Thank you all for all of your kind words. Your support means more than you’ll ever know. I will be back and better than ever, soon! Wolf pack I love you! 💙🐺
Proud of you, Heidi. It’s hard to be open and vulnerable and honest. My “wall” was 28 and it’s a night I’d like to never hear about again. I know we are just followers, but we really do support you 💯. Life is a journey, we never fully figure it out. “Progress, not perfection.”
We CAN work on. Perfecting ourselves. We CANNOT be perfect. There are two kinds of curious spirits--- one is curious to know, one is curious to grow. Sadly, most people seek to know it all, but never know themselves.
@@user-qx2db1sr8k There are many metaphors that help us to understand life. When we met, I was turning 26 in 11 days; my wife turned 26 on 12.10 of that year. My dorm room was #1210 freshman year in college. My address:915. Her address: 5349. If my birth certificate number is calculated as a value of miles, then the last 7 digits are 915349. Coincidence? Life is a meaningful coincidence. I have 72 years of empirical evidence to prove the coincidence of my 71 year life, so far. 👀🐠🌊. Is human conception a supernatural event? A coincidence or a process?
Been sober almost 10 years. Everyone has their own way...but mine was stopping lying. No deception, omission, obfuscation, or anything else. Good job and good luck
Here’s a little gray hair wisdom. Your opening up to your followers is commendable. We all have had our struggles, our true worth is to make the changes that will help not only us, but those around us. I wish you nothing but the best as you make this journey. Stay positive, you’ve got this.
I’ve spent a lot of years trying to find myself. Finding yourself is ultimately knowing yourself if that makes any sense. That’s the conclusion I have found in finding myself.
I quit regular party drinking at age 25. Was married to a non-drinker at age 26. Had a 6-pack in the refrigerator only for when a friend stopped over, so I could be hospitable. That six-pack lasted a year. When our son was about 6 I got angry at him for making noise while I was watching a football game. It reminded me of my dad getting upset when we were just being kids. That is when I quit for good. Maybe 1 beer per year. Discipline will save your life!
Thanks Heidi for sharing your feelings and issues at this time. I have missed seeing your videos which are so down to earth. I understand your need to self reflect and find the sea/earth legs for the happy future you so richly deserve. God's speed to you in your quest-we will all be here to celebrate your return to making us realize it truly is the little things in life that make us whole. Best Wishes brave young Lady.
Hi, Heidi. I enjoy watching your videos. I never realized the struggles you deal with. I know the stalker issue was troublesome. I wish you all the best in the future. You are absolutely gorgeous and need to feel beautiful too.❤
Welcome to the road of recovery, I am recovered myself, disabled veteran, PTSD aswell, it is great that you yourself discovered you.. and you will have my soul support always..
I cut back on my alcohol in take in November. Went cold turkey. Sucked for the first couple months but I also started going to church and started praying more. It definitely helped. I started fishing instead of drinking which is how I found your channel. I’m not a hundred percent sober but I can only drink two beers before I get sick of it. You can do this!
Thanks I think there is many that go thru what you are going thru, as I am the same can not seem to just quit, but will keep trying, you also and thanks for sharing, brownmetal.
This is one of the most raw and sincere videos I've ever seen on RU-vid; raising my respect for you all the more. I wish you well in your fight to purge the internal demons that torment you to seek shelter in unhealthy outlets. If ever you conclude that your social media career is a contributor, although you will be missed, nobody could blame you for walking away. Remember, you are the hero in your story, and you deserve to be healthy and happy.
Female here, and I just want to say your openness and willingness to speak out on topics like this is very beautiful and relatable ❤ I’ve watched your videos for years now and you give more to the world than you may think! I subscribe to a lot of beauty “influencers” on RU-vid and I’ve always felt that your videos were a breath of fresh air compared to many others. Healing takes time and is a never ending practice, but your heart is in the right place and in time you will find the peace you are searching for. Sending you love 💕
Thanks for posting this video , I've watched your videos for a few years now , and I'm a fan of them , just today I was coaching a close friend on drinking , smoking , and cannabis , he wants to make a change in his life , so I sent this video to him and hopefully he will watch it , you touched on everything we talked about today ! ... Cool how good things pop into your life unexpected ! .... Good luck on your journey little Red 😊
You’ve always been an inspiration as an outdoorswoman, but to see how you are dealing with real life is truly inspirational. I hope you keep posting, because you’re interesting, and you are a RU-vid friend. Sending light, and support, and hope you heal quickly and learn to love all of yourself.
