Lets Chat-How I am Overcoming Imposter Syndrome + Anxiety 

The second I hit publish, my heart sank a little In fear of how you would perceive this video. Thank you for your light hearts and beautiful words, I appreciate you for taking the time to watch this and comment. I have ready each and every comment. 🥺The good news is that I am in such a better place where I could be open about these issues with you now. Love you all!

Dirty water doesn't stop plants from growing, don't let negative words stop your progress. Wishing you and your daughter all the happiness and success the world can offer xx

People unsubscribe, not because they don't like Amelia, they just once subscribed to maybe hair or makeup video, and now seeing child/mom content doesn't suit their tastes in general. Maybe it triggers them. You never know. Don't blame yourself or you little Amelia for their choices and preferences. Some go, some come, its natural. You are doing a great job with whatever you post!

Girl u have been one of the first people to do you tube and help others get into hair as an art. All of us who have been watching you for all these years are so grateful for you. You got us to level up and cultivate an appreciation for the art of hair and get into how fun this all is. You rock. I have been following u for like 10 years

Please don't worry about losing more superficial subscribers. There are SO many of us who appreciate you talking about your struggles with PP Depression, and anxiety and general malaise, that SO many of us share. You are doing a BIG SERVICE to others, that goes above and beyond hair and make-up tips. You are on the right path, please keep going. BTW a big kiss for Amelia, such a beautiful name. 💛🧡

Suggest during morning time: Praying, breathing in the goodness of God, being thankful to whom/what? To God. LOVE all the growth and self reflection. During one marriage slump I said to my husband- “you being less than perfect is actually good for me,” it causes self reflection and growth in me. . . And FYI, I come and go- basically I come when I need hair tips for blondes but don’t want to be in you tube more than I need to be. Thanks.

Awww Sylvia we are all here for you !!!!!!❤

I’m so, so, SO glad to hear that you noticed how scrolling on your cell phone affected your mood. It took me a long time to realize how social media directly correlates with mental health and anxiety. I personally had to quit social media altogether. I’m so much more at peace and have so much more mental clarity. And more importantly I’m present and actually enjoying the current moment. I refuse to live my life on my phone. RU-vid is your job so idk if that’s a realistic option for you but just wanted to share. I wish you the best! Keep going❤️

Sylvia, I started watching your RU-vid videos like 10 years ago. You are a true OG RU-vidr. When I moved to San Francisco in 2017, you became my hairdresser and I’ve never had a better one. I’ve loved watching your videos post pandemic - watching you learn and grow within yourself, your work, your relationships, and now motherhood. You are relatable and amazingly vulnerable. I have been having a lot of panic attacks lately (tingly fingers, feeling faint) and it always helps to listen you talk about ways you’ve gotten through it. I love you and will always a fan of you and your work! Amazing job editing btw ❤😘!

I think overall social media has destroyed more than its helped. Thank you for sharing your story, you’ve been so brave. This has helped me.

I can understand the feeling of “I’m failing”, yet you’re assessing and adjusting. That’s evolution and growth.

You have a super power which is hair - focus on that. That’s why I watch. There’s no shortage of mommy content there’s an excess. I hear about mommy complaints all day long in my private life from co workers and friends they can’t help it and can’t stop. I’m not even a mom. But I lend a sympathetic ear to them. So if I see it on RU-vid I’m not going to waste my time watching it. Posting about your daughter is signaling to the audience that your priorities have shifted not because we don’t like your child. I also watch you because I admire your beauty, your skill and talent. You also have great taste - the music you choose in your videos and I’ve gained a lot from all the tips and tricks you’ve shared. Keep going.😊

Wow. You just gained me as a fan BIG TIME. I discovered you about two months ago when I had an at home hair disaster. I found you so helpful and started to watch lots of your videos to understand what happened to my hair and I learned so much. I so appreciate what you just shared and totally understand anxiety and panic attacks and marvel that despite struggling with this you chose a public forum to have your business in. It takes guts and so much strength these days with cancel culture and people being offended by literally everything. And also ppl don't get how hard it is to make videos. Talking and smiling at the same time, remember your topic, staying on track, editing all while making it look pro and so easy when it can be really hard! You are SO talented!! Please keep making your videos. I think you are wonderful!!!

