You're having panic/anxiety attacks. You've described the classic symptoms of them (tightness of chest, elevated heart rate, not being able to breathe). I dealt with them before as well when I was younger, and in other points in my life during extremely stressful situations (i.e. a family member nearly dying). It all boils down to keeping your stressors in check, and managing them so they don't get the better you. Seems like your work life stresses you out, hence why breaks help. It takes time to get things in check, and to develop better perspectives towards what freaks you out. Some stressors you CAN'T avoid (like work), so you need outlets to get it out of you. Exercise, meditation, etc are things you mentioned and from my experience they work rather well. Developing that little voice in your head that tells you "hey man, it's all good" does step in after a time. It takes time to incorporate some de-stressors into your routine, but it will get better if you take the necessary steps. You've done the hardest thing for most people already- which is acknowledging that something is off, and needs addressing. It's also important to note- stress and anxiety are normal. Experiencing the symptoms of stress/anxiety is part of daily life. Everyone experiences them to different degrees (everyone is different, mentally, of course, just as they are physically). You have to think about treating mental health like developing a healthy diet. Common tactics work for most people, but everyone's ideal diet is slightly different (different metabolic rates, body types etc). The mind is like this, too. Everyone has different past experiences, traumas, stressors, and degrees of reaction. You just gotta figure out what "mental diet" works for you so you can shed the pounds of anxiety. And if I may share a bit of controversial advice- avoid mental medication. They don't solve the problem. They put a little bandaid over it so you can function, but they eventually stop working. Address the source, which is the stressor, either by removing it, mitigating it, or alleviating it via other activities (like stretching a cramping muscle). I wish you luck, and I hope you find the activities that help you mitigate stress. Quitting social media works wonders, by the way. I quit facebook some years ago, never looked back, and it feels like a massive weight is off my shoulders....next is twitter ( ゚Д゚)
Thanks for all your responses, crazy how many people are going though something similar! Hopefully by knowing your not alone it helps you deal with your situation and helps you get better
Don't worry, as long as you don't fall behind Valves update frequence, we will wait patiently (the loud minority might disagree, but remember: they ARE the minorty)
I do not have anxiety and I won’t claim I do, but as someone diagnosed with bipolar disorder and a mild case of autism I can honestly relate. I love how you describe it as being normal and that you put it in a way where I feel that I can relate. Sometimes throughout the day I feel like a different person and that I can’t control myself at times. I’ve always used playing videogames I love such as TF2, CS:GO, Apex, etc., listening to music of my favorite artists, watching videos of my favorite content creators, such as you and many other TF2 content creators, as a way to help calm myself down and relieve some stress that I feel throughout the day. I’d always feel like someone else and that I am different and special from other people. Whenever I see other people portray and describe it as being normal, in a weird way I feel like I am not special, and that I shouldn’t be treated differently from others. Seeing one of my favorite content creators talk about this really makes my day even better. I just wanted to express how much I love you and your content as it made me enjoy my favorite game of all time a little more. Keep up your amazing content my guy as your probably my favorite content creator!
Hmmm. The thing you said about general anaesthetic rings a bell. There were a man in the US who was put under anaesthetic for an operation and they screwed it up: He was conscious but paralysed while they operated on him for an extended period until a nurse noticed and the anaesthetist fixed it. The surgical team decided to give him a further dose which would erase his memory of the event. Thing is, even though he couldn't consciously remember it, his subconscious knew he had been through a horrific event and kept triggering massive panic attacks whenever there were a number of people in the room. Part of his brain thought it was going to happen again and eventually he could only be in a room with his wife. A legal team went through the medical records and eventually worked out what had happened. They won his family compensation but unfortunately he committed suicide. Bit of a dark story but maybe it might help you find an answer. I hope you're doing well anyhow, no pressure on the channel, I'll stay subbed and watch whenever you have time to make something.
I just remembered this commend and I forgot to ask more about it - do you know how I can find out more? Was this from a documentary or an article perhaps?
