MY EX K-POP TRAINEE EXPERIENCE (2 Years) + Audition | Euodias 

“It was a very classic song” I thought like some Mozart 😭😂

damn. the k-pop industry sounds like a literal factory

Idk why she's story reminded me of jisoo from blackpink like when she said that she wanted to be actress but the company force her to became a kpop idol.

My thoughts first company : JYP Second company: SM

Kudos to you for not pursuing a career you weren't passionate in even though it offered fame, it shows a lot of good character

"They wouldn't tell you when you're going, they'll just send you there" oh lord...

“Big Face And Big Nose” I might as well be considered a Fckin Blue Whale to Korea then

"Classic song" *Hmm... Mozart 4th Symphon-* "AppLE bOtTom jEaNs boOts WItH THe-" *.-.*

when you said a classical dance song and then played flo rida I was so confused

Imagine if she became an idol...

I don’t even know why watching her experience about her audition makes me so nervous and anxious but like boi I’m not even planning to be an idol or anything related with that industry why am I nervous-

Can we just appreciate Kpop groups and Trainees, they go through so much hard work

Imagine waiting for hours to be stopped LOOOL

so speechless when she said that some skinny girls would bully the chubby one😐i hope my gg bias didnt do that

"like a grandpa" hmmm sounds familiar *cough cough* jyp *cough*

*aPpLE bOtToM jEaNS, bOoTs WiTh ThE fURrR*

if that nose is big, wtf is mine bruh

the first CEO was nice like a grandpa... I can only think of JYP lol

this is really an eye opener to those people who are wanting to go through auditions! I salute u for saying NO to something u're not passionate about and that's brave of u. I, myself, auditioned for JYP online auditions and got the second email saying that they reviewed my audition piece. I'm slightly anxious but hopeful despite knowing the fact that foreigners have low chances. : )

Girl, you dont have a big face nor a big nose. I hate the korean standards so much! But im glad u didnt change a thing coz ur so pretty!!

I was a K-Pop trainee for almost 2 years. The auditions are super stressful. I trained in Jellyfish Entertainment. It's no joke. You're training all day long doing vocal lessons, dance lessons, visual lessons, group tasks, and you perform on stage. It was torture but fun at the same time. I learned a lot of how to be an idol. I started training in 2014-2016. I remember when Gugudan debuted and it was huge every trainee was talking about it. I actually met Sejeong and Mina from Gugudan/I.O.I. I was forced to diet a lot. They told me to lose weight or I won't debut. I did get debut offers for girl groups though, but never made it. I left Jelly because I lost interest in debuting because of all the long training days, stress, and forced physical appearance. So i give my best wishes to every single trainee out in Korea. That's my story.

I feel like ''the chubby one" might be Red Velvet Wendy. She's got a lot of hate when she gained weight and it's really depressing because she's sooo talented and pretty. Wendy is beautiful no matter what size she is. I hate K-Pop industry because of that.

She was training at jyp for the first company - in audition a boy sings Jason mraz's song "im yours" bangchan sang that - "big grandpa" - jyp acts like one - one of the big 3 - and bangchan and felix were most comfortable speaking english

This is what happened to “Bts Jin”he audition for Acting but Bighit Decided not too bcz he was good looking and so he ended up with Bts who right now they are very successful

lol idky but the description of "the more cheeky ones that will go talk to everyone" "guy from a debuted boygroup" and "speak english fluently" directly reminds me of only one person: Jackson xD

I am currently a trainee for a company in Japan and the experiences I’ve had are so different from training in Korea. Me and the 12 other girls I train with dance, sing and all of that but, it’s not as stressful as this seems to be. I’ve cried sometimes and wanted to give. None of my coaches have ever told me to get out, rather, they helped me get back on my feet and be patient as I learned new choreo or something. I guess not all places are the same.

The company won't tell you to go to have plastic surgery but they will send you. this makes me afraid of what these Idol been throuh just to get where they are.

I think first company is JYP. Because company was nice,Ceo was nice and there were a lot of girl trainees. I think second company is SM because it is strict and based on looks

Watching this video I felt like I’m watching a KPOP idol drama rn.