I started watching you during the pandemic when I wanted to do my own hair. You helped me so much! Thank you! So I just want to say, after watching this video, that I relate to you so much and feel a lot of the same things (wanted to be the perfect mom, love my alone time, reading, have had to learn to forgive others for not meeting my high standards that I set for myself!). Just want you to feel great about being who you are, because you’re perfect just as you are. We all are. It’s taken me 60 years to figure that out. 😉

I really appreciate you and your generosity in sharing your knowledge on hair coloring and styling. You have helped so many people who are on budgets or who may be home bound. In a genuinely kind way you have given us the formulas and instilled in us the confidence that we can still have good hair. Thank you for all that you do!!☀️🌺💜💜

Life is filled with ups and downs . You are a beautiful soul with a beautiful baby and family. Be true to yourself always ~ ❤

You are so amazing, kind, clever and brave person. Your knowledge about the hair, your beautiful style and kindness has always insired me. I am an introvert and I know how hard is to go through the life without literally worrying abuot an everything and criticising yourself for whatever we find we think is wrong in us. You are my inspiration. Thank you for this video, as it opened my eyes and I know that I need to fight even harder if I really want to achieve what I want in my life xxx

I’m just here to say that Jesus Christ loves you and wishes to have a relationship with you Sylvia 🫶🏼🤍🙏🏼 I’m praying for you.

Sylvia, you are the sweetest . So happy and grateful for you sharing more personal things . I’ve dealt with crippling anxiety and so much of what you said resonates with me . You are so iconic on RU-vid . We love you and look forward to everything you have to share with us . I feel like you will definitely be growing even more on YT sharing your ups and downs . So happy for you ❤

Thank you for being so open and raw. Been here since the beginning and everything you said resonated a lot with me. And I completely relate to crippling anxiety and imposter syndrome. Thank you for not giving up but continuing to grow and learn and create better routines and ways of thinking about yourself. You are appreciated, valued and you MAKE A DIFFERENCE.

Ok, I hear you. Thank you for this video, opening up, changing what you feel didn’t work. I’m inspired and will keep my eye open for you videos again. I’ve been a fan since you started your channel! Bless ya and your family Ellebangs!

I appreciate all the time and energy you devote to your channel! I have learned so much from you; the way you explain things, taking your time to ensure the information is relatable and understood. You break down the elements of the information you’re sharing and you find a balance of sharing the key elements of the ‘lesson’ without being boring or dragging the concepts out. Your energy is so mellow and it’s a pleasure to listen to you talk. It actually kind of soothes me. 😊 In regards to anxiety and symptomatic ocd: OCD that is symptomatic vs a true constant disorder can stem from feeling overwhelmed with things around you in which you lack control of. In times like these, it’s a coping mechanism. I.e.; you’re worrying about a bunch of outside things affecting your life- you meet a friend for lunch at a restaurant and you find yourself fixating on the napkins and silverware on the table being straight. Or pamphlets on a counter; you find a compulsion to straighten them in an orderly fashion. These compulsions are more impulsive in times when there are a lot of outside factors going haywire and they are out of your control. Being mindful of your behavior in these moments is a good thing. This is where breath work and awareness is key. Anxiety can be redirected. Again, breath work, in the moment and using your 5 senses can benefit you and help redirect your ‘present’. Personally, I like to use my sense of smell. I have various soothing oils and lotions that I’ll use on my hands, wrists, etc. and I try to focus on being present in smelling the scents. I will breath deep (like yoga breath work) in through my nose and out of my mouth. I envision good energy coming in and all the negative going out. Asking/praying that the negativity neutralize, if you will. I’ve been dealing with this sort of stuff my entire life. It doesn’t define you. If you read Albert Einstein’s autobiography, he discusses energy and gets into how it’s impossible for intense emotions/energy can last for eternity. That concept helped me immensely! You be you! I wish you the best of luck at working on yourself and finding what works best for you!❤

