@@e.a.coldrick that's so cool, I took almost 2 years gab :0 she's 21 I'm 20 and I just getting started UNI just 3 days ago because in 2020 & 2021 I prefer to take a break 🥲seeing the senior in my UNI same age as I am almost finish their uni xD I'm so late
@@BarkleyBrixton omg me too!!! I'm 19 and I'm taking a gap year, but then I'm taking a second one after that next academic year as well, then starting uni in 2023 when I'm 21 😀
Oh, Ruby, I remember my last day at University and mine was many years ago. I remember feeling a bit lost. I expect similar to how you feel now. I hate saying, "Things will work out." but, you are a very bright young woman and very driven and something interesting and wonderful is in store for you, I'm pretty sure. :) When I graduated I was not sure what I was going to do. I assumed I was going to grad school, but the money wasn't there. My parents had recently divorced and, well.... I was engaged to the man I am still married to but I wanted to continue my education. My last exam as an undergrad was in *Psycho-Biology, the Psychology of Perception* (how the senses work and how they tie in with psychology.) It was one of my most difficult classes, but one I enjoyed the most. The prof was a teacher's assistant from University of Chicago but he was one of the best teachers I had. I remember walking out of the science building after my last exam and screaming with joy because I was "Done!" But, quickly was a bit anxious as I wasn't sure what was in store for me next. I'd been in school since I was four, it felt very strange to not have a new semester to look forward to immediately. I had plans to either go to graduate school to become a clinical psychologist or go to medical school to become a physician. Neither actually happened. My career and my interests curved slightly. I actually didn't go to graduate studies until years later, when I already had 2 children with my husband and was studying to become a Board Certified Lactation Consultant. This is a career choice that didn't even exist when I graduated Uni! But, I love my career and I love what I do. It was worth the wait and worth having half my family before I finished my studies. (Although I do feel we are never finished with our studies. Study should be part of our entire lives from my POV.) My job works with having a family and I'm doing work that I am passionate about, and which blends science and health care with caring for one's patients emotionally as well. Things work out. I am looking forward to a new book from you! Congratulations on your graduation! Keep up the good work in whatever direction and path your life takes you.
@@twaybabousboula8690 Try to see how many years you will need to study to be able to use a Psychology degree. I found my Psychology degree needed at least 2 to 4 more years of Post Graduate work to be useful for a career. When I found Lactation Consulting, my degree was useful in applying for an IBCLC program. Post Graduate work is essential to becoming a therapist or clinical psychologist, at least here in the USA. It was impossible for me to get grants after I graduated and there was no money from my parents. I carried on, got married, had a few children and eventually found my degree could be used to help me become an IBCLC. Good luck to you!
this was so nice to read! I am now in my last semester of uni too, I'm so happy to leave though as my lecturers and supervisors at this uni are horrible people and don't give a crap about the students. They are so rude and unhelpful. I wanted to apply for a research masters but needed a reference from my supervisor, which she said she won't give me a proper one, just one stating the dates, I asked why, because I missed some supervisions (despite at the time explaining it was due to my mental health condition, I have ocd and anxiety) to which she replied it was my own fault and own choice. They have no respect at all for mental health issues. They don't care if you are struggling, never asked if I was okay if I was absent for a while just sent nasty emails saying it was my own fault if I failed because I didn't want to put the work in. completely disregarding my mental health struggles. I asked her what she was going to put in the reference, If it was going to be really bad, to which she replied ''you can't tell me what to write sorry'. Then I said I thought you could include something good maybe, such as the fact I attended all of my lecturers, to which she said 'I will write the truth'. Nasty people, awful university, its no wonder its at the bottom of the league tables in every aspect. I have never been made feel so bad about myself and inadequate. I can't wait to get out of here.
“There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind.” - C. S. Lewis I’m soon to be in the same stage of transition out of academia (at least for awhile). I hope this quote comforts you the same way it comforts me. Here’s to new adventures! Also, Ruby, I have been watching your videos since we were both like fifteen and I can’t believe we’re graduating university!❤️
Stay put! It never has to end! You can most certainly build a fulfilling life for yourself in academia! I am 55 years old and still at university. Of course, I teach there now, but I am also finishing up a Ph.D. One of my favorite mentors has three doctoral degrees, and I also plan to earn three. Plus, you have a well-established "side hustle" as an academic influencer through your RU-vid channel and stationery shop. Transitions between degrees and teaching assignments can be strange, but the cadence of the academic space and the academic year remains.
