LOCKDOWN WFH & FIRST TIME IN A SCHOOL IN 3 MONTHS - EMD EVENTING 

Awww hope you enjoyed it :) I am very lucky to have Sprite still so fit and well xx

Awww yay this makes me happy! Hope you enjoy my channel. Thanks for subscribing!

Ahhh it certainly hasn't been easy. Hope you're doing better now x

Yay thank you x

Thanks for the comment, Nicky really is awesome and has helped me so much. Hope you're feeling more positive now x

Thank you!

Thank you! Always struggle a little with the chatty aspects when I'm on my own. Yeah structure has definitely been saviour the past couple of weeks x

Thank you x

Thank you very much xx

Aww thank you!

Thank you so much! Mojo is on it's come back, feeling much more positive now thank you x

Aww thank you x

All animals seem to have a magical power to improve moods dont they. Sorry to hear you've also been finding the current world a struggle. Even if only slightly hope you're feeling better and heading in the right direction xx

Thank you, definitely feeling more positive now :) Mila is very much enjoying having company at home that's for sure x

I think we are all feeling like that after lockdown. Just start small and short sessions and slowly build up xx

Yay!! Thank you for sharing that, glad you find her just as fab as I do x

Something I'm thankful to lockdown for actually. We've done it a couple times before but it's a lot more frequent now :) xx

Spritey loves a race. Just need some rain and we will have a rematch hehe. x

Thank you x

hahaha yes!! I call a rematch too!

Feeling much better now thank you. Totally agree Nicky is so fab, very thankful for all her help xx

Hahaha she knows them all 🙈🧡

Thank you so much, you have no idea how much comments like this mean to me. Hope you're getting your mojo back a little now xx

I do, it's called a Waterboy :) x

Thank you x

Thank you! I can't wait for the eventing vlogs too back with Tina! Fingers crossed we can get a couple of runs this year xx

Hope Nicky's guide has helped you lovely and you're feeling a bit more positive. Hehe other halfs that come out on the bike with us are aweome! Give him a high 5 from me! xx

We are definitely not alone, I think everyone is struggling with different things big or small. Hahah love you're on the sofa too x

We are very fortunate to have lovely hacking xx

Thank you x

Glad you liked the intro :)

Aww thank you!

Everyone has down days or down moments in their life. It's just that not many people feel able to share about it which I totally understand and why I struggled to talk about it too. You are most definitely not alone though xx

@@emdeventing Thank you, I guess because my whole life has been suffering, since birth and I was forced into silence and only able to portray the intense distress by doing outward actions to my body since age 7 and still people didn't see or they saw, asked questions but I wasn't allowed to answer, well as a child/teen, I was told not to answer or else etc... so when I got into my twenties i was still using outward methods but I started to talk more, and its grown and grown, now I don't speak out my history and tell people my story, not without 110% careful consideration and knowing that whoever i'm allowing to read it is a) going to be able to emotionally handle it, and b) is not going to treat me differently because of it... BUT i'm not quiet about my struggles day to day. I can't be. I'm so isolated, due to my physical repercussions of mental health that I need Instagram mainly for my friends to connect with me, to seek out people who will bring me up, help me smile, not necessarily know the whole story but know the day to day and will either share a joke, or just send a msg of kindness... and thats in all walks, so the mental health community, the running community and the equestrian community. The equestrian community is where I've struggled the most to feel connected, part of something, build a friendship, because I don't have everything, in fact I pretty much have nothing, but I can talk about horses and my art drawing them etc, and I LIVE for encouraging and helping others, I LOVE doing that, and I have to, it's who I am, I need to encourage and love on others because I never want people to feel as low as I do day to day or as alone as I do day to day. I have a "tribe" but it's not big enough and it's made up of people who are extremely busy, and in person that tribe is only 2 people I get to see every few weeks at best... I want to have tribe in the equestrian community, to join the fun, to laugh, to have random msgs with, but people fear mental health. It's been proven with my business insta because so many who had blocked my personal account, happily follow and respond to my business account. It's great because I get to see their stories again, but it's also bittersweet, because I wasn't accepted for speaking out about mental health day to day whilst coming back to riding, but in the business side, because of course i'm not going to personally spill out everything, suddenly i'm safe again... it hurts but also i'm glad... because I can again feel connected... I just hope that over time, people who I would, if i lived near, be the sort of people I'd hang out with, or want to, that maybe I can be accepted and a friendship built. So I've been told that being vocal about mental health in the equestrian community has gotten me blocked and hurt, but through my business I can interact and they don't have to worry about me saying anything about my day to day mental health. So whilst you say 'You are not alone' it was certainly made to feel that for many months, it's only through this lockdown that a few people have turned and softened. So i'm grateful for that. xx

Aww thanks hun. Glad you found it helpful and also reading these comments we are most definitely not alone. Hope you're feeling a bit better now xx

Spritey is 14.3hh and Lola is 16.1/2 xx

Thank you so much! Totally agree with you, we all have different difficulties to deal with whether big or small, they all affect us all in different ways x

Awww thank you SO much x

Thank you. Oooo thanks for the idea, I shall see what I can do! Hope the horses at home are going ok so far though x

Awww yay!! Comments like this make me smile, glad I could help xx

Yay!! Thank you x

So pleased you enjoyed it xx

Hehe they do make a big difference. So lucky to have animals in my life x

Glad you enjoyed it. That was something I really wanted to get across. Of course people don't want to watch us unhappy all the time but wanted to show that we all have bad days, moments in our life :)

Aww yay hope you were too xx

He was so excited to be back out!!!

Thank you :)

Thank you! Rollercoaster is exactly what describes it. Think everyone has been struggling in different ways that's for sure.

Spritey is 14.3hh and Lola is 16.1/2 xx

EMD Eventing omg really - spritey does not look like 14’3 😮 and wow Lola is big xx