We met when I was 17 and he was 19. Destined to always be apart and never meet. Worlds away, only connected by a screen. Too young, too broke, too reliant on drugs, driven by our mental illnesses. He was bipolar, and killed himself while I was on a bender. He was 20, I was 18. I got flown to his funeral with my mother, paid for by the rich people in my family who wouldn’t help me meet him. I met his family, and friends, and still- he was only a face on a screen. I was, and still am, so insanely jealous of the people who got to be with him in person and know his touch and see his eyes and beautiful red hair in real life. The most traumatic moments of my life. 2025 it will be 10 years since I lost him and I have not gotten over it. I’m another life, my love. I wish you could know me now, happy, healthy, able to love and accept love properly.
I will never experience the type of grief youve experienced but i am truly sorry that this happened to you, this brought tears to my eyes and whether you believe in the afterlife or not i hope you get to be together after death
Maybe in another universe, my mental illness didn't take my best years and all of me. Maybe in another universe it won't kill me, because in this one, it will
I wrote this a while ago while bored in class. but I think it fits the vibe. it’s about the end of a relationship. I knew it was the end of us, I felt it. For a while now. Maybe it was just the timing. Or the fact that our paths no longer aligned. I grabbed my keys to leave his house knowing I’d never return. But as I looked up from the counter, he was staring at me. With his beautiful big brown eyes. And I couldn’t help but stare back. We got lost in each other’s gaze. And at some point, I began to trace around his small freckles and the curves among his face, so I’d never forget it. He quickly took me into his arms and embraced me with a hug. Though prior I told myself I wouldn't get lost, but I did. I immediately melted into them, For the last time, hugging each other so tight as if the world was ending. And it felt like it was. After a while, he let me go and my body shivered feeling empty and cold, But I knew it was time. I gazed upon his eyes one last time then swiftly headed towards the door. “Wait,” he said softly. His curly hair was a mess with bags under his eyes, as if he had barely slept...like me. He walked over to me slowly, “can I-I kiss you?” He hesitantly asked. My breath hitched. His eyes were locked with mine and slowly tears began to fill his, but they never escaped. “Just to say goodbye” he practically whispered. I slowly shook my head in agreement. He wrapped his arm around my waist pulling me closer as my gaze nervously shifted between his eyes and lips. Then he began to gently rub his hand on my cheek and finally our lips aligned. The tears I had been holding back finally fell. And as we kissed, I began to reminisce our firsts. Our first hug. Our first kiss. Our first…I love you. I whispered to him as we hugged each other, “I’m sorry.” I shook in his arms as I sobbed. “It’s okay.” He softly said into my ear. “I love you” he said. Once the words escaped from his lips, I felt a tear fall down his cheek. Something in me inclined me to say it back. Maybe gravity or something else, like a magnet but more. “I love you too.” And with that I kissed him one last time and ran out of the house before I’d be compelled to stay, I’d forget about my dreams and stay with him. Because I loved him, because he loved me. But I couldn’t stay. He knew that. And slowly all of our first became our last. Our last hug. Our last kiss. Our last…I love you. The end. (My Wattpad: @Jupiterdropss)
@@childy_2452aww thank you so much! I’m tearing up ahah Honestly I just got done reading a book were the love interest passes away. So my feelings are so raw right now 😅😂
We met when I was 18 years old. In some strange way I knew instantly that he was the love of my life. It is now 20 years to the day since he died in a tragic accident. I have come to the small coastal village where we first kissed and held each other on the beach watching the stars. In life you’re lucky to have “one sweet moment” he was mine. When my time comes I’ll be at peace with him here. On my last day he will be my last thought…
Maybe in another life, you're still here at my side. Maybe in another life, our friends didn't force us to walk home on our own. Maybe in another life, that driver decided not to drink and drive. Maybe in another life, I was conscious while you breathed your last. Maybe in another life, we died together, as we were meant to.