@@Toofty "Sherman Sizemore" Pretty horrifying story. Afaik he's not the only example, occasionally people wake up during surgery and are able to describe aspects of the operation and conversations had by the surgical staff etc. Mr Ballen did a decent rundown. Starts at 21:05 ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-ny_s07D-LT8.html
Basically 3 to 2½ years ago, it started with the death of my great grandmother. The death itself wasn't all that bad for me, because I didn't have much of a relation with her, but things followed: my grandma started having alzheimers, which put massive strain on my family, my father (the son of that particular grandma of mine) got especially stressed. A short time later my father is of to an operation. While the operation itself more or less worked, they had to basically re-wire him and had a machine breathe for him. He had to *relearn* how to *breathe* and still suffers from brain damage, which means he can't do his job, which was our primary means of income. This in and of itself was already incredibly stressful, but then shortly after the pandemic hit. Great! Everything is absolute chaos twice while everything else previously mentioned is going down. 2020 and some bits of 2019 were just repeated instamces of what I like to call "collateral stress", since I am not always effected directly, but rather I get stressed because people close to me do.
Hey it's good to hear from you, I myself have this kinds of issues (not this exact issue but it relates quite a bit) and this kinds of videos really help empathize and feel less alone. You talked about working less or working on simpler tasks, what about trying to bring more simple but still satisfying to make? Maybe if you find a good balance between work and satisfaction you might feel better (or maybe trying something completely new for one or a couple of days). Anyways, good luck!
its uncanny how similar your experiences are to mine and i cant thank you enough for sharing this. i had no idea this was something others felt / had dealt with and this is almost like, a huge weight of my shoulders. i vividly remember having shortness of breath consistently and after like a week i went to the doctors and they said all was fine and that i was ok. this all makes sense now. it all started like a couple weeks before my year 11 exams so that (might) have been the trigger to start it all.
Your point about how things like this can come up at any time does ring true for me. Ever since I finished with my cancer treatment and have been shoved back into the real world I have started to feel similar symptoms of anxiety and having to take time to get away from everything to get my head in order thank you for talking about this and opening up for others to do the same
Welp, this all sounds awfully familiar. I personally haven't had those exact symptoms but one thing I know for sure is that anxiety can cause you to feel like there's something wrong with you. Nowadays It's gotten better but I often used to feel like I was going have a heart attack or I was going to stop breathing when the anxiety worsened. I would often have these muscle spazms as well, especially if I had a panic attack. I would say that you are probably physically fine and what you are experiencing is caused by stress and anxiety, It's crazy how it really can make you feel like something is wrong or that you're actually dying. Hope you get the help you need since I know for a fact it's possible to get better or even completely get rid of these feelings! It may feel like it but you're not alone with this problem, I know I've gotten better and hopefully you will too!!!
As someone with quite similar problems I'm a bit relieved to know I'm not the only one who thought it's on a more subconscious level than what people around me said
I suffer from Health anxiety or hypochondria and it got really bad around July of last year to the point where I couldn't even function every day was me looking over my shoulder. every little thing in my body scared me and I got the heart palpitations and chest pain too with the shortness of breath. For me, its an anxiety and OCD problem that causes physical actual sensations and it frustrates me that doctors dont treat it seriously. it took a million years to get a diagnosis and medication as well as a competent therapist.
As someone who has an anxiety disorder I can relate. while I cant diagnose you and say what's the real problem or what is going on, I want you to know that your not broken and that its important to comfort yourself when those feeling hit, or before they fully set in. I know for a fact that this is not a solution, but its helped me through it in the worst times. anxiety is your body protecting you, and when it seems to happen randomly it really isn't. you the conscious logic brain know there's not a problem, but the irrational emotion based anxiety see a threat. its also important to become self aware of your body and emotions. I'm not surprised if your job is a part of this, and don't multi task period. it doesn't help your brain and will make you more tired and when your tired you have less higher brain function which can lead to more anxiety. Imp not a doctor just someone who listens to there therapist. EVERYBODY HAS ANXITY, but not everyone has an anxiety disorder. its gonna be fine, I know you'll find the help you need.
