this is a response video, just talking about all the things i want to do this year, most importantly be more loving, kind and helpfull... im going to be uploading on a regular basis now, love to all
Hey man, where have you been! Make a video! So I got my hair cut at the barber shop and I feel great! I have been just constantly blasting music and it's helping me make it through the day. Sorry for the long message last week. Can you teach me how to make RU-vid videos? Please, just make something. Peace.
You're awesome Rob! I have the same paranoia and you answering me kinda wigs me out. I have absolutely no friends now because I have massive trust issues. The voices just don't let me live. I got a job a few weeks ago at Papa John's and it was great, then I got attacked by my voices and I felt like someone was out to get me at work. No call no show got me fired. It feels like someone famous or something is out to get me. I didn't live life right and God or the devil or some billionaire MK Ultra corporation won't leave me alone. I know that sounds wack, but just letting you know what it's like for me. I struggle even getting out of the house most days, but you know, what do you do? I got a haircut and that helped me feel way better about myself. I wrote rap songs for 20 years also, not as good as yours though. I look at my rap from when I was a P.O.S. and I hate it. It was so fucking stupid. Anyways, my new years resolution is to get out of this apartment I'm living at with my fiance and son and move into a house. We already cleaned out a my tool room because is was covered in saw dust. I use to repair furniture and sell it, but I just kept relapsing, so I had to drop the hobby. I hope you do find a chick you can love too. My lady is a major help for me but sometimes I feel like my disability hinders her, which it does, and it breaks my heart. My son is also Autistic and he doesn't btalk so watching him while she is at work is difficult most the time. If you could send out a prayer for me to God to free me from my voices, that would be awesome. I feel like He has abandoned me. I'm just constantly battling voices until I pass out, my dreams feel like they are controlled, and I wake up to the same shit everyday telling me, "You see what we can do for you, you see what we can do to you" over and over again until I curse it out, damn God and get called a piece of shit all day long. It's crazy because famous people like Rhianna and Eminem and many other sing about voices in there heads, even Paris Hilton hints at it. We must be hearing because of our sin or the sin that surrounds us. I feel like some people hear voices because God is trying to find out what happened and how to help those people, and that God goes and punishes the people who were a scourge on those people. It's crazy Rob. I know I'm rambling alot but you make me feel like I have worth when you speak to me and I'm thankful for that. On to another subject. When O watch you videos, I wander of you're even real or if you're a bot or something because I watched a Netflix movie called "Cam Girl" and basically it's about a camchick who gets turned into a digital bot and I feel like you're a digital bot because it's hard to see your face clearly and I guess that is what the rich are capable of. I don't know what they call the technology but "they" are completely capable of it. It all just freaks the shit out of me and the more I watch netflix, the stronger my psychological dillusion grows. I probably shouldn't delve deeper into my psychosis, as I learned in community college that emotion can be contagious, and this is probably a pyschological contagion to you. Rob, do you think that the Clonadine may have cured you? I'm desperate to get rid of the voices in my head so that I can do something... The negative energy is killing me. It's never positive, always condemning me. Anyways, this is alot to read. I know you want some suggestions and that might help you so I'm going to give you suggestions on future videos. Can you make a video with your artwork? I want to see what you have created, art you like and where it started, like the stuff that wasn't so great and how your art developed. I'm a painter, but I'm camera shy. Maybe you could encourage me. That would be awesome. I shit! I just emptied out my tool room! I could do an appreciation video! Those is far too much!!! Thanks for making another video and I will share your videos everywhere to boost your viewers, how about that? That's how I can show I appreciate it instead of just saying "I appreciate it" lol! Have a good night man. Jaime