Thank you for sharing. We all need to hear this because most of us have gone thru or going thru this same experience, finding ourselves as we go through life changes. Again, thank you for being so open and honest💕

I had watched half of this, and came back. I don't know how long I have watched you, but its been many years. I have always thought you were perfection. I do makeup videos live on fb. I have anxiety, depression, negative self talk... and for a bit, i think i matched your tones, and delivery because it helped me steady my words. I never thought in a million years how alike we might be. Im so grateful for finishing up this video and hearing your full story. Im doing a lot of self help seeking as well. I'll be checking out your books. Thank you so much for all that you do, and sharing just how normal you truly are, along with your vulnerability ❤️

Sylvia, I appreciate your honesty on all topics shared today. The part where you spoke of your daughter made me sad. I started watching your videos because of all the hair coloring tips but I also enjoy watching you as a mom. However I understand each person’s interests are different. I am happy for you that your’re on this quest of self awareness. Gave me some food for thought💕

Thank you for taking the time to share this! You’ve inspired me to try to get up earlier and get back to a routine. I greatly appreciate your honesty throughout your videos, and for a couple of years now I’ve been watching your hair styling tips. As a mom of four, getting in to my favorite salon is difficult physically and financially, and I fully admit that doing my hair at home is never the same as going to a talented professional. Thank you for helping so many of us to “up our game” with our home efforts. What you have gifted us all with, will, I believe, come back to you.

You are my go to! I’ve followed you since the beginning. I also struggle with many similar issues. Totally your “true supporter” Imposter syndrome keeps me from scheduling consultations with you!!! Still doing my own hair and watching your videos! You cultivate a safe place for me on dark days which then motivates me to find my creative/artistic outlet along with self care. I adore you!

Thank you for opening up, anxiety is so tough and I appreciate you sharing!

You are the sweetest! I LOVE the videos w Millie and generally love seeing mothers be moms. Its super sweet. You seem to be coming to an awakening stage in your life and that is sooo special! Many people never reach this stage of consciousness. You seem much more spiritual than your husband and that is such a special gift you have! Continue seeking info that is making you feel better in your spirt no matter what anyone says

You have always been one of my favorite people to watch and learn from. You present so well and are very honest. You have a lot of personal charm! Thanks for being so open and being you. ❤

I've been following you for so long and have always used all the advice you have given and have enjoyed glimpses in your life. A beautiful strong woman like you translates super confident on screen. You just need to be yourself like you have been , authentic - do not worry about those who cannot see you clearly on here. Sending you strength I suffer with anxiety also and it's a daily battle.

This was SO relatable for me right now. It was so refreshing to hear this video. I needed this. Thank you for opening up. And I also have been learning about my human design over the last year! So interesting.

Loved this. Thank you for opening up. I have been watching your videos for soo many years and this video.. wow I feel seen. I’m not the only one that has these similar thought processes, feelings, and reactions. Your advice and vulnerability is immensely appreciated by me. Thank you.

I cannot tell you how many haircuts I have given myself thanks to your channel. Your content has helped me so much with everything from hair to makeup to just chilling and enjoying your content. YOUR baby is everything!! Gorgeous. AND I don't have kids but I loved watching you with her. Thank you for being so open in this video as I imagine it was not easy to do. I am here for all of it....the hair, the life issues and the baby!!!! Sending you love.

I have to tell you, I LOVE your hair videos and you have inspired me to get the hair I want from home. When this popped up on my feed I had to watch it, even though it wasn’t a hair video because I saw the title and you showing transparency and vulnerability is amazing. A lot of people are not brave enough to do that, and I love that about you ! Thank you !

I’ve loved watching your hair videos over the years. Keep being you

❤ thank you for being on here with us …we appreciate you & your honesty…lots of love light and joy to you 😊

Thank you so much for this video. As a mom of 3 boys, the youngest is 6 months. I was relieved to hear that we truly are not alone and we all struggle with the same things. I hear you and am encouraged also with the power of mornings to wake up before the kiddos, meditation and breath work.

