my best friend committed suicide 

The only reason why I wont end it is because i dont wanna be missed by my friends and make them sad. 😔

This video alone was enough to make me cry Literally before this video I was counting down the days until I could attempt again but this made me realise I couldn’t do this to my best friend because she wouldn’t be able to cope even if we don’t talk much anymore.. wow.

this hit hard... one of my best friends never said anything to me about how she felt, i could tell she was always sad tho... one day she had an arguemeny with her other friends and went home and committed suicide🥺i miss her so much and it’s almost been a year now❤️i love u emily, u will always be in my heart and i hope ur flying high, higher than everyone else💗💞rip beautiful😘🌊🥺

Check up on your friends. Check up on those who aren't your friends. Ask "how are you?" with meaning and the expectation of a response. Care. Love. And look out for those who may need a little extra help sometimes. I can't thank you all enough for your support in the comments. Never fails to amaze me.

whoever disliked this is crying so much they couldn’t see the like button

whoever sent this one in, I’m sorry. I could never go on with myself without my best friend, and I am so so proud of you for not giving up on yourself. I’m sure your best friend misses you too ❤️

This hits hard.. My best friend committed suicide almost 4 years ago, he was the best person I’ve ever met. I miss him everyday, I know he was suffering but I never thought he would end his life like that. Always check up on your friend when you think they’re not okay, losing a loved one is the most heartbreaking I’ve ever experienced.. I miss you Jaymie, Rest In Peace wherever you are ♥️

breakups hurt but... when it's your bestfriends time to leave or they move on - that is the worst kind of heartbreak.

I just lost my cousin to suicide. I never imagined how hard this can be and going through this has changed me enormously. My respect to all other people affected by this tragedy

You're gonna miss me by my walk, You're gonna miss me by my talk You're gonna miss me when I'm gone... Edit: Great. I just made a nice song super dark. Yay.

My best friend almost committed suicide and watching this broke me apart because I put myself in the situation of losing my best friend..

This hit me really hard as one of my friends tried to commit suicide and I’ve thought of it a lot as no one cares for me anymore all my friends ignore me and my family act like I don’t exist

I feel who for this person. My friend recently committed suicide, and they were an awesome human being. I’ve cried a lot in my life, but never as much as when I found out that she had passed

my best friend..has..attempted..things.. I.. I cry all the time, thinking about her, she’s still..here..but..I’m afraid she won’t be..Shes a year older then me and when we move on from stuff..high school..etc..I won’t be there for her..straight away..watching this made me really upset, the worst thing is, she doesn’t want to make it better..she’s given up..I don’t know what to do. I’m lost, stuck.. and don’t want to lose her..she’s my world, life, she’s always there for me and I can’t imagine her gone..

❤️ This was beautiful. Everything will be okay. It just takes time, and patience to put your life back together. ❤️

My bestfriend told me today she tried to commit suicide yesterday

This hit me hard. My best friend tried to commit suicide four times already and I just wake up everyday scared if I would hear that she is gone. I don’t know how to help her and I am just so afraid.

This hasent happend to me but if my bestfriend ended her life I would be so lost so I pray for the girl who lost her bestfriend.

This week, I almost lost my bestie to the coronavirus. She was panicking and alone in a hospital, and I was the only one there to text her... So I messaged her funny jokes to make her happy until she went to sleep... Now she is totally healthy and we are happy. This was beautiful, and I hope that you are okay❤

this has always been my greatest fear... i just can’t imagine losing someone to suicide. most of my best friends say that they’ll end up doing it by 2023. i don’t want to be alone. i cant cope in good ways. i wish they would trust me enough to tell be everything, just to get it all off their minds so that they would have someone to be here for them to vent. they never do. i’m just so scared that it will happen and i won’t know what do to.