12:59 "They wouldn't tell you that youre going, they just send you there" Me: waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaawaaww

I want to become an idol, however I have heard and read that most companies do not accept foreigners. And that they are extremely racist in Korea so I'm very scared about that, but I still have faith that I can make it.

It's not SM COMPANY. The girl grouo she mentioned is not Red Velvet. She said she was the ONLY trainee who speaks english. But Wendy speaks english too. Speaks very well, by the way. 🙄 And NCT only debuted in 2016. EXO, SHINEE AND SUJU do not have any members who are MORE COMFORTABLE speaking in ENGLISH. Yes, some of them speak english but we all know, they are more comfortable speaking in Korean. And it's definitely not Henry Lau. Henry is comfotable speaking in english, yes, but if he would go down to the training room, pretty sure he would talk to Wendy 'cause y'know Wendy's from Canada TOO just like he is from. She said she "auditioned" to one of the big 3, so maybe she got accepted in JYP. And then she said, they were transferred, probably she was transferred to FNC, Cube or LOEN ent. Correct me if I am wrong but I didn't hear her say that the 2nd company she was transferred to still belongs to the big3. Cause you see, if both companies she was in are from the Big3, then what was the point of mentioning those 5 companies?

This video already got me scared at the fact that this is the reality of an idol trainee. I mean if you're passionate for it then go for it but then you always have to go through this process like a machine to create a perfect porcelain product. It's scary and no wonder most of the idol stars have mental health issues.

Ok I think her second company was SM Ent because: 1. She said it's one of the big 3 2. SM is known for encouraging plastic surgery and dieting. Stella Kim who was supposed to debut in SNSD mentioned something about it. 3. The girl group is probably Red Velvet because Seulgi mentioned that most of the trainees they trained with left the company and only her and Irene stayed. 4. She said she was 13-14 when she trained which was 2011-2012, and Red Velvet debuted in 2014 5. The guy group member is probably Henry or someone from NCT

Korea's beauty standards are way harsher than every other country's.

I’m half korean half Mexican and I was treated like shit as a trainee 😭 I’m 5 ft even and under 100 pounds, (yes I was one of the shortest) in America I took gymnastics and cheerleading athletics plus ballet so I was already a dancer and athletic, and I really didn’t need to audition cause this manager thought I had an idol look and convinced my parents to let me audition my mom being Mexican she didn’t really want me to, my dad gave me the green light, and we where there for a summer vacation. So I audition and got in they put me in a girl group with 6 other girls. And here’s the thing I can’t sing, even if I had Ariana Grandes voice I’ll probably find a way to fuck that up right, so I only knew how to dance. So they had me practicing on vocals since I already knew dance. But my race was being picked at by some trainees and was brought up a lot cause I wasn’t fully korean. Since I was also born in American and was in Korea for Summer vacation I had to withdraw from school (in America) and go in online school so I moved in with my grandma in Korea I cried for months cause America was my home and it was out of no where so I had to leave behind my friends and family other in America since it was 90% that we where going to debut but I hit depression hard and with the bullying I was going through and I was in a 4 year contract since I renewed it so I wanted out by then and my depression got worse and worse everyday since I just wanted to get out. Once it was done I went back to America, being a kpop idol/trainee really is though. Oh and I forgot to mention that we where able to have our phones but they where checked at random cause since we where one of the few groups that was going to debut they let us out a bit and the girls would always talk with guys, and plus at America I was known for coloring and cutting my hair every week and since I was in contract they didn’t let me do anything, they called the shots on everything I did with my appearance so that also sent me in a mental frizz. And I’m currently 19 years old right now.

"The girl before me went in" I FELT THAT HUGE WAVE OF ANXIETY DID ANYONE ELSE

You're the kind of girl that would looks totally badass with a shaved head

“My dancing is a lot stronger than my singing” ME TOO

"And it was a really classic dance song" What I was hoping: 9th symphony of Mozart What was played: Florida by Low LOL

The second company is definitely SM

I would never want to be an idol. I couldn't put up with all of the shit and stress that idols have to go through, not to mention the industry is very vain.