I've been sober 38+ years and so grateful for my sobriety. Find AA meetings where you live and find women therein with long term sobriety to guide you. Don't try to stay sober alone and stay away from the people, places and things that trigger the urge to drink. Also, there are many dangers in maintaining a career based on looks, although your sweet personality keeps guys returning to your videos. That you were born physically attractive is a simple fact, yet one that can be difficult to manage. Acceptance of facts is key to sobriety, no matter which substance or habit one tries to kick. Best of luck to, you delightful Heidi!
Very good, I know how difficult this journey is, not from personal experience but from watching family members on my mother’s side dealing with alcohol addiction, I made the decision early in my life not to go in that direction and I am thankful I never developed a taste for alcohol and I have avoided relationships that revolved around social drinking. I have always been involved in church activities and involvement. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for your continued journey and healing.
I hope she reads your comment. She needs to find a meeting. I walked into my first meeting 22 years ago. It's not a comfortable experience, but you have to keep coming back.
And entertainment can become its own identity it takes courage to stand and fight to reevaluate and take care of the true person you are my prayers are with you one step at a time
May God bless and shower you with His blessings like never ever imagined and may His loving and merciful and healing hand be upon you and heal all your physical infirmities in your temporary body in this life here in His 3D world. 😇❤🙏🏻☝🏻❤🇺🇸❤🌎🙋🏻👋🏻👏🏻.
I love this babe and I completely understand where you’re coming from ugh I went through the exact thing a few years ago and felt I was just running but I was thriving. Now being a mama I’m doing it again starting a whole new chapter. I’m so glad you’re taking the time to find yourself and happiness within bc it’s so true nothing or no one can truly fill you. You have to love yourself and know you’re worth it 🤍🙏🏼
Oh Heidi. I had tears in my eyes watching this. My husband and I enjoy all your videos whether you are fishing, cooking, walking with your dogs or building a squirrel house. Please know a video of yours always makes us happy and makes our day better. Thank you for being so honest and open; I know that can be hard to do. My husband and I have been sober for many years so we understand a little of what you are going through. Also please know that we may just follow you on RU-vid but we do support you and care about you. Sending hugs from both of us. ❤
Hey Heidi I just turned 50 in May and will tell ya you are on the right track getting all the bad out of your life I also was and alcoholic and drug addict for about 10 years clean for over 10 now. Your still young and still figuring everything out and being Real in life is probably the most important thing to do so much fake now days. P.s. love your fishing videos pretty awesome Stay true stay safe ✌️
I stumbled across this video and I’m so sorry to learn of your struggles. You should be proud of yourself. It took a lot of courage for you to share your story. I hope you stay strong and committed to dealing with the issues which are of concern. You seem like a very caring, loving woman. I’m confident you will conquer this. I will remember you in my prayers Heidi. Hang in there and I look forward to watching your progress in future videos. Ed.
keep fighting girl!!!!!!! as a heavy metal guitar player, i drank the 80s and 90s and 2,000s away and then one day, i put the booze and the smokes down cold and aint ever looked back ( 2 years now ). we miss seeing you and your videos. peace
Heidi I’m a recovered alcoholic- I know the fight you have - I haven’t had a drink in 23 years- I’m extremely proud of you- always here if you need something
Wow! Props to you Heidi! You are so very brave opening up like this. The feelings you are having are common, unfortunately, but, talking about them is a huge step in the right direction. I have been following your channel for about 3 years now, and love your content. I have had times when I was depressed and lonely, and uncertain of where to go in life, seeking help is awesome! You go girl! Your followers are behind you all the way! Even if you decide to take a break from videos for a while. Praying for you! Stay strong, you are doing great!
Thank you Heidi, thank you. ❤ This is exactly what I needed at exactly the right time. Your words are so impacting. Please be proud of yourself for actually changing lives purely through your openness, honestly and sharing of your struggles. ❤
Thank You for sharing this with us all Heidi. As a male who is older than you and have been through a lot of what you are dealing with, especially the boozing just want to say keep growing . You are maturing and gaining wisdom with these life struggles. This all is part of the journey. God our Father will help you if you ask Him too . .