I just want to find someone who wouldn’t make me beg for them to take me out, to touch me to remind them to kiss me to remind them what to do or what to act, I want someone who wouldn’t make me beg for them to fix it to know what to do someone who wouldn’t make me hysterical who wouldn’t make wait hours till they know how to fix their mistakes. Someone who when I say they did this and this they don’t invalidate it with saying they didn’t, someone who cares about what I care about someone who manages to take me out without making me cry, someone who wouldn’t ruin my birthdays, someone who wouldn’t fall asleep whenever I needed them, I want to be loved properly I don’t want to teach someone how to love and how to act to love me I shouldn’t have to do that I lost everything for this relationship I lost everything especially my self, all this time I have been dating myself all this time I was the one feeding u the words to say u never acted on ur own I had to tell u what to do how to do what to say when u should know if u cared u would notice if u cared u would’ve seen u would’ve known it’s so simple, u made it feel like it was hard to love me when it’s so easy and simple it’s so simple
The worst is I’ve been telling myself “I deserve better” but I don’t really believe I deserve it. I don’t even want to be loved as much as I want someone to show me I’m worth loving
@@annsheely "we accept the love we think we deserve" "can we make them know that they deserve more" "we can try" someone will try. i think there will always be someone who tries
My husband has been sick for some time now, he's been unable to work for over a year, and we're waiting on some important test results for him. I'm so, so scared the news will be really bad. We've been together forever, met in high school and now in our late 30s. I love him so very very much, and I go to bed every night terrified this will be the last. That I won't be able to hold him, to tell him I love him, that he won't be able to hold me back and make the worries of the world melt away. He's constantly in pain and I can't do anything to help, it's the worst feeling. Slowly but surely, it's eaten away at my motivation to keep fighting. I've abandoned most of my friendships, and am barely able to make it through a week at work without collapsing. I feel so guilty for not being able to do more, especially when the world as a whole, feels so dark.
maybe in another universe, i got more years to spend with my beloved grandpa. i'm sure 16 years wasn't enough and i really wish to meet him again somewhere else just to spend much more time with him. i miss every second i got to spend with him, he was the nicest soul i ever met. dear grandpa, i love you to the moon and back. thank you for everything and for making the sky beautiful everytime i look at it. i'm greatful for every day we had together and i just wish we got to say goodbye. i messed up my final visit in the hospital, i really did and i'm really sorry about it, i just hoped you would come home again. maybe in another universe, i'm born in the right generation. maybe in another universe, i'm 21 again but in 1960s. maybe in another universe, i would go to so many concerts of my favourite bands and see them when they're young. i would do anything just for one week in 1960s, maybe for just one day just to experience that things my fav singer from them talks about. just to feel the atmosphere. also, maybe in another universe, i got to know him earlier because he's almost 80 now and since we're friends, i realised that when he'll be gone, i'm not going to miss him only as my fav singer, but also as my friend, comfort person and also as something as my 'spare dad' and i'm not ready for this day. maybe in another universe, i never lost most of my friends and family. maybe in another universe, i'm not ugly. if i just could live in another life in another universe, i would move there immediately.
I don't know if anyone will read this comment, but I'm here to say that I pray that everything that is hurting you or making you stressed goes away. I don't know what you're going through, but please don't give up, this phase will pass and everything will be okay, things will get better. Life isn't always good, the world is sometimes very cruel, and it's okay to cry, it's okay to not be okay, the important thing is not to give up. Always remember that you are special, you are loved & I will always support you, even without knowing you, I'm here rooting for you ! ~ With love, @kiiepinkz ( or just Sarah, thats my name
I'm glad to see your comment Sarah, it made me feel a lil bit of calm. I am struggling with many things in my life, that I have nobody to really talk it out to because I'm scared of judgment, rejection or betrayal. It's hard for me to trust to anyone, even my closest friends... But, do you wanna be friends?
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i made a bit of a poem or just nice message for anyone who needs it. fyi im new to writing so im not sure if its any good, but if it might help someone, then im willing to try :) BITTERSWEET Emotions are weird. One minute everything is amazing. The sun shines brightly, the flowers look and smell wonderful, the smallest things seem so sweet. And yet, the other, it feels like my world is falling apart. The sun is gone, the flowers have died, and they smell of rot, and the smallest things seem to have gotten bitter. I find myself constantly asking “what is wrong with me?” I care so deeply, but I also become careless. I don’t want to be alone, but I don’t want anyone near me. On some days, life is beautiful, on others, I see myself slowly rotting away. Ill look in the mirror and ask, “do I like who I am right now?” I don’t know. Today? Sure. Tomorrow? Maybe not so much. How will I ever know what I might feel the next morning? I can’t. There’s no way of knowing. One might say it’s a game of luck. I say, it is what you make it. If you choose to be sad, that’s how you will feel. But its hard, to get out of that mindset. I know all too well how it goes. The key is to remember that, if you don’t want change, you won’t get it. And another reminder, that its okay to not always be happy. Everyone has bad days. Some last longer than others. You don’t have to fake a smile. Your feelings are valid. You are amazing. You don’t have to hide. And don’t forget, a bad day does not mean a bad life. Even if it feels a bit bittersweet. thank you. i hope you have a great day or night :) remember, you are loved and you are enough.
