my eating disorder story 

Thank you for sharing your story darling, noticed from your Instagram how things were spiralling and felt that this would be the outcome. Don't beat yourself up that you are 'in this situation' or what's happened. It's not your fault, and you have been struggling. But now you have taken a huge and brave step and you will get your life back ❤️

You’re so strong, keep going 💪🏼 I haven’t done any overt exercise in years except for light walks and yoga once a week so there’s no rush at all 🙏🏼 please take care and put your health first 💕 sending love to anyone reading this

Thank you so much for being so open while sharing your story. It’s a blessing your still here with us today, it seems like you have an incredible support system (mom). So incredibly proud of you. Your so beautiful you did not need to lose weight but also understand it’s an illness and you don’t realize. I have a 13 year old daughter and fear for her mentally and they way “we are supposed to look” these days. Young girls need to watch your video and realize just how serious anorexia is. Thank you again for the message, well done!

Eating disorders can be tricky and subtle .It is certainly a journey of self-reflection. It may manifest physically but it starts in the mind. It’s wonderful that you can see that there is a problem and have reached out for help and support. Keep reaching out and accessing the wealth of knowledge that is out there . Wishing you peace and health xo

Ive been following you for a while and noticed things were going downhill. You’re so brave for opening up and putting everything into recovery, I promise you’ll get there ❤️

Hey girl! I also developed an eating disorder around may of this year. Just last month I was diagnosed officially with anorexia it is a hard battle and it honestly does suck. I hope your able to recover and live a better happier life.

Gosh so so relatable when I finally got to a referral after three different doctors I I poured my heart out she said not sick enough , just checkups from gp.... never checked again! And that broken my heart for a long time.... thank goodness for my family ❤

I came across your instagram a while ago, and I thought to myself “I hope she’s okay”. I come back now and I see your opening up about this. I’ve gone through and am still working through the same and I’m proud of you for this. It only goes up from here I promise. JUMP IN TO ALL FOODS Don’t let the fear creep in Jump head first Keep going

Im so sorry you've had to go through this but at least now you are able to realise and acknowledge it. I went downhill with anorexia at 16 (2019) and was in and out of hospital. Its such a horrible thing, you turn into a different person. I would hurt so many loved ones around me and act like a brat, I was obsessed with food and restricting and completely weak and irrational. I would also force myself to exercise and dreaded everyday because even when it was freezing I would force my struggling heart through strenuous hiit workouts when i was far from healthy. Im so lucky I didn't die. After a year I didn't think it would get worse but it did, I reached an extremely low unhealthy weight and was binging and purging every day and night for over a year straight. I dropped out of school, spent all my money on binge food and made my parents extremely stressed. At the end of last year I'm not going to get into detail but something physical happened where I would die soon if i continued. So i dedicated myself to recovery. I started by cutting out exercise and showing myself it was ok. I then increased my food in a controlled way so i didn't get overwhelmed and binge. In my ed i didn't track, but in recovery, I tracked to actually understand what I was eating at the start of this year and increased it everyday or added more if i was hungry. This helped me stay accountable. 6 months later I'm a healthy weight, working out intuitively and loosely tracking with the aim to completely intuitively eat which I'm in a much better place to be able to do now. Ive got a job and started uni and made friends again which have significantly helped me focus on other things. Ive become a better person and my brain is no longer obsessed with food and wieids like it used to be. I now find it boring. I don't consider myself fully recovered yet but it is 100% possible and I'm so glad you have started your journey to food and exercise freedom. xx sorry about the rant.