I don't have the biggest basis to talk about mental health as my stress/anxiety feels pretty moderate, but for me exercise has been the most significant magic bullet for stress that I've discovered. Specifically, cardio (my least favorite). I think for me it comes down to the fact that I seem to get stressed by the thought of putting forth a lot of effort. It intimidates me when I have a lot of things coming up. I'm not scared of failure, I'm scared of what it will take to not fail. But when I exercise it's almost as if I've already put forth effort and so the thought of putting out more effort no longer scares me. When I'm exercising consistently, I can still feel the same initial symptoms of anxiety rising but then they just sort of dissipate and don't amount to anything.That's my 2 cents for anyone it might help :)
I'm glad to hear someone else talk about this. I had identical symptoms for much of last year (chest tightness, breathlessness, random panic attacks) that sent me back and forth to the doctor. For a while, exercise freaked me out since my heart rate would increase & my chest would get tight. Things have slowly improved after dozens of doctors visits confirmed that there's nothing "physically" wrong with me. But I've never had any mental health issues prior to this, so it was awfully strange. Still always in the back of my mind, though.
Honestly this has really made me realize that maybe I do have anxiety - I've experienced the vast majority of what he's talked about here... Shortness of breath at random times, unusual pains, that strange tensity found in my chest area, sometimes that doesn't go away for even days on end... really this video was an eye opener
I hope you feel better and hopefully there is a solution to the anxiety. You are right we all have a cross to carry. I have a few of my own. I keep getting headaches. Constant throat issues. Some others. Mom beat cancer but still has thyroid issues and got diabetes. My brother "grew out" of his sensory and asthma issues. Was scary waking up at night and seeing my brother gasping for air. Paramedics rushing in and putting him on the stretcher. Worst is my dad. Multiple mental issues. Worst was beating the rest of the family and then the psychological torment.
I've had severe anxiety the past few months, which was actually cause by a war in a far away country. I could not function in a daily basis, so I started revisiting games I haven't touched in years. TF2 was the one I stuck with. I then found your channel. Anyway, what I want to say is thank you for the company you provided me on those nights that I was not able to sleep : ) Take care Toofty.
It's so interesting to hear somebody talk about the physical sensations they may experience with a mental health condition. The subject has always felt so abstract and subjective to me, so hearing about the measurable (though I'm sure by no means universal) impacts makes it all more tangible to me.
Wow…right on time. Thanks so much Toofty, this means a lot and TF2 was one of the few things that made me happy and that led me to you. So thank you for this lovely video.
I know I'm a little late to this, but all the things you mentioned is word for word the exact symptoms I have. it's anxiety. there are medications for it but it's just a bandaid on a open wound. thing that helped me is just going head 1st into the problem, I would feel so uncomfortable like I wanna throw up but when you confront it a lot of times you kinda get used to it in a sense "oh its that my thing I'm not having a heart attack" sometimes to this day I can't deal with it/ I'm not in a position for that "bs" (because it can get more intense) and I just take a pill and it really does get better.
Yo toofty, i'm late to the party lol, but I've been experiencing that too. It just started on group works on my classes and it was stressful af because its a new experience for me. I remember I fucked up a essay presentation just because I was a leader in like 3 groups, and that was a new experience for me. After that, it got to the point that I despise doing group works, and still is. School is like killing me lmao. A lot of deadlines, but not a lot of free time to myself to enjoy. Right now, I'm managing it nicely. Still stressed tf out, but iIcan get through this. Just a few weeks and it's our final exams YESSSS. Anyways, I hope you're doing fine and wishing the best because I know how hard that is. Love your demo videos :)
Even though I don’t have what you go through I was able to grasp what you go through in a very real way. It was eye-opening. Well made video! Hope you’re doing better.
this was a very well made video, i am happy to see someone express this topic in an articulate, concise way, and to explain from personal experience (which, i commend your bravery for doing) of how such nuanced mental health/subconscious health occurs. contentedness and life situations all affect us differently, the strongest support tool we have is to support one another and acknowledge that we are not alone. you are not alone toofty, alike how i would believe in anyone else i know with personal strife, i too believe in you with being able to march on forward into the future, growing wiser and learning more about yourself and being able to live life to the fullest.