Will pray for you..,,,, I give God all the credit for my release from alcohol … and only by Him help, I’ll be more than happy to talk and play with you
Thank you for your courage in speaking out. I, too, have struggled with addiction, and it nearly destroyed my life. I lost my family, and now I live alone, knowing that I will never be with anyone else! But my hope is in the Lord! I am working on improving myself physically and mentally! God bless!
I quit drinking 21 years ago. I try not to take my sobriety for granted, but thank the one who's made it possible. Jesus, The Great Physician, has healed me from drug and alcohol addiction. Heidi, I know it's cliche, but take one day at a time. Every day choose to not drink. Praying for you.🙏
Thank you for sharing your story and putting yourself out there. Self care is important and I’m learning that as well. Looking forward to hearing more of your journey. I wish you many blessings.
Thank you Heidi for sharing your personal life with us. Find the time to get healthy, gym, running walking. Keep fishing and hunting. Keep busy and life will get easy.
God bless you on your journey Heidi. Thanks for sharing your story. It speaks to me and many others as well. Keep the faith and know that we all support you. 🙏 ❤️
Thank you for the video. It takes a strong person to admit they have issues. You’re a super strong and courageous woman putting your issues out on social media. God has a plan for us all and he’ll get you through this. We all have issues in life. The string ones admit and make changes. Keep up the good work and heal yourself. I personally fight my issues on a daily basis with depression. I live in Daleville Va but grew up in Nagshead NC. I go to the OBX all the time to find myself and get my myself peace. Heading down tomorrow for two months. Nothing like watching the sun rise on the ocean and sunset on the sound. Truly heaven for me. And catching some drum and trout helps too. Paying for you. You’re my super hero!
You are very brave Heidi and I am so glad you are making major positive adjustments!! Your video made me think of a few affirmations: I give myself the time I need to make changes in my life I am on the right path, moving steadily in the right direction I allow myself to take risks, to make mistakes and to be imperfect I am ready and willing to face all of my fears I see difficulties and obstacles as the spice of life I reparent my inner child, by loving, comforting, guiding and encouraging myself I am repairing and healing the relationship I have with myself I stand up for myself, I am my own best freind. Cheers, Heidi!
You have been especially brave Heidi to face your demons and your Wolf Pack will be beside you all the way! We are all proud of you. Big virtual hugs from across " the Pond" in Australia. ❤
Heidi, you are a smart and pretty young woman, life is a journey ! It’s perfectly normal to assess where your going and who you are. I am a lot older than you, we all change our direction and life goals as we learn and experience life. You are normal, don’t think your not ! As to any addiction issues professionally help is necessary, get some, sounds like you are and doing the right things to feel better about yourself. This vid was hard but but admitting problems is how we overcome and change. Sending a hug ❤ David
Heidi, I have admired so much of what you do, and enjoyed going through your adventures with you. Your struggles, issues are what shapes who you are, how you deal with them and overcome what you do not want to have as a part of you. You are shaping your life with your choices every day, So often I wanted to shout advice to you, to be there to help. We all here wish you well and would do whatever we could to assist you. My struggle with nicotine was epic, for me. I did not want to stop, 3+ packs a day, but could not allow myself to continue when my wife quit. She went cold turkey and toughed it out for several really rough days, then about 18 months before she felt free of the need. I cut back and tortured myself with each one for maybe 2 years before finally having the last one. I really missed the feeling, which I learned was helping me overcome and adjust to diabetic sugar levels, and I missed the ritual/paraphernalia and actions involved. It has been over 20 years now, and I am glad to be rid of the dependency. You will get there, most everyone quits at least 3 times before thy actually do. Your appearance is of course something that requires a lot of maintenance, Nd you will need a lot of sun screen! From my perspective you are very attractive, and the changes you are now making will only accent that! Your skin and hair are beautiful, and what you see as flaws will be things that may endear your partner to you. You have our love of who you are, not just your physical beauty, Your inner beauty shines out from you in your thoughts, words and actions!
