i wish your body was more forgiving, u deserve so much more than the suffering u endure every day because of this disease. you are such a beautiful gift, all that u create is so healing. i will ask god forever why u couldn’t be healed from this yourself.🫂 i am so proud of you ❤️🩹
Yes.woth MS only 1 person has survived with it it's just a torturing disease technically just what it is is basically nerve system attacking brain and spinal cord affecting rest of body I'm not sure if I don't have it. I also have like spasms that are painful and legs burn plus one arm is very weak.and it's untreatable.@@knight3612
@@Recognitio thank you friend, there is 21 albums of my songs like this in my “nothing is real” series. if you like this one i hope you will check them out! open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=wf3lYU8pR2SYW-cnEOr0og&pi=u-MvSYGUZgQXaL
It is no easy task, to endure the degredation of ones flesh and the accompanying suffering, physical and spiritual, while retaining your composure and dignity. I am learning this, oftentimes it is harder to hope than to sink. Nice song, I enjoyed it.
@@Facepalmz me toooo omg. i have a ton of albums inspired by the music, specially the guitar piano and drums ! the peak music IMO. i have a bunch more original silent hill content with my custom ps1 character on the page soon :-) i hope you’ll check it out! if you want to here is the link to the album, sry for spamming i get really excited when someone else like silent hill xD open.spotify.com/album/3TnKD653S6moewrWTI5AR8?si=t0sCTDT_QKa3U-xcMr_57A
@@myheadisempty I'll definitely check it out. I'm glad you got a Spotify! I just got spotify not too long ago lolol :) time to add your music!! thank you so muchhhh its so beautiful (and no worries you didn't spam. i appreciate you commenting back!!) i'd love to add one of your songs into one of my short-form content videos!!! i hope its okay
I think so too but no, don't kill the one you are ❤ You can do it, I know how it feels, I promise you everything will be okay, stay strong, don't give up 🫂❤️
@@otavioggz1510 You will believe me I thought the same thing I had no hope but believe me everything will be fine you are not alone I believe in you the only person who can make you happy So you never give up. I know it's easy to say but the meaning of life is given a meaning to life LOVE YOURSELF ❤️
thank you friend, i know this will come across like begging and it probably is but, if you like this song, there is 21 albums of music like this from me, if you ever wanna throw on this playlist and check some of them out id really apprecaite it! no worries if not, and thanks for listening to this one and commenting it really helps me alot
thank you friend, it means so much you used some good gear. i would always suggest for all 21 of my “nothing is real” albums, always use headphones or good speakers! i think part of the reason they aren’t popular like my ambient is so much of the melody is hidden in the low tones, i think the only way to experience them is with headphones or some ear buds at least! made me smile reading your comment! thank you :)-
the album this song is from came out in 2022, so the song is already available if you don't want to wait! open.spotify.com/album/4DhyBwqNz04O52PAaYNNsm
all my links ↪ linktr.ee/tidecruz my BEST songs only (nothing is real) ↪open.spotify.com/playlist/6H7FT9Um7zb7aRgFbSMLX3?si=a16f276605304b70 11 hour playlist of my songs like "i was only temporary" ↪open.spotify.com/playlist/4IB4U1ieSUcEor3LQkOAIy?si=09b47db3fca640c6
hi friend, while i appreciate it, my whole hope with my "nothing is real" series was to capture my soul, and hopefully inspire others to dig deep within themselves, and find their own sound, to bring out their story and their truth, not so much to imitate others. i hope this does not come across rude, but its not my hope to create the desire for others to try to sound like me,. my dream is to inspire people to be themselves, and make something unique as well
@@myheadisempty oh no all i was saying is you just inspire me too make music is all cause i really like it yk i dont wanna come across as a complete weirdo 😅
I still remember it... I almost committed suicide. I remember how you saved me from suicide with your own songs. Thank u very much for saving me!!! Now I try not to die... But why am I drawn to this... I don't understand...