This is a promise to everyone who loves me I promise I will never give up on my fight with depression, I will keep going and keep living, cause you make it worth living

Hi... my best friend also committed suicide, at the age of 14, on December 1st, 2018, and i know how horrible it's, you have to think about what she would want, and i'm sure that she would want you to get ahead, that don't forget her, but don't let it be a stone in your path. Be happy, for you, for her. We love you, all of us, we are here to help you. ♥

In 19 days, it’ll be two years since my best friend died from suicide...and I am so scared. We only knew each other for a year and a half but I was his first friend when he came to my high school..and I have been in denial this whole time and idk how to feel...

I honestly think this is a sign from God. I am very suicidal and my best friend, Marina, is one of the only people who knows this. This video was posted on one of the hardest days of my life so when I saw the date it was published and how the girl reading and writing this letter name started with M my heart literally dropped

I lost my best friend a few years ago and I think about him everyday. Sometimes I cry and everyday I miss him. I am more grateful than ever but I wish he was still here.

this video made me realize so much. i used to cut a lot. and once i even tried to commit suicide. my friends finally seen my cuts one day but they never did anything. they sat there and laughed with each other. i went home one day, when i was home alone, and wrote my suicide note. the first thing that had come to my mind was to overdose. i’m so glad my mom pulled into the driveway before i could even take one pill. i’m now two months clean. i’m not the happiest person, but i do know i have a lot to live for. and you do too.

After watching this I’ll always be grateful I’m able to hug the ones I love 🥺💖 Don’t take anyone for granted and show them how much they are worth and more 💖

My bestfriend commited suicide 3 days ago...

Suicide Isn't The Answer To Depression. It Just Passes To Someone Else.

same. it hurts so bad. 💔🥺

This destroys me because.. My best best friend, my bro, my man, my best human, he suicided on 29th December 2019.. It's been a few days, I went to seek for medical help because I felt I didn't help him enough.. And now I'm a little better. The problem is that I feel lonely without you, bro, I miss you and I'm waiting for you to text me to come and take me to a ride with the car... This is so so sad and as someone said, his pain didn't disappear, it's been passed further to me...

A video like this made me not cut my wrists or commit suicide last year. These make me cry and my friends sister is in a hospital for trying to kill herself. It’s a struggle that many don’t see but is there

I'm that friend who ended her life.... I just havnt done it yet...

This is the thing that *fears* me the most, my best friend loosing me...

Dear M, Ik it’s hard. But it’s ok to move on and be happy again. She will always be with you and in her heart. If you feel abandoned, it wasn’t your fault, she loved you.

I‘m sorry 🖤 I lost my best friend too.. 24/12/2016.. and everything you Said I felt.. 💔

