Left vs Right Brain | The Psychology of EGO Death 

yo, is that you at the end??

You should do something on moldbug or nick land, maybe accelerationism through a jungian lense

@@onseayu no haha I wish, its Jack White!

@uberboyo. Bro. Why don't you want us to download your videos. Please bro. I like the content. But sometimes I want to watch this later.

There’s something I would love to share with you man. Hmu on my email pedrozaragoza64@gmail.com I’m not wasting your time I know I can help you enrich your content because of what I’m studying. It puts all of what your speaking about together but even better!

Yes, Hugely important idea!

It's like the RH wants to understand, which action needs for its decision making, and LH does the subjective indiviudal behavior maintenance by those understandings. It makes sense the ego would live in Order, language communication, self-governance.

According to Western Spiritual Master Barry Long,the ego is not the problem,it's the false conditioned self that attaches itself to the ego,the ego is indeed important,without it you wouldn't last long

@@orbalturner6747 Sounds like the persona. The pathology of western culture can be described as the virtually exclusive over identification with persona or false self, it's concerns with self and material status, all at the expense of emotional and psychological development. The end result is suffering for those who lives don't live up to what they imagined it would be, and even for many whose lives do.

Maybe you are the highest of carpenters? In each calling we could make difference of high and lowm

You can't really blame her for that; it comes with the cult of professionalism that her and her classmates get indoctrinated into as part of their "training."

Her mistake, what’s low about a carpenter? We should craft more, create with our hands

Interesting story, obnoxious story teller. Seems like she’s one of those professors who love the sound of their own voices and just goes on and on through the whole lesson instead of getting answers from students

Maybe she was making a subtle reference to Jesus being a carpenter

Exactly...perception

Yeah kinda. The boy dies for the girl, but she must help him be born again. The death can't be permanent or else she is alone. It feels like going from predominantly one side to jumping to the other. This like flicking a switch. I am trying to make it more of a dimmer. So that we can share as one. Both act to preserve the self our or my life. The self being the idealized self loving or actualized whole. I think equating survival instinct to the ego alone isn't how I feel it. We both want to live. He just dominated too much for too long and now we seek equalibrium. Yeah it does sound schizophrenic

yea but at the same time it supercedes the ego

Olivia Maynard Olivia Maynard Olivia Maynard that’s really interesting. You basically just described the ending to the video game “Shadow of the Colossus”. I’ve never seen the idea of the girl helping the boy be born again in any other media before.

@@superhoop4358 Interesting. I have never played that game before.

@@oliviamaynard9372 I've heard of that concept and tought of it at some point in time as well, but I didn't know there was a game focused around it

You’re not alone

hey, in case you don't know both schizophrenic effects and insomnia can be caused by too much dopamine. Huberman's pod had a little bit on this in a recent dopamine episode.

Hi, welcome back, can you explain more

please explain more, it sounds really interesting!

I noticed for myself my brain is always in "word mode" and i dont have the greatest memory. But when i consciously think of stuff in images it just sticks so much better.

*deletes channel in rage*

You know u could fast for months before serious damage

That's sooo left brain.

@@seanhammer6296 I think in upcoming years this how we are going to convey some action that is logic, detail and fact oriented. As, all this things have major evidences to back it up and it is bound to go mainstream.

@@RandomGuy-hh4dk Not real sure what you just said/meant, but I think I agree.

110%

Honestly the best and most mind blowing non-fiction book I have ever read.

Jung's no 1 and no 2 personalities as described in his autobiography seem to correspond to the characteristics of the left and right hemisphere as described in TMAHE. TMAHE makes so much sense of the human experience in general.

@@SamuelJFord just working my way through Memories, Dreams, Reflections right now, may have to add TMAHE to my reading list

@@maddie7038 It's a biggie! Took me months to get through, though I am a slow reader.

The way she described the shower and the “silence” sounded almost exactly like my most intense dmt trip into the void

Yeah me too

Me to... synchronicities lately kickin hard

Or maybe the right side identifies as female.

Interesting idea, but I think that would imply that the female right brain plays a similar role to the the male left brain. This is despite the known distinctions between the two halves.

What was it like? Someone here in the comments said they lost their libido and shit. Suddenly, thus whole ego death thing didn't seem so good.

