Kikuo - Histrionic (Vocaloid ver.) 

Right?!

I love the acordion 🎶 ♡

This

Mochi Cupcake I love how anytime you hear some rough guitar riff or use something that’s on the different side you know its a bop

frrrr

@sleepyhead. He probably means that they're getting simply creepy and not disturbing and weird like Kikuo's earlier work (personally I love both styles).

@@fabulousotaku1157 _thumbs up_ yup, an everyday creepy thx dude

@@fabulousotaku1157 i prefer the disturbing and weird style tbh, it is more unique and characteristic of kikuo

@@pilotitatota Despite everything, I do think that his more recent songs are also quite unique and characteristic of his. I wouldn't really use this particular song as an example, but songs like "Yami Matsuri" and "Anagura-Gurashi" have rather unique instrumentals and unsettling lyrics (not as shocking as the lyrics in say "Gomenne Gomenne" but disturbing nonetheless) and I personally welcome his more recent style that experiments more with different instruments and techniques. Then again, tastes are subjective :) (Not a native english speaker, sorry for any mistakes)

@@fabulousotaku1157 i give you the reason, after all, by that i didnt mean that i dont like his actual style, kikuos music always amazing and unique and same there, i talk spanish so, im not that good in english

Damn that’s dark

is this medically diagnosed disorder

@@asen1347 yes

@@mamanyajessie5511 mk

for example, Regina George

can u copy and paste the essay? I’d like to read it! (If it’s alr

me too! I’d love to read it!!

Waiting for 6 months rofl

Oh my, I didn't even realize (I've had my comments off for the longest time). I'd love to share it with all of you. This made my day haha. The paper was an analysis on Abigail from the Crucible; it was for my Junior Year English class lol.

