moving on... 

Don’t try to be like everybody else when it comes to RU-vid. Your RU-vid channel is your own and you can make it whatever you want to be. I will follow you until I literally can’t anymore. You have saved my life more than once and I’m not saying that to make you continue what you do. I’m saying that to tell you that you have not failed. You have reached so many people and help so many people with this RU-vid channel and if it needs to change then it needs to change because it’s not about us. This is about you and your life and what you want to do with it. I’m so excited that you were thinking about your future because I know as someone who has struggled that looking into the future can often be a black hole of nothing. Just remember to take care of yourself first and worry about us last. You are a strong, beautiful, intelligent, and wonderful woman and you always will be. We love you so much and are so excited for your future. I love you and I wish you the best in life and everything that comes your way.

Im going to turn off my phone tonight guys, I hope you all understand. Im truly so grateful for every single one of you and all your support and engagement. You guys make me so happy. I know that I used to have a very VVEERRRYY bad relationship with how I see and spoke to myself, I don't want that anymore. I think recovery has taught me many things, but one of the most important lessons is that things only get better when you're kinder to yourself. Its true. Did i fail? yeah, kinda HOWEVER I want to to enjoy making videos again, engaging with you all. Ive just felt so embarrased, but I really want to carry on making videos.. like the therapy ones?! I think they're so beneficial for you and me. basically love the shit out of you all.. thankyou for everything you have taught me 🥺xxxx

You owe us nothing, Marie. You've created so much, put so much energy and effort into this for so long and for free no less. Take care of YOURSELF FIRST. Real life always comes first. I'll still be subscribed and ready to watch if/when you upload, but you haven't 'failed' anything, you're evolving and growing!

In no sense of the word have you failed! I’m actually happy to hear that you’re putting yourself first, getting a new job, keeping RU-vid as a hobby, building your life and future! It’s incredibly exciting to hear Marie I cant wait to see you succeed and grow even more than what you already have. Do RU-vid because you WANT to do it not because you feel like you have to

You have not failed at all, Marie. Your videos have meant so much to so many. I totally understand that trying to make this a full-time thing was a challenge. I think getting into the routine of a regular job so to speak would be great for you. Maybe youtube was just meant to be mostly a hobby at the end of it all but what an achievement it is nonetheless. I'm thankful for you as a wonderful person and the content you have posted. It'll always be a pleasure to get content from you as long as you want to post however frequently or infrequently - but never feel obligated to.

I see no failure. I see a strong woman who shared some of the most difficult times of her life and has given so much hope to those going through similar experiences. Live. You tube is not the be-all and end-all. I'm happy you're happy and I thank you for being so brave 💗 💓 ❤️

Let me share something about failure, Marie. I decided to do an 800 mile sponsored bicycle ride to France and back for charity, I collected many sponsors. I trained so hard that I overdid it and during the ride my knee 'blew up' after about 85 miles. I did another 60 miles pedalling with one leg and only made it to Calais. I had to come back by train. I confessed to my sponsors what happened and All of my sponsors paid up, one even doubled it. At first I felt so ashamed and frustrated but looking back it was one of the most character building episodes in my life. I didn't "succeed" in my original intention but I gave it everything I had and learned so much about my qualities and my limitations. I realized, there really is no such thing as failure, that's just a label we put on things that are different to our expectations. In the end we just learn different lessons and achieve different things than we expected. You're such a lovely person, open and honest. Nothing more to say, you're going to have a great life !

tbh I have seen for quite some time that your heart isn't really in RU-vid creatively. It was somewhere you released and collected memories and reflections. We could all see you felt awfully torn and exhausted trying to make this something full-time. You are amazing and we are proud of you. You have not failed if you have tried. I am so happy for you to find what truly works for you right now in this current life. Would love to hear updates and see the odd vlog whenever you feel is possible or relevant but that's your choice X ❤️ X

i miss you sweet angel. you deserved happiness and tranquility. So much wisdom and strength and intelligence from a young person. I’m so grateful you were here and helped so many. I hope you have found your peace and that your family does too. Je t’aime marie.