As a real doctor (I totally don't bought medical license on e-bay) i will say: If you need a break - take it! You can't give us 100% of yourself all the time, nobody can do this. It's very healthy to take longer or shorter break from something to keep it good and fresh. If you have health problem - care about yourself! Nothing is more important than **YOUR HEALTH!!!** You need to care about yourself we must understand that your life is not all about YT, and you have your own private life, to care about your mental state, your family, and everything that is very important for you.
Watching your video I kept shaking my head. Surprisingly similar symptoms. Feeling of tightness in your chest, sometimes feeling like you can't breathe with your chest full. It started very suddenly about two or three years ago. I had just moved to another country and started university. Everything was fine at first. As long as I was experiencing new sensations, getting to know new things. Moving to the dorm, new people. In general, I was busy with something. Time went by, I decided to move from a dormitory to an apartment, the first year of university began. (Before that I was on a preparatory program). At some point I realized that it was hard for me to look after myself. To eat normally, to be organized. I lived till the summer vacations and came back home to have a rest. I had a really good time there. Even too good. Good food, familiar friends, family, care. And now it was time for me to go back. There was a month left before school started. When I came back and went into the apartment, it was very quiet, lifeless. Thinking back now, I realize that I already had a feeling that something was wrong. And that day came. It is hot outside, 30-35 degrees. I was hungry, and there was only a can of soda in the fridge. I went outside in my deserted neighborhood. I walked to the store and bought myself some cheap ice cream. I got home, started eating it. It didn't taste good. After a while, my stomach started hurting and I had a very strange feeling. I had no one to ask for help or advice from. There was only me and my empty apartment. Then a terrible anxiety came over me and I burst into tears. From that moment all hell broke loose. I couldn't get rid of the pressure in my chest, I was terrified of the unknown. I could not sleep in my room, because it seemed too empty and sinister. I moved to sleep in the living room. Every minute I had horrible thoughts going through my head that something was wrong with me. I was homesick and homesick for people. I couldn't breathe and I was scared and exhausted. I prayed for it to be over. I woke up feeling anxious and went to sleep with it. A week went by, maybe more. The memories were blurred from the stress I had endured. When I couldn't take it anymore I went to my relatives and spent the rest of the summer with them. I found myself a psychologist with whom I had a 24/7 connection. My parents brought me sedatives. As time went on, I was getting better. Anxiety was no longer coming out of nowhere and it was being triggered by thoughts and situations. Time kept passing. The anxiety slowly wore off. And here I am 3 years later and I'm fine. The echoes of that madness are still there, but it doesn't scare me anymore. I know how to deal with the occasional rush of that feeling. I know what it feels like and I know it doesn't kill me. This experience has hardened me and made me grow up. Maybe your anxiety, like mine, will someday dissolve in time, but in the meantime, thank you all for reading this long text. Have peaceful nice life. Ps. When the guidev for tf 2 )0)
Im showing up late here, but as someone who's been struggling with anxiety particularly recently, I understand the tendency or not quite rejection of struggle with your mental health. You mention that everyone's got their thing, but I hope you validate the experience you're having and seek possible help too. This is a weird parasocial relationship, but I really hope you find the help or process. Reminder everyone to go to therapy please, it's really good for you and the people you love
really appreciate you opening up and doing videos on topics such as this, I hope you feel more confident in doing this type of video again in the future
As someone who has both gone through issues with mental health and had to convince my mother that it was A) a real thing and B) she was suffering panic attacks. Its really nice to hear you talk about this toofty. I learned the hard way that humans are very fragile creatures, and i think after years of contemplating my own and my mothers condition i came to understand that its okay to accept that. No one wants to be thought of as weak or soft, but i think that we all are in our own ways and think its okay to be.
