Wow. I am relating so much to what you're saying. I feel there is a huge shift occurring in this realm in the past few months, many people are passing, many things are changing, and there have been many emotional upheavals and challenges among us all. I feel like there are so many truths that are surfacing, forcing us all to face what needs to be faced in order to bring us closer to our highest self. I also have been in a position lately in which I am presented with more opportunities to be in romantic relationships than ever, yet to engage fully in these would be to distract myself from what it is I know in my heart I must really do in this time. There is much I need to do within myself, things I have put off for a long time now, and I've wished I could just postpone the work and live life playfully, but the universe does not work this way, it is time to surrender my desires and do what must be done. I love your honesty and openness within your videos. I resonate with them so deeply. I really appreciate you posting these. Whether you feel like it or not, they are impacting, and I wish you the best upon your continuing journey forward. Much love and respect
I LOVE your videos, insights and art. You are confident as a sunflower yet subtle as a daisy. :) What you are experiencing right now is similar to a car when it shifts gears. It's that space between the changing gears. Down or upshifting, reverse... You, the reluctant driver wondering what it is like to be your passenger.
+kazzdude1 I lost my grandpa two weeks ago. We are a very close family, but there wasn't much grieving. It was a relief after the last 2 years he went though.
nathaniel malmrose ahh yeah I can relate to that as well. My grandma on the other side of the family died several years ago, but she had had cancer for a very long time and we all kind of felt relieved as well that she wasn't suffering anymore.
I also completely feel the same way about the whole, obligatory feeling of frazzeldness, where I am acknowledging that there is a driving force that is telling me I should feel that way to an extent, in order to push me towards where I need to be and do what I need to do to push forward on my path. But, I as well do not have that initial response, in the way that I have come to a place in my mind where anything can be happening, and I can feel a sense of calm and collectedness about myself, despite the chaos. And like you said, it's not that I am trying to ignore the chaos, I see it and I accept it, yet I don't allow it to destroy me. And in a way I find this necessary to deal with life's greatest challenges, not in the way that people live in denial, but in the way that if we let these challenges pull us into their chaos, we will not deal with them in the way they were meant to be dealt. Slow motion walking between tidal waves. Haha, I love that
As we all know, the Earth is one of the toughest planets in the universe. Challenges? Oh yes, all the time:) Without even going deep in to your challenge I can tell that all will be well, maybe difficult and out of place on the beginning but fine. Even if you decide to quit, there are many who even don't try such things.
Based on the start of your video, if you haven't heard Alan Watts I think you might like him! Never found anyone like him, yet he still died so long ago in 1972 yet still so relevant. In case you're unfamiliar, here's a several I could think of (clips from longer lectures) that spring to mind, but he talks about this a lot in various ways. Alan Watts - Don't Try ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-Q-tRXsteuRA.html Alan Watts - Who Is Opening Your Hand? ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-FONPtASlVrc.html "Kensho" Short film ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-bPJ5AjlPt4M.html Alan Watts - Life Is a Dance of Pattern ru-vid.com/video/%D0%B2%D0%B8%D0%B4%D0%B5%D0%BE-I9O03lE8Boc.html