Very true! :) I graduated in 2004, went back to college in 2005 to get my teaching qualification, then went to work abroad as an English teacher and have now returned to uni to start a second B.A., this time in English and Communication Science and at a German university. My first time round, I was a student in Glasgow. Totally different experience, but I'm loving it so far! :)
I love academia myself and don’t see myself leaving this world any time soon. Congratulations to you on almost achieving your Ph.D. That is no easy feat.
@@charlotte8659 it's a bit complicated 😆 My family is originally from Germany, but we moved around a lot so I went to kindergarden in Belgium and school in Germany, China and England. Got my A-Levels in England and went to uni in Scotland. I went back to Germany in 2007 and have been working here ever since 🙂.
I felt the same way the last semester and class college. You know everything is changing but everything is the same in that moment. It’s truly incredible 💛 I’m glad you documented this journey for yourself because it’s going to be so nice to look back at.
Ahh it's the typical end of the week Ruby Granger watching time! I just love to curl up in a blanket with a mug of tea to watch these. They are calming and wholesome. Love you 💞 Ruby!
Ruby, you're not alone in this. I've just had to say goodbye to my school where I've spent 8 years. This place has become my home and a place I will always value with all of my heart. It hurts, but it's so immensely rewarding!
I'm graduating uni this year as well and it feels so bittersweet. One one hand I'm happy about moving on with my life, on the other I wish I could've savoured those years more, because with covid it feels like time has flown away so quickly
I am binge-watching all of her videos because she is such an inspiration for me! I agree being in my Senior year here at college in the states it's such an odd feeling to finally be wrapping things up and I took a semi-gap semester because I was only taking one class. I am slightly feeling freaked out like I have to know my next move right away. Even though I know that's irrational. I will most likely be taking a break from being a student for a while before I jump back into it if I ever decide that I want to study more. It's definitely an odd sensation when reality sets in that your leaving a place you've been at for so long!
It's so wonderful to have witnessed your growth from your first upload of impersonating Hermione, your first "study with me," first essay mark at the university, and here we are in your last class. We've seen your struggles and how you overcome every circumstance you have as a university student. You inspired many of your viewers to be optimistic about studying and following their passions. We are excited about the next level you will have after graduation, and CONGRATULATIONS, Ruby! 💛
I’m graduating this year, too, and I feel the same way…it’s just such a weird feeling to know this is probably the last time I’ll be doing so many of the things I’ve been doing for years.
I feel like I'm the only one who was happy when they graduated 😅.. It was a magical moment because now I get paid for working rather than getting no pay to do the same thing at uni, can afford to treat myself, live by myself, travel, study at my own time and get better at what I do but also practice hobbies. What I recommend is that you don't see this as the "end". Because it's not. Your life will look however you want it to look Ruby, don't feel like you're losing anything by graduating. Trust me, it will feel better with time.
Wow I discovered your channel when you just started university (the same time as me) and now it's over for you, somehow I'm emotional 😭 I wish you all the best for what's coming next Ruby ! Greetings from France
I know exactly how it feels to be done with your undergrad. I graduated at 39. I still remember clicking SUBMIT for the last time and it was just a surreal moment and I was just numb. I started a Master's this past autumn at 42. My advice to EVERYONE is to go straight through school. Congrats on being done! 🎉
I finished classes in university in 2020 -I was forced to take a bit of a break on 2021 due to illness- and only have left my thesis. Even though I'm not graduated yet, I'm working as a jurnalist like I planned and could not be happier. I do not feel the stress or pressure of being 'perfect' and feel this stage of my life as a beggining, not and ending, of a new chapter of my adulthood. Thank you for sharing this last class, and congratulations! More things are in the future for you!
Interesting point on always being in the academic setting - I recently went into the world of work for a year long placement as an Engineer (After 3rd year of uni) and I won't lie I was bricking it for whether I'd fit in, with all the what ifs flying around. What if I wasn't good enough, what if I would make mistakes - major imposter syndrome - all these things which in the academic world are classed as shortcomings and failures, yet in reality I have loved it for the last 8 months - you realise that you can relax on weekends but likewise the structure of Monday-Friday feels like that of secondary school. In at one time and out the same every day. It's a great opportunity if anyone has the chance to do a placeemnt and find if what you've been doing for the last however many years is the field for you. I personally have loved it and the people I've met - altho I do miss the longer holidays! 25 days choice a year really isnt enough!