Same thing happened to me. Stay strong M

To anyone reading this.. Stay strong and protect your besties at any cost!!!!! Shall I begin..? I guess I should.. My best friend comitted suicide on 29.12.2019.. It's been almost a year and still do I cry and feel that pain as if it were yesterday. He left me with an unbelieveble huge emptienss in my life and I can't describe the shock I had and the .. Meaningless I feel living without thim. He suicided himself jumping from 9th floor after his girlfriend played with him for a year and triggered in him that pain he was covering and not curing.. I was always there, thought it was moodswinging, but it was worse and didn't he tell me until the last two days.. I stayed with him, tried to be at least almost 12 hours with him.. Told his parents so they could do anything but they thought it was a joke.. Now they hit their heads onto the walls asking why he did that thought he threatened anyone.. I was so scared to see him dead that in the last day he didn't talk to me, I couldn't know where he was and.. He sent me a video.. The last one.. Told me that I'll always be his real brother like no other, that I helped him a lot and that he will love me for ever for every single help I gave him.. I told him in the last moments not to do that, though I was crying for two days and he told me I will forget him.. I never did. I told him to stop and he saw my messages.. I could only go to the online news and I could only read, skipping somehow, only "Man.. 25.. Jumped.. 9th floor". I threw my phone and almost smashed it and left the friend I was at his house crying the whole time. I had a crisis, I ran all the city to where I thought he could have been and he was there.. All the police, ambulances, television.. And him laying down, dead... I was screaming, I was begging, I was breaking my own teeth biting nothing.. I felt I was dying and I couldn't understand what was going on.. I could see him rise and and walk, I was having hallucinations.. And when they lifted him... I died.. I died internally because I knew he was done and I couldn't save him anymore.. That he didn't listen and did it as he said he would've done.. I cried for hours, days, months, had a major depression and couldn't talk to anyone anymore.. I had my tongue covered with the white fungus, candidosis, I think.. I forgot the name and I had to follow a treatment and cured it in months.. I still have such vivid dreams with him.. He's always mad and angry and telling me it was better to do that.. And that he's free now(though he always appears very angry, same as he left) It's been almost a year and, during the summer, I did a lot of sport to keep my brain busy and felt a little better but now with the quarantine.. Always at home, the date coming quickly.. I get some feelings again and I'm not okay anymore, again.. I wish I could've stopped him.. I wish he would have listened to us all who tried to stop him.. He had brought his ex to his appartment, watched her in the eyes and jumped in front of her.. And she's more fine than me... How.. His mother is ruined, destroyed.. She still thinks he's in the Uk working and he'll come back one day.. She's been taking calming pills for months.. She had to stop because she broke her ligament and she had a serious crisis and had to sedate her again.. I don't understand.. I don't understand where he left to.. Why.. How.. I'm numb.. I got o his grave and.. Always talk to him and bring flowers.. On 2th of February, it was his 26th birthday.. On 1st of February I got very very very drunk and cried all night and the next day I was screaming on his grave.. Telling him "I should've brought you a cake and a gift.. Not these death flowers and death candles.. I still randomly go around the place he died and look up.. I beg the sky to bring him back or at least let him be at peace.. As he wanted so much.. After his death, I'm always worried for my parents, for my mother who's depressed, for me because I don't wanna die and I'm so afraid but, somehow, I lie to myself that there's something after and I will surely meet him somewhere, somehow.. I miss you, Eddie.. I miss you sooo much and I'm speechless May you rest in peace and.. Protect us from up there... I love you Your little brother, Sebi Eduard I. 29.12.2019, Romania

This hurt me so badly. .. it really got to me.. my online best friend just committed suicide after 6 years of knowing her... and I'm struggling to cope anymore...

The only reason I'm still here is I just couldn't hurt my friends like that, they dont deserve it

I found this video today randomly, today last year my best friend committed suicide. I get everything you said, you are not alone.

This one hit me 😕 Also, I just want to say, thank you for doing this. Thank you for giving us have a place to say these things. 🥰

I lost my best friend earlier this year in February. He told me he wasn't feeling right emotionally, and that he was working on it... I kept in touch pretty much everyday, from the distance since I didn't live in the same country anymore. Some days were better than others, but that didn't last long, 5 days went by without hearing a word from him. He wouldn't return my calls or messages, and by the 6th day, I received the worst message one could ever receive. One of his exes, and still close friend of his ('cause that's how good of a person he was) told me.... we need to talk now, it's pretty serious. I phoned her almost immediately, knowing deep down that something was wrong, really wrong, I thought, maybe he's done something stupid and is in the hospital, but it was far worse than that. I cannot describe how devastated and in shock I felt at that moment, all the memories we had together, growing up, playing games, spending time together, everything froze... and it became a distant and heartbreaking memory... it hurst a lot, I think about him every single day... I miss him so much, and it hurts to know that he was feeling that way and that somehow I couldn't help him.. I miss you man.

This hit me hard about a year ago I lost my best friend... My mom. Thank you for making this video and thank you m.

This hits fr when u lost someone..

My best friend died two years ago.. I will never be the same.. you never really understand until you go through it. Miss you sm bstf

my best friend, my soulmate... he committed suicide a month ago. i always told him I loved him, and he told me he loved me even more. when we crossed a street together, he always made sure to give me his hand. he always told me he was so grateful to have a friend like me, and that he would like to have me in his life forever. he told me that hours before he committed suicide. i was with him the whole night, cause he was having constant breakdowns, and we played overwatch together. it later hit that the only reason he didn't commit suicide that night was because of me. but, i couldn't be with him that afternoon. so he left. i always miss him, and i cry every night missing the way he laughed and hugged me. i used to think so bad that his death was my fault, that i could've done more for him. but I'm better now, I think. he used to say to everyone "she is my friend!" and call me cute nicknames. please, everyone, check on your friends. make sure to tell them you love them.

i just found out that my best friend attempted suicide 2 days ago. her mom texted me today and told me shes in a mental hospital and the only person she wants to hear from is me. i want to write something for her but i dont know what.

