Mental Health & Being on YouTube | Another Update Video 

Heya folks! Just wanted to share what's going on with me right now, as I think it's pretty important to talk about. That being said, if you have any suggestions for some cozy games to play while we hang out on Twitch, please let me know!! And if you're currently struggling with any form of mental illness, please know that you are loved and we're going to make it through all this. I believe in us! ❤️

life happens and shit goes down ... you take all the time you need to feel better.

There isnt anything I can say that would make things better but as long as you know we love you, thats whats key

Your health comes first. Thank you for making us smile and laugh during these tough times. It's easy to say "just ignore the trolls", but it's not easy when they can be so vicious. Totally get the whole avoiding the comment thing, and depression can play tricks on your perception. We love your content. Its unique and awesome. Thank you for all your hard work.

Take as much time as you want, we will always be here we ain’t going nowhere.

It's always the nicest and most compassionate people who suffer from depression. I wish you the very best and we understand where you're coming from. You really are a lovely person.

I’m about halfway through your RDR2 playlist and saw you haven’t uploaded anything to your channel in a while. So I looked in on your linked socials and saw it was the same there. Idk if you still look in on these platforms but I just wanted to say I’m loving your content and I hope you’re in a much better mental state now. Health and happiness to you, friend ❤

human beings are absurdly good at criticizing people who do something, we can only accept that fact and not let it take away our happiness ... be strong, we love you sara ❤️

Missing you and your content. Hope you're doing well

The fact that she's so wholesome honestly makes me so sad that somebody would be mean to her, it's like kicking a puppy you know? Like who tf does that lol But I'd definitely watch you stream a skyrim play through!

I found your channel just last week and you have already become my favourite content creator. I know that the Depression is not going to go away but i hope you will soon feel better and take your time.

I can very much relate to the Depression, specifically the diagnosis from a very young age. Know you’re not alone and always put your health first. We’ll always be here.

One of the most painful concept I think humans deal with is regret. I've been with this channel since Red Dead 2. Since then, you have become like a dear friend who I haven't seen in ages. What I found most striking about you was how open and honest with your opinions and emotions you are. I think I suffer from depression and ptsd. I find it hard to express how I really feel and find it difficult to behave in a befitting manner. It's a battle every day, but when I "meet" people like you none of that matters. You cheer up my day and make me feel normal too. I don't know everything you go through but I just wish I could be there for you like you are there for us. I don't know what I'd do if something bad where to happen to the people I consider special and there was something I could have done. Or the even worse outcome that there wasn't anything I could have done. I love the people like you the most because despite how you feel, despite the urge to instinctually shy away from it, you push through and do it anyway. You are my inspiration and a special person to us all.

I know what it is like having depression and how it feels to be backlashed for it we love you and you are a strong woman and I will keep you in my prayers and I believe that you will get through this we all are in your corner ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Sara, First of all, you're an amazing, humble, kind and caring person. I don't know you personally, but I can tell through your videos. Second, thanks for everything you do for us. And third, as someone who also suffers of anxiety and depression, it is important to remember that every bad phase is our lives is temporary, and that it gets better. I don't want to say too much about my expirience in this world, but I don't even know how I've survived this long through all the bad things life has thrown at me over years, and I'm only 23. Be proud of who you are Sara. Not for what you do, but for who you are.

There isn't enough kindness in this world, that's for sure. Let filter someone the bad comments before you read them.

I really love this video! It is really brave of you to talk about mental health because I think it’s not talked enough when it is something that a lot of people are going through. Like you said it really need to be normalized because mental illness is important. Anyway, love you Sarah and don’t forget to take care of yourself! 🫶

Like that character, J John Weathers in RDR2 have said "There ain't enough kindness in this world that's for sure", it speaks volume to today's world. It's okay to not feel okay. You what you need to do to recover. Your health and your mental state matters the most. You have people that will always wait and support you and that's more than enough. I know this may not be enough but all love and hugs. Be well

Folks who don't have it can never know. Support and love to you . We could all use more kindness and understanding in this world. Enjoying your playthroghs and commentary. Keep the videos coming 👍🏻

