I hope you're recovering, venting is very good, and im glad you had the courage to talk about your situation, i really hope it gets better, I'm here for you :)
(idk if you allow venting in the comments if not pls delete this) TW: toxic relationships i have this ex..her name is Ray and shes a bitch but she was the light of life the reason why i woke up in the morning the reason i didnt kill myself back in early 2023 and late 2022 she was my love my beautiful lovely wife i miss her more every day..but she broke up with me over some stupid fight i cried more than i ever did that night i still miss her even if she was toxic and rude to me..i still love her and want her back more every day.. edit: were friends again second edit: i broke it off with her she became wayyy too toxic