I have alot of mental issues but i've always been really good at avoiding really stressful situations so i'm glad to say i've only ever had two panic attacks but if you asked me to describe a panic attack in my experience it's like the whole world going dark and a voice in your head tells you that you are dying and you believe it even though you aren't going to die
This video hit a bit hard... I feel sore in my heart right now actually, so it's nice hearing from other people who struggle with anxiety too. I dont't know how I can help you, but thank you for sharing this with us!
hey dude, I don’t comment much but I wanted to let you know that you are incredibly brave for making this video. I hope you’re doing well, and I hope that whatever you choose to do from this point forward, you feel better doing it :)
I know exactly what u feel when talking about that the physical pain you get from anxiety. Its more like pressure in my head or my neck for me, which is odd.
hope this stress disorder and anxiety will get less soon over time, if not go away.. best of luck dealing with them and I hope you will feel better soon!
Toofty where do I begin?? Mainly I hope that you get better and that you figure out a treatment or precaution to help your anxiety. But secondly, I 100% understand and enjoy the change of channel topic. Personally I had grown bored of TF2 long ago but kept watching your videos for you. Your humour. Your voice. Your style. Keep doing whatever you want, you'll always have my support 💙
Hey toofty, love your content and im glad you decided to make this video! Im currently experiencing the exact same thing youre going through. Through work, social life and what not ive felt that exact ache in that exact spot as you have. A tight, constant pressure in my diaphragm. Im glad im not the only one feeling this way. Thanks for sharing, im still figuring out what it means for me but dont give up on yourself. Mental health is a very important part of our lives.
When you said about wishing you had a missing finger because it would make it easier to understand, it reminded me of a poster somewhere in a classroom at school that says "I wish I had a broken arm, people would understand that". Not quite the same as what you said here, but similar.
I've been dealing with general anxiety disorder for about 3 or 4 years plus depressive episodes. Its like a child sitting on your chest the hole goddamn day, and some anxiety attacks, its really hard to do anything with this shit, but Its good to know that I'm not alone, I hope you can recover eventually :)
Dude holy shit Ik exactly what you're talking about My anxious behaviors really started hitting hard right after some events in 2018 that really messed me up Thank you for making this video dude
I have mental health issues too. Try focusing on yourself and the things you love take a break and spend time with your family. Keep you mental health, you have just one.
I get burnout a lot from tf2 and I can imagine it’s so much worse for creators, also I honestly thought the mental health stuff was common like I can’t imagine not having anxiety/adhd and the whole wtf why am I dying randomly hits home but I hope you get better, we will always support you if your going thru stuff like this just talk about it and we will give you as much support as you need and if you need a break we understand
Thank you for talking about these things, very cool. I know how scary it is to talk about stuff like this, especially when you don't want people to pity you, especially when talking in front of tens of thousands of people.
Awesome for you to share this. I have no doubt it will be a powerful listen for many viewers and hopefully some catharsis for yourself. Truth is mental health care in the UK (and honestly most of the world) SUCKS. "There's nothing wrong with you" is never the answer if a person is saying they feel something. Those doctors just haven't looked in the right places. Both my girlfriend and I went through a similar thing for years where even just getting referred to a mental health nurse was like pulling teeth. However, when I did eventually see a mental health nurse I had EXACTLY the same thoughts you've described. Anxiety? What are you talking about, my symptoms are physical that doesn't make sense! It wasn't until I was ultimately referred to CBT (that's cognitive behavioural therapy, not cock and ball torture) and the trained therapist actually explained to me how my mind and body were doing this to me and put all the pieces together did I finally accept and understand that what I was experiencing was anxiety and just getting to that point helped immensely. From there you can really start to tackle the problems you're feeling in a gradual and sensible way. TL;DR I recommend asking your GP about speaking to a mental health nurse or being referred to CBT. Or if you prefer to look what private options are available in your area that can help too! Speaking to someone who is professionally trained in helping people feeling exactly what you're feeling can really go a long way. It's ok to not be ok 💪
Hitting invisible spies to begin a video about mental health issues seemed like an apt choice for a metaphor. Also, kudos for the Supertramp reference!
