My Depression Story: Where I've Been & What I'm Feeling 

Laura xM and it seems so easy for them...why cant it ever be easy for me?

you’re like in middle school. live. im pretty sure you have it better than me, alot of people for a matter of fact.

RiP Cap that’s not fair at all to say. No matter what age you are, no matter what grade you are in. Shit happens to everyone. You have no idea what’s going on.

RiP Cap Who asked? 100% agree that is unfair to say.

@@brennaallen1969 I totally agree with this. I also am suffering from clinical depression right now and I am 43 y.o. 😭😭 I am working on a better me but it's a tough journey.

who can we tell. Everyone has their own perception and no one really comes forward to wipe anyone's tears.

a trusted friend, a counselor and reach out to support groups. There are several on Facebook, but if you get into one that is constantly negative and doesn't educate and support … I would leave as it will only bring you down. I invite you to my page In the Eye of the Storm. I deal with depression, anxiety and agoraphobia..... I am also a psych nurse by trade so I try to add in questions for people to ponder and give educational things to help people. You are not alone and do not have to hold it in.

This is what exactly I was thinking

George Vasquez I messaged one of my good friends and she just said “sad 😂 “ and that broke me, she didn’t take it seriously

The only person i could really tell anything to is gone now. He isnt at my school anymore, and i cannot text him. Everything has been a lot worse than when i was talking to him.

💯

*hugs you*

Same 😐 nobody believes me.

same except I haven't told anyone because I have no one to turn to..

yeah same with me. start crying watching the video. and still the same, my friends laugh at me when I was trying to tell them that I depressed. they said I need to be grateful. it's not easy for me to live with depression in the country which treat physical and mental problem very different.

thats how its with me too 😔

I know that you are going to make a lot of people smile. I love being positive because I want to make the world a positive place to live in but there are really rough moments in everyone's life and I am going through one right now. I know I will make it through cause I have friends that cheer me up everyday and family that I can talk to. I am really inspired by your message and I totally agreed with you. People have probobly gone through worse but they go through it. If u keep your head up and have support even if it's from somebody you don't know then I know you can make it through. Glad that you are trying to make the world a positive place. Great message

Thank you for saying that.🙂

Thank you I really needed that :)

Thank you. I am not well at the moment, but its the first time there is someone i love, who loves me back and i can actually believe it, even though its hard to not see this as an additional vulnerable spot. You reminded me, that I am and should be grateful for what i have now. I have trouble expressing myself even wwriting youtube comments, but i really wanted to tell you that your words touched me (*deletes half the comment because its full of stupid unnecessary apologies etc*) greetings from germany to everyone :)

you don't know me.you don't care about me.stop using an illness to get attention. it's people like you who make me feel even worse. screw you.

Noami Wolf me too they think I'm disrespectful but is just that my brain make me live in a completely different world.

My family tells me that it will get better by ignoring it. Last time I checked ignoring problems nearly got my parents in a divorce. So much for caring. I can't speak a word about this issue of mine, yet I'm dying on the inside. Everyday, I'm just fading away. What was it all for? Why did I have to be so gifted and so cursed at the same time? Why? No damn reason. I've come to realize that my depression was inevitable from the beginning. I just can't stop regretting my life, both for my own flaws and for circumstances outside of my own control. No wonder why I don't have a honest connection with anyone. They would leave or belittle me. I can't cease these thoughts. I hope that life gets better for you guys, but I struggle to see it for myself anymore.

Noami Wolf I feel the same way

i hope you are feeling better!

That’s the same as me xx

I love you!

i love you Meg! Your the best! YOUR in inspirational person to everyone!

Thanks that helped me out a lot☺ your such a inspirational

Wow the support I am seeing from everybody is so amazing!!! 💗☺️ It makes me feel good to see everybody pitching in to help Meghan!

Poor poor girl... WE ALL LOVE YOU, WE HOPE THAT YOU UNDERSTAND!!!! :)

Hey you should look up Audreys guide to happiness by Benoliath, only a few paragraphs leaked out a few months ago on FB but no one cared or noticed I guess, I read them and I have completely forgotten about my Depression. here it is; facebook.com/audreysguidetohappiness

since you know what youve got,the only way to get better is to educate your self.Keep a diary of how you feel and what meds your on...and how the meds make you feel,and if and why you have to change.when i was 30yrs i had a really bad depression (2006)...i had to leave my job and go off work.Im now doing really well and i love life.i hope all changes for you. I hOpe this helps.