My neighbour committed suicide, and i still miss him everyday.

My best friend committed suicide 2 years ago today and i found this video. Tear never stopped while this short video.

i miss my best friend. forever. i’m here for anyone who needs a listening ear.

this one broke my heart. i don't know what i would do without my best friends.

4 years after losing my best friends to suicide, I can swear on everything, the pain does get easier to manage and you will never stop missing them.

I’m so sorry M,

this brought me to tears. i love mybest friends so so so much

I’m sorry this happened. This made me more grateful to. It made me appreciate life more

this one has got me tearing up like crazy. baby i’m sorry.. i love you and i know you and i don’t know each other but if you see this comment i wish you the best.

Dangit I didnt expect to be feeling sad right before sleeping- Im so sorry for your loss. Just remember. No matter how hard it gets, try your best to keep going. Never give up. Do it for yourself. And if you cant, then do it for the people you love. For your family, your friends, and also.. her. Because I'm sure she'd want only the best for you. For you to have a happy life full of smiles and laughter. I know it's very hard to actually get over such things. I really do. Just keep your chin up as best as you can. Because even now, Im sure she's looking out for you. Making sure youre okay. As your little guardian angel

this hurt. i was a very young when my best friend ended her life. i loved her and i missed her so much. she was the light in my dark life..

It makes it even sadder that I’m the best friend

my friend killed herself today and i already miss her alot. we didn't talk much, but it was impossible to tell how much i cared about her. i'm so sad i can't even cry properly.

One of my favourite friends passed away to a drug overdose years ago. Her death affected me so much and my life does not at all look the same as before. I miss her everyday and long so much for the day I get to see her again. Our first names were the same but we loved each other’s middle names more than our own

Best friend committed suicide today, everyone seems to be dying around me. I don’t want any more death. It hurts.

missing you so much sweet tessa ♡ i wish I could've been your shoulder that night..

This made me cry... I’m getting a ton of suicidal thoughts because of family problems how people think of me, how bad I’m doing in school and my parents get so mad at me for getting bad grades I just can’t take it anymore.. idk what to do... I can’t keep living like waking up everyday and do the same routine and being sad and ashamed of myself every singing day....help me

it’s rough and you will feel like a part of you just isn’t there any more, for a while. but it will get better, i promise. stay strong love💜

i has a friend that recently committed suicide.. she was starting to get mean and distant so we stopped talking. now that she’s gone it’s weird to think i talked to her everyday, i never really thought this would happen.

this hit in a different way you see my bestfriends not dead but her parents got into an argument and her mom picked up and left with her and her little sister and I was aloud a little contact but now none and all these things about her missing her bestfriend I miss about mine, made me cry in a way I didn’t know I could, I miss you always Arina❤️

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’m scared, my best friend told me she was going to try and commit suicide 6 hours ago, she isn’t responding to my texts and calls, she says if she doesn’t respond within 8 to 10 hours she’s dead. I pray to god. Please. 😭

This hit hard, Some days I feel so sad because life is hard at the moment but when I look at these videos it stops me and shows how my life isn’t as hard as everyone else’s so thank you for posting this x

I miss her... She commited over a year ago, and I still cry nights long, I wish no one had to deal with that, but I still don`t blame her for anything

I can’t do this to my friends. Well my friend. Even if it’s hard. I have to stay strong for him.

