Let's Talk Trauma - My Experiences 

Sometimes in life it gets so hard to breathe that it just seems so much easier to suffocate. That's when I have to remind myself that life isn't only about just breathing. This is the first time I've ever shared anything with anyone about how I feel almost all the time. My body is shaking and I'm fucking scared but I wanted to write something since it's easier for me than actually speaking to other human beings. I hope this will help me in some sort of way to realize that I can be strong enough to talk about how debilitating my own mind makes me feel most of the time. You are incredibly strong and a beautiful person. Thank you for giving me one more reason to want to not just breathe, but to enjoy life again. (no pressure or anything!) Honestly writing this made me feel not so isolated in this island of mine. Posting this wasn't easy but if you're reading this who ever you are: I've gone through with it!(but most likely regretting it and arguing with myself over why i am in fact regretting it!) Anyways not to drag this out eventhough I have. Goodbye!

thank you so much for being so open and sharing your experiences. it makes me feel comfortable to open up with my experiences to my loved ones. you are a strong person and i like your calm way of talking. i hope you can understand me, my english is terrible :D

Thank you for being brave, most of my trauma relates to illness in my family and how that's caused everyone to act and interact with each other

This must've difficult to open up about so I'm proud of you for your courage and speaking up. I know for a lot of people, listening to someone else's story, makes it easier for other people to open up and to not feel alone. I know that was the case for me at least, but even with that being said I still struggle with opening up about a lot of my trauma especially in early childhood because I can't remember 95% before age 10 and the 5% that I do remember I wish that I didn't and after I left my narcissist and abusive dad's house, I started to remember move and that's been very difficult to deal with the flashbacks and all that. Also sorry that you went through all that trauma sucks. Sending good vibes from the windy city of Chicago 🏙💜

I’m not at a point yet where I can cognitively address my trauma, but I can only hope to be there one day. It takes so much courage and honesty, and I don’t even think I could handle what my subconscious would throw at me.

Thank you for sharing your experiences with us Scott. I know it can be hard, I know it's not always easy and sometimes there are phases that can last weeks or months where you are just in your own dark inner world. But.. You know what's the good thing about experiencing our traumas - big or small -? It makes good people out of us. We are empathetic (not always in my case. Depends on which 'person' I am right now, can't explain it..), we can feel other's pain and are good advice-givers (even though we don't use it for ourselfs), we listen. We care. We matter. 🌟 Knowing that I'm not an egoistic a**hole like others feels good to me. Knowing that I'm not like the others, doing just adult-stuff feels good. I love gaming, I love reading fantasy books (or reading in general), I just love the feeling of letting reality be reality and dive into a new world where nothing can happen to me. 🖤 I know that I wouldn't be the person I am today if I didn't go through..things. Because as a child I was loud, wild, egoistic, aggressive,.. I told my friends I wouldn't like them if they didn't let me be the boss in whatever game we played and such things. I'm in a way.. glad I went through things. It made me a good person. (In general) I wish you all the best. 🌟🌟🌟 -And I noticed our parents split up at the same age and I was also really effected later at age 14/15 when I started behaviours that are destructive. Also my thoughts began to be really dark then. It never fully disappeared until now (I'm nearly 28.) but most times I can cope with moods, experiences or thoughts with just.. waiting. Because I know I can't do much but waiting. Sooner or later it disappears. I never know for how long darkness stays away or how long it stays. But waiting and doing nothing, knowing that it will disappear again really helps me. Sorry for talking much about myself, slipped into it.. 😶 Have a nice day 🌟

I can relate to you so much, thank you for your bravery and sharing your experiences with us, sometimes I feel isolated cos I can't talk about my traumas with anyone