If I could just spill my mind... With or without I’m waving myself goodbye You’re swimming round, you can’t get out The sides have upped to London now Like everyone that you know You’re treading on, the last to go... Stuck on the words “I need to sort my life out” And I hate that I’ve tamed my kindness How fickle the mind is, ooo I’m feeling lady-like I’ve had enough of all the yups Going on about their stuff They’re all in love, at restaurants Aubergine and apricot… But sometimes I’m maybe Afraid that there’s no feeling like it Afraid that there’s nothing else And maybe I’m wrong after all… I’ll peddle on to forty-one The Hambledon’s my Avalon Cardigans, the Guardian I wasn’t born a partisan... The cousin in me of someone The moment your mum was my mum Lowswimmer, lowswimmer, lowswimmer, lowswimmer You’re feeling those feelings Goddammit let me feel some more
I've felt like this before. I've been in that place. The place of longing for purpose. Those moments of trials and difficulties. Where you feel as if God has left you. And you feel sad and you have a contrite heart as your spirit is breaking down. Then you realize the meaning you have in life and how beautiful you really are. How special you are to God. I have felt exactly like this the feeling you get where you feel left out by life and you see everyone in love. But you. Left out and alone. Then something happens and you realize how important you really where. How everyone is not born knowing, that you are a beautiful part of this orchestra of life. And a beautiful star! How everything was the opposite. That if you ever think of taking your life away. Your absent will be felt tremendously. That's how special you are. Yet you sometimes just give up in life and loose hope. In your dreams and continue in the matrix and same routine. Somethings so sad that even Christ himself and the inhabitants of heaven feel your pain. They also rejoice whenever someone changes their way of thinking. Maybe I'm wrong about heaven after all and in heaven everything is a lot more beautiful than I thought.
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