Laughing, Crying, and Colorado: Weekly Vlog ✈️ 

Kim, thank you for being so honest & real about your anxiety. As someone who also deals with anxiety I really appreciate you bringing awareness to it & the fact that it doesn't discriminate - I also feel incredible blessed to have all I do but often struggle with anxiety without people realising.

I love that Kim is so open about her struggles. It feels like you are reading my mind.

I just wanted to say to Kim, I appreciate your vulnerability and honesty about anxiety and depression. I wish my closet was big enough for a cry. That looks like a perfectly safe space for a good cry 💜

You never know what someone is going through. So true. A little kindness goes a long way.

"... But then my husband starts singing and it makes me laugh" 💜

"be kind because u never know what people or going through" u r amazing, from a closet floor buddy💞

Closet (and shower) crier here! Thanks for talking about anxiety- it took me almost 40 years to be honest about it- glad to hear I'm not alone!

Kim, thank you for talking about your anxiety. I am a combination of you and Penn. I have anxiety, depression and ADD. We need to normalize talking about seating in our closets crying (I do it too).

It's Dude Dad, I love Dude Dad! And thank you Kim for opening up your life to us

YES on next week - keep hanging out with us here! And I think “life outside the closet gets complicated” is a great name for your blog! Love this format from you!! And appreciate being comrades in anxiety and depression! Bunches of love Noelle

I really appreciate your openness about your anxiety and staving off depression. Several of my kids have anxiety and panic attacks. That's not something that I have experienced, so I find it hard to understand. I've learned to be supportive and have tried to help them find strategies that work for them. They're all adults now and mostly know what helps them to calm down.

3 pairs per day is perfect for traveling! Daytime, evening, and a fresh pair to sleep in!

The closet is the best. It’s so good to have a safe space. We are definitely hanging out. 😃

Kim, please keep doing these weekly vlogs! Such a huge fan of you and Penn

Let's definitely hang out next week! I feel much better when I see you and I feel so understood. Thank you for opening up and inviting me into your family! You're amazing. ❤️❤️

Please do more hang out vlogs like this! I love them! 😊 Also, you are so right. Mental health disorders do not discriminate and it doesn’t care about how privileged or “lucky” our lives look to others. Mental health and circumstances are intertwined in smaller ways but they are quite separate in actuality. 💗 Thank you for bringing awareness! ~Krislynner

Kim, watching you and your family's videos is therapy for us. ❤️

What I love and appreciate about you and Penn is that you are real and open. You don’t try to portray perfection and you allow us to get to see the imperfections and quirks, something we can all relate to. I’m so excited to see more life vlogs! I rather enjoyed this one and the style you edited it in. And yes, I love our closet conversations.

I always love to hang out and watch your videos. Thanks for sharing your struggles with anxiety, as a very anxious person I understand crying in the closet all too well. Be blessed

This just blessed my entire day!! Kim, your vlogs are like having coffee with a dear friend and it’s such a gift!! Side note, I adore you and your husband, and the fact that you traveled to CO (my current state) to film with Dudedad is just so awesome!! Praying that you have a joyful and blessed week!❤️😊

Thanks for sharing, Kim. You guys share with us and you both bring some comedy relief and a human touch regularly to my weeks. You are often my news escape to watch something more positive. I’m actually in my closet too, deciding what to wear to work tomorrow as I watch this, so from one closet to another, it is fun to hang out haha. Have a great week!

Dude dad and Holderness are peanut butter and jelly to RU-vid. Two great things that go great together. Thanks guys.

I really enjoyed this video. Your transparency and unscripted narration was very much like hangout. Keep these videos coming. 🙂

Kim, I totally understand your anxiety. You are helping me today with your words. I had to put my dog down over the weekend. My sadness and depression are very real today.

Kim, this was awesome. Both your honesty and your obvious comfort in front of the camera (to show such honesty as well as your goofiness ❤️❤️❤️) were heartwarming. One particular highlight for me was hearing Penn singing *sans* *autotune* and the way it lightened your mood. Thank you for this! ❤️❤️

It’s amazing when a safe space unleashes the emotions. *hugs* Thank you for sharing the behind the scenes struggles. As soon as you said Colorado, I knew where you were going. Can’t wait to see the videos, those combined forces is always a good time.