You are so intelligent and have so much to offer us! Thank you for not giving up on us as your authenticity is refreshing on this platform and needed but appreciated! You shared such a great message‼️ Truly applaud you and all you do. Have always loved your sharing & can’t wait to learn more from your sharing of experiences. Well said ❤ Thank U 🙏🏻

Thank you for being so real and sharing something so personal. It's so hard to be vulnerable on the Internet. I have always enjoyed your channel !!Keep doing you and being authentic ♥️

I am still on minute 1 but I just want to tell you that I adore your personality no matter what kind of videos you upload. You have my support, you are amazing!!! ❤

You are so brave to share yourself, and it shows how strong you are. Vulnerability is such a strength. Sharing your growth is inspirational! I hope you feel proud of yourself and supported. What a beautiful journey you are on! Congratulations 🌈💜💙💚💛🧡❤️

Thank you for being so brave! ❤ you have confronted so many Human hurts that touch all of us.

Your videos on anxiety posted a few years ago and they helped me ALOT! Advice on looking in the mirror and speaking words of love and appreciation were foreign to me at the time. You are a positive influence on the world ❤

Aww we love your baby!! Don’t ever hide that part of your life!! ❤❤❤

Always absolutely loved your hair videos! You really helped me with my hair colours and opened up a new world of toners that I didn’t know about. But now you’ve done so much good doing this so honestly! No one is perfect, so don’t go there - you are so beautiful as you are Sylvia. Love that you’re prepared to go on a journey, and take us on your ride. This might be old school to say, but, ‘go girl, go’. xx PS I have a diagnosis of anxiety ‘n panic attacks - I’m so glad all these topics are being talked about. Thanks soo much.

Hello Sylvia, I wanted to express how much I appreciate your videos. Your loyal subscribers who admire you for who you are will continue to support you and help grow your subscriber count. I also adore seeing Adam and your beautiful baby, as well as sweet Olive. Your home design and everything you do are truly inspiring. I relate to the emotions you shared in this video and I'm definitely going to read the books you recommended. Looking forward to more “anything you feel like sharing” content! ❤

Continuing from my previous comment, I want to thank you for helping me look my best by providing hair care information and tutorials, beauty, fashion etc. You do meet the needs of many people. I love doing my own hair as well as my daughters. I have frequently been let down by hairdressers or just find it unaffordable. You have helped me look after our hair at home and I thank you for that.

Silvia, you are a beautiful and brilliant light, as a hair colorist and as a mom! I've seen you grow and continue to inspire others through the years. Don't allow others to diminish your light. Plus, I ❤ the videos of Amelia. She makes everything better in your channel!

Since the pandemic, RU-vid has become such a big part of my morning routine. It’s my quiet uninterrupted time to have coffee and enjoy hair and makeup content (I’m not a book reader. lol). To that, I just wanted to say “thank you” for all the amazing, educational, and informative content ❤

Thank you for trusting me/us/your audience with this incredibly beautiful post! Wim Hof methodis amazing!! I have multiple chronic illnesses and his ice bath/shower methods really help me! So glad you have found yourself and are doing your best!! Keep it up mama!!

You have been my go to girl for years. I have watched you grow to being so much more confident in front of the camera. Thank you for being AUTHENTIC. You're more then just wealth of knowledge about hair. Sometimes we viewers forget that. ❤

You are very raw and real with your stories. You do whatever you want to do...Lots of love!

Your channel was the 1st channel I ever subscribed to on RU-vid. I have always loved how insightful and informative you are. You have taught me SO MUCH! I've loved watching you change and grow and come into your own and now that you are a mother and still doing your thing, it's just beautiful to watch! I love that your daughter is blessed to have a mama that cares to cater to people that cannot afford to go to a salon, but you still help us all to have beautiful hair! She gets to see you have a heart for humans all over, whether we can afford to pay salon prices or not. Whether we are your in person client or not. That's amazing and you are the first person I've ever seen take these professional skills and share that knowledge selflessly. I hope you grow tremendously in your in person and online client base because you deserve it! - from another mother trying to make everything work while dealing with the same mental struggles, I appreciate you so much!!

Everyone shares the highlights of their lives, it's in our nature to want people to see the best version of ourselves, but I think it takes a secure and courageous person to show the good, the bad, and the ugly and know that people respond to that with respect and admiration. God bless you in your career and life, love you girl!❤

I can relate to your anxiety and I appreciate you sharing what you have been going through. It is so helpful for everyone who deals with it to know they aren’t alone and even people who appear to have everything “together” have these same thoughts and anxieties as everyone else. Thank you so much. It was very therapeutic to hear your experience 💕

I just found your videos for hair - single mama of two, unable to afford salons. I felt so happy to find a professional helping us. I was also drawn to your presence in the videos. I’m very happy you’ve opened up. I too survived PPD. In addition to imposter syndrome. In addition, recently divorced. Thank you for sharing, your vulnerability makes me want to support you even more.

You are amazing!! As a mom stuck at home and unable to pay the huge amounts for blonde you taught me how to achieve it myself. You're an inspiration and so beautiful inside and out!

I support your truth. Your authentic self IS relatable, and you ARE HEARD and WELCOMED to be YOU, and ONLY you. Much love, girly. ❤️

I started watching you when I was a hairdresser. I no longer do hair because of disability. I appreciate you sharing your life and your child. I am a mum so I love watching people who have a family and a career. ❤ xx

I’m so happy you’re continuing to grow, accepting yourself, and just plain hangin in!

You are a beautiful person inside and out. ❤ Thank you for being vulnerable with us.

Thanks for sharing Silvia 💗Love your content, no matter what. But, seeing Amelia just absolutely makes my day! Most adorable child ever! 💗

I’m so sorry you are going through this 💛 you seem like the most genuine, kind person and you deserve happiness!

Always appreciate your honesty and vulnerability! ❤❤❤

I never comment on videos, but I feel like I have to on this since it resonates with me so much. The last couple of minutes, especially. It is inspiring. I have watched your videos for years and appreciate you for teaching me how to color and cut my own hair. I am fascinated with hair but never went to school for it. I am a 47 year old mom of beautiful twin girls in college, an esthetician, a nail tech, and an artist, and I always want to teach others what I know through my experiences. Even more now that I have been receiving therapy for anxiety, ptsd, depression,ADD, perfectionism, etc. I have felt deeply that I should be making and sharing content to help others. But I have never made a video and don't even know where to begin. It feels like time just keeps passing, and making progress toward anything feels so slow when you have anxiety and perfectionism. I admire your vulnerability. It really spoke to my heart.

We love seeing that baby girl and we love you! We like seeing your journey and I will continue to follow your channel 💕

I've been watching your channel for some time now, learning how to color my own hair, because to me it's a form of self-expression, and also probably a form of OCD as well if I think about it! But hearing someone else share that they have had the same struggles as me, that there are others out there like me, and no less someone who looks literally as amazing as you do, is just so validating. And I know I'm not the only one thinking this. Thank you - thank you for sharing so authentically, as you are validating the experiences of so many of us who look on instagram, youtube, wherever, and see beautiful people, and can know that not everyone is actually perfect, even if they present themselves this way. You are so tremendously beautiful, smart and talented. Keep up the amazing work!!!

Thank you for sharing your heartfelt experiences. You touched on a few things I needed to hear today ❤

i honestly love your content & your spirit so much. never change!

Silvia, I so enjoy your videos all of them have been watching since you started and I know you are the real deal when it comes to styling! You're just an amazing person. Always be your amazing self❤

Sorry for the challenges you're facing, I'm confident that you'll cope with all of that and become stronger. You're beautiful and seem to be very gentle. Big hug all the way from France

I too have lived with anxiety and the breathing techniques I do have helped me tremendously throughout my life. Routine also helps me. You’re not alone💕

Just randomly fell on your channel looking for lowlight hair info and have come away feeling inspired and motivated. Can relate to so much here. Great tips, good for you, awesome video!