Hi, I have been working as a teacher for many years. I NEVER left that structure and the year does still start in September. I will start studying again in a new field in fall & in english (obviously not my first language) & I wanted to tell you that I'm inspired by how you approach your studying and I have taken many ideas from your videos. You will master anything coming after your time at Uni, no doubt.
I graduated about 4 years ago after 7 years of studying at uni, and what I can say rn is that the yearning you have for academics, specially if you love studying, will never fully leave you. But what I experienced was that I loved how I was on my own and could actually do stuff after it, a bit hard at first, but it's been such an amazing feeling and I love it even more this way! Good luck Ruby!!❤️
Hey Ruby, I just wanted to say that you have helped me so much this past year. My life has been so much more productive, and I am more motivated to study, which is reflected in my grades. Thanks again and please continue to be the amazing person you are.
My lecturer called it “the void”, that feeling that settles in at the end of uni 😆 we all feel it! It’s 100% natural, you’re not being dramatic at all. It goes away after a while 😉 can’t wait to see what you’ll do next!!
I graduated in 2020 and the pandemic and lockdown hit just as my second term was ending - so me and my friends never realised that our ‘lasts’ at uni were our last seminars/time in the library/dinner time together, etc! I think these things are v meaningful, espeically when studying is something you’ve worked hard for and that means a lot to you (I went back to uni to get my degree after being delayed a few years for mental health reasons), so honestly it’s lovely to see you enjoying and pointing out your ‘lasts’! 🧡
Your begginning speech made me cry!! Reminded me of my very last day at UCL last year, where I cried my heart out. I have such a vivid memory of that day, and it still stings that I might never go back to these beautiful buildings.
Graduated university last December and I processed everything just like you! Feels very weird to be out of academics, and many exciting things are also happening at the same time! ♡
I'm in my 50s and I'd still give anything to be in school forever, even though I hated high school. I loved the studying part but I hated the "social" part and that few people had any interest in the academic side. My dream would be to be in school forever, but with people who also had the passion for the academics.
I’ve just begun to really enjoy post-academia life! I missed my campus a lot in the first post-grad year, then I felt ambivalent, and now almost four years (!) after graduating I can honestly believe and say that life after college / university is great :) my mental health is much better as well, and I try to find avenues of learning & education in other ways. Best of luck to you, Ruby! 💕
I finished my academics years ago, but I'm still learning. Squeezing some online lectures and readings into my full-time work schedule was not easy but rewarding. I'm planning to start my new academic adventure shortly, and thinking about it always brings me both joy and some kind of fear. Life is hard in always different forms. But it will make your journey fun. Hope you have a lovely day
Well done on your graduation. It is definitely strange at first after you complete your academic life. I am from the US and did all my schooling here; kindergarten all the way through my bachelor's degree. It's been so interesting to see how different and yet how similar we are. My Aunt, who also has a bachelor's, has said my times "no matter happens in life your degree is always yours." I've paraphrased her, but the sentiment remains the same. Well done and good luck with everything you do in the future.
The end of one's degree is certainly a momentous time. Familiar routines persist amid a growing sensation that various things are happening for the last time; the realisation dawns that you will soon no longer have the routines to do, and no longer see all the faces of those you have known for three or four years. It is important to cherish each moment, because such moments will never come again. Even if you remain for postgraduate studies, the routines and places and people will not be the same; if you stay for long enough, you may even be haunted by the sight of familiar places or the undertaking of familiar activities without the familiar people to share in it with you. I remember that on my very last day of university, which was a month into having started a new job elsewhere in the country, I drove away from campus having made my final submission, taking the briefest of glimpses through the rear window at the place before it disappeared from sight. Hardly anybody was left there that I had spent most of my time with, so I left with a glad and grateful heart, determined to fully embrace the career upon which I had just embarked. That isn't intended to dissuade anyone from pursuing further studies, I hasten to add - for, as much as it can be argued that staying in the same place until completing a PhD isn't good for one, it can also be noted that if a beneficial and self-enriching thing feels like the right thing to do, one should do it unless or until it is finished, or something else comes up. We each live our own life, after all. Since leaving university myself (four years in total, pursuing MA after BA), I have worked a number of jobs, all of them requiring academic duties, thus all have had patterns of work aligned to school and university terms. That is one way to preserve the rhythm of the academic year in your life without remaining in academia yourself; if that matters to you, it would be worth looking into career options accordingly. Equally, you may surprise yourself by enjoying the novelty of taking time off at different times of year - for one thing, travel and holidaymaking can be less expensive when school terms are on, and any opportunity to recharge in peace whilst exploring somewhere new to yourself is well worth taking. One door closes, yet others may open. However comfortable the cradle, we cannot remain in it as we grow up. Whether you stay in touch with your friends or drift apart into new friendships beyond university (just as you might already have done when leaving school for university), they will always be a part of you, having been with you in these formative times.