We met three years ago, I still love everything connected with her and remember her with a smile on my face. and she fell in love with another person, but for me she will forever remain my only one
Maybe in another life, we met later than earlier. Maybe in another life the stars didn’t tell us we were proved to crumble each other’s hearts. Maybe in another life I never told you how I felt. Maybe in another life you didn’t kiss me. Maybe in another life you love me as much as I *loved* you.
he is my best lesson he was the best person for me from understanding me to make me irritate he do all funny stuffs but i can't hold this bond it feels like i m cheating on my family i always use to say him we r best fnrds not lovers but he from starting imagined everything everythig was going good but theres always a dark side of every human i told him if he ever break my trust he will gonna break me then on.. i was preparing for my exams again idk what he thought but he destroyed my bday with his single text i was numb at that moment he can say that all things on someother day but he chose to do it on my day from that day till now i didn't talked to him u know bf gf brakeup hurts but loosing ur best frnd make u dead and he makes that good hearted girl sad now she can never trust on frndship !! is i m dumb or this universe is too dark for person like me ??? leave everything like a good dream btw
I do really feel you... I was in a same situation, but I leaved him, cus I was scared about this type of broken that you experienced... its sad for me... for the good days that we could try em. But family is more important than them... he never broke me, but may it happend in the future. Idk may I'm just telling sh.ts now... idk, I think maybe when you talk and leave your feelings get free, and maybe it's a best part of everything.
hi youtube!! It's been a while :) (im fine guys dw). In the past year, I felt really unmotivated to continue, and sometimes I just wanna rot in bed 🫠 and pro crastinate all my work 👀. But I've come to realize that this is what I enjoy doing, and what I should continue to do ♥. So, (hopefully) I'll be able to make some time to make videos outside of school. Tysm for understanding y'all are the best 😭❤ Support my bestie 👉solo.to/justvibinchrystal have a great day 🌼(leave any suggestions in the comments!)
maybe in another universe he would more conscious of the trauma he lived, heal it so we can together, he doesn’t want help, if we stay it's going to be toxic for me and too much for him, we are better not together. or maybe i am just not the woman he wanted to try for her.
On the first and on the last, it rained Weird how I hated the rain on the first But it comforted me on the last Maybe because the sky wasn’t the only thing raining My eyes got wet ,I get to hide , i get to tell people it was the rain I liked to tell him it was a good sign I liked to tell myself it was okay to cry The first time rain washed his flaws But the last time it washed our vows To stay together, loyal, patient and resilient And If only he didn’t look at me with those eyes The same look of love he gave me When I was between his arms From the very first rain And until the last rain, he didn’t keep his eyes off me letting them speak for him, those words not articulated And I don’t know if rain at that time washed them Or maybe just his feelings I don’t know if I wanted to hear them Or maybe I knew it was only going to make us more blue, more wet under this hurtful rain Too much words left unsaid, too much looks that made me fold But I was a woman, I needed to act like a woman So I let my heart go down the drain with the droplets of rain Maybe I hated it but maybe it was right Or maybe I was just a little girl who needed love My heart was absent and my mind was foggy Rain rain rain It’s you the first time and it’s you the last time Maybe I should have stayed longer under it so it would take away the regret But it was all what I could keep from my unlived fantasy Maybe a little bit of affection and desire To hug them more , and feel them more But only under the rain So it can take everything, wash it like it never was Like I never lived it Like I never wished for it to get into a more beautiful reality Like I never planned kids names and wedding venues Like I never listened to his heartbeats Like I never saw the look in his eyes Like I never was ready to L…. Rain rain rain Please please Come back Next day and the day after it So you water this time a heart you washed once Maybe it will be free this time From unlived love that hurted more that than the one I had Maybe this time when the rain comes I wouldn’t be raining Maybe this time only the grounds would be wet and not my eyes Maybe my body will forget his touch Maybe my eyes would forget his And Maybe it would be our first time again So I’d hope it would never rain on planet earth Impossible Because we were never meant to be together ,in this life Perhaps on another planet, perhaps in another universe Because it would keep raining , always.
Maybe in another life, I find courage and I write to you. Just to tell you how I feel when you're around. How you look so beautiful. How you make me laugh so hard.
May be in another life I will have parents would laugh at my silly thoughts instead of making everything toxic. May be in another life people around me won't make fun of my kindness. May be in another life I will be a little proud of myself. May be in another life I will be at a little peace.
In another life, one that wasn't so cruel, we would have spent our days in longing, my sorrows would be nothing when I thought of her, we would get married and have kids, eventually growing old and dying, then meeting once again in heaven. that wasn't what God intended though, I know why things turned out the way they did, but man it hurts.
sorry, that's all my faults. i can't see your face, body, hands, legs, voices and others. i shouldn't said it. sorry, my best friend also my favorite person. i miss you. i love you.