this edit wont be up till Wednesday, but the album this song is from is from 2022, the song is already out if you don't want to wait! open.spotify.com/album/4DhyBwqNz04O52PAaYNNsm
I CANNOT CATCH A SINGLE PREMIERE FOR THE LOVE OF ME i technically was in this one but i didint even react to the chat let alone watch the video since i was busy doing smth else but now i am finally listening to nir part 21 im gonna keep this not too long so if u wanted a long comment then i am sorry so this album kinda gave me a mix of being lost in life and finding something you never knew you needed it was probably the emotional and calm sense these songs brought me which made me like em so much my favorite song is play this when i cant sleep id love to know more about this this album although not the greatest is definetly up there with all the others in my favorites untill the next one gets posted my favorite album would have to be part 18 back to 21 being lost in places can be interesting although being lost gives off vibes of being in an unknown place usually gives off vibes of leaving this album makes it seem like you wanna stay in that place taking a break from all the stress given off by pretty much everything in the world thats what it feels an escape from reality where you can do anything you put your mind to just a chill zone if you will thats all i gotta say i dont know what ill comment about next but these wont stop ill bring up some of your albums whenever i listen to them or just talk about anything i wanna talk about (been getting into terraria so ill prob talk about that a lot lol) the journey these albums brought me were spectacular i loved listening to every single one cant wait for what i talk about next
thank you so much for always sharing your thoughts. it makes sense that you would have a favorite, as much as i wish they would only be "better every time". i dont think its possible. these "nothing is real" albums for me are just a potrayal of my life during the months they are written, and this newest one, part 21, its been some of the worst months of my life. so much betrayal from the people i thought were my peers, my health just slipping and slipping away. i wasnt sure if i would even be able to finish the album, but, i hope that one day things get better. i will probably stop making ambient. i know that it might ruin my career, but i really dont want to be associated with ambient artists any more. it might take a while to get the next nothing is real album out, but i want it to be the best one yet. zero ETA on it, will probably take forever, but i really want to stay true to one of the most improtant things about them for me, making something that nobody else could replicate, i really want them to be special. i hope that i can beat your favorite one soon friend
My body is dying from anxiety Media Life Thoughts Bullied Hoped i could change my mistakes Wish i could die and lay down and rest I keep thinking that earth and life is just a game or a test
The death of the body is not terrible. Sometimes I want it, but sometimes I'm not sure I'm ready for it. Am I good enough to deserve to die with dignity? Can I endure the pain and suffering of dying? I'm not talking about a suicidal death, but a natural one, which I look forward to every day. I'm not afraid of this death. For me it is like a release from pain and what I was, and it gives me a chance to become what I want to be. The death of the soul is a real nightmare. A fall and the end of hope and sense of meaning in everything I do. A veritable black hole of nihilism that tries to permeate every human existence. It attacks everything that is good in a person. I don't think this black hole is something natural. I think it's something created by mistakes made by individuals and societies. In other words, we condemn ourselves to nihilism and soul death. Once we die, it is difficult to be revived again. I don't know if my soul died at some stage. I was definitely close to death of the spirit once. Since then, the black hole has been haunting me and looking at me all the time. I cannot, like some people, consider a black hole as part of human existence. I cannot look for my own meaning in life in the meaninglessness of existence. For me, this means coming to terms with the existence of a black hole in life which, despite a person's desperate escape to make sense of themselves, will continue to haunt them. For me, the real salvation is to completely forget about the black hole. Abandoning the vision that it is true. The belief that it is just a delusion, a nightmare that happened one night. A nightmare that I hope will never come back. Therefore, for me, only ideas that do not agree with the meaninglessness of human existence can save us from the worst kind of death.
yes. if you look at my “nothing is real” album series, on most of them, the titles of the songs for each album - when read in order form a paragraph. i’ve never seen anyone do this so i hope it’s really unique and cool !! :D it’s confusing when u just see one song title but i think it’s awesome when u find all the tracks together and can read the whole message. bandcamp has probably the clearest view of it, since the website shows all the songs on each album in order . thank u for asking about this small detail btw, you are awesome the track list for nothing is real, part XVI is 1. my body is dying, 2. and i wish someone knew. 3. just what i’m going thru; 4. there is nothing i can do. if you want to check it out here’s the link :-) tidecruz.bandcamp.com/album/nothing-is-real-part-xvi
i try to but my disease is pretty intense. like right now, both my feet, hands feel like extreme pins and needles, my eye sight is always fading in and out, and some other issues i dont want to talk about. its pretty hard to just ignor these things, but i appreciate the sentiment
