i know how he feels, about looking mad or not smiling when looking at someone, alot of people probably think i'm pissed off all the, but i'm not pissed all the time, i just feel like being quiet and not talking to people sometimes
It's a shame he's gone, he made his mark on the music bussiness and showed them that Nirvana will be remembered for there sound not the lyrics. Kurt R.I.P.
@100Lavender: There is no case on record of anyone with this level of 1.52 mgs per liter of heroin in their system, a 3 times lethal dose, who was able to function long enough to pull a trigger. This goes for addicts who have done the drug for many years and have a very high tolerance. Toxicologists have researched this.
Artists are often fragile misfits...drugs and drinking are a way to cope with being overly sensitive and "different"...Kurt didn't know who to trust...cause everyone came on as his friend...in the end he trusted the wrong people...to a tragic end...
not necessarily, but anything that can help one overcome their troubles and depression is opening up a door of some sort in the mind. opiods are just a psychoactive as anything else can be.
@@markfrost2707 Not really to this deep extent. Most interviews he was just stoned and gave vague answers, didn’t want to be there. There’s only a few where he really goes in deep and introspective with himself and why he was the way he was.
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He's not rare I also have depression and was addicted to substances and a musician. You say rare like the rest of us don't exist or don't speak openly like that sometimes. It's just that we aren't famous so you don't care about us.
Let's face it: Kurt did NOT want to do the work to recover (mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally). At least he wasn't ready for it. He was an amazingly deep and wonderful person, but seems he was stuck in his trauma and victim mode and I don't mean that in a condescending way. That's what trauma does to us. It keep us locked, frozen.
I'm not a psychologist but there's a strong connection between drug addiction and emotional immaturity. Kurt seems to have lacked the emotional and mental fortitude to deal with his depression and the trauma that he felt deeply which stemmed from his parents divorce as a child. He even says so himself in this video that opioids gave him a feeling of security that he probably lost at a very young age because of his parents divorce. To a child, divorce is essentially your own family falling apart in front of you and you're powerless to stop it. You lose your sense of connection to your own parents. Drug addiction, depression, the stress of being a popular musician and frontman of a huge band, being constantly scrutinized and analyzed by the media and the music industry and fans, and all these things combined with his naturally hypersensitive personality, etc. Not to mention his constant physical ailments and stomach pain. It's no wonder he killed himself. Courtney did not kill him. There is no proof of that. That's honestly just sexist bullshit and Kurt would be appalled at all the people claiming that. I do think that Courtney is and was a very problematic and toxic person in general however, and probably was not the best choice as a spouse for Kurt. Especially with the whole drug addiction thing. If anything, she probably just exacerbated the issues and problems that he already had since childhood but she did not kill him. He made that choice himself. He himself had talked about suicide since he was a teenager. And he was a Pisces, and they typically have a reputation for being moody. I think Kurt had a moment of weakness on April 5th, let the darkness consume him, and made that final decision on his own. I don't know what was going through his head that day but I think mentally it got to the point where he decided he simply had enough and thought it was the only way out, the only remedy for him. If only he had better people around him and hadn't isolated himself so much from his bandmates and friends. Mental health, depression, and drug addiction is serious. Much more needs to be done to help people. There are thousands of people just like Kurt out there every day, teetering on the edge of self-destruction.
@@MercurialSilencewell done. You put into words of what I've been pondering for some time. Adding to it, Kurt may have felt hopeless the last few days. Like he was a failure as a musician, a band mate, a husband, a son, and most importantly a father. He had to have realized he would forever battle his drug addiction.