i lost my best friend when i was 13. it ha been a little over 8 months now and i am still in deep pain. she was my best friend since we were literally born. i was only 3 days older than her. she had hazel eyes with a tint of blue. she was blonde and was so beautiful. i loved her so much. we went through middle school being bullied. we went through the pain together. we would tell each other everything. but one day, on 15 August 2019, she committed suicide. she left us in broken pieces but now she is in a better place. she meant so much to me but then she made her decisions and she passed away. it was so hard losing her because i was in australia when she left us. i didn't get to say my last goodbye. it hurt so much. i am constantly thinking about her and i am so grateful that i was able to have an amazing best friend like her. i am so grateful to still be standing here today, raising money for her family to live on because they aren't very fortunate after spending their very last penny for a meaningful funeral. i wish that i could have been there to prevent this but i know i can't blame myself for what has happened. watching this video comforts me to know that you have also lost someone special to you and i hope that you will be okay and that you are strong. we will get through this. it will obviously be hard but when time passes, we will heal but not for a long time. it is so painful to lose a special someone so here is what i always say: live by the present, say your goodbyes, say i love you, and never forget the special moments. i live by this quote and honestly, it has motivated me to keep my head up high and cherish every moment i have, positive or not. so i hope y'all who have gone through this painful process, i hope y'all know your worth and that every moment should be treasured and respected with honour. i am so sorry for your loss and i can dearly say that she was the diamond in our hearts. she will always remain special to us all and heaven is very lucky to have her. in loving memory of her

I'm sorry to hear of your loss. I also had a friend that took her own life yesterday. I'm in complete shock and so close to wanting to join her. I wouldn't do it, as my friends and family (especially my 10 year old daughter) would be devastated, the same as I am about her. Been up all night feeling lost.

My best friends brother had committed suicide about a year ago. He was bullied and the boys who bullied him told him to kill himself. Sometimes when i sleepover my best friend wakes up crying because she had a dream about her brother. I comfort her, get her water, do anything she’d like me to do for her. But i know that she is mourning and might never recover from his death. She has actually become suicidal and has texted me saying that she felt like ending it all whenever she fell into one of her depressing cycles. And to everyone who is saying that they want to kill themself. Don’t do it. Its never worth it. As someone who’s attempted suicide by cutting, don’t do it. When you feel down and ready to end your life, remember the people who love you. Ignore the ones who don’t. They don’t matter. In 1 year you can move on from that toxic best friend or boyfriend/girlfriend and be the brightest and highest person out their. Just have hope ❤️

I know it is hard my ex that was my bf at the time killed himself over 3 years ago ~9-15-16~ and i miss him ever day so i know how you feel i am sorry for what happend to her but stay 💪 bc she would not want to see you fall

This hit hard..... My best friend was thinking about committing suicide too bc of family problems. She was thinking that no one was there to listen to her problems. Fortunately that year we became best friends and I let her know that Im and I will be there for her whenever she needs me. I'm glad I still have my best friend here with me.... Love you Chryssa♥️

This made me cry I’m sorry about your loss:( rip 🥺

I was planning on doing it when I was older but this video changed me 😭 my friends would be upset, also whoever I’d dealing with this, you’re loved ❤️

this is heartbreaking. may she rest in peace . god bless

This is such a pure video 🥺 stay strong M❤️

Oh my God. Oh my God. This was one of my best friends, she committed suicide October 10th of 2018. I thought it was such a coincidence...but after the sincerely, I know ‘m’. I’m balling. Ashlynn was beautiful. I had surgery prior to the one year anniversary of her passing, and it went worse than expected-I was in the hospital longer and in so much pain with so many meds. I couldn’t walk at all and I couldn’t even stay awake because the agony tired me out. On the tenth, I woke up and it was way darker than usual. I thought to myself, “ugh. Why does it have to be a gloomy day, TODAY??”. I kid you not, 10 minutes later I walked out the door-my jaw dropped. I saw the most beautiful sunrise ever. She knew that. I always talked about them, painted them, everything. On top of that...I was feeling so so so much better. I even took my first steps. I was able to return to school, and obviously was still in great pain, but so much better. This was insane. The doctors didn’t see it coming. It wasn’t expected, it was crazy. It was a miracle. Now, I don’t care what anyone believes or doesn’t, but that? That was there. I hadn’t even been able to talk about her. I cried and cried. I missed her like crazy. It left such a big hole in my heart; it weighed me down. But on this day, it was lifted off me. I was able to talk about her and only remember the silly, goofy, amazing memories with her-not the nightmares drilled and embedded into my brain of when I found out. I literally remember every. Single. Detail. About that day. Now I just hear her voice, and her laugh that lit up my day. I’m actually balling my eyes out.