i was sat drinking my coffee and stirred it with the spoon i keep in the cup and it made me think of you so i was like ooo i wonder if Marie has a new video and then came on to youtube and you had! but yeah, i think you're doing what's best for you, i can tell you haven't been able to enjoy youtube since you started doing it full time and that it's brought you more stress than enjoyment. And i reckon that once ur able to start enjoying it again when you're doing it as a hobby you will find more success. But you have not failed, you have a community of people that you bring joy to every time you upload and that are here to love and support you. i'm sure you know that there's not pressure from us to upload on a particular schedule, just do it whenever you feel motivated to and have something that you're passionate about and want to talk about, or just feel up to it. If you're able to enjoy it then it will show through. make the video that you would want to watch, or that are the most beneficial to you, like the therapy ones

You have 100% not failed think of how many people you have helped no matter what happens do what ever is best for you do!!!!!

hey marie. it’s been a year since i’ve followed your channel and i was in such a bad dark place back then i just wanted to tell you you helped a lot and i’m so much happier than i was. thank you

Fair enough honestly. We may be very thankful for you and see you as an inspiring and amazing person, but what matters most, is how you feel. It becoming your job clearly has created great anxiety for you; maybe you're just not in the right head space to be doing it rn, or maybe it just doesn't fulfill you (enough). I'm 21 and also missed out on lots of typical teenage milestones such as learning to drive. I think you could try those, and that doing so should increase your feelings of self efficacy and confidence. (: That may mean, idk, learning to drive, finishing your GCSEs, whatever it may be. You have a giving and caring heart, maybe you could look into becoming a counselor or something related to mental health if you think you'd enjoy doing profesional mental health work. (: We're happy as long as you take care of your beautiful self x

Failed how! You have been incredible and made me feel comfortable

Your so brave for realising what you really want!

Marie.. you have not failed, your not a failure you created this place to help yourself and others. I can’t speak for everyone but I know you helped me massively (I mean massively like 3am dramas if you get me)through the lowest point of my life so far. I’m also 23 growing and moving on to the next part of your life isn’t failure it’s success and your ready for it. Breaking out of the cocoon 🐛 ready to spread them wings🦋xx

I can't believe does gone , it's crushed my soul, I love her so much , he talked to me alot and let me get c lose to her always textd me back . She is rhr o e who talked me into dbt therapy. I wish I could payd her back .

I'm just so happy to see you happy, Marie. I'm 23 as well, have been dealing w/ bpd for years and I feel like.. as crazy as it sounds.. corona really helped me to feel better. Before I would feel guilty for not doing anything because I felt like failure that constantly wanted to die. Now when whole world just pretty much stopped I could sit w/ myself and listen and understand my brain more. I'm still having some rough days but I can rationalize it so much better. I'm doing things much more for myself now than for others. I would always try to make things better for everyone, sort out things for people, even when it was exhausting me emotionally even more. I'm trying to focus more on my emotions and instead of sorting everything for everyone, just trying to be there for them and push them forward. Please, don't feel like a failure. I think you have helped so many people through your videos. That's something so admirable. :)

Love you!! Just remember you don’t owe your audience anything so don’t feel like you need to post. This safe outlet is for you to do what you like with it, enjoy it instead of feeling you have too. Love you Marie! 💖

We will always be here wether u upload twice a week or once a year. Aslong as your happy and living your best life, that’s what we want for you and it’s amazing to see xxx

hi! i think the problem is that when youtube is your main source of income if becomes so difficult to enjoy it and to worry about the type of content that you’re putting out. Go get a job - find what you enjoy - do your a-levels go for it! find out what fits you :) take as much or as little time as you need and then come back and make whatever kind of videos you want no matter how long or short and i trust that you’ll find your niche xx love you

Lovely Marie, if RU-vid as a profession was a dream for you, I'm sorry it didn't work out for you right now. Kudos to you for being willing to venture out and find something that's a better fit. Many people change jobs. We change and even if it's scary, we can learn so much...

