You get to that point, where it’s your only reality, your asking God for answers and seeing him involved in your life but quite not answering you, you fall and cry your heart out like a baby and he restores you again. Then you take that love, you take his energy, and you give it all to yourself and your flesh, knowing better and choosing death. And you been here thousands of times and you keep asking for help and he helps you most the time and then… sometimes he just doesn’t help. And i fall again 💔
Well then you just repent of your sins abd ask him to help you become stronger and you become stronger by staying in his living word everyday especially when times are tough.