He was the incarnation of the collective consciousness, of the youth at the time, even now. This is the reason so many people have an obsession with him, because it’s like looking into a mirror, metaphorically. I know it sounds woo woo, but I think there might be something to the woo woo lol
did you follow juice wrlds story? there was an interview where he said if he could talk to to one artist dead or alive itd be kurt. he also used opiates alot and od'd as u prolly know. hes the closest thing to kurt since kurt for sure, creepily close. Took a generation by storm then dipped. He also spoke on his death often in his songs, predicting it. like foreal it was his 'plan'. kurt and juice both more or less freestyled all their songs (grohl speaks on this and juice for himself). both referred to opiates as a tool. both had this undeniable aura of caring and love. like bruhhh i like to call this the jesus spirit
@bruhhh did you follow juice wrlds story? there was an interview where he said if he could talk to to one artist dead or alive itd be kurt. he also used opiates alot and od'd as u prolly know. hes the closest thing to kurt since kurt for sure, creepily close. Took a generation by storm then dipped. He also spoke on his death often in his songs, predicting it. like foreal it was his 'plan'. kurt and juice both more or less freestyled all their songs (grohl speaks on this and juice for himself). both referred to opiates as a tool. both had this undeniable aura of caring and love. like bruhhh i like to call this the jesus spirit
As a recovering heroin addict, I understand Kurt 150%. I understand why he used drugs, like most other addicts, including myself, we want to numb ourselves completely from the debilitating pain & trauma we had either experienced in the past or presently experiencing. We don’t think of the negative outcome, consequences, or how it effects those we love. I understand the constant rollercoaster of endless emotions, the black cloud that follows you around throughout life, the feeling of being trapped & not being able to escape. I wish Kurt was able to overcome his demons of addiction. I wished he realized how incredibly strong of a soul he truly was. How much of a positive influence he had on people he never even met. How his songs deeply resonated with people around the world. I wish Kurt didn’t feel like the only way he’d be able to escape himself, was to kill himself. 💔 Sadly, addiction has only gotten worse & were literally in a opiate pandemic with addicts dying every day. I’ve seen so many negative comments about addicts & addiction. Those people don’t understand that those addicts are someone’s loved one, mother, father, son, daughter, sister, brother, wife, husband, girlfriend, boyfriend, best friend, cousin. Praying for all those still sick & suffering. ❤️
He didn't kill himself. Check out "Soaked in Bleach" there's more than enough evidence pointing towards him being murdered and his wife had something to do with it.
@@danielball7657 "Soaked in Bleach" is a bunch of shit. Kurt struggled with suicide ideation for several years leading up to his death. Even in interviews he admitted to that. He expressed many reasons throughout his career which would make sense for him wanting to end his life. He hated being famous because he was no longer treated as a normal human by most. He couldn't just leave his house and blend in with regular people anymore. The media was constantly slandering him and Courtney, saying very hurtful things about them. He had a kind sensitive heart and that really affected him. All he wanted was to enjoy sharing his music and being a dad and husband without all the scrutiny and pressure of the world on his shoulders. He never asked for that shit. The world decided he was the spokesperson for the "grunge movement", not him. He tried keeping his heroin addiction private at first because he felt bad enough about it and he knew that he was supposed to be this role model for his time which made him feel even worse. He was just thrown in to it and the pressure became too much. I think it's admirable that he tried not to talk about his addiction and he never played his shows all fucked up. His heroin addiction was sad but it was his own business, until the media made it the worlds business. The pressures of fame (together with addiction) have driven many celebrities to suicide. The murder theory is ridiculous.
Yeah,my man who died last year was the same,everyone always thought he was in a bad mood,he did shout,but I believe it's because he'd deafened himself going 2 too many loud gigs! And the way he was sarcastic+sometimes came across as a bit aggressive,but he was really funny,kind,loving+caring! Lol,,it's weird how people judge+make their own assumptions of us before actually talking 2 us+more times than not,are surprised 2 find were not aggressive/mad,or angry at all..it makes me laugh..U aswell I guess?