My experience is a bit murky since it was closely followed by an abandonment trauma, but in the wake of that experience, I would say my brain chemistry changed to where I had more advanced language centers which proved useful as a writer. I was writing at the time of the trip just before I let go. I had very vivid controlled dreams for about a year afterward and still get them on occasion, and to this day I can read in my dreams. Plus my ability to write anything from poetry to entire novels has become next level. The experience itself I’m still trying to understand and unfortunately the people who were there with me that night slapped their own contextual interpretation onto MY experience before I could even make sense of what happened and that was very confusing and damaging. From what I can remember of the actual ego death trip, I was locked in my friend’s bedroom, but I felt like I was this immortal avatar and something was shuffling me around a cosmic chessboard and I was the queen getting moved in any and all directions across space time. One second I was in one location in time and space and with each location came a different persona, then a few minutes later I would be in a different time space location with a different persona. I would almost describe it as becoming hyper-aware of the greater human ego, but my own ego was gone and it took roughly 8 hours before I found “myself” again. My theory as to why my language centers in particular were impacted so much is because 1) I already had an affinity for language, and 2) during the deepest parts of the experience, I lost 99% of my vocabulary. I could mimic words or say certain words that were familiar, but I didn’t know what the words meant. I think my brain was hyper focused on language after that.

Fascinating! I'm sorry to hear, but of course these things are a secret blessing! Have you spent much time actually IN your body, as in FEELING your SENSE BASED experience That is often the most grounded place to "interact" with this stuff!

​@@uberboyo Thanks for replying. And Boyo alert! Edit: What works for me may not be the best solution to who ever reads this. use your own discernment. :) At the beginning there where two major obstacles. One was the lost of a sensible world. After my psychoses and possession, I lost my left brain control. Like a full glass shattered in to a million pieces. I had to recollect my memories, sense of self, story, lessons and understanding. To give you an idea, most of the things that I had to relearn was wisdom and critical thinking orientated. For example I had to relearn how to socialize, having gotten back my social anxiety from the past. Or needed to learn how to right coherent sentences again, because most grammar understanding was lost. The second problem was that of being attacked by rampant thoughts that spiral out of control. Although these thoughts had some resemblance to truth, the panic was incorrect behavior. And many of these thoughts spirals where often based upon a highly evolved suspicion. Not deductive reason. So they had a tendency to also be majorly wrong or overblown. Meditation in this sense was mostly focusing on as you said sense based reality. And I may add inner understanding of the nature of self. This was a form of vipassana. I already knew I was not the I. But the lesson was lost. So even though I know theoretically. I could not stop identifying. This makes every thought believable as truth and plainly felt even if they were incorrect. Therefore, every thought that came to me completely took me out of this sense based experience. And I suffered emotionally under erroneous conclusions. I developed a nature to reason with the unreasoning. This made me more left brained again. I had a tendency to repress thoughts in favor for focus. I could not contain this state for long. There were reasons for this. For example, fear that my mind would go emotionally out of control again. Correct meditation aught to be effortless and peaceful. My meditation was not. And so work had to be done. My methodology was very similar as that of yours. You face your fears. This makes you stop fearing fear. But also make you understand why you fear. It makes the world more certain. For example my psychoses have not stripped me away from theory, but understanding of that theory. I may know I’m not the ego, but I do not understand that anymore. So I had to go out in the world again and relearn the theory I once knew. To give you a different perspective, it is one thing to regurgitate a sentence out of a book and another of understanding what you are regurgitating. One is remembering, the other is wisdom. I had to imbue my knowledge with meaning again if that makes sense. And the only way in doing this is by experience, where the emotions are felt. Besides that, I heavily focused upon authenticity. Authenticity is understood via a logical approach towards thoughts. Where you deduce towards one conclusion. And so this becomes truthful understanding about self. Example, if I where to be an atheist, my act of morality and sticking to principals would have spoken more volume. The atheist would not have believed in god or heaven and still chosen to stick to principals. Leaving only his authentic self as conclusion. If I where to be a Christian by book then it's harder for me to be sure if I'm really moral, I may be doing it to reach heaven. My experience is that it is for the atheist easier to be authentic but harder to stay moral. For the believer it is easier to be moral but harder to be authentic. Another example, don't mistake my kindness for weakness. Many people use there kindness to excuse confrontation. And still claim virtues that they are kind. They are not kind, for they cannot do harm so there kindness means nothing. They are just Soyo's. ;) To conclude, I eventually became imbalance in the left brain. I started to become more nihilistic and did not really feel the vibrancy of life anymore. So I had to let go of the I I'm identifying with. Let's not make it to mystical. You are awareness, aware of I. You are by law always one with truth. This is how I approach the ego. These sentences may confuse. But we are dealing with a paradox of thought here. With your help I lately felt no longer the desire to need to think. And so I felt effortless peace. There where no words and every thought was balanced and effortlessly integrated. First there was sadness, there was no desire to fix. No reason to be identified. Then I understood that I regained all freedom by letting go on having to need to run this ego script. This infinite loop of insanity, finally after 4 years have come to an end again. This does not mean the I or ego is wrong. This ego script has rebuilt me towards my desire. That what was lost is regained. I have to say that the I is therefore regaining it's former power back. However, this is not a problem. Things happen to me, so this needs to be integrated. It has become a way of life, and I'm nowhere near perfect. Nor do I have to be. But it does make balancing and integrating much more easier now.