I got selected as a trainee currently under a company.. WISH ME LUCK!

She said "they already debuted"cube debuted clc in 2015 so I think of that

the most scary part in Korean Ent. Industry is you don’t know when you will debut 50/50 chances dark side of kpop

It's killing me that she said the group has debuted but we don't know/can't know which group it was. LOL

I accually saw you and read your story from a documentary in Google. I was like: why can I remember this story clearly?!? Where did I read this. Oh my God I remember your profile pic-

Yea the "Stop. Next." Thing is so much JYP vibes

'a whole new world' "stop" *huAh*

First was probably Cube, their CEO is known to be like a cute grandpa 😂

if she was gonna be added into red velvet.. we probably wouldn’t know yeri

i think its Bangchan when she said the boy sing im yours by jason mraz hahahahaha

My hypothesis: 1st Company = Cube 2nd Company = S.M. Upcoming Girl Group = Red Velvet I don't know how long ago this was, it could have been Red Velvet, but that's just my hypothesis.

That strict company was S.M, i've always heard that they only give you 10 seconds to show your skills in auditions, like wtf

i admire you so much for following your heart - even after the offers of fame and fortune you turned them down to follow your dreams and that’s just insaneeee. i hope to see you acting on the big screen someday

Trainee company: we won’t put you in the acting category cuz you look good and a good fit for an idol group Also trainee company: we’re gonna send you to a plastic surgery center to get your nose and jaw done “The Wants of humans is an endless contradicting pit.” ~ me.

I don’t even know what 45 degrees is LMAOOO

good thing you could also sing and dance when put on the spot haha 😂 if something like that happened to me i would freak outtt

This answers so many of my questions regarding Korean entertainment industry. Also, great job taking control of your life and not letting other people tell you what to do!!

this was the most interesting video I’ve seen in awhile. Thank you for sharing your experience.

Yayyy I was waiting for this video thank you for sharing your experience XD scary judges are the worst T T

I wanted to be an idol so much when I was 12 (I am 20 now). I was drawn by the potential fame and success and thought I actually liked singing and dancing when in fact I didn't nor did I have any skills. Sometimes, along the way, I wonder how would it have been if I learned these skills and auditioned for companies and passed. But now, after hearing all these real stories, the trainee life, the idol life is so stressful and there's so much more involved than having the skills; the drama, all of it. Back then, I didn't appreciate western artists cos they don't work as much but now I think western artists are so much better off. They have the freedom to persue the kind of music they want and they don't need to waste time on extreme diets. Thank you for this video and I'm glad you walked away when they refused to give you what u want.

1. JYP 2. CUBE Since you said Big 3 but not YG, the first company was probably JYP because they look into the person's colour over talent (usually). Second company, you mentioned it as HUGE and STRICT. It's probably CUBE bcs theyre known for having many trainees from all ages, and many JYP trainees transfer to CUBE, so you were probably in CLC's debut line up. Also many CUBE female idols don't act and sing, they only strictly are idols.

Omg I felt so overstressed just by listening to you.. you’re a great storyteller🦭

Lmao you came for acting. But they made you sing and dance when you werent prepared and still made it what even 😂

I love K-pop the only thing that I don’t like, is that they care too much about how a singer/dancer should look. I honestly think that you should judge people by their talent, not by their image.

Honestly thanks so much for making this video. I really wanted to audition for the past few months but given my circumstances it was almost impossible (I'm not korean/japanese/asian nor do I know korean and nor can I dance, the only thing I'm good at is singing) and I was really feeling depressed because I really did want to become an idol, but this video puts my mind at ease and makes me realise that maybe I can find something else that I love to do!

The 2nd company is definitely sm. I remember your pics....you were that hidden trainee called emily 👀

i think the first one was Cube and the second one was JYP or SM

The fact that the viewers are making theories and guesses about the companies you joined are proof that KPOP fans do a lot of critical thinking 😂

I love your confidence, huhu. We are rooting for you.