My closet is my ultimate safe space when I get overwhelmed, anxious and/or emotional. I thought there might be something wrong or off with me because of it sometimes. But then when you shared, I realized...Kim is great! I love and respect her. She’s real and juggling all the things and finding healthy ways that work for her to be her best self. So I am finally embracing that part of myself when I need it. Thank you for that gift, Kim! 🤗❤️🙏🙌 You make such a positive difference in the world!

Hi Kim! As someone who has been diagnosed and been hospitalized with mental illness, I really appreciate you talking about your own struggle with anxiety. Yes, mental illness can affect ANYONE; it doesn't matter who you are, where you live, or what kind of life you have. It's actually a bit refreshing to hear that you are dealing with things like this, and you see us, because you've been there yourself. We see you too, Sister!

Kim, I love that you are being so real with us all. Heck yeah! Let’s hang out every week! I don’t deal with anxiety much. Yes. I know. I’m blessed. But when I was working, caretaking my mom (dementia) on my own, and having health issues of my own, I think I did have anxiety and stress that I really did not have time to deal with. I really believe this was the main cause of my own health issues. I love that you are talking about it. That is healthy. It also helps that Penn is aware of your issues.

I feel you, Kim. And I am so grateful for your authenticity. It really does help to know that I’m not alone…from someone I really admire. Depression fighter here, and my thinking/crying place has always been the shower. 💧 Glad you enjoyed our state, and I look forward to more weeks with you. ❤️

Thank you Kim for being so open and honest, your videos bring me so much joy and I get so excited whenever I see that you’ve uploaded. Also, I have the opposite problem when packing for trips. I always overpack everything. I bring so much unnecessary things that I know I won’t wear or won’t use, and most of the time I can barely get my suitcase to close.

Kim: don't know if you're interested in sharing this but I'd be interested to know what it was you were going through as in what you thought maybe brought that on / contributed to it, if anything, and how you treated it, what techniques you used if any, etc. Thank you! Love you guys! 🤗❤️❤️

Yes!! Let’s all hang out like this again! 👏🏻🙌🏻 I always enjoy your videos but these week-in-life are soooo relatable- I laughed and cried and somehow felt a sense of perspective watching you guys do what life has given you to do even when you may not feel like it ever single moment. Thanks so much! Here’s my vote 🤩👏🏻

Really appreciate your openness. People are people regardless of one’s station or circumstance in life. No apology needed for anxiety or depression. Thank you for sharing.

So many people need this message. I don’t suffer from that but know of some who do. It is not always controllable. Thank you for sharing.

We all need quiet time and that seems to be your closet. My home gym is my quiet time as it is a detached building from the house, so I am the only person there.

I love that you went to Colorado. I live there! You guys are so amazing.

Thank you Kim for sharing.... its therapy for you yet you are also helping other people by talking about your struggles. 💖

Kim I really appreciate your sharing how you cope with your anxiety and depression. I struggle with the same. February I had a friend pass away who I’ve known since I was eight years old. And I didn’t mean to but I lost my hold on the pretend calm at my doctors office last week. But since then I have developed a stronger ability to maintain my balance. It’s OK that we interact with each other with our pretend calm but is also helpful to see we are not alone in our struggles. This video was an encouragement to me and I thank you for that. I have a non-progressive form of cancer so my doctor was a little like what are you crying about. And I have to say I’m very thankful, it was the loss of my friend, which unbalanced me, not sure why that was hard for MD to understand.🙃

I enjoy these weekly wrap-ups. Thanks for being real and honest.

Thank you for being so vulnerable with us. Keep going Kim! Your videos are therapy for me and my anxiety too

Kim , you are amazing and strong. I have lived with clinical depression since I was 14 (40 years yikes!). Over the years, i went through denying it existed , to admitting it to myself but hiding it from everyone around me. Now, i openly accept my mental health as part of who i am. I take my happy pill every day and realize it is a lifetime journey that i share with millions of others. I have come to realize that nobody walks this path alone and even the darkest shadows have friends that are willing to help me back into the light.