You are the best blonde colorist I have seen. I have fine thin hair and have learned so much from your expertise. I have been a nurse for sooo many years and sometimes we all feel imposter syndrome. The trauma codes I have worked in say otherwise. You are not an imposter, but rather an artist. I love your hair videos and that’s what I enjoy watching. Your doing a great job. You will figure out what you need to do for your business and what is best for you and your family. Everything will fall into place.

Silvia, Forgive, and move forward! It will bring you peace. I am keeping you and your family in my prayers!

Elle, your vulnerability just makes you more beautiful and authentic - something that is very hard to come by on social media. I have recently subscribed to your channel because you did exactly what you said - you brought content that was so meaningful and made a difference, you are constantly living the difference, growing as a person on a live stage! That’s brave and beautiful. Your philosophy in life is to become the best version of yourself and that is what you present and that’s not easy when you have a lot of pressure to deliver on people’s changing needs and wants. I respect the time and energy you put into bringing your content to the world. I’m going to go and read the books you read as they resonate with me and if you ever start a book club please let us know. Kind regards, Charlie ❤

I started watching you for your hair stuff. You are beautiful. I became invested and even more interested when you started sharing your personal life. I haven’t been on this platform in awhile, but I always look forward to your videos

You were the first RU-vidr I started to follow and I am still here following you. Keep the content coming!

I love your vulnerability. You’re such a sweet soul! God bless!

Remember your content has always been educational first and foremost. You have been generous in teaching skills!! Hair, style, make up, skin care, etc. You are an educator and your personality and lifestyle and Adam and Amelia are all just icing on top . But please don’t be distracted or analyze how people receive the icing. Many are here for the cake only.

I just found you. I watched a home highlights vid from like 8yrs ago. I was so excited to see a new vid. Thank you for sharing your experiences. It really gave me some key things to think about. It’s hard to be vulnerable and you did it with grace. I relate to a lot of your struggles. Thanks again.

I’ve watched you for so long. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I always learn so much from you!

You amaze me! I’m sure this was hard for you and I truly appreciate your honesty. I’ve always enjoyed your videos and when you share your daughter too. Will continue to be a faithful subscriber and wish you continued success in everything you do!❤

You are so beautiful inside & out. I really appreciate your authentic offering, raw vulnerability in sharing. As an introvert in a professional public space dealing with anxiety it’s so difficult to do this and I commend you, hear you, respect you, applaud you and thank you.

I never comment on videos but felt you deserved a comment. I’ve been a long time viewer, maybe 5 or 6 years. I don’t watch every video because most don’t apply to my hair, but the videos I’ve found that do are so so helpful! I appreciate the advice you’ve given. I’ve always admired your hair, makeup, and style. I would love to see lifestyle vlogs, or style tips. I would definitely watch those videos! I’m glad you posted this. This alone will keep me as a subscriber for years to come. Best of luck to you! :)

This almost made me cry because I have been subscribed for so long because I have always though you were just amazing. It’s heartbreaking to hear your sadness because to me you *are* all the things you believed you were in your strongest hours. I understand life has its ups and downs (had a bit of a day myself today) it’s expected, it will pass and if handled correctly, we grow better. God bless and loads of love ❤

You are an amazing person with such a genuine heart. Thank you for sharing with us.

I need to stop being on my cell scrolling so much. Loved your video, I watch them all. I had a consult with you over the pandemic and it helped me to touch up my balayage. Thanks for getting me through. You are so skilled. I’m in your ride or die group!

Thank you for sharing from such a thoughtful and vulnerability place and for giving context to your story. It is empowering!

Sylvia you are a beautiful human. I appreciate and commend you on sharing so much of your personal experience. You are successful in raising awareness of anxiety, being a new Mum, and professional young woman. I find you incredibly inspiring, and someone I would enjoy to get to know better. There are a lot of not very nice people in the world who are unable to appreciate your light. Keep going, you are amazing. Thank you for sharing and I love seeing your beautiful daughter and life.