I agree with the "why do you always look mad" thing. People ask me that, even though I don't get annoyed of it. And I just say "Oh, no. I'm the happiest guy ever. It's just that I'm bored sometimes." But yeah. I'm black, even though I sound like a white person, and I think that I might be more happy than any other regular black person. Life is great. Parents are, as well. Awesome social life, smart, even though I waste time by playing games, listening to grunge rock while doing so, and watching funny RU-vid vids. Nothing bad is going on with me. Especially in high school right now. I'm in my sophmore year. Everything is awesome. :)
I get the "Why do you always look mad" comment everyday man. Actually got it from this random girl at a bar the other night, while I was sitting there just listening to music and minding my own business. It brings me down too.
People can judge Kurt all the want to and say he's nothing to the world, but he's my idol and I may never get to meet him but he's still such a huge inspiration to my life and I've looked up to him pretty much my whole life.
+Sarah Cobain Kurt was special. Some people just don't and won't ever understand that. He was probably the best thing to happen to the world in an artistic sense in modern history. That's what made his demise all the more tragic :(
I believe that all his true fans have a tiny individual part of his soul in them. I feel as if I do. I've been so attached to Kurt ever since I was in 7th grade. I love listening to his interviews. Makes me cry sometimes. He was so lovely. We miss you, beautiful Pisces. Love, a young Cancer.
Kurt is one of the few people who I feel would understand me. I have yet to really meet someone who I feel does. I feel so alone on this earth. It's a crappy feeling, and is probably one of the reasons I feel so down all the time.
This is similar to my experience too. I think that's why people are drawn to Nirvana, and similar music. It kind of encapsulates that experience of being disillusioned and yet also forlornly empowered by one's own loneliness... feeling outcast yet yearning for company and for understanding...Existing in an abstract, chaotic, bi-polar kind of space...
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My God he's amazing. Just so sensitive, he felt the pain of others so much it tore him apart inside. He's real perceptive. I can relate to him, one minute I'm saracastic and the next I'm totally sincere....
Its part of a series of interviews Kurt did with writer Michael Azerrad when he was writing the Nirvana bio "Come As You Are". About 2 hours of the interviews were put into a documentary called "About A Son", which is where the audio in this clip came from.
The Only Bio that was published during Kurt was alive. The only Bio that is authorized by himself. Come As You Are Is the book where you can read all Kurt's lies. He created a Big Rockstar who hates Fame. But the opposite is true, he feared to be poor more than be the Celebrity Nr.1! Everybody wanted to make friends with Kurt and Courtney, but they didn't wanted to meet several Celebrities.... But he was friends with other Celebrity's, Stipe, Courtney knew each Celebrity, Kurt liked some of them.
damn i can totally relate. im always pissed off at whats going around in the world. grew up kinda hating people just cause alot of them have bad intentions. i see kids walking around smoking or just living a pointless life and i just feel anger towards them. i hate it that they are happy doing the bad shit they do
+WallyKush Kurt Cobain also smoked as a teenager, more than cigarettes in fact... I get your point and I understand that you're talking about the assholes that think they're the shit because they smoke and brag about it, I'm just saying you're generalizing
Kurt loved cigarettes lol he was probably smoking in this very interview 😂 it’s hard to find a picture or clip of Kurt not puffing away on a cigarette 🚬
Kurt is so intelligently perceptive on how his drug use negatively affected him; but then the need became so strong that it overpowered him, especially for such a sensitive depressive type. Come back to us buddy!! We all love and miss you! Frances wants to see ya
He also probably had resting “bitch” / sad face. Which I also suffer from.. and his aesthetic was highly misunderstood by the public and when he finally got around to feeling happy he couldn’t escape that and I could tell it frustrated him that a lot of people misunderstood him as someone who was always gloomy/ mad with life. I’m sure it bothered him a lot especially when he was trying so hard to grow as a person and be happier, especially for/ after he had his daughter.
If you read Heavier Than Heaven, you should know that its author Charles Cross is a close friend of Courtney Love and she put her stamp of approval on everything he writes. He's basically her stooge. He's one of the only people who's ever put a positive spin on Courtney's affect on Kurt's life. And he's even admitted that the entire chapter of HTH where he discusses Kurt's death was a work of fiction, he cites it as "taking creative license".