I graduated high school last year and I felt quite lost as well, so I can kind of relate to you. I took the summer trying to figure out what I wanna do with my life. Everyone wanted me to go to university, cause I was pretty good at school, especially maths and electronics. But I hated studying and going to school in general so I figured It’d be better to get a job instead. I finally started as an electric lineman apprentice in October and I love it. I know my father is pretty disappointed in me, but I also know I wouldn’t be nearly as happy at any university. So just do what makes you happiest, regardless what other people say and don’t worry, no matter how lost you’re feeling right now, I’m sure you will find the right thing for you.🥰
I was absolutely terrified to leave school and university, I didn’t know what would happen and I still don’t really as I don’t have a job. But as long as you know what your plan is, just treat it as another big adventure and make the most out of what comes your way. There will be hiccups or times you think “What on Earth am I doing?” But taking a step back and time to relax to get your head back in the game, you’ll be good to go. And remember, you will never stop learning. You can do this.
I also gonna start University this year in August. Actually, nowadays I don't have much idea about what will happen next 3.5 years. But I hope it will be the best chapter in my life. by the way, @ruby I am a fan of you for a very long time. I am watching your every video. You are the one who my study motivated character, you are the one who inspired me to film a video by myself. So I'm very emotional today for this video. Honestly, I felt a cry.🥺But I hope you will start a remarkable new chapter after Uni life. And I wish for that. All the best love 😍🥰 Jean Sri Lanka
I love how you said the new year starts in September instead of January. This is so true. I have always felt that way due to academics and my love for Autumn.
I remember my last day at university… although it wasn’t actually my last! It was just forced. I am from Chile and I was supposed to finish around December 2019, but the social protests that took place in October lasted until December and so I couldn’t have my “last day”. My only hope was graduation (to be held in 2020), but then then the pandemic happened and that also wasn’t possible. I ended up having a very unorganized online graduation. I was (and still am) sad about that, as I am the first person in my family to graduate from university. I hope to study a master’s degree so I can graduate (even if it sounds stupid). This was a lovely video Ruby, congratulations on fulfilling 4 years at university! 💗
I completely relate to how you feel about it being the last lecture, last time on campus and such! and it actually makes me want to STAY at uni and do more, because i'm so used to the structure of things and the fact that now 'summer' isn't a summer holiday with no school work. it's now just a season.
For me personally, school has always been my worst nightmare. I was „the stupid kid“ since kindergarten. I’m over with school in summer. I love learning and reading but school itself is just pure anxiety and hatred. So I basically can’t wait until I’m over with all of it.
It was nice to see your campus again, though I wish you had shown it more over the past 4 years. I will miss university vlogs. When I graduated from college I was partially sad to leave it behind, apprehensive of the future, ready to be back in my own room for privacy and extremely glad I already had a job lined up, which started 3 days later. My year still, after all this time, revolves around the school year; summer is vacation time, fall is starting new projects, studies and reading, holidays stay the same, and so it goes round! The hardest thing was realizing that you are in a sort of limbo state when thrust out into the world. I wasn't seriously dating anyone at the time, so not married, no kids, lived at home for a bit before moving out and then eventually fell in love, marrying, owning our own home. I felt like I didn't belong anywhere except at work, where I did make a lot of friends as many were close to my age or a few years older. Co-workers became best friends and we did a lot together beyond the workplace. My college days will always be precious to me, but moving forward and embracing adulting was so much fun too! One of my favourite things was being able to read whatever I wanted without any deadlines, as I also majored in English Lit. So liberating!