Same here ,just had a day / night last thursday where I could not stop crying ,it was horrible !

Paddyhere_5 it made me cry to because its the same thing with me and ive done whats she said you have to get rid of unhealthy relationships. but for me its hasnt gotten better in over 3 years i dont have friends because they whernt healthy and it still hasnt changed i work and sleep thats it! its so hard i cry all the time over nothing im just sad and tired.

True

It does help but just for that moment. When it’s over, the thoughts and emotions come back.

thx u,i am going through the same time

💖-Farhan

+Pxisened pikachu 😀😀😉

me too..ive been depressed for so long and its really nice to finally know that im not alone

+Noralou1se where's your doctors note if you're depressed then ? I want to see it.

+Dad Please no one needs a doctor's note to prove that they have depression.In fact many people with depression don't even go to doctors.I urge you to be more sensitive with your words.

Hey you should look up Audreys guide to happiness by Benoliath, only a few paragraphs leaked out a few months ago on FB but no one cared or noticed I guess, I read them and I have completely forgotten about my Depression. here it is; facebook.com/audreysguidetohappiness

***** I'm so sorry you feel this way about yourself. But how does negativity help anyone? You are talking about a HUMAN here. A human being, just like yourself, with feelings. This girl is a daughter, sister and friend. If this was someone you cared about and knew, would you really be willing to say the things you told me just now to their face? Secondly, like I mentioned earlier, okay - physically she maybe hasn't been through as much hardship as you. But mentally? Maybe she felt like committing suicide. Maybe she felt like she wasn't worth it in this world. A precious human life could have been lost. How could you not say that's not a cause for concern? I hate it when people believe that somehow they are "better" than anyone because they have it worse. EVERYONE is different. Someone is worse off than you; does that give them the right to demean how you are feeling? NO. Everyone's feelings matter. No one is "better" or "worse". You're calling me a bitch? What did I do, exactly, that constitutes such a harsh response? Imagine I was depressed (I'm not) and I read this comment. Imagine I committed suicide. How would you feel? Proud that you said something so hurtful to someone? Maybe you'll say that they shouldn't have taken it to heart. But saying something so hurtful (which I'm not taking personally, but plenty of others may feel worthless reading your comment) has consequences. I am not a screen. I am a human. I am a person. Everyone is. I hope you feel better about yourself, and more positive. I'm sure you have plenty of amazing qualities you should be proud of. People love you. But please don't spread such negativity especially on such a sensitive topic. :)

GirlEnchanted I love you times infinity for this comment. Thanks for being compassionate, even towards the negative comment/commenter. God bless

GirlEnchanted honey, this video isn't your video is it? Not sure why you assume you are the one people are responding to when you have nothing to do with this video. Ebonics4everyone was obviously responding to the woman who is speaking in this video!!!!!!

***** look just becuase u r in a depression as well dose not mean u need to be mean to someone eles u do not know is she feels the same way u guys r going through depression and u know how jt feels like and I am pretty sure if ur saying all of this stuff about ur self then u have been bulied ur self u need to stick with her becuase u guys r going throught the same this pointing stuff about ur self is nor healthy I am verey sorry u fell like this becuase I feel the same way but I stick with her beacause if we were to be friends she would understand insed of leaving hate leave a nice commet u know where she is comming from she is nlt deamanding respect but she is a human after all

big fan!

I don't know u but I'm glad this video helped u

Hope today is nicer to you! There are always people around that care even when it feels like you have nobody

+Renee Robb 😉😉😉

I know I'm a month late, but keep hanging on. I promise things do get better and you're not alone

Mark Drennan good for u

Well said, March.

That is so sweet of you to say Hunter!

Peach hunter preach 🙌 ( we are all there for you... dont feel so alone.😃 talk to us 😘👍👫👬👭

True we will all be by your side and helping you and supporting you trust me you will feel better XOXO LOVE YOU AND GOOD LUCK

Hunter you're amazing! Keep supporting her as a friend she needs all of the help she could get to feel safe ❤️

You are truly wonderful and we love you

I love you both so much omg 😭❤️ stay strong Meghan we love you

Love you Katherine Xx💕

It doesn't matter how old you are, if you're old enough to type you're old enough to be depressed. Even toddlers can be depressed! If you think you need help, please try to get it. It may be uncomfortable, but if no one else listens you can talk to your school guidance counselor. I'm young and very depressed. I'm going to confess to my mom soon, but i'm really scared. You basically described my worst fear about telling her. Regardless, something has to change because I feel like a dead battery, and it messes up everything. I hope you get the help you need, and I hope everything clears up. Good luck.

My mom tells me this and she says I have nothing to be depressed about yet I think that too. I wish it would just stop 😔

+ღ☮Dıχıeđøøıšαωešøмe☮ღ Man young people have eating disorders and depression! Often it comes from not feeling like you have enough control over your life. What do you like to do? What did you want to be when you grew up when you were five? What is your favourite colour? When was the last time a friend gave you a hug?

+Emily Crews Your mom has no right to tell you how you feel. This world is getting colder and more violent by the day and so many people are depressed because they feel hopeless and they are bullied, not getting enough nutrients to nourish their brain (the soils have been depleted, etc). I know that for depression a ketogenic diet helps many people, but I would start with an omega 3 rich diet and limit carbs and especially sugar. Consider taking a magnesium supplement and also take vitamin D supplements of 5,000 IU a day if you don't get enough sun. If you live in a sunny area, please expose as much skin as you can to sunlight for 20-30 minutes a day to help your body create enough vitamin D. Be well! Things do get better and your feelings are valid. I made this page to cheer people up: facebook.com/Sunshiny-Day-1607086326244104/timeline/

+omer bereket Many people feel it, we live in a scary world. If you need a friend, I am here. Please consider taking a break from scary news on TV and in the newspapers and focus on kindness, like helping animals or others.

kazuo maeda but how did you get happy

How are you happy now?

Hormones :( the same thing happened to me.

kazuo maeda you're too hot for loserish depression

+Subi How dare you. How DARE you. Get off youtube. Don't EVER say that about depression. You have no idea how awful it feels to not be able to get up in the morning. To physically and mentally not be able to function. You have no idea. So shut your mouth and go do something better with your life. NOW.

I've had the same problem to be honest. I've gone to many different counselors through the years and it actually made me feel worse after every session (mostly in the beginning) because I let myself feel all the bad feelings when I told them why I felt depressed. But I kept doing it for 3 years and sometimes were better than others och through my last year I found better counselors to talk to and they actually helpt me more then I expected. Depending on who you talk to it can feel like the person don't care or understand, I know that feeling. Some people don't understand (or want to), and some just don't know how to react. But the more you talk about it the less you will feel bad about it i'm sure of.

Maria Munther​ thank you so much.

*****​ hows that wprkin for you dude? Not so well for me :/

victoria LoCicero i know that, but i also happen to be sort of.. unable, when it comes to talking about feelings and personal stuff like this. Especially since none of my family understands and ive been bottling everything up for the past years and dont know where to start and then their reaction to it i worry about too

PROcrastinator you sound a lot like me. Just start slow. Maybe reveal something small. I kept things bottled up for years and then at the drop of a hat I would explode. It has ruined some relationships in my life. It is hard and scary to unbottle everything so just do the smaller things first and take it slow. It'll take time for it to all come out but when you get there it is the place where you can start again. I had to get therapy to help me unbottle everything and to tell my family. It was difficult and emotional for everyone but it was worth it.

This video was so heartbreaking

I have anxiety and I have IBS and sometimes get panic attacks

yes!

So true!

yes exacly i not watch tv so much anymore as there all is fake and here is real life and i prefer truth then a lie, I not sure if i am depressed but i feel sad many times without reason, or feel anxies too, lately am sad cause my bf dumped me and that make me so sad, and depressed

exactly i stopped watching tv all the time all i watch are youtube videos. youtube videos came to me when i was at a low point and it helped me.

We love you Meghan

took the words right out of my mouth, thanks for this.

Was thinking the same thing!

Very sensible approach. Wish more people had this opinion!

Hey girl. I got teary reading your story. I hope after watching Meghan's video, you realized that you aren't alone! And in reality, as alone as you feel, you really aren't ever alone. I can't say I know exactly what you're going through but I can say that I know what depression is like. I too had it for a decent half year and it was the shittiest time of my life. Looking back on it, I feel like I became stronger because of it. I know that's so cliche to say but it's honestly the truth. I hope so bad for you that you can try to see the bright side of things; of life. It has it's ups and downs but it's how you trudge through it that's important. Stay strong baby!! Stay STRONG. The sun is always behind those dark thunder clouds, you'll eventually see it again. Xo

IBS = Irritable bowl syndrome? If that's the case, I can totally relate! I have IBD.

yes it is ..

Like I said before, I can definitely relate. I have IBD (Crohn's disease to be specific) and I had my time dealing with depression. I was diagnosed as a child and I had to go on harsh medication to deal with my flare. My medication made me bloat horribly (prednisone) and I became severely depressed. I was teased really badly and became REALLY insecure. Plus, a lot of people couldn't relate to a chronic illness at such a young age. Anywho, I got out of my depression and live a totally normal life! I have my days, but it always gets better. I'm now in my senior year of college and am super healthy. I say all of this to say, it gets better. Makeup is one of my escapes too and watching videos like Megan's really helps. Take care :)

you take care as well

people these days are just trying to be happy and the rush is so much that they'd do anything to keep themselves busy, trying to get everything they want and not caring or stopping by for people like you and I. stay strong

people will care, you just have to find the right person. talk to your parents or guidance councelor if your still in school. they will either help yoi or help you find someone that can. all you have to do is say something. there will always be someone there fir you and if not, at least someone on the internet will be able to connect with you and help uou through it.

ik feel the same way and its the same situation with me, and i end up feeling even more alone.

hey,I KNOWN!!! everybody keep telling that ''have to find someone to Confession your satiation‘’ so yup~I follow this~did told this to my friends(Family part already did..sadly doesn't work..my mom she'll never trust me,she take this like ''so what ?what about other peoples?you just too boring,this's just drama going on ~" also I found out that..to me why i don't like to talk about this ,cuz afraid people just simply take this as ''ooh you just wanna get attention want everyone notice that your so poor so sad~'' but they really don't understand that it's not that simp..rather be a drama queen only because I feel happy..but no the true is that if you're depression you can't barely to feel other emotion..ever thing just grey..the world see through by our eyes there're color in of course...but covering by grey..just so dark... it actually is my whole world...even I fight with Depression for years...still so hard nearly impossible to get rid off it. and my friends they're actually just like yours ...so i get it..((be brave .)) but they're still few people ,not like they always asking how I feel or how's going.. ever time always me to reach them.but!the different is that, when I sharing the emotion I had right now..they listen and they give you some of there opinion or there life experiences,maybe not all can fit in our situation..but you know what ?this people they're simply just like us has something need to go through maybe some of them also suffering from depression... in this point do share the experience to the person. I found that it's a way to passthrough from the difficult moments came... and alos in the same time do please keep trying to find the right person.if you have found one of them are like ''please do contact me again before make up your mind decision you 're going to do this'' do believe they're one of those people who has gold heart ,please do cherish the person if you met,and feel welcome to share your emotion to the person as well. I always have the thought ..if I do end up myself ,I really almost sure that ..no one care.... but before that I want to keep trying ..won't given easily ... and at the same time,I realize that I don't want to over depend on my friends ...or the people who's close to me. cuz that,yes they do offer help,care.but I know that till the end it's all about ourselves.they might can Provide shelter or wake me up from the bed trying to provide cares ...but the rest of have to complete it by yourself. I don't want to drag this people with me in my life which is unfair even though they're your family still don't have right to take somebody's life just like that. they support you.which is great ,take a breath ,relax~then you have to move on . alos do use some internet net work,sometime it does help. and if you feel simply shit or want to cry out it's okay~ keep trying,and stay strong be brave,don't forget get some rest don't over push yourself :))))))))

Ik this doesnt make it any better, but i understand where both of you are probably coming from. You probably feel like you need someone to talk to who will understand and who you can trust, so you confide in her even though it is really hard just to know how to begin. And you want some sort of support or something, anything. And she probably wants to help, but doesnt know how to address. Maybe she brings up happy stuff so you dont feel so sad. She is trying to cheer you up but its working in opposite ways. I know its hard to talk about it, but communication would make everything more clean. At least thats what happened with me and my friend

or they judge and gossip when u actually do tell them

what a sad truth.

or they act like they care and then they break you and complain how they think you want attention

Or they don't believe us/think we're lying and say we don't know what we're talking about

yesterday i told my mom and she said that i have no friends(which is not true) because nobody wants to see my sad face

Stay strong, hny, you can get through this. It's hard, but possible xx

Victoria Powers I feel exactly the same for Years. you are not alone. I hope you'd feel better.

Victoria Powers me too

Victoria Powers me too.. but i tried and tried to overcome this feelings .. dont give up.. we can make it

Victoria Powers I don't know who you are but you've helped me .

I'm so terribly sorry for everything you've gone through/are going through. I hope that things get better real soon and you experience so much happiness (:

That is so sweet of you to say thank you SO much! I didn't post this for sympathy at all, I just want meghan to know that even things in the past can come out and haunt you. We all juust need to be there for each other !

this is so sweet , I hope that everything is okay , you seem like an amazing person . I hope meg is better . I pray for the both of you . 🙏 put it in gods hands . he'll take care of you .

if she was like them. she would use crying thumbnail. but she didn't.

I'm so sorry I am here for you if you need me just email me @ tylerhill34@yahoo.com

I feel the same way, you're not alone. The worst feeling in life is feeling unwanted and unneeded by the person who you need the most in your life😕

Madison Cardone Ikr😔

just don't get bullied. it's so easy

cakeman74 it's not that easy. People bully me for no damn reason

OMG Jackie I love you and your vids this video made me cry even though I have never been through the same things as her I still could feel the emotion

Hi Jackie, I love you

I love your channel Jackie

WEYLIEEE!!!

OMG 2 favorite youtubers

Stay strong

sending my love xx

Se fuerte cielo, no debe ser facil eso que dices.. pero conseguiras superarlo con el tiempo 💞

***** Hello Maria! :) Don't worry about those little devils because they are just...LITTLE devils :) Love yourself and I hope You will live happy life too, no matter the circumstances.

+Sanghamitra Mitra I used to do the same, and then I promised I wouldn't do it again after my scars became visible. However, my depression and anxiety still prevails and your comment stood out to me because I feel the same way about my friends. It has gotten so bad that I shut them out and disappear when I feel bad, but reading your comment made me realize I am not alone on this. Best of luck, God bless, and stay strong.

+Carolina Rivera I can feel you. Even you stay strong, dear. :)

+Sanghamitra Mitra I know that things seem all clouded, but remember that the darker the storm , the brighter the rainbow. I hope that you find strength and hope. I understand your feelings and I know that it may be hard, but try not to cut yourself- your body deserves all of the good stuff.

+Sanghamitra Mitra Stay stong

I understand.

Same here xx

go to 7cupsoftea.com and connect to a listener, there are people there 24/7, real people that are trained to listen to you. it really helped me when i needed it, its just a suggestion, cause i know what its like to not have someone to talk to :( or even if you do.. they dont ACTUALLY listen to you. im here also by the way... you can email me at heybrighteyes1@gmail.com:)

Kirstie G Thank you so so so so much :( xx

Exactly the same Except I'm not rich:(

I have trust issues, too. Telling people about it, was something I had to do, too. Just knowing you're loved and receiving support meant a lot to me. I only told my family and doctors. I wished I only told my family, cause my doctor started to link everything to my depression, even after I found a way to leave that part of my life behind and start over. (also the medication made it way worse and my doctor told me, my depression won't ever go away and will come back. Now that's some "great" news......You don't need people like that) The thing is, nobody truly knows what's going through your mind, unless they've been depressed themselves. I never understood how rich and famous people could feel depressed, now I do. I hope Kirstie's suggestion will help you out on that, when your family isn't an option. *hugs*