I can relate to kurts stomach condition i have chrons/uc disiese and it fucked my life up not all of it i had to have to Major surgeries and removal of my colon due to inflamation and cancer cells before and after nothing but agonizing pain no wonder why his heroin use was upon him as far as is death it remains a mystery?
Kurt Cobain was dead before the shotgun deal because of the overdose... The press, Courtney love, his so called friends, the record companys, and the fact that he was pushed to stop the drugs all together were the reasons why he is not here in the flesh... Kurt didn't kill himself everyone else did and we get to suffer because of them.... I love you Kurt Cobain!!!
I think I do. My cousin committed suicide a few years ago. His life didn't seem too bad to me. He was smart, athletic, really funny, and everyone he met got along great with him. I couldn't understand why he did it. I kept thinking "what if he didn't kill himself?" and "what would I say to him if he were still alive?" After a while though, I realized some stuff in his life wasn't so great. He had his motives, and I respect them, even though I know I'll never fully understand them.
Whenever I get dark thoughts I usually try and think about how my family would view my life..would they recognize the struggle and pain or would they say “he had a good life why would he do that!?” I always feel like they would say the latter because people are blind to everyone’s problems but their own
I feel very frustrated whenever I hear Kurt, he should have known how beautiful and bright he was and not spend so much time inside his head always trying to explain himself, I understand it but he just had to live and get help
Listening to Kurt is like listening to my conscience... seriously, I've never felt such affinity and common ground with any other person, whether I knew them personally or not. He was my guide through the dark and lonely period of teenage life.
The only parts in his "suicide" note that seem suicidal are the last 3 lines. And they're in a different handwriting. And rumors of his death being a murder started the day his body was found. You can see a few posts from April of 1994 on Google's Usenet archives.
Everyone thought the same thing with me. Just because I don't go grinning at everyone I meet eyes with that meant I was pissed off. At my prom I was constantly asked what was wrong. lol. And Kurt is also right about the hating and judging people thing. I'm like that and I really wished I wasn't. I'd like to find some way to change it and get all of this hate out of me. Love this damn interview and I love Kurt.
I'm going through quite a rough time emotionally/mentally and I am finding comfort in knowing Kurt shared alot of the same problems (even the stomach pains). Thanks, Kurt and Nirvana, for keeping me going. I don't care what people say about them, or how they "sold out" (I got into an argument with a friend yesterday about that), there is nothing insincere about Kurt.
depression is a difficult thing to live with. a lot of times you pretend to be happy, because you don't want to feel like a burden. I think Kurt had an introverted personality and he got overwhelmed by the fame. maybe it made him happy at first and then he realized it wasn't what he wanted. I think he had a hard time being happy. probably felt alone, even though he had a family and a seemingly nice life. you can still be sad even when it seems you shouldn't be. that's what people don't understand about depression.
Such an interesting individual. Really understood the world and had a great musical philosophy.. One can only wonder what music would be like if he would still be here. Rest In Piece Kurt Cobain
I feel like Kurt and I share many similarities. People always think I'm depressed when I'm happy as hell. They are insinuating that I'm moody and depressed. There is nothing wrong with me at all. I like to have fun but if I'm not smiling 100% of the time, I'm in a shitty mood. People doing horrible things to others makes me want to beat their asses. But instead, I vent my feelings playing guitar. I hate how people are so judgmental towards me by just looking at my face.