I'm graduating this year too and this video lowkey made me emotional...there are so many lasts that are starting to happen and it's such a weird nostalgic feeling
What can be much more better than watching ruby on a cozyy day!! I am watcing it in my blanket with a mug of tea ☺ Whoever reads it may have a great day ahead (Reply to it 😁)
Dear Ruby , this Video made me kind of emotional. The whole „The Last Time-„ thing really get´s to me. Im from Germany and I had my last school day last week. Im only gonna go back to take my finals. It was 13 years of school and nine years at my current school and it was the last time I really went there. It makes me kind of sad but also excited for what is coming. Im probably gonna start studying at my dream University in October and im nervous of that but also so excited to start this new academic path of mine.
Next month it'll be the last courses of my bachelor's degree and I'm kind of nervous and excited but I also feel a bit melancholic because time flies!! But it's important to enjoy the end of something just as much as we might mourn it a little because after that we have a new beautiful beginning of something else and it's definitely something to celebrate just as much as we find the beauty in the closing a chapter in our lives.
You've really upped your editing game! Love watching your videos as a current literature student around the same age as you; I can't wait to see what you do next! A question: do you like Gothic literature? I'm a huge fan and writing my final essay for this year on Great Expectations, which certainly has some wonderfully Gothic moments!
I feel that introducing a couple of new songs has instantly improved the overall perceived quality of your video. Keep on with experimenting with new elements!
no, oh my god ruby be so proud of yourself i can’t believe time just went past us all like that. i remember you having your first day at uni, holy shit
I have a feeling of sadness upon me. Ruby, you're so profound and wise in your way of thinking and interacting with the world. You will continue to be a role model to so many of us. Xx
Feelings of nostalgia and reminisce seeing you wrap up your Bachelor! I've done my Master and my PhD and will possibly for my next job leave academia. So I also completely relate to all you reflected on! Leaving academia seems surreal... it's been my home.
Ahh, it's been two years I've been out of college and due to the pandemic it feels like it was yesterday when I graduated now that I am ready to go back to college again. Seeing this video made me relive all those memories.
Hey Ruby been following your channel since I was in high school. It's been years. I do care about your well being so I just wanted to give you a piece of unsolicited advice (which I never do) - don't use Johnson and Johnson products! They're very bad for you. There's a documentary called Not So Pretty I think everyone should watch! Maybe it might help you trust my advice more. Glad to see you're doing well and you're going places! Good luck!
You’re smart Ruby. I like how you keep in perspective that there is so much more to come, while (whilst) enjoying the present. I think that’s a great mindset to have, and I hope you do very well on your dissertation.
This is such a surreal video because I've been watching your videos since I was doing my GCSEs (perhaps even earlier) and while you were a year ahead of me back then, we'll both be graduating this summer. Even though I don't actually know you, it really feels like you are a friend who has been with me though all my life stages since then - especially in the last two years, as I've been using your academic planners 😂. That might sound extreme, but I don't know how else to put it. I feel like I've incorporated lots of your study, wellness and lifestyle tips into my life without even noticing. Thank you for always being you and I can't wait to see what the future holds!
HI Ruby, I almost never comment on your videos but this time I had to..somehow it just made me really emotional, maybe because it is my last year as an undergraduate as well or maybe because I've been able to watch your video in a long time. I struggle with how overwhelming studying and being organized is so when I see your video a just can't bring myself to watch because it makes me feel like a failure, because I'm not that productive as you are. But today I went to therapy for the first time and I can see myself going there and becoming better person and making my life more meaningful and not feeling guilty after watching your videos, because I really like them and I like the peacefulness in your life. Thank you for sharing and also that I could share here in the comment, whether you read it or not, and thanks for your content. Hope you're doing well. :)
I have been so excited and checking several times a day to see if you uploaded. I have really enjoyed watching your progress through uni and I can’t wait to see what you do next!!!!
I know it's not really the same, as you might be quitting academic life altogether (although there is no way you are not, at some point, going to do a masters) but I really relate to this. I am, at the moment, studying for my final exams. In the Netherlands, you can spend up to 6 years in high school depending on your level and it feels so weird leaving the space I grew up in, attending the last classes, handing in the final essay, etc. It feels so weird leaving that space. It almost feels unreal.
I'm experiencing same sentiments as yours! Currently in my last year as a senior high school student, and I'm starting to feel that void too. It's okay to feel that, it's part of the journey.