​@@raincandy_UU. I can't belive this actually worked. The formatting is a bit messed up because it's a RU-vid comment lol. But thank you for asking and I hope you enjoy it. It's not the best but, one of my best papers in highschool apparently. “‘Me,’ ‘myself,’ and ‘I’ still have so much to lose. How many more masks and affectations? If something is not pleasing to the eye, there is nowhere it can ever belong,” cries a miserable child under a spotlight of a grand theater (Kikuo). But the child is nothing but a representation of someone with histrionic personality disorder through a song. A child that describes the emptiness of an attention-seeking character; a song that represents characters like Abigail from The Crucible. It’s a story written by Arthur Miller that goes over the Salem Witch Trials where Abigail and a group of girls were “possessed” by the devil, seeing things that weren’t real, and accusing others of being witches. This later developed to the point where everyone else was pointing at each other and they couldn’t tell between right and wrong. But thanks to Abigail leading the girls, they were able to get their way with their extreme actions with her own need for attention, which relates to histrionic personality disorder. Histrionic personality disorder, also known as HPD, is defined as “a psychiatric disorder distinguished by a pattern of exaggerated emotionality and attention-seeking behaviors.” (French and Shrestha). Like how the word histrionic describes an “overly theatrical or melodramatic in character or style,” it describes someone doing inappropriate, overdramatic actions to gain as much attention as possible from their people. Overdramatic behaviors and actions based on their need for attention and shaped from childhood; histrionic personality disorder act as a problematic disorder within relationships, making them shallow. Throughout The Crucible, Abigail’s histrionic personality disorder fuels conflict throughout the rest of the play because of her excessive actions and her self-centered thoughts, thanks to the superstitious and religious society within Salem. These odd behaviors of Abigail’s can be explained through the many symptoms of HPD. Attention is usually significant within someone’s life because it gives them motivation and allows them to build relationships, but HPD makes that a necessity to the point that someone would do anything for it. And because of this need for attention, they often “have difficulty maintaining relationships, often seeming fake or shallow in their dealings with others.” (Casarella). They may even “threaten or attempt suicide to get attention.” (Casarella). The ones who have HPD only do these dramatic, inappropriate, or life-threatening acts for a small amount of attention, and usually doesn’t benefit them in the long run. Ethics are ignored for the pleasure of attention; the eyes of the people are the only things they need which makes them gullible and easy to manipulate. As attention and appreciation are needed in life, when it’s taken to the extreme, it makes the person seem hollow from their inadequate, theatrical behavior. Throughout the play, Abigail constantly seeks the attention of others to fulfill her goals through dramatic acts of the devil controlling them and playing tricks on them which soon leads Salem into turmoil. For example, Abigail was always the first to start screaming within the play and the rest of the girls would follow her lead, convincing the rest of the people that they were possessed. Like the time when Reverend Hale was trying to persuade Tituba into Christianity, then all the girls started confessing the dances they did and how they did rituals with Tituba. Abigail confessed, “I want to open myself! … I want the light of God, I want the sweet love of Jesus! I danced for the Devil; I saw him; I wrote in his book; I go back to Jesus; I kiss his hand. I saw Sarah Good with the Devil! I saw Goody Osburn with the Devil! I saw Bridget Bishop with the Devil!” (25). Then, the rest of the girls followed Abigail’s cries. They all followed her command because they were threatened after they had been caught dancing. Abigail asserted herself against the girls so she can get what she wants and throughout the play, she does whatever she can for everything to go her way. And the moment she’s not in the scene or somewhat ignored, she jumps up screaming and flailing to make herself act as if she can see the devil. Pretending the devil is playing tricks on Salem and only she and the other girls see them after they had been “tricked” by the devil before; now they pretend to be witnesses for the church. Thanks to the superstitious society built by religion, people believed her and didn’t ignore her cries. This made her and the girls behave irrationally and strangely to kill the people they don’t want and get the treatment they “deserve.” And they got their way, driving the rest of the plot. If this wasn’t such a superstitious town, the people would just call her crazy and leave her alone. These behaviors that Abigail portrays are particularly based on the way they perceive the world around them. Since they cannot seem to comprehend the way they are impacting others, they can only think about themselves and constantly worry about being noticed instead. Because of this focus on others’ approval, Jennifer Casarella comments, “Environmental factors that might be involved include a lack of criticism or punishment as a child, positive reinforcement that is given only when a child completes certain approved behaviors, and unpredictable attention given to a child by their parent(s), all leading to confusion about what types of behavior earn parental approval.” The environment affects the way people perceive the world. And in HPD, it plays a huge factor because they use behaviors they’ve learned and only use them to gain attention. This makes them focus on themselves more and not realize how much they’re hurting everyone else around them with their hollow acts. They only focus on others when it comes to attention. It’s as if they’re the only ones that matter. These shallow perceptions of someone with HPD are also reflected in Abigail’s character. Near the end of the movie version of The Crucible, Abigail comes up to John in jail, before he is hanged. He was trying to prove Abigail wrong, but it all turned on him because Mary Warren didn’t want to face the guilt or be killed as a witch even though she had proof that Abigail and the girls were lying. No one can trust Abigail anymore after realizing how ruined the town had become because of her and they were avoiding her, so she gets desperate, stole money, and ran to the love of her life (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). But John did not agree to run away with her because of how she destroyed Salem by being hysterical the entire time (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). His decline caused her to run away because he was the only one she had left and had gone through so much trouble for (The Crucible, 142:09-143:14). It’s clear that Abigail has very low self-esteem within herself because she was constantly seeking everyone else’s approval and listening to her ecstatic cries. But the moment she started being denied and ignored, she could not accept that and got so desperate she stole money from her uncle. She even constantly begged John throughout the story to be with her and when he denied it, she couldn’t accept it and go on to execute her wishes just so it could change his mind. Even in this scene in the movie, she tries to get him to do as she says, but it didn’t convince him. It shows that she only does things for herself, not considering how others might feel or react to her actions because she doesn’t know how they work. She tried to constantly accuse Elizabeth, Proctor’s wife, because she only wanted Proctor for herself. She didn’t take the time to understand who Elizabeth was to him and didn’t seem to get the idea of what his wife means to him. She doesn’t think about why John tries to save his own wife because she’s constantly fixed within her own problems, as if the world revolves around her. It’s clear that she probably doesn’t understand because the environment in Salem must’ve been so restrictive. They were very superstitious because of the church and children were often ignored because they didn’t deserve any attention. The neglect and environment throughout Salem caused Abigail only to consider herself because only people with their heart to God can survive, and the rest are sinners; that it’s every one for themselves and that truth is not actually necessary. Abigail’s inappropriate and ecstatic behaviors and selfish thoughts dependent on others’ approval, she led Salem into hell by wasting innocent lives to fulfill her wishes. She often pretended as though the Devil was all around her and made others do it with her to make herself seem believable. Often screaming, flailing, shaking, and weeping, she did these shallow acts for herself to gain everyone else’s attention, which would also be short-lived unless she continued to do it. She only did this because she liked having whatever she wanted and that was her minimal understanding of the world due to the unfair environment. She never understood anyone else and only needed them to satisfy her own needs. And so, like Abigail’s empty actions to receive nugatory attention, the child sings, “Each mask drives myself further into madness. Ah, I am just a hollow SOMETHING! … I’ll never understand!” (Kikuo).

I think I may have this....

@@dontgointothecloset0-05 Self-diagnosis isn't mostly accurate, so it's important to get professional help when it comes to stuff like this >

@@Koi_Kuze yeah I need help...

I guess that kind of explains the stage/theater setting type of vibe

Shit I actually was diagnosed with this I remember that I'd feel like utter shit because whenever a friend had a bad experience instead of hearing I'd lie about having something similar and make it about me, I clearly lost those friends

joshua hurtado no the other way around :)

LOOOL

when u wear a traditional Vietnam hat, u always right :V

And then we become more gangsta 💃✨

Y'all act like you've never heard a disturbing song before

@00 0 oh wow!! Thank you for letting me know!

@00 0 HOLY SHIT I LOVE HIM

00 0 who is Miyashita Yuu? Sorry I don't know

@@tammymisu3370 hes an utaite with a very unique voice!

愛DAEGULONGLEGS is a man voice?! Omg this will be so good!