I talk to Kurt sometimes ( his spirit ) & hope he's listening to me. Kurt, you were an awesome singer, and if you were around now, you'd have even more kick ass songs to listen to, to go along with what you had back then that topped the charts! Kurt's rockin' out in Heaven, i just know it! When i die...transition...when my "clay pot" breaks & goes back to dust, & my spirit's long gone from it, i wanna go find Kurt & hear him play some awesome music up yonder in Heaven. =)
Love to hear Kurt about his life and how he is coping with everyday battles Kurt is real and honest and humble all THE things Kurt talks about a feel THE same we a twin flames for sure a can feel it so strong Love and miss Kurt everyday every minute 🧍🎸❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏💋❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥🥰👌☺️💋❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
You didn't know Kurt, I doubt you've listened to much of Kurt's music, and you assume he committed suicide, despite a wealth of evidence to the contrary. And the fact that you regard Dave Grohl as some kind of musical genius, when he only made 2 half-way decent albums (the first 2 Foo Fighters cds) and alot of sub-par shit pretty much negates your opinion. So, fuck off.
he had a way of rationalizing his heavy drug use to himself. it's a pain medication...etc. he just couldn't admit to himself most of his "pains" were more than likely caused by his addiction more than anything else. it's classic junkie thinking. I just wish he could have survived it. nirvana videos from right before nevermind was released...kurt crowd surfing and diving into drum sets....he was such a great perfomer. it's just so sad...all of it.
It's so heart wrenching hearing the exact same contradictions of speech come out of his mouth that come out of my mouth all the time. thats why I feel for him so much.
Can someone expalin why kurt is hating people who hurt other people for no reason but did the same thing too his band and fans and even a cat. He has to have a mental illnes of some sort
I guess Kurt always had this thing that he always made his sorrows, problems and everything seem much more bigger and worse than they actually were. He had this tendency to exaggerate everything, I don't mean to say that he had less problems but in his mind the sorrows and problems were much more greater and bigger than they actually were, which according to me was one of the reasons for the fall of Kurt Cobain. RIP Kurt, I still miss you man.
+Amey Pandit Cobain sometimes comes across in interviews as somebody who hasn't quite reached the end of adolescence and the beginning of adulthood. Lots of kids have a hard time controlling their moods and tempers and they tend to be emotionally miserable (hence "dysphoria").
I was born 4 years after his death. started listing to nirvana bout a year ago. Now seeing his picture makes want to start fucking crying cause he did not deserve to die and i wish he was alive so much!!! its almost like looking at a picture of someone in your family that has passed. R.I.P. Kurt Cobain
I understand exactly where he is coming from in the first few interviews at this very moment. It took me awhile to really get into Kurt's music with Nirvana but lately, I have been relating soo much to his music, interviews, etc. I remember hearing about Nirvana and Kurt Cobain throughout my life, but had never really took the time to listen and understand. These interviews among others, plus his music is really one of the only things that are making me feel like I am not alone with the thoughts and feelings I've been having for awhile now. And it's weird because it is such a cliche to say but I'll say it anyway...I wish the guy was still alive making his music. It is such a relief to discover another human being that gets where you are coming from, and that seems to feel the same way as you do about things...it really does good at relieving the feeling of being alone a bit, a makes it bearable at times. I say I wish he was still alive, right now more than any other deceased musician...because I feel he could have been a symbol for those who have these same feelings about humanity, life, etc. I think it would have done alot of people good, for him to be around making his music still. It almost shocked me at the first half of the interviews, how much I related...it almost felt like he was speaking the very thoughts that were in my brain. Especially the first minute of the video.
great words about him.i agree with you some people hate him because of his drug addiction but they dont know that he constantly had stomach ache and drugs seemed the only way to him.anyway he was great and he is a legend
I gravitate towards people or musicians who also have depression or borderline without consciously knowing whether they have it. I hear them speak and very quickly my subconscious knows but doesn't always communicate that with my conscious mind. So sometimes years go by since I've thought about that individual and I read a news article, one day, saying they had depression. It's a relentless and daily affair and I sometimes wonder if the stress of having it for decades on end has changed my quality of life in a way that will cut it shorter than it would have been without it. Many of us turn to substances as a painkiller as I also did but I managed to stop after 10 weeks of rehab. A huge portion of the population still doesn't think depression is an actual physical disorder but it's very easy to Google "MRI scans" and "depression" so I attribute their ignorance to pure laziness and apathy. The causes for it, of course, are myriad.