I really love this vid it showed her experience and how she was very happy about what she says

What a sick, weird industry this is. I get the music is nice but the morals behind it is just sickening

I think the 1st company was Loen Ent. Then she said she got more exposure from her 2nd company cause it was bigger, so I think the 2nd company would be Cube cause 1: all of their artists debut with Korean albums, then also release Japanese albums. So it would make sense that most of their trainees speak korean or japanese. 2: The english-speaking boygroup member could be Peniel, cause english is his first language, he has a very friendly personality, and he'd prob be the one that becomes friends with trainees. 3: Clc debuted in 2015, so the time frame of training the members seems to fit well.

I love your hair...the green hair looks so good on you 😍😍

i always thought of being an idol, kpop idol to be specific. i always wanted to inspire people, sing and dance for them, and be friends with people. but im not really a good singer and dancer. im just normal/moderate if you'd rate my voice and dancing. but watching this made me think about it again. waiting for 6 hours and being stopped.. i dont know but it already makes me tear up just by imagining being stopped. im a 13 year old teen who isn't super independent. watching this made me feel so nervous, sad, stressed, and insecured. i dont think it's the face or body that matters. why do people always care about looks. not all just certain people. i mean, what matters is the inside. visual is important but not really really important. i dont want to be hated. i or we just want to achieve our dreams. i cant even tell my parents i want to be a kpop idol. so i just said flight attendant which was just alright for me. i just want to audition but im very awkward and i really get nervous to the point that i sweat too much and breath heavily. i just want to become an idol :( anyways, im very proud of you you're really great ❤

I think her first was def JYP (not too strict, boss is nice, dance focused) & and second was SM (very strict, focus on visuals, more exposure)

You could talk in another video about how your day as a trainee was. What did you learn, when did you had free time, were there certain things you weren't allowed to do And so on ^^ Great video I hope to see more of you !

omg! thank u for sharing with us~ I appreciate u for allowing us to know something a bit personal. cheers to u ^_^

After all this being said,can we appreciate now how our idols got to where they are now

It's weird to think that I could have very well seen you in some girl group or something instead of by watching your youtube videos

How they just send trainees away for plastic surgery without them knowing feels quite intrusive; like they don't even have the right over their own body. At such a young age too. That can be mentally scarring. 😐 Love how you stand your ground and be so sure about your wants and dreams.

YOU ARE SOOOOOO BEAUTOFUL, AMAZING, SMART AND TALENTED. WELL DONE.

I like your passion, because indeed the role and opportunity that is given to you is big,but then you just swipe it cause you want to do what you want(acting)🖤I like that strength

I just happened upon this video but I would like to say, personally, I admire you for saying "no" to something you are not passionate about. I look forward to watching something you act in when you finally acccomplish that goal!!! :D

when you said the boy sang I'm Yours, all i can think of is Bang Chan's audition

can i just acknowledge the favt how you are so talented?!?!?! singing acting dancing. like wtf there were 3000 ppl there and u were one of the 3 who got a contract. and if u count the pre audition ones it would be like 100× more people

Unni!!! i want to become an idol, and recently passed 1st round of auditions. AND U R MAKING ME VERY VERY NERVOUS!!! but thank u very very much! luv u ! may god bless u!

Sounds like hell.

I feel like the worst part of becoming a kpop idol is the plastic surgery like ITS PERMANENT

Thank you for this video ive been auditioning and i hope i pass you're truly inspiring

loved hearing your experience:) thanks for sharing

Shes so amazing tho.. What else she cannot do :/

I think you dont really need any plastic surgery. Your face resembling korean natural beauty

i could imagine you doing well in a kpop group but i respect u for following your heart and not getting swept up into something you dont want ❤ and it seems like you ended up in a great place anyhow

Woooow such a sparkling personality💕 you're so beautiful inside out in my point of view 💕

This probably has got to be the most legit trainee experience video i've ever watched. Thanks for the insights!

this is the most informative trainee experience I've watched so far. Thank you for sharing your life as a trainee. it really gave me an idea. Pls continue to upload more videos abt yourself Euodias! ❤

The audition was so stressful. They just look at you and if you don’t fit the standard even if you’re talented you’ll get axe.

Thanks for this video. Very insightful :)