We love and respect you always Marie, whichever way your path goes ❤️❤️❤️

Hey I understand that your feeling like your a failure but your rearly not!your amazing also I'm glad you can make changes into a positive!!you've vidioes have helped me alot along the way

You did not have to fulfill any debt to the people who watch your channel. You are an open person who shared your very difficult journey with us and we are better because you did. Thank you so much for letting us meet you and hear your life story. No shame in that or guilt. You gave us a gift and you are ashamed? Thank you for the gift.

I may not have been here from the beginning but your videos made an impact on me and helped me so much. Thank you for all your time and energy and I hope you can go back to enjoying this again. I wish you the absolute best 💗

Marie, honestly the one thing I can say to you is that you haven't failed us in any way, shape or form. You have done so incredibly well on your journey and I am so proud of you and everything you have achieved. You have taught us so much and motivated us in so many ways and we couldnt be more grateful :) honestly your videos have inspired me so much and given me the courage to get back on track with recovery and I thank you so much for that x no matter what happens with your channel, i will always be here to support you all the way 💗

We all know it’s easier said than done, but quit being so hard on yourself🥺. Your Chanel is so lighthearted, fun and educational and I feel like you’re exhausting yourself over something that should be fun yenno. I know you have your priorities straight and know deep down what you gotta focus on to achieve your goals so all I can say is good luck

Don't force yourself to make content because you feel obligated. You should be making videos that you love and that you're inspired to make. I wish all the best for you in whatever you're heart tells you to do! ❤

You are not a failure 💗

Yeeeeeesssss Marieee I'm very happy for you!!! I know changes are hard, feeling like a failure is terrible, but man, was I rooting for this!!!!!! You made a video a while ago asking for constructive criticism, or just suggestions about RU-vid and I commented then, but I guess you didn't see it. I think this is totally the way to go, you getting a job and RU-vid being a hobby again. I've been following you for 3 years now, and I feel I've grown up with you during this time. I don't think you are a failure, you tried it and it just didn't work out as a full time job. Like I've said in the other comment, to be fulfilled in this you gotta have something tangible to talk about and make content, but what would you talk about if you are not working on anything except this? Of course it would feel empty, you ran out of things to say. I don't think you should be mean to yourself, but you should listen to your gut. If you are feeling embarrassed about it, it has a reason, your conscious is telling you that you are capable of more than this. You didn't fail, you just know deep down that this cycle is over, and you gotta go to the next one. I think you did amazing in this time, you gave me a lot of comfort in this years and I loved watching your videos. Now that you are so much better you can do a lot more and discover a lot more about yourself, and there is no escaping, working and having long term projects is a huge part of that (after all we have to survive somehow hahahaha). But I truly do feel that it will be great, with new life and new experiences you'll have plenty of things to share with us if you like! And I'll sure be here waiting for it!!!!! You're awesome, love youuuuuu

marie love you dont owe us anything, we love you so so much and i really hope you’re able to go back to enjoying youtube again. thank you for keeping us updated, sending so much love n support ♡

It would be incredible if youtube continued to be a hobby for you with your new job. You have helped so many, and so many of us love watching your journey, but you have to do what is right for you x

Love you bunches! Do what you need to do!

been following you since 2017 and honestly you talking to the camera is like a friend talking to me if that makes any sense💗 love you marie xxxxx

It honestly makes me so sad to hear you say that you think you failed and that you feel embarrassed when it comes to your channel. Me, a 23-year-old from half-way across the world, can wholeheartedly say that there were days where your videos saved my life. Even now, hearing your entry song makes my heart grip because it reminds me of days that were tough on me. So, Marie, I want you to know that your channel is no failure. How can it be when your words have been my only source of comfort? You made me feel less alone in a world where all I felt was loneliness. No matter what you do, you are a constant source of inspiration and light, and I want you to know that you will be okay no matter where this world takes you because you are a strength that makes the world a slightly better place simply by shining as you are. Love you Marie, and I hope you don't think too much about where life takes you because "It is about the journey, not the destination." ❤

marie my darling you have not failed at all. do what you need to do for you!