Family and personal relationships are the most important things in life. There's nothing more gratifying than having a child, family member, personal friend, or even a stranger turn to you and say "Thank you I love you". That's what life is all about and that's when you know you have left your mark.
You hit the nail on the head……….you don’t think about it because everyone around you is doing it. Sometimes you just have to stop and think……….why am I doing this ? What does it do for me ? Usually that happens when you become spiritually aware……….and grow and evolve. Many people never do that.
You nailed the point with one word: GROWTH. Not experience, not maturity, not the process of healing, or healing, but the conscious search for growth.. The inner peace that you allow yourself to hear, over the din of life.. It changes your expectations, guides your conscious faith and gives greater foundation to your inner dreams.. Peace is a natural state until it is disturbed or ignored. It is as though we cut a piece out of our essence when we don't remain in peace. We are shaped by the experiences in the world around us..we naturally follow the flow of experiences, some good, some bad, we don't anyways know how to discern or respond. We also look for attention and purpose, not realizing that we have a more powerful force within us that sustains us if we don't enter doubt. Life is the questions and introspection, not the answers., we look for external certainties, and feel trodden down when our struggles are front and center. We try to hide, to blur, and to blot out our bad experiences..we become distant from ourselves, hope and faith falter INSIDE of us..the hardest part is recognizing life on a different level..it feels like a hopeless contradiction as we are hurt by the external and our internal workings. Life really is a journey we are all MAKING together. We are ALL together in the "presence" of life. So many different people trying to figure it all out, with various circumstances and consequences. It is amazing and terrifying all at the same time. Life can change so much in a moment. It is so simple, yet has so many complications and distractions. We all wonder "what is the meaning of life?" but don't realize that the purpose is to overcome the "monster" of life and to grow, and foster growth. Not ideas, not opinions, but through being at peace, growbeyond what the "world" as we individually experience may "make us". It is sad, but trauma gives structure to grow from, not just pain. It gives resolve, as life works in curious ways. We need to earn our path. When we hide behind feelings, excuses, or actions which hurt ourselves or others, or we cover our percieved shame, we are diminishing our lives and others. We hurt ourselves first before we even get the chance to hurt others..understanding and facing down the pain of uncertainty by allowing our inner peace is the key. Most all religions have the same basic core VALUES in different cultures' expressions before they are exploited to support individual will.. Peace is a universal concept. Discernment, and faith are central to religion. All religions I know of expect personal growth. You are so lucky to be in this position, where you have the platform from which to share your faith in yourself, your joy of life, your hopes and growth, and connect with so many other's, showing them that they are not alone..that we an all lift each other up..we ALL can be REAL..NOT WHAT WE THINK IS EXPECTED! I know you have a newfound responsibility which may now feel overwhelming, but your being real with yourself will change countless lives for the better..just by conquering the shame of admission, you have shown the world your faith in your turning point..you have slayed your demon, now it is time to follow through, and heal. His holiness the Dali Lama said "If there will be peace, it will be by BEING, not 'knowing'.." (This coming from a man who strives for holiness, knowing that he is not perfect himself..none of us are.. the point is we are to strive..not struggle.) May you fall in love with yourself as you strengthen yourself, and lead so many others to take on the same challenge we all must take eventually, in our own different ways. We need nothing more in life than to own ourselves, love surrounds and falls in synch with us when we do. I'm remembering the saying "love is so simple, why is it so complicated?" The answer so many times is "our doubts and fears complicate it" The monster of responsibility, owning oneself..rearing it's ugly head..challenging us.. Practicing faith provides shelter from the storm, till you deny the storm it's power.. trust yourself and the role of your practiced faith. Remember all you may have done already, you may yet realize the good outcome of..you have graduated to a higher level of self and strength, humbly lending a raising hand to others .. One moment at a time, carrying peace, not the load. You have come to take that moment..it has and always will be with you.. Sorry for so many words, the simplest things are the hardest to express..having walked alongside wildlife as an equal and a neighbor for 40 years, walked and sat with a matriarchal lineage of whitetail deer for the 2 decades, this past week spent a lovely 2 hours napping on the grass with 2 of the 4 fawns born together this year in my "immediate" deer family, many hours together over many years, I've gained perspectives outside of my own, learned their ways and language, and the value of how life is approached. It has been a tremendous privilege, an exotic invitation which I finally realized as my mind cleared. I recognize your world is giving you the opportunity to clarify, engage at a higher level, and grow beyond your expectations. You are truely blessed to appreciate and approach it honestly.. I'm off to church next, then spend some time with my deer..lol stinkers grow & learn so fast, they are quite independent now at 2 months old! The thing we cherish most together is the peace..they remind me daily.. You will find yours!🥰👍
SO SO proud of you Heidi !! I also live in Virginia and used to go to the Outer Banks often so your videos are so relatable and i love them but i will admit that the truth and vulnerability that you showed in this video has made it my favorite one. You spoke about real life issues that affect so many but is not talked about enough and i think that was one of the bravest things you could have done. I learned a long time ago that when a woman feels a certain way about herself, there's very little you can say to change that. She has to work it out for herself. You're absolutely beautiful inside and out so don't let anyone ever make you feel differently! I am a guy, happily married and i do care ( Did you really think that men wouldn't care? ) I would love to see more videos like this, keeping us updated on how you're progressing! We Love you and always stand by you !! BTW, your videos have always inspired me to live the simpler life that i Love so much and though it may sound corny to you, in many ways, i could say that my life is much better now because of you!🤗🙏
Thanks for sharing your true self and your struggles. Im sure its not easy and we are all here to listen and follow you on your journey that you put out here. Thanks and best of luck with the goals/milestones.
Wow! I admire your honesty and commitment to change your mind and life towards recovery! I love people like you because you’re the real people that are courageous enough to take the bull by the horns. Happy sobriety to you and your family!!
Heidi, I am in the midst of watching your video….. I am only a few minutes into it and I am smiling bi time as I can see that you are choosing to walk in God’s light. My heart is bursting with joy for you. Okay, I need to get back to the video.
Wow!!! What a powerful video. That had to take a ton of courage. Congratulations on your sobriety!! Always loved your content. Keep the great video’s coming!
I think you are very brave for posting this. You are an inspiration. Speaking on vaping, I smoked a pack a day for twenty years. I read the book, "The Easy Way to Quit Smoking" and I was able to quit cold turkey, and never struggled with it again. No patch, no gum. Maybe that will help you with vaping.
I'm blown away by this video. All of a sudden you have become a real person to me, facing similar issues that I face. You hit right on the heart of an issue that I have with alcohol and how I'm still not really dealing with it directly. I can stop, and have, but I don't really want to. Also your looking to find with where home is hit my heart directly. I'm fixin' to retire from 30 years in one community, and leaving for better, but I stress about how I will be able to deal with a new home and a new community. You are absolutely right that home is where you make it, and that gives me inspiration to "make it so". Thank-you for this video. Also, I can assay what nasty metals are in your vaping liquid (I've seen Fe Cr Zn As/Pb in Juul) - they catalyze reactions for chemicals that you don't need in your lungs. Best wishes...
Listening to you, I was quietly waiting and praying to hear say you had asked our Lord for help! Bless you moving forward!💙🙏🏻💙 been through this myself… stay strong and continue to lean on our Jesus 💙💪🏻🙌🏻
This was such an amazing video, Heidi! Thanks so much for sharing! You're doing amazing and on the right path. I've been on a journey of finding that feeling of home and have come to the same realisation. Btw as a natural red head female I absolutely understand how it felt growing up with red hair and pale skin. Takes some time getting used to not wearing fake tan. xxx
Lil Red, ive been following you 4 years. U showed courage opening up like that. I respect you. I've struggled also, with alcohol, with identifying who I am. I spent 20+ years in our nation's military, then retired & felt SO lost. It takes time to heal. As a fan of your beautiful adventures, your courage, your honesty, and most importantly your mental health, please take your time, work on it. No pressure....we (your beloved fans) absolutely support you. With respect & admiration, yours truly, Jess McGraw, a dedicated member of the Wolfpack. We love & respect you Lilred.
thank you Heidi for sharing your life struggles , it sounds like you are on the right track ,stopping the alcohol and soon to stop the vaping , also reassessing your life in general and getting professional help. You are a strong young woman and I know you will take the right steps going forward. keep us posted please ! God Bless!
God bless you for sharing vulnerable issues Miss Heidi. My prayer for you is that God continues to strengthen you and that you truly discover one who truly loves you. Be Well.
There's no need to explain to us why you've been absent. Thank you for letting us know. Just know when u were gone for a while we've been binge watching your vids, lol. The fact that u told us took some guts and we appreciate you for it. Whether u did or didn't. We're rooting for you, always. Your family and close friends got your back and then we all do as well. Much love, Red. ❤
Heidi you need to listen to your gut instinct the little quiet genius inside. This part of you has all the answers. If you’re going to be a public figure on social media it’s not about projecting who you are personally to the world. That’s just too intrusive and exposes you to vulnerability. Social media is an addiction just like booze etc. it’s about balance and being honest with yourself at least, who gives a shit how other people see you and perceive the person you project. Let ‘em think what they think as long as you are happy with you that’s what matters most of all. To be a public figure you have to project a persona to the outside world please don’t prostitute the you inside to the outside world it’s fatal because the comments and critique that follows can be crushing to the you inside, she needs and must remain private. I have had more than my fair share of struggles and life shattering events and when you’re thrown down very hard you must get up differently. It’s not easy what you do with social media in fact it’s so time consuming that people don’t realise. You’re gunna be okay, you just need to treat yourself with kindness and the more you question your own life and the one inside and how can I say ….. become a truth seeker then how honest you are with yourself will determine how fast and easily you break through the mental barriers that we all face. Life is short so focus on yourself 100% forget the big wide world of social media’s false projections. Most people are screwed up let’s have it right lol. Nice folks who are levelled and balanced are few and far between. Being happy is the way forward’s. Personally if it doesn’t serve me well in life then “it’s not a part of my life”. I have to be brutally honest with myself at times as like everyone else on the planet I get things wrong and there’s no point continuing with that which doesn’t work for us personally by doing so we remain in a cyclic pattern of self deception. And that’s a slippery slope because if we know that we don’t know that we don’t know something and keep doing it wrong, we’ll that’s one thing. The danger is when we don’t know that we don’t know that we don’t know if that makes sense. It’s like this how are we supposed to know that which we don’t have reference to until it is uncovered! Stay strong and focus inwards getting to know yourself is an inside job and can only be such. Be cautious and careful with what you share with the world out there because it really is full of lunatics. I hope that you stay focused and look after yourself. Nik 🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayer while you continue your journey to find peace and your home. I was always told “HOME IS WHERE THE HEART IS”. Love your videos that you have done. Rick
The very best to you, really appreciated you taking the time to discuss your concerns /situations on this pathway called life. You’ll get through this because you faced and acknowledged some issues that have been a “hindrance “ and therefore should be addressed for your wellbeing; very proud of you taking the steps to make your life better; you’re young and strong and I believe you’ll conquer any challenges that arise. May God be with you , as He always is, and you’ll be elated with the outcome. Much love to you!
Well done/put. Dealt/dealing with some of the same issues and it’s not easy. Hands down my favorite RU-vidr and wish you all the best. Heading to the outer banks in a week and hoping to clear my head a little in the surf… fishing of course.
Heidi, so sorry to see you struggling. I am glad your are making choices to figure it out, most of us our trying to figure out who we are whether we know it or not, so you have lots of company. I applaud you being honest with your self and honest with your followers, that's a big step. You're smart, resourceful and have tremendous potential. My wish is that know there is much support in the world for your journey, I am pulling for you too. Bruce
Thank you for sharing and being open. The important thing is that you have self healing. I am trying to walk the walk myself of loving myself. Doing thngs for other that mask the true problem of lack of self love. Thank you for sharing
“The measure of a person is what they can live without” keep sharing your story…your journey. You never know who you will help along the way! Praying for you!
Heidi thank you so much for this video!! You definitely do have some women following your channel. I am one of them! Just want you to know that watching you fish and be outdoors has inspired me to start fishing again! Now I’m obsessed! I almost needed to see this video. I’m around your age and going through something very similar. It’s tough but like you said necessary to feel these things. Put your trust in God. He already knows where you’ll end up! 🙏🏻
You have indeed mentioned finding that sense of home and I believe your journey in life will ultimately lead to finding love, happiness and stability. There's another chapter in your life that hasn't happen yet, but someday will. You have already taken steps in a positive direction. Stay strong and always remain hopeful.
I applaud your strength and forthrightness. You are a strong and wonderful person, and this is you continuing to grow and mature . My prayers go out to you . Stay strong, and you will always be a beautiful person . ❤
Heidi admitting the problem is the first step. That’s one of the bravest things you have done. I’m 40 plus years sober and I’m so great full that I made a decision that I couldn’t do it and needed help. I stay humble and take care of my mental health. Your strong and will only get stronger. Put healthy people in your life and reach out for help. I’ve been following your channel for sometime now and love it ❤. Be strong and keep it going forward because if not we go backwards.
I have more respect for you now. Good job being real to yourself. Sobriety from alcohol gets easier after the first year. I'm going on 9 years and 6 days. You're doing an epic job at this RU-vid thing. This is better than anything that I've watched because it's real and I'm pretty sure a lot of people can relate. Thank you! Keep up the great work!
Like you, outwardly I was blessed with all the attributes of a successful life when I was young - great education, lots of friends, not bad looking. Inside, I was a mess of anxiety and uncertainty. I had issues with choosing a career, a failed long term relationship, and financial worries. It took time for things to come together but eventually they did. Don't give up - today's seemingly insurmountable problems will become yesterday's successes. Give it time, adjust to the feeling of living with uncertainty, and know that the only bad decisions are decisions you don't make. Continue to take charge of yourself and your destiny. If I can do it then anyone can! I'm quite a bit older than you but know this; you inspire people of ALL ages to look around at this big, beautiful world and appreciate all that we've been given. Thank you for doing that for me. You're wonderful!
Heidi you’re on the right road with yourself, & the wolf pack! Love your channel, & everything you have shared in your video’s! May your good thoughts keep you Happy, and give you strength to live a Beautiful life, and enjoy every day to the fullest, with family, & your beautiful pet’s! Be safe, stay healthy, & God Bless everyone in your Life! Sending hug’s to heal for this rough road ahead!
I can understand your need to give up nicotine , I quit smoking 14 years ago cold turkey and never picked up a cigarette since. It wasn't easy. But the fear of cancer was a concern of mine I lost my voice and went to the Doctor he looked at my throat and told me it was so raw I could get cancer easy. I made that my wake up call. You can do it. Thanks for sharing Keep the faith.
Proud that you are strong enough to admit when there is a problem, that is always the hardest step to take. Personal things are always hard to talk about but holding them in is not good, I'm 43 yrs old Heidi & had things happen to me as a kid & never told a soul for 35 yrs, not my family, not my friends, not anyone, after I went through therapy is when I realized that with every person I was able to talk about it with, that weight on my shoulders got a little bit lighter. You are a very courageous woman & being able to talk to us or your inner circle of friends & family is the best thing for you. I just wish I had the ability to open up about my situation earlier in my life, stay strong Heidi we are here for you 🙏
My newest granddaughter is a little red head, it has always been my absolute favorite. Your hair and complexion is beautiful ! I can relate to a lot of what you’re fighting through and I think you are doing what’s best for you. Congratulations, and good job being real.
I appreciate ur open nes and honesty! Dont see that much from folks online much and it shows a lot about ur character. Im a natural redhead and mostly a loner due to how peers treated me when i was in school and i didnt realize till lately why. I swear being a redhead isnt easy when young. I too am pale minus my freckles so i get that as well! Congrats to u for coming to terms about alcohol issues, it isnt easy by any means! To be honest after seeing this video i respect u and admire you for ur ability to keep pushing thru!
Well done, 17 years without alcohol myself, I found life absolutely amazing on the other side. You will find your path, we got you. Most of all, be you.
Hi, Heidi. You are a remarkable young lady. I love your enthusiasm for living in the outdoors. I'm quite certain you inspire countless other young ladies to get outside and live their best lives. I pray for your success with all of your adversities. We are all pulling for you!
So so proud of you Heidi! It takes a lot of courage to do what you just did and I think you are going to become and even more improved and stronger person than you already are on this journey you are on! You are able to pinpoint problems in your life and you are able to change them, just takes creating the new habits and getting used to them but every day you wake up is a day to make that change and always improve yourself! Keep up the good work and I am rooting you on and praying for you to have strength and God to guide you throughout all of these new and exciting changes you’re working on! You’ve got this! ✊🏼🙏🏼 Sending prayers and positive energy your way from New Mexico -Shaun-
This really puts life in perspective. I really appreciate this video because as a female viewer I found myself comparing myself to you assuming your life was as perfect as you portrayed, even down to the tan skin! I also vape, I don’t drink but I smoke weed a lot. I assumed this high functionality you showed us was constant in your life. So thank you for being vulnerable and showing your audience that not everything is black and white and that all of us suffer in some way or another. Thank you sincerely.
Hey Heidi. So much respect for you for coming on your channel and opening up this way. First please know you will be fine, there is a time for everything in your life. Be patient. I am not sure if this will help you but I know it won't hurt. I wouldn't say anything to hurt someone. I am a professional musician/guitarist/songwriter. Under a fic name. I never got the feeling out of doing what I do that everyone else gets in my position, until I sat down and really analyzed what I do and it's place in the world. Long story short I get that "high" from writing the songs not so much playing in front of thousands of people. At least not the way I felt I should. So I focus on the part I love and hope I benefit people with the music. Creatives have a very rough way to go until they can put themselves in the place of the "audience". You are a creative. Your posts are magnetic to me and I am sure everyone of your subs as well. You have something about you and what you do. You must find the "love" within the process. It has to be a bit strange doing this but what creative's life isn't strange that way? Haha. Bottom line, find the love. Side note please don't feel like you have to up the anti so to speak. Anything you post is entertaining and thoughtful. It's honestly hard to put my finger on. Anyway. You will be fine and we will all be here supporting you from where we are. 😊
Wow! What an incredibly open and honest video, about your situation. Bless you for your candor, and I wish you much success in your search for answers about where you are, and where you want to go. There are so so many serious challenges for all of us to overcome. I give you a lot of credit for being taking some time to help yourself, and heal yourself. I pray all the very best for you Heidi, and look forward to seeing you move forward with your life goals/ Take good care!
So great to see you again , even if it is a different topic. I have never struggled with any addictions, but had women in my life that had the same as you are going through. It is so hard for any of us to see what you have gone through or experiencing considering we see short bits and bites of what is offered to us, but we are still here because of what you have offered and shown to the world Probably difficult for many to look at you and imagine you ever being bullied as a kid or shunned because of hair and skin tone, but we have all had things to deal with that no one will ever know about. We see you as a beautiful loving caring person to your family and your furry little ones, we see your smile and hear your thoughts and the love of the outdoors. You say you want to do more and basically leave a mark and do something big. You have to remember that you have already. You do not need to climb mountains and then fall because you feel you failed. You have done something BIG my dear, you have half a million followers tuning in to see you catch a fish, cook in the woods or set up a deer blind. No, maybe not Mother Theresa stuff, but you a pretty little girl from where ever have 500,000+ people that feel something whether it seems profound to you , but you have touched so many in such a simple easy way, that you do not even see that is BIG. We will be around when you are ready and feeling up to it. We expect you just to be you , and of course healthy, happy and to share your fishing and hunting spots with me lmao . We will look forward to seeing you when you are ready, take very good care of yourself.....Mike
Everyone fights battles and most of them you don't know about. Sharing is to expose yourself and that's a big step in the process of healing. I know. Been there. Currently am there. Take care of yourself, both you and all you other guys here too!
Thanks for this video I'm in a similar situation in my life and seeing someone be open about there life is aspiring... especially someone that's in the so called (spotlight) how brave of you to admit these things I can't and i wish i had your courage.. thanks for being human and letting us know, it made me feel better about myself
Proud of you for kicking the booze and good luck with the vape I quit smoking 22 years ago best thing I’ve ever done. I followed my mom’s advice never put another one to your lips. I’m off alcohol newly as well drunk to much bourbon last time and was vomiting bile the next morning and as a diabetic I shouldn’t of even been drinking to begin with. I just received a new hip at 53 and I’m trying to get rid of my excess weight now. Just know we and everyone in your life love you and whatever you do in life enjoy it. And you have natural beauty that losing the fake tan makeup or anything can’t take that away. Best wishes and take as much time away as you need we will be right here.❤