Sorry for taking a chunk out of your day with this text. :3

Cruelvader i had an experience earlier this year that was almost exactly like the first thing you described, an emotional breakdown leading into some sort of experience of being attacked by some entity. I tried to fight it and lost my shit, ended up in someone’s backyard doing rituals because I thought i was going to be sacrificed/killed by this entity lmao.... the whole experience was in context of a kundalini awakening, it showed me heaven and hell but it really taught me so much. And i often wondered what would have happened if i had just stayed calm when this entity or presence was felt, that’s why it was interesting to read your comment.

@@ashleyispresent Thank you for your reply, Your story seems very similar in tone. I'm doing some research in to Kundalini now. And it shined some extra light upon this whole ego: "I'm doing something." and just being something. Thanks and I hope you are doing well!

I was reading Janes book but something about it scared me. I was honestly tripping on it. I want to finish reading it tho

yes!1 grat great book!

agree 100% - it turned me off them big time, felt like sitting in a Plato's cave of jargon

Actually the early stages of that might be happening already. Just look at Jordan Peterson.

This happens with the works of all great thinkers. Most people are not capable of creation or abstract thought that exists outside the established matrix. They end up warping and misconstruing the value in that what was created with their own lacking energy in the absence of a genuine thinker.

Traumatize you? How can the ego do that? You're the ego

gracias chico!

if ambidexterity stimulates that in a good way then i am really curious what does playing an instrument like a piano or guitar where you have to have very fine cordonation between right and left, or drums where you have to use all of your limbs. probably this is why many musicians felt that they leveled up as persons and that;s why playing music is an almost religious experience

ciucinciu that’s one reason why I want to learn to play piano, but It’s not easy learning on your own at an older age compared to being instructed during a young age.

ciucinciu although I haven’t strengthened my corpus callosum to the degree of a professional musician, I still notice that I have greater communication between my brain hemispheres than before beginning my Ambidexterity training. I practice writing with both hands, I teach my hands the same skills, I workout, and I practice playing the video game Rockband4 both left handed and right handed on guitar. Using the Rockband guitar controller somewhat emulates finger coordination and independence. It teaches the parts of the brain that control your fingers to “think”.

Ha yeah I had similar but in lucid dream. I faced the ultimate. Tried my best not to fight it. Bleached by nothingness lol. Terrifying and awe inspiring

If you're a dude your mind only matures around 40, a bit later in adhd brains.

G'day mate!

Can you pls share the name of this Ted Talk? It's fascinating indeed.... I need to watch the whole thing.

Isn't that old news, micro, macro. What is the update ?

Please link an article or something I'm very interested

Your comment is a lie in at least two senses. I’ll let everyone read the article for themselves, but as a foreword it’s not very inspiring. Some respects to the professor obviously, but the theory is beyond a stretch. Ngl I’m kinda salty with OC for drawing excitement up for what essentially is a stoner thought from an overly ambitious professor at a third rate school. If I sound like an ass it’s because I wasted a lot of time figuring this out when it would’ve been a lot simpler for someone else to just sight their source and I’m tired of seeing people be mislead and misinformed on the Internet. The article is fluff that won’t lead to anything and has already been buried. You boyos need to respect yourselves more and do your own research, please. futurism.com/physicist-entire-universe-neural-network In better news, they’re making traction in relation to dark matter. scitechdaily.com/extremely-powerful-cosmic-dark-matter-detector-probed-by-astrophysicist/

Just like Joseph above, I gotta say that it's a new age nonsense interpretation of actual science. But you gotta admit, the whole thing *looks* like a mycelial or neural network.