Wow, I started following you in July-August and I didn’t know you were going through something (As you said, social media made us obsessed with our bodies and comparing ourselves with everyone) I’m glad you’re recovering and you talked to your mom about how you were feeling, keep going 💪🏽✨🤍

thank you for sharing, it really is so hard (I had a very similar experience) and I’m so proud of how far you’ve come thus far. Sending you infinite hugs❤️

This motivated me so much to continue my weight gain journey after an ed coz sometimes it's just hard uk..tysm Emma ..take luv ❤

You should be so so proud of yourself for sharing your story and raising awareness, I know how hard this must’ve been for you!!! You’re amazing and this will help so many people❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you Emma, we love you and we will support you.❤️

you are so so brave& inspirational& you will get through this gorgeous girl you are doing beyond amazing🙌🏼✨✨

ur amazing for opening up❤️ u have no idea how many people it helps

Wow! Thank you so much for sharing your story and I really hope you are doing ok! I went through nearly the exact same thing around a year ago and related to so much that you mentioned, particularly the Stephanie Buttermore videos which I too became obsessed with! It can happen so fast and you become completely in denial! Wishing you all the best 💪❤️ x

SO proud of you for sharing your story🫶🏼🫶🏼

I’m so sorry , their so proud of you , rest in peace💔✨🥺xxx

Your amazing, and we all want you on this earth 💖💖💖💖

I am sending you love 💕💗💖 so strong, inspiring and you are doing amazing!!! P.S. i didn’t realise you are scottish too!!!!!

Thank you so so so much for telling your story! You are such a strong and intelligent girl and you are beyond inspiring! I started my ana recovery one week ago and I want to recover with you, I think we can do it together❤️ Everything you said felt so personal to me, I understand you. The ed really wants you dead and I’m here for killing the ed instead❤️ I believe in you! Here are som quotes: “If your ed is screaming at you, that means you are doing the right thing” “Gaining weight is scary, but waking up still with an ed in 10 years time is scarier” “Recovery is like a trip to IKEA, you might want to cut corners, but you’ve got to go through all of it if you want to get out” “Having an ed is like living with a bully in your brain. It’s too exhausting” Many hugs from me❤️Take care love

Thank you for sharing ❤️ hope you will be better than ever!!

The worst decision I ever made was to exercise during recovery. Ive had two ed "waves" so far in my life: One where I completely stopped exercise and ate EVERYTHING, and the second when I am unable to honor my hunger and wont give up exercise. Ive been struggling so long because of the need to exercise. Quitting the first time this happened did not make me pack on pounds. It instead let my metabolism heal and I was able to gain all my strenth back and a lot more in a really short period of time after I was safe to go back to exercise. Plus, I had a much better relationship with it. So, I am just saying that in my experience, it is much better to focus on recovery and refueling yourself and discovering new interests to pursue rather than jumping right back to exercise. I am not a medical professional but I cannot recommend enough to honor rest. Also, theres a book called The F*ck It Diet by Caroline Dooner, which I cannot recommend enough. It is by far one of the best books ive read in my recovery.

I relate so much with your story ❤ sending you love❤ we can do it!

Stay strong , their amazing , I really hope they recover soon❤️🥺💞xxx

You are so brave! Sending lots of love 💗

Stay strong , their amazing , I really hope their okay❤️🥺💞xxx

I hope that you can recovered well i fell hapy! I already have been there and i understand if sometimes could be a little bit hard but you can do this. And thankyo for charing your storie, because now i am trying to recovered from another ed and you gave me the motivation to continue. I hope you the best. LOVE YOU!💖💖

Thank you so much for this💕

Just an absolute legend ❤

Sending you lots of love and support,thanks for sharing your story xx❤️

So proud of u, ur doing so well and u are so brave for posting this! Don’t ever give up💪🏻ur loved, ur strong, ur awesome and u will recover.🫶🏻also side note when u said that going grey “obviously wasn’t ideal” the way u phrased that was super funny ngl, the situation isn’t funny what so ever but just the way u phrased the ideal part made me laugh but Im wishing u the best and I know u have got this💪🏻💞

You are amazing so strong 💪🏻

you are so brave for sharing youre story

Proud 🥲keep it up ❤️❤️will you wait till your at a healthy rate before exercise xx?

So brave ❤

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thankyou

Interesting cause I weigh myself every day I thought it was normal but I am kinda concerned