I always overpack underwear, too! I think it’s because if something DOES happen, you don’t want to run out and have to buy just underwear. 🤷🏼‍♀️

I love the vlogs! Thank you for sharing and for all that you do. Keep ‘em coming!

I love your weekly vlog! Let's definitely hang out again next week.😊👍

please continue doing these videos, its so raw and real and it hurts my heart to see her in a less peppy and happy state than what we normally see, but yet good in away. Just the way you represent all the struggles in everyday life.

Kim - I have a Vacation List that has everything I will need while I'm away. So I don't have to stress out about forgetting something important, which could potentially ruin a fun vacation (think: phone/laptop/dSLR battery chargers, padded biking shorts, alarm clock, medications, etc). Then as I pack, the item gets crossed off the list. Makes the process go a lot smoother. I appreciate your honesty. 'Kim alone' time should not be underestimated, considering how busy you guys are.

I absolutely feel everything you were talking about and can relate so much. I think I need to buy an area rug for my closet (I have hardwood)...so I can have a good cry in there too. Thank you for being so real and open. I feel like we are hangin' too :)

Appreciate your transparency about anxiety - we feel that and relate to that experience in your closet

Thank you Kim for being open about feelings and I live in Colorado I love it

I arrived at my destination last night, started to get settled in and realized I had left the majority of my clothes in a hanging bag in my closet AT HOME! I have two shirts, one pair of joggers, and one pair of blue jeans to get me through 3 weeks. Nothing appropriate for some of my activities I have planned. I've always struggled with packing, but this time I thought I was on top of it. Also, thank you for sharing your heart. Depression and anxiety are absolute beasts.

Its good that you guys are so open about things. Looking forward to hanging out with you again next week.

Thank you so much for showing yourself crying in your closet and sitting in your closet and talking about anxiety and depression!! I hear ya, I feel ya 🤗 I cry in my bathroom and my bedroom. Those are my cry spots.

Thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing the vulnerable moments with us. I see you, too. Never stop being real. ❤️

You are so ME!!!!! And so many people just don't understand. A bad week or weeks in a row... Random visitors showing up, I'm know to lock the door quick and jump to my belly and sneak off to the bedroom until they leave :) you just made me very normal feeling !

Closets are very comforting, cozy protective places. It's our natural instinct so we shouldn't question it. Just acknowledge this universal truth, along with our love of everything Fall. :-)

I understand where you are coming from, Kim. I'm manic/depressed and I have good days and bad days. When I'm having a bad day and have to go out I paste a smile on my face, but I'm crying on the inside. 🙏💖🙏💖🙏💖

I'm enjoying your vlogs and stoked to see the videos with Dude Dad! Thanks for being you!

I also want to add that I understand the closet. I don't have a big closet like yours but my bathroom with a door lock does the trick. Because as much as I love my family and my life there are times when I need to breathe and let some emotions out so I can keep going especially knowing I am all that my kids can rely on. We all have that special go to place so thanks for keeping it real.

Kim, these videos where you all share a day in your lives are some of my favorites, and it would be wonderful to get to “hangout” next week too! Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability about your anxiety. As someone who struggles with ADHD, anxiety, and misophonia, hearing your testimony of your experiences with anxiety as well as reflecting on the fact that anxiety does it discriminate is very encouraging to me. When I am my most anxious or ADHD, I often start to beat myself up mentally with thoughts of “You should just be able to do this” or “There is no reason for this” or “You’re just being pitiful” - just all these thoughts that see the abnormalities of my feelings and struggles as compared with the actual circumstances and how other people often handle them. You are right though that anxiety does not discriminate, that even if life is great and you a privileged there can still be crippling underling fear. One thing that helps me so so much with my anxiety is my relationship with Jesus Christ and reading such passages of the Bible as Psalms 91 and Matthew 6 or 1 Peter 1-2 (which talks about how or ultimate and I saving hope is found in Jesus). I remember in one of your amazing race podcasts you said “We love Jesus, but we cuss sometimes” (or something along those lines, haha) so I thought I would share this which helps me have internal peace. (one of the fruits of the spirit, thank the Lord!) I am so sorry this was so long and rambling, but again, thank you for sharing and being so honest! I pray God continues to help comfort you and give you peace that surpasses understanding!