You're so nice it's just... YOU'RE SO NICE. I'm really sorry about what happened to you and about your stupid doctor. I'm glad i found someone who understands me. It's just... knowing that somebody knows EVERYTHING about you is not my cup of tea... Just makes me so anxious. And about the "nobody truly knows what's going through your mind" statement is 100% true. Loads of boys in my class are always making fun of me and my other friends for being depressed and one of my guy "friends" even said "I hate depressed people because they are always negative. Like what can be that bad in life? They just need to calm down with their shit and be more positive" made me so sad and angry at the same time. Ugh...

Hardest part about being depressed is watching videos where people are only sad for a short about of time while you've been diagnosed and suffering since you were a child. If this is real depression then I must have went through absolute torture. But since there's no word for it yet, then I don't get any sympathy and nobody cares.

+Obey Oe I hate these kind of bullshit videos. "oh, I was depressed for a few weeks in college" haha try feeling those same feelings every day of your life since before you were even a teenager.

+Obey Oe the comment above goes for you too

Jackson Kettewell If you're trying to overplay being sad for a couple of weeks as serious "depression" and saying things that wouldn't help a single person with actual depression, then you're on RU-vid trying to milk your viewers and "haters" for money. All she wants is money and she's getting it by doing shit like this. Welcome to reality.

It's true. I've been told how to feel since I was a child because no one wanted to take the time to hear what I had to say, because that it would be about them. Or they didn't want to own up to the part that they've played in my depression. (But this is not to point fingers or blame anyone) this is to say sometimes we cant depend on anyone to give us validation for the way we feel. We have to just take it a day at a time and pray that we find positive ways to find happiness. Be blessed!!!

Reading that book really helped me stay on track.. Would recommend it definitely.

+Peny Willson Yeah right...there is an exception to every rule.

+Morpheus Really interesting

+Morpheus And you are the one who knows the truth beacause...?

+Morpheus that was very deep.o.o

Then just look towards your friends and create a support system that treat you right, my family isn't super nice to me either but I can tell you friends can make a stronger family then blood. I've had some friends come and go sure but I wouldn't change a thing when they still helped me through the hardest times in my life while my family just sat back and watched. Stay positive 💜💜

Bianca Fangirl same here 😔

Bianca Fangirl same but i feel like i'm stupid for over thinking of that.

I cried as well, i really love meghan and I know that she will get over this hurdle! Xxxx

me too

Me to😓

Same

*pass 2 years

Same happened to me. Peace from England UK

Same

+Daniel Hernandez me three

me too : , (

simply_kenna Not certain about the points made but ,if anyone else is searching for natural depression remedy try Craffanty Depression Stopper Center (Have a quick look on google cant remember the place now ) ? Ive heard some unbelievable things about it and my mate got great success with it.

tell her how that makes you feel.

Please always feel free to talk to me! Just say so if you want my instagram and we can talk about anything you want to because you matter so much! You are perfect and brilliant and amazing and you should never feel like you cant be yourself and be proud of yourself! You are perfect dont you dare forget that! This goes for everyone !

Kaylee Wallace same

Hey i am really depressed, and there is no one :(

i'm here!

Thank you, girl! You are beautiful too and you deserve the best too! ☺ We love you too and thank you for being so lovely and awesome! ♥ :*

omg btw I've just read that you are Swiss/Brazilian and 17! That's awesome cause I'm 17 too and I'm Swiss and one of my best friend's moving to Brazil! :D haha dini videos sind übrigens top, mach witer so! :* Mirella Derungs

Andrea Würsch jöses danke viel mol !! :)

THANK YOU SOO MUCH! !

+Mirella Derungs Thank you soo much! You literally just made day!!!

There is a cellular toxin in almost every tooth paste which makes Depression worse. It causes a deficiency of iodine and lead to negative Feelings. This toxin is fluoride. Avoiding fluorides makes a huge difference.

Sorry to here this but have a good night stay blessed

This is real and I think people like this because it shows the truth in life, and how everything nots going to be full of sunshine and rainbows. The fact that you shared this showed how real you are.

Is she and her boyfriend still dating