Me go to description Me understand that is all on japanesse Me understand that i don't understand japenesse Me going to teach japanesse to read a description

I can't read that

@@copy-rightedname google translate is free

where does it say that

@@gohan4813 google translate cant translate symbols correctly.

Gracias, ciertamente para un hispanohablante esto es necesario xd

Yes you are completely right. I was diagnosed with histrionic personality disorder around 2 months ago. I have loved Kikuo for years and seeing some recognition for the disorder makes me feel a bit happy. HPD has ruined my life and made it very difficult for me to function. I was getting in trouble at work and at college for my behaviors. I was very extreme. When I felt like people in the room were ignoring me I would pour soy sauce or hand sanitizer (whatever is available) in my mouth. I faked a pregnancy at one point. I would get kicked out of class for interrupting the teacher so often and trying to divert the classes attention. I exaggerated my blood disorder to make it seem like I was critically ill. All my stories were extremely dramatic. My reactions = dramatic. Sometimes I purposely hurt myself for attention - even though I really didn’t want to. It was mentally agonizing. No matter what I did. The attention was never enough. It hurt so badly I just wanted them all to look at me. I was never satisfied. It ended with me calling my friends and telling them I was going to drive into a telephone pole. I did on February 28, 2021. Instead of rewarding me with the attention that I desperately wanted from my friends, they recognized my manipulative tactics and left me. Since then I have been seeing a personality psychologist who diagnosed me with histrionic personality disorder. I also go to cognitive therapy. I have been working hard to make amends and learn how to be like everyone else. Learning how to unlearn toxic tactics of seeking attention and instead learning how to healthily communicate. There is no cure for this disorder. I will always have an unsatisable need for attention. I just have to cope better.

@@christinak6932 awe hope you're doing better :)

YOU WERE RIGHT

Congratulations, you're a prophet

THE INTRO WAS A BANGER

確かに！私は彼の音楽が大好きで、日本語を知らない人がいないのに、その背後に暗い秘密があるのです

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@@raincandy_UU. omg

Need more of them drumm

_steel drums_

はむすたー アイコンが空助……

this is why all his fans are insomniacs. We all stop sleeping to listen to his amazing songs

Deaf people be grooving

MUSICA I-

AHAHAHHAHA

@Madisyn Stanley (981MadStan) there weren't when the comment was made :)

There is another video of this song that has spanish subtitles

yea it sounds similar

like Zero/Butterfly With Bulletproof Wings-esque smashing pumpkins, Royal Blood, Songs For The Dead/Millionaire-esque QOTSA

BRO SAME THE FIRST TIME I HEARD THIS SONG I WAS LIKE ~_~ hmmm this sound familiar

everytging would sound good if it was covered by hanatan

what?!?!?!? what for what writing was it for

@@jamespeter5561 it was for english, my teacher wanted us to write a short story about anything, and at the time i was listening to kikuo songs and this came on so i wrote about it😭

@@beetlequake AHAHA THATS COOL

LMFAO

That’s the best part for me aha

合いすぎてますなぁ

それな笑

わ、私のCM、、、AGC なんだしなんだしAGC！ってね。

俺なんて広告なかったよ！

God I was high on Kikuo

You were high on Kikuo but that you can make that into a poem or something?? I like the words used

Yup

who wouldn't love kikuo?

YASSSS- you know it!

Bitch. I was bowing weeks ago lol

@@ashleymitchell7581 Forgive my simple mortal soul. 😔😔

@@bangobeep THEY WILL BE FORGIVEN AT THE ALMIGHT COST OF..............SUBSCRIBING TO KIKOU AND DELETING TIKI TOK!!! I MEANT KIKUO

The style's kind of come back now in his most recent song-

Sadly, this did not happen... However, we still have an amazing translation! Kudos to the translator.

@@artthenecromancer404 what do u mean! (: look it up, its on yt

@@artthenecromancer404 I swear I saw you earlier today

@@peepee_poopoo_fart probably from those faking disorder TT comps, I’ve been watching a lot today!

@@artthenecromancer404 Exactly, I'll see if I can find the notification from your comment and reply to you lol

The title now says the song name is "Histrionic". Histrionic Personality Disorder is a disorder in which one displays a desperate need to be the constant center of attention (hence the stage and spotlight). People with this disorder will do whatever it takes to attain this goal, including putting on certain roles that garner as much attention as possible (hence the masks and the alluding to multiple selves).

@@hayasheeeesh the thing is, the title is.. not histrionic in Japanese. I don't know who changed it. Unless it was Kikuo-san himself, I'd want it changed back.

thank you so much for the translation!!

Addison W Thank you, you're breathtaking.

@@hayasheeeesh or,, y'know, theatrical play. Histrionics refer to theatrical play. Not everything has to allude to the edgy mental illness version of the word.

Even with what I just stated here, I don't know if it's truly how I feel or if it's some generic stuff I heard. Do I truly relate to this? don't know, maybe partially

THIS IS ACTUALLY ME CORW WERE TWINS

@@raincandy_UU. LET'S GOOOOO

@@plipploup2142 TWINS FR?!?!