This video's great Toofty, you pinned the feeling down completely, I suffer from crippling anxiety and it's so nice to know someone else understands me.
I can definitely relate to the feeling that it's "not me". Talking to friends, somehow the topic of mental health came up and I was told that I seemed like I was depressed. It took me off guard. Totally out of left field. I just couldn't fathom that being me. But I thought about it more and more... couple months later, I've been diagnosed with severe depressive disorder.
I don't know if this is similar to what you described at the start of the video but when I'm going to do a presentation at school( now university) or do an exman or meet with someone I haven't previously met I always am very nervous, even if I know it's nothing, even if I tell myself "you studied a lot, this exam is easy, don't be nervous". I'm still very nervous, which makes my stomach hurt a bit and sometimes it also gives me the feeling that I want to vomit. I think that it is less than what it used to be and that every day I can control it a bit more tho.
Hey there Toofty! I think it’s a good thing you opened up about this. I read a comment earlier saying that pharmaceuticals are bad for anxiety, which they definitely can be, but never leave it off the table. Try exercise, try everything you have mentioned, and if it doesn’t work then ask a doctor about it, try them out, and if you think it’s a crutch, and that it will make you a different person, it’s not and it’s won’t. If you were a diabetic would you not take your insulin because it’s a crutch? It’s the same way with anxiety, we were born with all different gene expressions and some were given the short end of the stick. For me I have adhd and I physically cannot get rid of it, and me taking my adhd medication isn’t a crutch, it’s a way for me to function like my other coworkers. I know I’m kinda late, and I don’t even know if RU-vidr read comments from old videos. Anyways, if you did read this I thank you.
I practice mediation from time to time and when I do discipline myself to do it, it's always worth it. 'Transcendental Meditation.' I can't imagine what it is you're experiencing, but I always wish I had the drive and initiative to do the things you do. Hope you keep things steady my guy, glad to see other comments of people just wanting to support and help. Not sympathy, just support.
I've been dealing with anxiety issues myself, especially since lockdown, and my therapist recommended a book that talks about a lot of the stuff in the video. Its called "The Body Keeps the Score". One of the main things it mentions, like the tittle of the book suggests, is this idea of somatization, which is how the human mind and body can work together to physically manifest symptoms for a psychological issue.
I was hesitant clicking on this video because of the "random and quirky" title, but this was a great video and makes me feel like I'm not alone in similar experiences and thoughts.
I had the same thing especially when I was trying to sleep. ever since I dropped videogames, started exercising, improved my social skills I dont get it anymore, just change your lifestyle
Cheers Mate! I've sure as Hell been there XD I have things which are DEFINETLY Purely Mental Heath and Then I Have Stuff which is NOT Mental Heath like Anxiety. It's just THERE Sitting next to me Most of the Time
Good vid, man. I can relate to a lot of stuff you talked about going through in the video, especially the anxiety feeling. I think you might be having panic attacks from what you said, and I don't meanthe usable sidegrade to the shotgun. I'm dealing with some of my own stuff right now, chiefly dealing with the loss of my job along with the loss of a close friend and it's been keeping my spirit beat down pretty hard. I've even relapsed and had a panic attack for the first time in years. But I've found thay during those hard times when it feels like you're stranded in a void and nobody's coming to save you, the best thing you can do is to just keep your chin up and push forward. It's the only thing keeping me sane right now. The other stuff you mentioned helps too, like finding outlets to relieve much of your stress through. Just try to find an approach for life that keeps you moving forward on the right path and a set of tools to course-correct when your stress might be leading you down a darker road. Also I saw that "USgAy" joke, you cheeky d%ck-waffle. Well, cheers to ya in the (c)U.(c)K. or wherever you're broadcasting from, Toof ;)
Hi Toofty, I have heard mostly horror stories about working the games industry alot to do with overworking their developers, disrespect between persons of different standing in the workplace, and implicit threats to job security. So i hope that if you are in one of those abusive work environments that you male a decision that is best for your wellbeing. Workplace stress burnouts and stress induced malady are real things, that affect many people all over the world. We're rooting for you. Be well.