Radical Fence Sitting No yeah you’re right, it’s totally fine for the universe to look like a neural network. Jumping the gun however, was promoting the theory “that cloud is kinda shaped like a duck, idk man, maybe that cloud is a duck” I know I just strawmaned the theory, but I’m tired atm and I’m certain we all get what I mean Edit: No Problem Simon :)

Boom, I 100% agree, this really changes the game... God bless people like Jill (woman in video) for bringing us this wisdom!

Try it and let us know?

Nope

each eye has a split connection to each half of the brain.

I should note aswell that his realization came from some type of stroke, a near death experience and not an intellectual journey. Jung praised Ramana in a letter iirc

nope! any vids?

@@uberboyo Carl jung commentary on ramana maharshi ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-YXyne1Pjdsk.html Ramana Maharshi's "Who Am I" ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-J2VcZWypI9c.html which is much easier to read than to listen to. His pearls come from his talks with other people than with his writings.

yes its very interesting!

If you talk to people about what you like, crave and feel you will attract the same type of people. It can be as bad as it sounds good.

you simply need to point and strangers and say: "ASTRAL JUICINESS" in a 19 Century English accent Then they morph into 6ft 6 highly articulate boyo warriors This happens regardless of their gender #lifehack

Im gonna give you a stroke of insight

Thank you!

I've been through depersonalization! Did you see my last video? I touched on that over there!

Great point!

It never came to mind! Good spot!

@@uberboyo Ok so I did some research in my Nietzsche laboratory and what I found is so cool: NIETZSCHE ON THE APOLONIAN: ‘In fact, we could say of Apollo that the imperturbable trust in that principle and the calm sitting still of the man caught up in it attained its loftiest expression in him, and we may even designate Apollo himself as the marvellous divine image of the principium individuationis [the principium individuationis is the manner in which a thing is identified as distinguished from other things and this is exactly what the left brain does], from whose gestures and gaze all the joy and wisdom of “illusion,” together with its beauty, speak to us.’ NIETZSCHE ON THE DIONYSIAN: ‘If we add to this awe the ecstatic rapture, which rises up out of the same collapse of the principium individuationis [when the left brain stop categorising] from the innermost depths of a human being, indeed, from the innermost depths of nature, then we have a glimpse into the essence of the Dionysian [right brain], which is presented to us most closely through the analogy to intoxication. Now the slave a free man; now all the stiff, hostile barriers break apart, those things which necessity and arbitrary power or “saucy fashion” have established between men. Now, with the gospel of world harmony, every man feels himself not only united with his neighbour, reconciled and fused together, but also as one with him, as if the veil of Maja had been ripped apart, with only scraps fluttering around in the face of the mysterious primordial unity [this sounds exactly like the woman with the stroke]. Singing and dancing, man expresses himself as a member of a higher community: he has forgotten how to walk and talk [speech is very left brain] and is on the verge of flying up into the air as he dances. The enchantment speaks out in his gestures. Just as the animals now speak and the earth gives milk and honey, so something supernatural also echoes out of him: he feels himself a god; he himself now moves in as lofty and ecstatic a way as he saw the gods move in his dream. The man is no longer an artist; he has become a work of art: the artistic power of all of nature, to the highest rhapsodic satisfaction of the primordial unity, reveals itself here in the transports of intoxication. The finest clay, the most expensive marble - man - is here worked and chiselled, and the cry of the Eleusinian mysteries rings out to the chisel blows of the Dionysian world artist.’ - This is all from The Birth of Tragedy, section 1 NIETZSCHE ON THE DIONYSIAN FUTURE: Let us look a century ahead [this is our time], and let us suppose that my attempt to destroy two millenniums of hostility to Nature and of the violation of humanity be crowned with success. That new party of life-advocates, which will undertake the greatest of all tasks, the elevation and perfection of mankind, as well as the relentless destruction of all degenerate and parasitical elements, will make that superabundance of life on earth once more possible, out of which the Dionysian state will perforce arise again. - This is from Ecce Homo, Why I Am So Wise, section 4