my horrible highschool experience... my advice 

how was/is highschool for you? for me, it was very lonely, isolating and horrible.

*D E E P C O N D I T I O N E R* *D E E P E R T H O U G H T S*

Bruh I wish my coping mechanism was studying and getting a 4.0

i love how youtube’s algorithm decided to put this video in everyone’s recommended’s right when school is about to start

"Your body is a vessel for your soul. It is not for other people's enjoyment, it is not for other people to approve of, it is not for other people to rate, it is not for other people." - Penny Tovar Love this. 💕

I don’t know what was more deep the conditioner or the thoughts...

“I would say HELL YES,Cause it’s a million dollars “ We love a smart d e e p conditioner

normal youtubers: mukbang penny: deep conditioner deeper thoughts™ this is why i love u

I was bullied terribly in high school...but in college/ Uni I got my confidence back due to its positive atmosphere!!!

You should give a TED talk

“Your body is a vessel for your soul and not for nobody else to judge “ i love that. That’s quite is going on my wall

the person behind your class that sits alone at lunch, go talk to them, i swear it will make you feel and be a better person. You don’t need to be there friend but at least let them know theirs someone that thinks about them

*"you only get one body sis - you better start loving it now!!"* _deep_

Traumatized in spanish*

anybody else thinks she looks like alessia cara and sounds like a mixture between cardi/alessia?

I’m so glad that someone else has actually been through the same thing that I did, and not just saying oH I hAvE nO fRiEnDs to be relatable. I also had no one to sit with or talk to or text at ALL and I used to go home everyday for lunch or go to the library. I felt it when you said it’s so painfully lonley. It really is. I always wanted to hang out with someone but I literally had no one to do so, and it sucks when people assume you have friends like “what do you usually do with your friends?” Or “why don’t you text a friend about it”. That’s how I spent all of grade 8 and my freshman year, I’m going into grade 10 now and I’m hoping it will be different.

Yo, this is freaky. You took me back to a very dark time in my life, incredibly dark, I was straight up evil, and broken. God is so faithful to pull us out of the pit. I'm alive because He is 🙌🏽

And I'm complaining about to much homework

My mom always said , it's better to have just one friend that will always be honest with you then 20 that will stab your back . And just be yourself 💖 and not everyone has to like you and u don't have to care if they don't .

High-school makes me feel claustrophobic.

Middle and high school were the worst years of my life. This woman speaking facts! Your best years are in college or if you do not go to college, your adult life will be better than in a school setting. I know some people may disagree, but majority of the people in the comments have it rough too like me😪💯

I wish I could say I didn’t but I COMPLETELY relate to everything you said.. I didn’t have a single friend, I put my mom and my sister through hell (which they didn’t deserve) to the point where they felt unsafe in their own house.. self harm, being beat up at school constantly, I struggled with gender, aaaand then I dropped out of high school. and because of all the dumb shit I still to this day feel like I don’t belong anywhere. I might have a massive community/crowd around me that appreciate me and look up to me, I have good friends, I have my family, but still I just feel like an outcast, like I don’t belong, If that makes sense. Either way, I’ve come a long way and I’m 1000% happier but the shit did leave a lasting impact and I can’t wait to some day get completely over that. Cos I will Some day, I know I will heh. AnYWAYS I need to shut the fuck up, ILY and I love your t-shirt lol

That "friends with popular people" thing really resonated with me,, idk why I'm so scared of reaching out to the "popular kids" even when I know that they aren't that different from me...😭

I completely understand wym. In high school I was an extreme loner. I would always let my anxiety/depressive thoughts hold me back from living my life happily. I did have a small group of friends but even then we seldom spent time outside of school. I utterly felt like I was part of nothing and the only thing I could do was focus on my grades like you said. As for my family, I was also really nasty towards them. I'm glad though that I could heal as well and move on from that point. College is a bit of a different story and I still struggle but I'm staying optimistic :)

We love a counsellor galllll

AM I LATE OR DID SHE JUST CHANGE HER CHANNEL NAME FROM CURLYPENNY TO PENNY TOVAR?? 💔

my middle school was horrible. i had suffered through severe social anxiety. i had it since elementary but had friends from kindergarten. in middle school all my friends made new friends. they would say, “you can be friend with both of us!” but no..i couldn’t. it’s easy for, and at the beginning me and my friends talked and agreed “i’m not gonna make friends” and maybe they were joking. but i wasn’t. i had no friends. i hated it. i cried everyday. a good day, was a bad day, just..better.

I’m 17 now in senior year still sitting alone at lunch. I feel like I’ve just gotten numb to being lonely and not having anyone to talk to. I feel like the only thing keeping me sane is going to the gym and working on myself even though I hate everything about me. But what hit me the most in this video is when she talked about wishing to just be like other people being “normal”

I sent this to my daughter who is 15. I really loved this video. You are inspiring and you have a great perspective on life.

About a week ago I was diagnosed with clinical depression and lately my life has been horrible my family life is a huge reason for how I am feeling and after I watched this video it made me realize that after I graduate high school I can move on and start over and this really really helped me I’m so proud of you for all that you have overcome I know how it feels and I’m just hoping I can do what you did thank you so much❤️

my senior quote is gonna be "dont treat me like a infant brainless platypus @5:09"

This girl is absolutely stunning omfg

I'm so happy that you still have the Zelda shirt ♥️

Advice to freshman: Make as many friends as you can and stick with a positive attitude. It only benefits you later because if you don’t youll have a higher chance of feeling alone and it’s hard to bring grades up once they’re already down. *the key is stay ahead while you can* :)

Gurl. GURL. I’m on the verge of tears .because. YES.