Gold medal Kim. Gold medal. Thank you~

I'm happy that you are being so real to us. It can be so hard to do this in person for some people. But it really helps others to see that they are not alone when you put it out on your page. Thank you so much Kim for just being you.

Kim, it's so great to watch these vlogs and enjoy your particular humor, which is more subtle and dry than Penn's. I love how much of yourselves you two share with your subscribers. Sometimes it's freaky how much you & I have in common, until you say something like you have anxiety about packing (I love to pack and literally get endorphins from planning for a trip). Keep being real, y'all!

Not entirely sure what my mental health status is, but the Holderness Family is a big part of my therapy!!

I love the message Kim shared at the end about anxiety does not discriminate. One of my least favorite phrases is when someone says "that is a first world problem". It implies that our anxiety or problems are less real or not allowed just because we are lucky in some ways. Your problems may be different than mine but they are real to us.

Thanks so much for being so open about your anxiety! My son deals with anxiety , so hearing your thoughts, especially when you were on Amazing Race, really helped me understand what he deals with. YES, LET’S HANG OUT!!!!!!

OMG - this is me! Except for sitting in the closet crying; our house doesn't have any closets that I can sit in. Now I miss our old house and I'm just going to have to cry on the couch about it. Seriously though, this is awesome. Anxiety, depression, mental health - so very real for all of us.

Kim, I love these videos and "hanging out" with you as you put it! Please do more of them. As someone who has anxiety and depression I get how you feel. Thank you for sharing!

Kim, thank you for being open and sharing yourself with us. We appreciate and support you as well as Penn and the kids. Incidentally, there is nothing wrong with taking more underwear than you need. 😁

Love you and your honesty. I believe in you and trust you and enjoy your talent and humor. YOU made a huge difference in my ability to get through 2020---to be able to laugh with and relate to someone (you) was/is awesome.

Yes! We definitely should hang out again. Looking forward to next week. I too struggle with anxiety and have all my life, so at times I have had good cries in my closet or in my bathroom, so totally understandable. I feel very blessed as well in life, but anxiety and other challenges do not pick and choose who they happen to as you said. Thanks for being open with us so that we can be open with you. ☺️❤️

Kim thank you so much for opening up about ur anxiety! I have it too and it means a lot that u take the time to talk about. It’s inspirational for me to have seen u get through the amazing race with it too! I love youuu❤️

Oh, yay for Colorado! Fort Collins is adorable; two of our sons lived there and we're about 3 1/2 hours south of there in the not so pretty part of Colorado but we see Pikes Peak out our front window.

Kim, you take care of you! Thanks for sharing with us. Love you and your family.❤️❤️❤️❤️

I knew it was Dude Dad when you said Colorado!! Love it!!

As a kid on vacation we all fell in the White River and got our clothes wet. Since we had no more clean clothes with us, my grandfather held our underwear out the window to dry as we rode down the highway so they would dry enough to put back on for the rest of our day. I now always travel with two pairs per day plus a few extra, same with socks. You never know what the day holds, but I know mine will most likely not include air drying underwear out the car window ever again!

Thank you for hanging out! Always brings a smile and warm fuzzy feeling.

Nice to hear you speaking about mental health we need more conversations like that I also enjoy you guys on RU-vid

Laughed hysterically at "overpack my underwear"! 😂 There are at least 3 pair in my car, at least 3 in my Go bag, at least 3 in the emergency preparedness bin in my vehicle and when that overnight trip happens, there are 3 more pair for each day I'll be gone. You do the math!!! Unfortunately, there comes a point in some people's lives that 3 pair a day might be considered normal packing, even when merely taking that 40 minute drive to the grocery store. Oh, and never mind sitting on the floor of the closet: takes to long to get up and head for the john. The stepstool serves the purpose quite well, though. 😉

I'm an introvert, voice actor and content creator and I can relate to stress and anxiety. Also, found it funny you were just in Colorado as I live the city next to Fort Collins, Co in Windsor. It's a great area. Never knew that Dude Dad and Co were so close lol. You guys rock!