You’re not a failure for trying something and it not working out how you want. You’re a failure for never trying something you’d like to in fear of failing❤️

I've always told people that I don't want to make money off my hobbies because it will ruin them, I do it for me, not for money. You did such a brave thing quitting your job at Tesco to commit to a RU-vid career, that's worth celebrating. Just because it didn't 'work out' isn't the end of the world, it's a good thing to realise when something just isn't fitting, and find what will! In the last 4 years I've worked for 6 months and got fired from there, I've failed soooo many times, failed at my dream job, failed at my career in general. I thought I'd have to go on disability. Somehow I got two casual jobs in my career field within a month of each other and now am going to try and juggle them! I might fail at that too! Failure isn't an optional part of life for anyone, it all comes down to how you deal with it. I hope whatever you do next is a success, but if it isn't, you can manage my darling!

Hey! Don't know you at all, but doesn't matter. Somehow I came on your channel. Hope I may be a good eye opener for you in some way. Let me know what you think about the Worthwhile Inner Nourishment. ❤💪🏾🗝️

I love you, Marie 🙏💕 whatever you decide to do, we are all behind you, sweetheart 🙏 you're an amazingly strong and courageous person and you've helped so many people over the years. Stay strong and stay brave 💪💪💪😘💪👊💕❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🌈💕❤️ xxxxxxx

I love you Marie but constructive criticism. Play the algorithm and make true crime content. Or cover cases where mental health was a key component. You’ve wanted to do it for ages. Do your makeup and talk about true content. If you don’t want to fair enough but don’t not do it because you’re scared to be embarrassed.

i hope you move on and live a happy and healthy life marie. god bless you

Just Listn to Yohani's Song 'Moving On'

can't believe she's dead like she went through so much and end up dying in a freaking car crash, life doesn't makes sens

Love you marie!!!

🥺

You have not failed anything, I hope you could see that from our eyes. Like the others have said, you need to take care of yourself first and foremost. Just do what you think could feel good. I hope the new work is fun! and I hope that YT will be fun again at some point, but don't worry about it. The most important thing is that you enjoy what you do. We love u and I hope you'll find some new enjoyable things 💗💖

I know its hard to believe but realising something isn't for you is not a failure. It was brave to try it and it is brave to reflect and listen to yourself. You have learned from this. If you learn you always always win. You've always made good videos but if youre not enjoying it then, thats not good for you! You've gotta do what feels good! Take care x

You owe us nothing Marie. I hope you get this job lovely xx. Do RU-vid for fun I will always be subscribe to you . Make shore u have fun in life tho xx make memories xx

You did not fail.

You should definitely not feel embarrassed my lovely. Maybe this needed to happen in order for you to grow more as an individual and figure out more about yourself. Making videos as a hobby will mean that there is way less pressure for you, if you don’t feel like uploading you don’t have to if it’s just a hobby, which means you won’t end up hating RU-vid and just making videos because you have to. You are constantly inspiring so many of us, and at the end of the day you are only human! You can only do so much, and sometimes things don’t work out and you need to change your path a little, but that doesn’t mean you are taking steps back or anything, it just means you need to adapt to the current situation. So proud of you for everything, you have come so far! At least you took the risk and tried, instead of just wondering what what happen, but it is definitely not a failure, as it will help you grow even more as an individual. Sending much love 💕 xx

I think you would have fun making those „artsy“ videos like the „one year since my attempt“, right?

Doing something as a job either TY or a real job, quit if you dont enjoy it anymore dont do things that are not happy with, that is also better for your mental health.

You get more likes n subs when mental health is baaad. Its a fact. Folk are wierd like that

WTF/ RAMBLE/MUMBLE/ALL OVER THE PLACE/ GET TO THE POINT....WHAT ARE U TALKING ABOUT???

I thought you Jube paid you for making vidio you need to turn this around

When I re watch this and Marie says you don’t know what the future holds and run with it being 23 ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹😭