My Hobonichi makes me question everything 

Thank you very much!

Thank you for your thoughtful reply! And I feel the same about having a conversation with myself, talking it out. I think part of the problem I’m having with the Hobonichi (that I don’t know that I expressed well in this video) is that it feels more like memory keeping than journaling a lot of the time. And it takes a lot of time to keep up with every day (and I fail to do so most of the time) so maybe it’s taking away time that I could be using journaling for writing. There’s a lot to think about! Oh, I did morning pages for a while. I would like to go back to that because I think it was helping for getting all of it out, uncensored. ❤️

I forgot to say that I relate very much to anxious overthinking as well. 😫

@@papercrowpress Yes, I’ve realized that nice notebooks and planners like hobonichi - if I want to keep them they are more like memory keeping and archiving documentation - rather than raw journaling!

@tortagialla definitely! Thanks again - I think you’re really helping me to clarify what I want to do next year. I think a more open-ended book is better for me, probably.

PS I checked out your channel and subscribed! I will look forward to seeing all your Hobonichi stuff. 😁

Yay! Thanks 🙏

Wow, yes, it IS good to know there are others out there thinking the same thoughts about their journals! I also worry that people I love might read some fleeting negative thought I wrote about them on a particular day and be hurt by it. I am leaning toward asking that they are preserved somehow, though, with the caveat that everyone has negative thoughts about people they love. But I think in the future *someone* might find them interesting, or at least entertaining! Also, I’m trying these days to accept that making things that are personal to you and sending them out into the world is inherently embarrassing! But we should just do it anyway and be embarrassed forever! 😆

@@papercrowpress yeah I don't LOVE the idea of people being hurt by something I said or of experiencing embarrassment, but I guess that's a part of life regardless! Maybe some thoughts will just stay precious to me, and others can be shared! But for now, this is a problem that you and I (hopefully) won't have to really worry about for a long time!! :) Thanks for your video and this opportunity for me to talk about something personal to me and to share a bit of it! Well wishes and good health to you :)

@@alliekarrenbauer3538 same to you!

Thank you for this - I relate to so much of it. When you say you don’t care about the dates - when you cover the dates do you write in your own dates, just out of curiosity? I have an old scrap book in which I stick anything from receipts to wrappers to old bank cards and I haven’t been dating it. “I can’t do anything else” is quite similar to what I thought when I started my pile of moleskines 10 years ago. I thought something like “in 10 years I’ll at least have this.”

"I want someont o be able to write in-character fanfiction about me after I'm dead" made me laugh out loud because I UNDERSTAND THAT I also have a hard time sharing things about myself to my close people, but I also want to be known and feel like journaling is a way for at least MYSELF to know me, ya know?

@@papercrowpress “in 10 years at least I’ll have this” Oh yes. My actions feel kinda worthless a lot of times and this is one of the few things I can actually finish and achieve As for the dates, I write them in myself. At first I just wrote the year in the first entry of the journal, it would be like “12 October 2023” and from there on “13 October” “14 October” and the time That stopped working when 2024 came around and I got confused about what year it was (I didn’t even store my journals properly back then, just left them on the desk or the floor and “I’ll re-figure out the order later”). So I added the year in every entry And then I think I used an undated planner that had circleble days of the week and I realised that actually really useful for referencing the past (like “X said on Monday that this would be on Wednesday but it’s already Thursday”). So I started writing the days now too And I don’t worry about blank space either, cause my sleep schedule doesn’t really align with the night, so “today” can go well into 3am and “yesterday” can be this morning. I just continue on the page where I left off unless there’s like two rows left I do try to keep my markers different for each sleep though, I rotate though a bunch of highlighters and pick a new one up when I start my day, so it’s visible at first glance that I did sleep So now my journals look like “10 September 2024 - Tuesday - 17:10 18:37 22:20 11 September 2024 - Wednesday - 1:07am 3am” Though I only mark the exact minute if something specific happens at that minute (like waiting for someone and they get there when my journal is still out, or if it’s a glued-in piece of paper from my notepad when I was keeping track of something ), usually I round them to the closest :10/:20 etc

Oh yes and I cannot keep multiple journals at the same time at all! I used to have a dream journal for a few years before big-journaling. And then I didn’t know what to do. Do I log my sleep in the dream journal? Do I write how and when I slept in the dream journal or regular one? If I have comments about the dream, which one do I write them in? Writing the dream gets the writing juices started, so then I struggle to transition to the regular journal. And then what if my dream journal gets lost and I don’t have the dreams I was referencing anymore?? The one time I kept a pocket journal it was for a trip. I placed it in my regular journal when I came back and it makes the journal bulk up so much more than it already does I’m trying to work up the courage to *just use* a pocket journal too for when I’m out and about and *not* rip it to shreds and glue it in the big journal every time I get home. But it’s very hard, small notebooks are easier to lose so what if I lose it?? Though using pocket notebooks in the way I do isn’t fully bad, since they actually get used and don’t just sit on my shelf. And then the pretty covers become decoration for my big journals

@@lucid3773 all so interesting! It’s good to read others’ thoughts and experiences about journaling that are so similar in some ways and also different… thank you for such thoughtful replies!

I was looking at the A6 day free, which I might consider for next year. 🤔

Thanks, and thanks for the feedback.

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Yes! As a former prison librarian his story is very interesting to me 😁