Watching this really hurts me! 😔 All I want is to see u get well soon. And know this... We all LOVE you, Sara 🤍

Sara, I came across your videos by accident after playing Red dead 2, My son who is in his 20s is suffering from depression and we are working day to day but he is better than he was. From following you for a short time you come across as a very endearing person who is wise beyond her years, I wish you nothing but love and gratitude and wait for more excellent videos. Stay well. Ian

i think what is important is your mental health but also realizing you arent going to please everyone. personally i think youre doing great and i hope you continue to grow and that if you enjoy doing youtube and twitch that you continue. one thing i realized about myself is the majority of my life i always focused on the negative because its easy. to quote master yoda after luke asked if the dark side is stronger "no, no, no. quicker, easier, more seductive". it may be hard to look at the good side but people obviously like what youre doing. i see a lot of people offering support in the comments. you have way more likes than dislikes. even going from your older videos to your newer videos i can see you have transformed into someone better. if you need a break i hope you take care of yourself and know that you will be welcome back with open arms.

I suffer with anxiety disorder, social anxiety and depression so I really appreciate this video. Thank you for sharing. We all miss you and love you. You're awesome and I love your RDR2 playthrough. Hope all is well. 💜

So sweet seeing you talk about this. Please take your time and dont let people push you. Twitch would be great, I sign up for it :)

Just put your health First, always! I send you all my support from Italy 🇮🇹

Sara, usually when I comment I like to talk as a part of your community, but in this comment I'm gonna comment as me, I understand everything you said, some people really can't ignore negative comments and it's normal. I have had some problems with anxiety and some panic attacks and your videos really helped me with some things, I commented on a God of War Ascension video that I was going through some bad things, you responded and made me feel a little bit better by saying we would get better, this channel really became a comfy place to visit and have fun, I even interact with other people commenting as if they were my friends, so your plan is already kinda working. I would 100% recommend you to start streaming, it can be kinda stressful at the beginning but with the help of mods clearing the chat, we can create a comfy community of friends that hang out and have fun! I have been watching since a little bit after the God of War 1 series started. I really hope everyone who's going through hard times can get better, I'm here to offer support to anyone and i want everyone to remember: Is with hope we fight when all else is lost.

Honestly you are one of my favorite youtubers because of how you talk to us. You explain everything to the best of your ability and just try you hardest to do what you love. Sadly you have things that weigh you down. Everyone has these things. So take all the time you need! I am happy when I get what I get, when I get it.

As someone who suffers from depression myself ...and also as someone who studied psychology. I can tell you a few things. First MASSIVE Respect, for telling and beeing honest about it, second. Your health comes first. If there is a time you cant do videos or make vieos "less emotional" thats ok and you should not put any pressure into it, read comments, thats fine, pull back anytime, the fans who care for you, will understand and be supportive. Keep going, get better, and lots of health for the future

I'm in the worst mental state since high school and I'm 25. I understand so much and we love you!! Take your time

Listen I’ll be straight to the point no side talk or pointing fingers, if you’d like to take a break for as much as you can, we understand. You’re a human being. Take as much time as you can don’t let anyone pull you down!

Take all the time you need mental health is important so take the the break and hopefully come back. I suffer from depression and anxiety, watching your videos helps me.

Sarah, you're right that when you put your stuff on RU-vid you expose yourself to getting attacked by some vicious people. I hope you know that a great majority of us love what you put out on your channel. Don't let those negative people pull you down... Most of us just wish you to be well and keep doing what you love to do. Much love 💗 from those of us who care about you in the community! ☺️

I just want to give you a big hug and tell you it's gonna be okay. I know depression, I'm 46 and have experienced depression a large part of those years. Hope, exercise, family and friends, gratitude, and just plain determination to enjoy life have been instrumental. Love you, kiddo!

There's a lot of science behind our brains and how we respond more attentively to negativity, inverse to positivity. Negativity for some odd reason brings out more in us emotionally, so don't think there's something wrong with your brain because you respond to negativity. There's research on the topic that explains it in much more detail than myself. But always remember there's literally thousands of us including myself that normally don't comment and just enjoy your content. You make people's days better. Take care of yourself!

Take a long break if you need it. your health is always more important than anything else. we will be here when you come back. maybe you need to take off the pressure of the need to produce. if you think powering through is best for you do that. just take a moment to choose the best option for you and make no excuses for your health. offering a warm cyber hug and hope things will get better for you soon

take as long as you need. we will wait for you, mental and physical health is important and we care so much about you.

Empathy is one virtue we need to make the world a better place!

I enjoy and anticipate your videos but If you feel like you need some time off of RU-vid, we will all understand. Mental health comes first and being able to take time to recover mentally and physically is the most important thing. We are always here to support you and always have your back!

Take care of yourself. You’re one of my favorite RU-vidrs

Take care of yourself. All of this will be still here when you are feeling better.

unfortunately, i have to learn about a friend a few years ago what depression is and what this damn illness can do... he took his own life and i didn't understand why. because life is beautiful and precious. that's why i dealt in detail with it and understand now how bad and evil it is. i know it's easy to say ignore these people, but sometimes we need those people to appreciate the good ones more. the only important thing is you! so take all the time you need and do whatever you want and let you feel better. i really wish you a lot of strength and all the best for what ever you do! :)

I hope you manage to get through this soon. After struggling, for a long time, with very deep depression and 2 periods in an institution (the first for 6 months and the second for only 2 weeks), I was fortunate in that I learnt to flick metaphorical switches in my brain and, where some people learn coping mechanisms, I actually managed to come out of it the other side. I certainly still have times when I'm feeling low, but so does everyone, and It's been about 30 years since i last felt like I was dragging myself through a constant nightmare. There is hope - and I hope you can do it, Sara.

Only recently started watching, had no idea about this stuff. That being said, i know you will make it through this, don't let life break you, cause it will try. Better times always come for those who fight, one way or another. You have your viewers to support you, it's a good thing you can share stuff like this, we understand, here to help if we can!

Cannot say how much I enjoy your god of war vids, just for the simple fact they gave me you to watch and enjoy them with! Anyone who cannot see you are so sweet and kind hearted, need to really need to learn some class and be supportive or say nothing at all. You’re health comes first and fundamentally, these games are for your enjoyment, so I hope you enjoy them first and bring you joy! Love you Sarah and the vast majority of us do!!

We love you Sara, take the time you need to feel better, we fully support you

Daily habits helped me dealing with mental health issues. I don't know if you know this but small things like making your bed in the morning or making delicious breakfast, working out, doing yoga, running,(or just stretching) reading the newspaper loud and so on. Doing these things in the morning will fill you with determination especially exercising. If you have a routine you will feel accomplished after doing all the little things. Just keep yourself busy. It helped me. Btw I really love how you are communicating to us. You have every skill to be an amazing streamer/youtuber. Keep up the good work and have fun doing it!

1st of all, I am glad to get an update because as a new viewer, I do very much enjoy you, your personality & your perspective. 2ndly, I & a whole bunch of people here can understand where you're coming from. I've dealt with the same thing for 14 years & there are plenty of lows. But with someone as intelligent & introspective as you, I have no doubt you'll come out of it stronger & better equipped to deal with it in the future. We all need some mental maintenance & we'll be here when you're ready angel

well i think i said enough for now in that message i sent but..always remember you are first, your health..and we love you girl, you're our nerd..always remember that.Stay safe Sara, safe and happy✌🏼

I feel you big time, i Have been in a depression too for the last 7 years. I am also diagnosed with PTSD. You should take your time and upload a video for us whenever you feel like it, it is okay to take a week or even a month before a video is ready, I rather watch a video of you knowing you havent been stressing yourself because of it then a video of you where i feel like it took every spare piece of energy to put that out there. You'll make it and whatever you do all your real fans will love your video no matter what, just because we love your energy and quite frankly we just love you. Hang in there!

Take all the time you need. Your physical and mental health should always be your top priority. Do what needs to be done to preserve 'em. Excited for your finale for RDR2 once you're ready, until then take care of yourself always. We'll be waiting.

I'm a little late I was away for a mistake I did and the feeling I have at the moment are absolutely the worst I ever felt. But I'm now seeing I do have people who care about me and my well-being my mental health hasn't been the best for about a year now but through all the darkness I am going through I now see I am not alone I'm working on myself. What I'm trying to say is I don't know you but I do care about your well-being the videos you made have been helpful when I was dealing with my depression. All I can say is you got this and many of us do care!

Don't worry Sara upload videos whenever u can, we can wait. Tc of yourself god bless ! ❤️

Take care yourself we all loves you. Release the video when ever you have time. Don't stress about it.

Sara, as I've mentioned before, I too have suffered from both depression and anxiety coupled with issues of low self esteem and being highly sensitive particularly when it comes to negative criticism. In fact, I tend to avoid interactions on social media platforms precisely due to the proliferation of Trolls. So, I admire your courage in stepping out of your comfort zone to produce content here on RU-vid. I also understand and respect your need to step away from it in order to engage in self-care. I also want you to know that I thoroughly enjoy watching your videos largely because you seem like a very genuine person. (I've particularly enjoyed RDR2) Twitch streaming sounds like a good idea, particularly if it permits you to establish connections with like minded individuals. Anyway, I want you to know you have often brightened up some of my darker days since I discovered your channel. Thank you, and I wish you peace of mind and all the happiness you deserve and more.

I am currently enjoying your RDR2 playthrough. And I had a glance to see you haven't uploaded in 2 years, like others have noticed too below. I already messaged you on IG thinking you were active there but quit the gaming live streaming sphere. And then I came back to this. You seem genuine and lovely in your vids. I hope all is good. It is hard not to be a little concerned for you I won't lie. Hopefully you return one day or at least, find yourself in a better state of mind. ❤

Sanity preservation is most important. Stay safe and love yourself!!!

I just wanna say your videos make me super happy. I really appreciate what you do and it always brightens my day. I can’t know what it’s like being a content creator but I understand the not so good bits can make things hard and it’s not easy to ignore it. Talking about it is healthy and don’t worry about doing your own thing with the channel, you do what you want to do. You’ve got peeps that’ll always be here supporting you ✌️

Thank you for letting us know and telling us what you're feeling. You're honestly an inspiration to me. The fact that you're going through so much but you still have the strength to keep going. I also suffer from bouts of depression. Most times it feels like an uphill battle. I really feel you on how there will be a hundred positive comments but my brain focuses on the one person that said something cruel. And I just forget what everyone else said for a while because I'm always focusing on what I'm doing wrong over what I'm doing right. I appreciate you and fully support you. I'm glad you could be real with us. You're a human being. And a real good one at that. Thank you Sarah.

We are here for you The decision you make will be good for you Stay strong Don't push yourself on RU-vid if you're not feeling the energy to do so

Hi Sara... I've been dealing with depression for better part of the last 20 years. For most of it I didn't even realise it for what it was and I've only really had any help for the the last 3 years. I know how dark and low it can get but I know it isn't always like that. My oldest daughter now is battling anxiety as well and I've noticed she always has. I've been able to get her to accept help now but she still also has her bad days. Just know you aren't alone and we need to talk about these things so thank you for opening up about your own struggles and continuing the conversation. It's never easy to talk about these things but getting it out makes us stronger in the end. If you need a break from making videos then you do that. The people who truly care will understand will be patient. You don't need to acquiesce to the entitled who think you owe them a new video everyday.

We're here for you Sara! ❤ Thank you for everything! 😊 Take your time.

Your health comes first. Going through similar situations aside from the online portion of it. Have had to take a step back and let myself "heal" in a way. Its a B and a half but it can be done. I hope you'll be ok sooner than later. Judging from most of these comments youve got a good community backing you up

there might be a few hecklers, but who cares what they think? from what i've seen the majority of the people on this channel are genuine and kind, and they gravitated to you because so are you. take your time and be yourself, we all love you

Whenever you need to talk, just post on here. You can clearly see someone will always be here to answer back. Much love and support ❤

Your mental health is more important than anything else! I know that when you take breaks I will be here when you get back! People who leave these mean comments have this self hate and want to put it on others. Whatever you do I will support you because your content is real and honest and that is what I respect about your play through. You totally deserve the subs and you deserve so many more!

Usually reading history helps because it makes you feel small which is a good thing in that you forget your depressing situation. Or any other book that emphasises the long-lasting contribution of rational people in philosophy to remind us that we at least still have reason, which enables us also to feel great and mighty and focus outside our problem

I binged watched your Red Dead 2 playthrough and got all caught up and watching that made me reinstall it to my ps4 and play it for the 4th time :) Thank you for all you do and to entertain us and please take your time to get healthy both physically and mentally. xox

I hope you feel better ❤️

I truly miss her man I hope she's doing well today wherever she is

❤️❤️❤️❤️ Supporting always. 😊 Best wishes. Stay strong and happy. Totally understand that feeling, after spending last whole week spiraling downwards.

For the people on here that have that warm and cozy feeling watching these videos I think our world has got better but first and foremost Sara that warm and cozy feeling has to be for your world without a doubt you are just the best. Im not good with words but I think you have affected us in a lot of positive ways and for that I am very thankful take care of yourself. Love over hate all day long. Sorry about spelling and grammar Im english we tooo drunk lol

I had a feeling RDR2 might've also put a little bit of that sadness onto you.. but all jokes aside. I haven't really had depression, I just use to be really sad. Nowadays, I'm still a little sad and constantly angry with myself and always worrying about what people think of me and it stresses me out. And I tend to take my anger out on other people, I remembered that when I found out about you a couple weeks ago. It was your rdr2 playthrough and since you were new, it was very frustrating to me. And I remember writing a really mean comment (that i fixed now). I dont know if you saw that but if you did. I'm sorry, that was a bad day for me and I was just in a very annoyed mood. I do agree people on RU-vid are really toxic and I think they made me toxic as well from the arguments i had with many people on here. Just know that I love your content, your vibe, and you seem like a really good person. I hope you do get better and help yourself no matter what rude things people say about you and your breaks. I'm truly sorry for these toxic people and my toxic comment from before. I know depression isn't easy to ignore but try your best to fight it. I know too many people that suffered/suffers from it. And I dont want you to feel hated or forced to something for people. Do things for yourself and when you know you are ready, truly ready then you can come back and enjoy yourself and entertain all of us including yourself. All love here ❤

Heya Sara. I too struggle with mental illnesses and know that my brain ain't wired well or wired in the way that is similar to everyone elses. I don't deny my mental problems but don't really voice them as either I can't voice it properly or people don't fully grasp the issue. We hope everything's okay and we do miss you. No need to force yourself to do anything for us and you do what you need to do to help you get through things 🙂

It's ok, we love you hope everything gets better.

It gets better. Promise. You're on the right path. ❤

Toxicity comes and goes. The love and support from your fans, sticks on.

Social Media platforms of any kind are incredibly bad for mental health. I empathize for the younger generation (I'm 36 fwiw), they never got the chance to grow up without the internet. The idea of always being silently judged from "ghosts" is not a fun thought, let alone for people who struggle. May you find your happiness Sara. You're a kind soul and truly enjoy your GoW gameplay.

Take care, take all the time you need and do what make you comfortable ❤️

Take your time. We’ll be here always

Thanks for being open Hope that you get through 2021 I have some problems as well I will find that special some one Love this Streams

Do whatever you can to become stronger. You're caring and wonderful woman. Calmness and self motivation and love. I wish you all the best and it's always o.k. to talk us as much you want. Please take care💖

Take how much time you need. I'm really excited to see the next episode of RDR2 and share some tears! Be well

As someone who also has clinical depression I totally understand. I don't have the words to say how much I understand. Please take all the time you need because we will be right here waiting when you come back!!!!

Damn im sorry girl take care of yourself I'll be here when your ready ...depression anxiety and all that is no joke I pray things get better for you

Never been diagnosed but I know what you feel. Just wanted to say u one of my favorite youtubers right now. And plz don't stop reading comments. Just... Read the ones with a lot of likes and never scroll down :p

Take all the time you need, HUGS🌹

Wow. I totally understand. Don't feel bad about it... do what you need to do to help yourself. I've also been struggling with depression and anxiety for a while now, but the fact that you are still holding on even though you've been struggling for so long just shows how strong you are. I hope you find a way to make the situation better.

As already said, take as much time as you need. You don't owe us anything, I'm just happy I can enjoy your content and if I'll have to wait for some time, I don't mind it either. Take care of yourself

Same. I have bipolar depression, so shit gets real. I’ve been in a mental hospital cause I attempted suicide. Still trying to find my way through all this. But as long as you know someone who understands is here for you then I’ll be a lot happier knowing you understand that.

Stay strong Sara🤗💜. I been dealing with depression as well, for almost 7 years, until I quit my job and took a long break from everything, for almost a year and half now. That helped me rethink everything, which helped my mental health alot. I will do anything to help if you need it, Sara🤗. Please take care💜

Shit.. even just reading the title made me tear up *before* starting the video... Guess my subconscious knew what was coming. Anyway, enough with the dramatic talk. As you know, *health comes first* . Always, Sara. And we mean it. It is really important not to forget about it. Take your time, do what your heart desires and please take care of yourself, first and foremost. Once you feel better, are in mood to make videos once again - do it. No one is rushing you to make videos. I mean, there are some people... but just know, that majority of people watching you - are patient, kind and understanding. Personally, I've never had any mental illness, but I had some real tough times this year and your videos always helped me to cheer up and go through every trouble. Even if it's just a smile - it's worth it. And *WE ARE THANKFUL* for you for helping us ❤ About Twitch... I'll have to make a new account I think, I don't really like the place, but it might be just the right thing for you right now! Playing some cozy, soothing and light games can actually help you feel better! I'll try to join some streams and see how it's going, maybe I'll even love the platform! But enough about me and Twitch; all it matters if it helps YOU, not ME. And if it does, I will be very happy for you 😄🤗 Take care ✌🏻

Wow now that you said that and explained your strength is actually inspiring god damn you made me feel some type of way about my self that i can be strong aswell and face the shit im going through aswell love you girl and remember among all the hate and toxicity there’s a good amount of people who love you hell im one of em all looove 🤍🤍🤍

I seen when you posted on insta about the trolls bothering you. I was worried you would shy away from the rest of the god of war series after that. I hope you continue, the 2018 version doesnt have any of the nonsense they threw in the old games. I hope you feel better and I love you channel. take as much time as you need. We love you

You stay strong Sara you can get through it! Ignore the toxic people not worth the head space! The best way i find to deal with toxic people is to walk away, ignore and don't react! That's what they are trying to do is get a reaction!

I just can't tell enough how much i wish that you feel better and have a happy life with a nerdy community.

Keep your head up Sarah. Trust me ik about depression and the only thing I can say is be strong. You're the only person who can find that light in all that darkness your in. Fuck the haters they're the obstacles you have to go through to come out a better person and when it's all set and done, You'll come out stronger and on top.

I have recently started watching your gameplay of RDR2 and just wanna say you're definitely one of my favorites now.

I have a quote from a singer from the wonder years you should never be self-accepting when you’re depressed and be complacent with that feeling you don’t want to be depressed so you just have to find a way to get out of it and you will

You are too pure for this crappy ass world. I kind of grew out of my depression, and what I can say is that the best way for your ascension is to stop caring about the filth that dwells around you, please don’t beat yourself up over these people and take your time to find what you truly need. Thank you for your kindness and genuine words. I realize that you won’t stumble upon this comment or any of my others, and I’m okay with that, just thought I’d leave this here anyways even if it’s destined to sink into the comments. Please be well, we’re not going anywhere, we see the struggle and we genuinely understand where you’re coming from even though we can’t understand the pain that you’re feeling, talk to loved ones and you’re blessed with a fanbase that loves you for your wise input on games and life and for your pure personality. Surround yourself with purity and you’ll see how the negativity starts dimming down accordingly. Anyways I talk too much, stay safe, and stay well.

Hope you get better soon