The end of a season ❤️🥺 I've been following you since you made hermione videos and I am the same age as you so in a way you have always been part of my school/uni experience and in the same stage of life. I'm handing in my own dissertation in about two weeks and I had my last seminar today. It feels surreal but i'm excited!
This feels so weird. The feeling you explain were my feelings before I started. I knew things in my life would change as in not seeing my sisters as often and living in another environment then I was used to. Knowing I would move away, that's a weird feeling. At the same time, you make friends pretty easily and now I can't think of a life where I don't go to uni... Well actually I can, but for now it's really just a dream and uni is a step closer for it to become a reality. Also, I cannot stop to be so impressed by how much you really inspire me to do better and not procrastinate too much. It really is a problem for me but I've done better at uni than I have... with any work really. You really are my study role model.
We’re completely the same but I’m older than you lol. I’m 31 and I’m completing my two year in college. Life is so different it doesn’t matter how different or the same path life is for everyone. As long as you don’t give up! I would have wanted to complete this when I was younger. But it just makes me realize, wherever you are in life. It’s exciting to what’s to come! Blessings Ruby 🤍
Hi Ruby I found your channel a few weeks ago and its amazing so far . I really appreciate all the videos and tips you posted I really enjoy watching them . Thanks to you I am now more organised and I know what to do or bring in my academic year in school. Your amazing . Thank you I wish you all the best in the future and throught your education keep up with the good work !!
I felt the exact same way about being tied to academics, which is why I became a lecturer. 😄 Despite its problems, I love being in the academic community and I’m very happy with my career choice.
Congrats 🎉 this is huge ruby!!! I am so proud of you and yes so true academic spaces can be hard to say goodbye too but totally worth it to start your next chapter of life 💛 You got this!! Can’t wait to read your book 🥳❣️
First, I missed you! Second, I do feel you. I remember this feeling when I left high school and then college... Today I'm a teacher and I Believe that part of it was the love for being "in the School" ❤️ good luck on your next step 😘
OMG I just checked RU-vid to know if you have uploaded a new video and here you are! Happy that you let us be part of this process that is coming to its end 🍁
I haven’t watched your videos in a while and it’s crazy how much time has passed! I finished Highschool last year and I’m taking a gap year now. My last days of school were almost one year ago which is crazy!!! It felt similar as you’re describing and it actually still does. I‘m going to start Uni in September and I’m really excited but also nervous about it. I want to go into environmental engineering, but I’m quite sure that it’s not gonna be easy haha. Thanks for your videos though. You‘ve always helped me to be more productive and to look forward to university :)
Ah Ruby, I’ve been watching you for about 5 years and I’m finishing uni this year too. I did a 4yr undergrad and this year was my masters year which I did at the same university; that makes 5 years at my uni and I’ve loved it all! Friends, acquaintances, lecturers, the campus, the city … it’s all been great! I agree with what you said about being ready to finish but having mixed emotions. 5 years of my life I’ve given my all to my studies, especially these last 2 years have been intense with it being my final year and my MA, so I really do feel like I’ve given all that I ever had to give to my studies, and when asked if I wanted to do a second masters or PhD, I said that it wasn’t for me. But…. If you said, let’s go back to 2017 and live the experience all over again, I would hop in that time machine and do it 100%. Im so glad that you’re a RU-vidr I relate to so much! Please never change and always continue to be authentic with your followers… it’s so comforting 🥰
wow can't relate lol, my uni is shit, made 0 friends, lecturers were horrible to me, couldn't care less when I was literally suicidal was told I was lazy.
As a student in the last month of undergrad, I totally understand everything u say we are going through the same . It's really hard to believe buy all good things come to an end😭
Ruby, this is a brilliant video! I've been watching your channel since you started university and you've been an inspiration for my own RU-vid channel. I wish you all the best in your future endeavours and thank you for sharing your journey with us x
Missed you while you were away 🤗😊My absolute favorite thing is to start my morning off with a Ruby Granger video, you truly make the day so much better. Any video you make and post are wonderful amazing videos ^_^.
It's funny because I have that exact same SDG pin! I'm a freshman in university, but as a certified neurotically anxious person, I can't help but keep thinking about what life will be like once I graduate. What will become of me? What will be my purpose? So far, studying and getting good grades has been my only purpose. What comes next?