole life. Mostly from my boomer siblings.

When he said “i want people to think that im not a bad person” it really hit me deep

Omg for years I've denied having adhd despite many people telling me otherwise. I'm 47 this year and in 4 days I see a doctor to start the process of diagnosis. This film was like watching my own school/adolescent life. Such deep despair because it didnt matter how hard I tried I always fucked up, I only recall doing homework one time and that's because I chose to write about the life of Martin Luther King Jr and found it interesting enough to hold my attention. A couple of years ago I was in a language course (I live in Iceland although I'm not born here) and found myself doing the homework during class while everyone else was giving their answers to the homework I hadn't even know we were doing....I got my answers written down quick enough that by the time the teacher got to me I was able to reel off the sentences like I hadn't just scribbled them down.

Man this is why I grew up hating teachers. This hit so close to home it destroyed me 💔. You did a great job depicting the hell of adhd affecting everyday life. I don't go to school anymore but I still don't have my crap together and still cry like this sometimes. As a kid I chalked it all up to just being 'born wrong' as I put it. And of course parents and teachers thought the best way to 'fix me' was by putting more restrictions on my life with fun and what I ate. And when I did well it still wasn't good enough bc I did it too slow.

God I'm only 2 minutes in and the Tinnitus like sound together with music playing in background already got tears to my eyes

I can relate. I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD at 10 years old.

i literally am about to cry

Literally me everyday cept my mouth runs faster than my thoughts cause whenever I stop my brain explodes with thousands of ideas and voices and... yeah...

My son who is almost 5 was recently diagnosed with the hyperactive part and I am starting him on med and Theraphy and letting the school know there issues so that he starts having the help now. I don’t understand the parents that don’t recognize the issues there kids have and help them from the beginning when they are little…

i have adhd and this explains it so well idk how else to describe it it makes me cry because it's to relatable

Pretty accurate, adhd sucks, but can be quite a gift. I have brutal adhd, had a terrible stutter growing up, was on concerta from age 9 till I was 17 right before I took my SAT which didn’t help at all. Took me 5 years after getting off meds to fully understand how to control it, but once you learn to make those racing thoughts go into a direction that you choose, it can really give you and advantage. High school is the hardest, cuz you’re learning about shit you don’t care about and it makes it even harder. But in college when you’re studying stuff you like, or doing things you like, the focus you will achieve is so insane. Once you get better at it, you can start to translate this hyper focus into things you don’t particularly enjoy. adhd sucks, but it’s controllable. Once you control it, it’s a gift. Took me 22 years to learn how to do that, and I’m still learning now at age 24, but it’s forsure possible, just takes effort and intention

this is fr what it feels like and nobody understands. i either get called childish for having “so much energy” or im being to loud. everything irritates me and its to the point where i want to cry.

My heart bleeds when I see children suffering like this. My daughter was in grade 3 when she told me she wanted to die. I was able to get her into a school that dealt with add and had counsellors in the school who dealt with the depression and mental illness issues. She left and continued her education in a mainstream school after grade 9. Without the remedial school she wouldn't have a grade 12 certificate today. She continues to battle with ADHD in her adult life and finds it difficult to keep a job. She is now in sales and works for herself with a lot of help and encouragement from mom and dad (even though we are now divorced). Her sales ability is excelent but paperwok is my baby. 11:00 I agree with others who say hang in there but you need to find someone who understands and is willing to support you.

It's hard. Btw my family thinks that getting ADHD medications is same as being phycopath or something. It's worse than having ADHD. They are blaming me. Comparing me with my relatives and siblings. No one can understand that struggle in my head.

As someone who also struggles with ADHD (diagnosed in High School with Inattentive type). This was so relatable. I even caught myself biting my thumbnail while watching this video. I also started crying.

this is, pretty accurate i love this film and i realte to it partially becuase i never really had a proper diagnosis the closet ive gotten was a sensory or an asperger, i was close to an ADHD diagnosis but i couldnt be placed on the spectrum. i wish people could understand this is how i feel on a daily basis sometimes you did a great job man

I used to think the same as Jack about wishing people would understand what it's like, but since it's literally impossible, all you can do is understand for yourself, and find people who also have adhd. Don't let people tell you who you are, because they don't know you, or how your brain works. They want us to function like they do, but we simply can't control it. We can do things to help us lessen our symptoms, but at the end of the day, you have to be your own supporter, and tell yourself "these people won't understand, and it's not my fault or their fault. I'm just going to do what I can, and still love myself either way." Try to communicate, but don't drain your energy. If they won't be understanding, that's no one's fault. It's not their responsibility.

Wow this was so well done. This is exactly what inattentive ADHD is like and how depression becomes a consequence of it. The whole experience is very isolating.

Beautiful and elegantly told. Brought back hard memories for me.

This video gave me another perspective that is so helpful. I never realized how hard ADHD is on people. I can’t imagine how hard all of this is on a person. Thank you for giving me another way of seeing ❤❤❤

This explained my life… like literally.. how do they know what my whole life it like..?!