today my best friend almost committed suicide. She wanted to talk to me before, see me one last time even wrote me a letter for me to find after but didn’t mean to tell me she was suicidal. Checking up on ur loved ones can be life-saving, even a simple “how are u?”. This is how i saved her(for now and i hope for as long as i am in her life). Tomorrow like everyday im gonna show her how loved she is and hopefully make her happier, so she can see life is worth it bc she means the world to me🥺love u L,sincerely S

i’m only watching these videos to see what loved ones feel after someone they care about leaves. too bad i have nobody that the cops would tell. kind of makes it easier in a way.

praying for you. this isn’t easy. you got this girl :)

Those 2 dislikes are heartless people...

i miss her so much. i want to be angry at her, but i can’t. i love her forever & always

my best friend is 11, she almost stabbed herself, the knife was almost in,but her strict, abusive dad walked in .due to depression. I have depression as well, but i always want to be there jsut in case, she came to school crying and keeps sending me knife and gun emojis, i cry every night worrying i may not see her ever... again.

I lost mine 6.6.19. it hurts cause it's her death anniversary now it's been a year since she was walking and talking making me and my other friends smile and letting us know everything was ok when it wasn't, I too was almost like her 2weeks later after my depressing birthday the same month she committed herself to death. I know life is hard it was hard when I woke up first thing in the morning and my dad walks in and told me I was in a bad place it hurt. It still hurts and till this very day I chesire her memory and my life even when I have mental probloms and the virus around and protestors. Black lives matter sweetheart! Their no different from us!their human to!

This really hits hard I'm sorry for ur lost idc either this is fake or not I still cried don't worry she's in a better place now called heaven ❤️🙏

This type of videos keep me safe

My boyfriend is always sad and I'm so scared to lose him... He promised he wouldn't but he also told me that he wanted to die. I won't be able to stay if he ever kills himself...

my best friend committed it yesterday. rest in peace cj. i will miss you. you can rest in peace now angel.

my bestfriend too, she was so perfect. i will never understand. but at the same time i do understand.

Only reason I'm still here is because I'm afraid of dying and the after effects of it if I fail. Suicide should never EVER be taken lightly always reach out to loved ones and especially friends that say they feel this way. Because if u don't reach out who knows what they will do and just like that you may never see them again. Be kind. Be Caring. Be Loving.

My best friend killed himself on June 14th 2021, I had seen him last during 8pm on the 12th until about 3am on the 13th, we were texting but not very much until about 9:30pm that night, I went to bed and at 11am as I was getting up to go to work I got the call. Ive lost friends before but I dont think ill be the same without him, i try not to let it get to me but its changed me, he wasnt just my friend, he was my brother and I loved him very much.

My friend committed yesterday 🥺I will never get over this I thought she was doing better when I woke up dismorning all I wanted to do is FaceTime and check on her and I remembered she’s gone…

This happened to me my best friend of 30 plus years committed suicide after dealing with depression his entire life it's been 5 years now and believe me when I tell you I'll never be the same I dealt with a lot in my life but I feel like this one really broke me I figured that no matter how tough things were and no matter what happened my best friend would always be there and now he's gone

My best friend is suicidal, they selfharm, and they have tried to end their life multiple times. Their parents don't them for being non-binary, and every time something goes wrong, their parents yells at them, even tho it wasn't their fault. They tell me everything, and told me that their life depended on me, as in, if I ignored them, they would die. I don't know what to do anymore to help, ive taken away all of their sharp things, and told them to take it easy, but nothings working, they find ways to hurt themselves every time. I feel like I'm falling them, I feel like I can never leave them alone or they might do something. I don't know what to do

My best friend just died...... she always made me laugh when I’m down... the person who I loved and cared about.... the person who made me happy.... just gone.....