Thank you toofty for making this video, i was been suffering for the same kind of anxiety attack and depression for years and what helped me to get over it was medication for serotonin becouse part of my brain that produced serotonin was broken or something (i don't really get it to be honest). If you read this and wanna see if you have the same problem i would highly reccomend going to a neurologist.
1:21 Sadly, I have more friends who have at some point been depressed than people who haven't. And that's just _specifically_ depression in people who've _talked about it_ with me. (And no, we're not talking "oh I'm so sad today I must be depressed." We're talking "I used to cut myself" or "I got a proper diagnosis and am getting professional help.") I hope it's just a coincidence, because if this is an accurate representation of the mental health of today's youth, that is _very, very_ sad. (On a happier note, all of said friends are now in a mentally healthy place.) In any case, great video! I think your take on the matter is a good perspective to hear for many. Often I think the term "mental health" can make people think there's something wrong with them as people, or as if they're being accused of not being in control of their emotions. Sometimes it really is just like a regular disease or condition, but it hides somewhere in your brain.
Hey Toofty. Sorry to hear about the problems you've been having. GAD really sucks a lot, and it definitely makes life more difficult. I know those physical symptoms too. It's so weird how they pop up. And when, often for what shouldn't be anxiety provoking. You may want to get checked for sleep apnea, if you haven't already. Some of the stuff you mentioned sounds like it could be symptoms of it. Sleep apnea causes your body to have more anxiety at night. Definitely felt like a panic attack to me when it happened. Lots of breathlessness, and a fast beating heart, like you said. Just thought I'd mention the possibility, as it may just get written off as "just" panic attacks by doctors, as it had with me. Accommodating for it would definitely help with sleep, and by extension anxiety. Anyway, thought I'd mention it in case you happen to see this comment. Or anyone else to whom it may be relevant, too. And thank you too for making a video like this. Mental health has awful stigmas, and it's great to hear people talking about it.
I have severe anxiety attacks that make leisure and social interactions hard. There is always something to worry about. I personally worry about how other perceive me and compare my intelligence to others. I’m very critical of myself sometimes. I quit social media, play the French Horn, spend time alone, and try to do things that I can be accomplished of. People with mental illness are expected to act like everybody else when they aren’t.
Ive never had extreme anxiety, but every now and again i have these nights were i am in a dream/wake state. Where i cant consentrait and cant focus on anything. I like to call them living nightmares.
i realised some months ago that i could accuratly mesure my level of mental stress via the number and intensity of stomachache i had everyday and also the more i wanted to scratch my face the closer i was to a panic attack brain are indeed weird so my advice : try to pay attention to what your body is like in a stress situation, so you can better assess your mental state
I can understand. I have many issues I have been trying to sort out. I suppose I get like panic attacks where I just imagine footsteps or someone calling my name. I've really wanted to get caught up with my channel and other projects but I just kinda haven't. I had also gotten therapy for like the third time in my life and now I'm on antidepressants. I think. I also just suffer from not being able to sleep as well. haha I hope you have a good day if you were able to sift through my rambling.
I am usually very skeptical about the topic of mental health as it is thrown around for general sadness due to a trashy life style, but your explanation was great and it really does separate you from the others, in the fact that yours is very real and isn't black and white. I can relate only slightly, as I felt similar for a little after a scary experience I had. Waiting it out is a real possibility, but making changes is the way to go. Sadly in your case you wouldn't know what changes to make because you don't know the cause. I wish you the best toofty and that your heart softens and gets lighter.
This video will probably get less views but it is no way near less important. The percentage of your fanbase that doesn’t need to hear this probably won’t need this. But reaching for that smaller precentage and people who actually do maybe feel the same way you do and felt unsure may have an outlit. And unlike how you struggled for 8 years maybe they could, because of this video, persue it instantly. Thank you