Yes, picture me while on your closet floor. Just another regular, imperfect person, doing the best I can, but sometimes it's pretty hard, although it seems like it shouldn't be. And, yes, let's hang out again next week! It's great being imperfect together. I truly appreciate your vulnerability and willingness to be real. It's hard when I have such high standards for myself and I'm sure you do, too. You and Penn are doing great with the vlogs. Keep 'em going - made me laugh out loud and also sigh, knowing I'm not alone (however weird that sounds). Btw, I have great friends, but it's funny, how I can relate to you over the internets. ;-D

I just listened to your May 24th podcast! I love listening to them and I so get y'all wanting to move around and travel when the kids are grown. We picked up and moved to a new state when our youngest graduated!

Yay!! I’m so glad you’re doing more vlogs, I love them!!💙💙

A quiet closet or area of the house is a great place to take time to talk to God and give all our anxiety and troubles over to Him.

I am the world's biggest worrier even though like you I am extremely blessed. I'm glad that you are not afraid to talk about this and all of the others that have commented are very brave and honest too. The guilt about feeling depressed with so many blessings can be overwhelming as well. I hate traveling even riding in a car let alone driving or flying. But I have a good time once I'm there. I think the best thing about being somewhere is the fact you love the home you are going back too. For my anxiety I pray a lot and take comfort that He is God and I am not so whatever happens is in His hands and He will help us through it. I too have a quiet place to pray and reset. So thumbs up to all of us whether it's a closet or a hiding place or just alone time to do what we need to do to feel better. 👍

Thanks for the great Colorado review. I live just 30 minutes away from Ft Collins, Colorado and will anticipate the upcoming video.

Thank you Kim for being honest about your struggles. I personally never just sat in my closet to give myself a "time out" but I have done that in my bathroom. Life's struggles are truth and its made more difficult when you are battling depression and/or anxiety. Life isn't a box of chocolates. It's more like the lint trap in your dryer that you have to keep on clearing out after every use so it doesn't clog everything up and just lose everything.

I love your new vlog videos! Comedy/music videos are fun but getting to see more of who you are when you’re not playing a role is wonderful too. Thank you for trying this even though you’re not 100% comfortable with it. My husband and I love your channel 😘

YES! Lets keep hanging out! I love this feeling of hanging out with you during your week. Youre so real and honest and that's great to see on this platform. As someone who suffers from anxiety as well, I can relate to just wanting to hide and cry sometimes. Thank you for showing all sides of your life and being so open!

I really like these vlogs! Please keep doing them! Hearing you as another woman speak so openly about your mental health challenges has made me more confident to own up to mine. Thank you, Kim!

Kim, your closet is one of the most sound absorbing locations in your house. One of your anxiety triggers may too much sensory stimulation. This could explain why you like your closet. You might want to try a sensory deprivation tank. My cousin enjoyed reading her school assignments in her closet. She said she could concentrate better. It helped her focus and stay focused.

Yes Kim, let's hang out again, thanks. In your therapy closet and any other places. ♥️

Honestly I love these little vlogs they are real and honestly refreshing it reminds us all that we’re all just humans trying to do our best

Oooo Colorado! That's where we are at on our cross country road trip! Love Colorado...we got to swim in the snow which was so cool!

I think the closet feels like your own space, a safe space to be left alone to decompress. Yes, let's hang out again next week, too!

Omg thank you for sharing, it's such a relief to know that someone like you who mostly looks like the happiest person, also struggles with anxiety issues (I mean I hope it gets better for you but good to know that not only me shutting the bathroom door, so it's kinda ok) and thanks for the closet talk! This is just so timely and kinda helps to be stronger!

I love hanging out with you! Looking forward to next week!

I saw in the title that you were going to Colorado, and I instantly knew you must have been filming with Dude Dad! Love them too! Looking forward to another hilarious collaboration video from you guys!

Thank you for your honesty. Love hanging out with you.

Love the vlog Kim. This was a much appreciated video coming from a man who suffers from anxiety. Thanks for sharing! Your honesty and awareness is very helpful.