I have a friend struggling with ADHD I never really understood what it was like but now I do ❤

This is EXACTLY what it feels like to have ADHD! - I should know. I found this interesting in that it has lead me to better understand myself.

Thank you for that. I cried a lot, but just because you nailed it way too good.

Ian is an INCREDIBLE drummer, i saw him live --twice in the same week-- and he is IN THE MUSIC. I hope to hear more from you for years to come!

I think this shows some of the aspects of ADHD quite accurately - focusing on how it can impact our self esteem and lead to self loathing. The 'I don't know' is spot on! In those intense moments there's so much information converging, and so much raw emotion, and so much fear of how the other person will judge us, it's so hard to put anything into words. It's too slow moving for me as someone with ADHD to sustain attention through the film though, ironically! I had to start drumming furiously to try to keep watching to the end. More aspects of the condition could have been interwoven if it was a bit faster pace, or maybe incorporated into the audio - I dunno maybe I'm a bit more hyperactive than this lad. Tho there is that thing where we also can sit there feeling unable to do anything for ages also, which I just can't remember the name for right now 🙈 hello again frustration and self hatred 😅 it'll come back to me when I'm in the middle of something else and I'll blurt it out randomly 😂 I'm lucky, I've shaped my life to suit my brain, and I somehow did ok at school, but I know others that really couldn't do school work. Socially, that's a different story. I still get dark thoughts though, when I've disappointed someone or messed up, and they struggle to see that it wasn't intentional.

This is incredible! I relate to it! Though I don't get in trouble and seem normal, its because I work myself so hard (to the point of burnout) to keep up and seem like a normal student. I struggle deeply, trying to keep up, focus, and get through school. This really hit me hard- I nearly cried. Teachers don't understand, students don't understand. My dad won't admit that I have adhd, though he finally admitted that I have Autism (Diagnosed with both). The struggle is real. Incridible job!

Yeah...... one of the best short films. I cried. It's really hard

This is absolutely accurate. I wonder how the cast, writer, and director all were able to understand this mental situation and produce a remarkable production. Cheers!

Wow! Powerful! Gut-wrenching. Well done!

yeah, i hate having ADHD. im always getting yelled at i NEED people to know these things im always getting ignored when im begginf for help with this stuff, but also not at the same time? hard 2 explain

I think the only thing unrealistic is how clean his room is

Glad you made this film! It really did help me to see this problem in a new and different way!👍

Brilliantly done, and so familiar. It's great that people ask what you need, if only we knew the answer!

The whistle inside my head just never stops

“We had homework?” Hit SO close to home.

LOOKING AT THE VIDEO, IT'S SO GOOD TO UNDERSTAND ADHD. I THINK SHORT FILM, THIS IS EXACTLT HOW THEY FEEL' THIS IS A PERFECT WAY TO EXPLAINING EMOTIONAL LIFE, PEOPLE WITH ADHD THANK

This is so real though, that last scene is actually what it feels like lol

I am happy we have films like this to show the severity of adhd. I have it and feel like people dont take it seriously, not necessarily for me but overall.

This exactly what I went through in School, it was back in the eighties when I didn't think ADHD was.

It's like you'll never gonna understand yourself. You always feel like you've let yourself down. And The thing that hurts the most is that you can't tell anyone about it, bc they will think that you are just making excuses.

Might show this to my mum. If I can't explain hopefully this will

Bro covered a little part of my day.

Great work you deserves more recognition

I felt really understanding and understood in this video ty :)

I remember a teacher once literally stapling a note to my backpack to take home to ensure I wouldn't forget it. I think it was about an overdue library book or something.

Stop this video is so relatable to me I’m going to cry. This makes me feel so much

This is so accurate that it’s so hard to watch.

As someone with adhd, i can really relate to most things. Its not the worse condition but at times i try to explain, why I'm acting the way i do without coming of as bad or lazy. It gets worse as you grow old and u loose people who can understand you.

Wow! Powerful!

I think this needs much more attention!

Thankyou for this ❤

It was years before I realized I had difficulty focusing.. all I ever thought about was how to survive the day. It was so paralyzing to be at school. I was terrified. I never once asked myself why can't I do the work.. Instead I just wanted to not be there.

I feel like this video was more focus on anxiety than ADHD.. as adult with ADHD I can only speak for myself.

Its the worst the first time someone asked me what i wanted out of the sessions and stuff i was on the verge of tears i was so stressed out and i couldnt go anywere. I feel like i cant do anything sometimes and everyone think i just give excuses but i dont and i dont know what i want sometimes i just wanna scream.

Wow! Pretty much self-diagnosed myself and then my counselor confirmed. I am smart. I just can't concentrate. Covert narcissistic mother. To her I am lazy. I don't try...but I do so hard. I have other disabilities too that cause chronic pain. So much trauma.

Great actor. Brough out so many feelings 😪 😢