I've had anxiety and panic attacks my entire life started in school middle school escalated really bad at 16 and 17 moving into adult hood it got worse especially when I was driving at work I can totally relate I have not even been on RU-vid that much anymore I'm so glad that I clicked on your video I have been following you for years just happened to see this I'm so glad that I did You have so much to offer and I thank you for that and being so transparent with us I can say it does get better but with every panic attack I felt like I was on the brink of death I literally felt I was dying and then for someone to tell me well calm down was the worst because you can't- just said a prayer for you You are so beautiful and kind and amazing to watch I've always loved your videos This gives me hope for another day and for my life I'm grateful to have you special out for those of us that are silenced by this crippling disease- anxiety panic attacks-I absolutely can totally relate to everything you said and truly understand , God bless you 🙏💜 Your friend always Wendy

Love the content with your daughter and everyday life. I’ll be honest I don’t always get to the hair videos you post but the personal vlogs…. Always! My favorite.

This video was so inspiring. Thank you for sharing . It really shows the strength you carry. I’m so happy that you have found some peace and joy in your heart. Praise God. 🔥🤍🙏🏽

Sylvia I loved your channel from the very beginning and still do til this day and anyone who doesn’t wanna follow you anymore cuz you’ve included your little girl is just insane. Blessings beautiful family

I struggle with severe depression and anxiety. So I can relate to the anxiety. Just you having the courage to do RU-vid videos is ALOT. I remember first watching you and I could feel your anxiety. But I admired your courage to get through it despite you going through it. I do agree with breathing. I had started getting palpitations, so my anxiety was affecting my heart! Breathing was what actually stopped it. Do not underestimate the power of just breathing. So when people say just breath, it makes me mad initially lol but honestly, idk where I’d be if I didn’t do it. I so appreciate your honesty. I really truly enjoy transparent videos like this. It might be hard to film so for that I thank you. But I appreciate having someone to relate to despite your success! You’re an inspiration.

Wow that was awesome! Thank you for doing something scary and making yourself vulnerable. That gives the rest of us courage too. I have been watching you through the pandemic and only one other hair stylist (Hair Budha). You both have helped me atleast highlight my hair for the past few years. I could never cut it myself. Your videos show your confidence and skills, thats what i see even though at times you may not be feeling it. Much ❤️ and respect to you. And your daughter is adorable.

Your articulation on your journey is rather impressive. Thank you for sharing ❤. Book recommendation, ok so I am in my mid 40’s and have gone on the self help, reflection book dive, which of course did a lot of good, so I am glad your getting so much out of it. As for the past three years, I had been in a rather stressful situation and turned to books again but this time, I went into historical, romance. I know it may seem funny, but I didn’t really know what I liked and had to discover it through books. My suggestion is read as much as you can and find what you love, it’s a game changer. So I started watching your videos about a year ago, I have been cutting hair for 20 years on the side for family and friends. About 7 months ago the company I was working for went under, and I turned to hair. I ate up so many of your videos and you made me believe I could do it. I watched you do some crazy things that I thought might not work out and they did. Sometimes I am so afraid that I am not going to make the customer happy or do something wrong that I can’t get over it. I am glad you were able to share that even when you had your dream situation you still struggled with the feeling that you weren’t as good or that you weren’t perfect. Keep going, many blessings to you and your family and thank you.❤

You, Sam Ravndahl, Steph Lange and a few others are such authentic women and your audiences love you for it.

I have struggled for years with anxiety and not feeling like enough...I am proud of you for being vulnerable, for having awareness, for trying to make positive movements forward. You are not alone!!!! Many of the things you have said, I have felt the same way!!! And I TOTALLY hear you about the "complaining thing" because I do the same thing...and I don't consider myself complaining but like you said, needing someone to realize I'm not ok. Hang in there!! I hope you are doing better now!!