I’ve always had trouble making friends and talking to people. I’m just the type of person to be really quiet around people I don’t know. In middle school I had a group of friends. I had to go to a different high school then them. But we got into a fight and no one would talk to me. I am a junior now and I’ve been sitting in the bathroom stall during lunch ever since the beginning of freshman year. I have just gotten used to it. I Used to cry a lot and I still do. I’ve just never really gotten over it. I’ve never put in effort to make friends. I’m just too shy and boring. I don’t Know how to start a conversation or keep it going. I’ve just been trying to get through high school. And honestly I don’t want friends. I Realized that through my whole life all they ever do is leave me. At the same time I feel like I ruined my whole life.

high school was TERRIBLE. academically i was doing fine but socially i was extremely depressed and was constantly picked on for the dumbest stuff (my race, my loud af personality). it got to the point where i just stopped talking all together and just kept to myself and my 2 friends (who i wouldn't trade for that huge group of friends you see at lunch). it wasnt until college where i found who i really was and found people who brought the best out of me, who support me, and want nothing but success for me. i can also confirm that *it does get better* ❤️

My experience in high school was hell. completely hell ! The fact that I was in a abusive relationship for all 4 years made me hate myself for who I was I always felt wrong for doing what I did. I felt like I didnt fit in because I was either too quiet, not popular, not smart, or not fun to be around . For the some what of friends I did have I pushed away. I was always bullied by the mean girls because I didnt dress up because I ddint have what they did. Till finally senior year is what topped it for me . I got pregnant senior year by my abusive boyfriend. my mom found out and completely shut me out and told me I wasnt her daughter anymore my real dad wasnt in the picture and my step dad was completely disappointed with me . At the time and became the high school joke . Everyone made fun of me for being that girl who got pregnant in high school for being the dumb one to stay in a abusive relationship. I ran away and never spoke to my family was homeless bouncing from house to house. never went to the doctors to check how my child was doing. I hated everyone and my self let alone bring a child into this ass of a world. I had become so depressed during my pregnancy I tried killing myself 2 times. I hated who I had become what I've done and why I was even alive to see another day if I was such a disappointment. Until I had a eye opening experience. EMT sent me to the hospital after a emergency with self harm. That's where it ended i was done and I heard it . I got to hear my child heart beat and forgot about everything my pain my suffering.. everything was gone . My heart filled with joy and never have I loved myself more then I do now after that freak accident. I told my self Everyone was wrong that I was going to show them they were wrong I took my ass back to high school graduated in 3 weeks of being back got my diploma and walked the stage . I started college at acc in austin and got a great job with a tech company because of my college career path. My child came out healthy and is about to be 1 years old in a couple of days . I ended up fixing my relationship with my step dad and till this day he supports me and my son unconditionally he was there for me in the hospital when no one else was saw me walk the stage and do everything on my own. My mom never came back into my life but I still love her . In the end I turned out to be my best so trust !!! Everything does get better !!!!

other people: i have no friends **cries non-existent tears** me: *spots them laughing with friends* penny: *explaining* me: **actually crying**

When she said “Your body is a vessel for your soul” I felt that 😔

I felt almost exactly like this.but in middle school.i felt soooo alone. I had no one to sit with at lunch no one to partner up with. Heck I would sit in the bathroom at lunch beacuse I did not want to be be seen alone by all the other “cool/popular” kids.i was super insecure about my looks that I would not even look at someone in the eye for more than 5 seconds beacuse I was afraid that they would notice my features. I felt everyday would get worse and I always ask myself what is wrong with me? Why does no one like me? What do I have go through this? Honestly when I would see all of my so called friends hanging out and have fun I would feel so sad and defeated. Almost every night I would go home and cry at night. During school sometimes I would tear up a bit but I would not let it slip.i would always smile when someone would talk to me beacuse I did not want them to now I was sad and think something was up.literaly the smallest things like a friend I have not seen for a while smiled at me would make my day.thank you penny for sharing this. It makes me feel better that other people had gone through the exact same thing as me. Anyway thanks for listening to my ted talk. X

Penny is so right. College is hella better than high school. It's cool that she shared her advice. Popularity doesn't mean shit !

this was actually really inspiring. to be honest I'm just waiting for high school to end and I'm REALLY hopeful for college, like actually praying

I can kinda relate to your story. When I was a kid, I always had friends and people to talk to. Freshmen year was okay, because I had my friends. But I started to notice that I didn’t really could relate anymore. And that’s ok because sometimes people grow apart. Sophomore year was terrible. I decided to stay a little away from those “friends” because I felt they didn’t like me anymore. I was too scared to find new ones. I felt I was not good enough and stupid and that nobody wanted to be my friend. That year was pretty lonely. I sometimes sat with one of my old friends during lunch, but it was weird for me. I isolated myself and started hating myself. Now I’m in junior year, and I try to focus on my schoolwork. I still hate myself but I try not to. I sit alone and distract myself by RU-vid, Reddit and reading books. It’s sad that the library isn’t open during the lunch break, because now everyone will see me sitting alone and judging me. I try to say to myself that I don’t need friends and that it’s fun by myself. It works sometimes. Most of the time not. This year I’m trying to stop hating myself, so I can be happy. It isn’t really working yet, but I will get there, I hope. In the meantime I’m not making any friends irl, because I’m afraid of people. I never say anything in school. Okay that was a pretty long story. Loved the video m. Thanks a lot. I cried multiple times. ❤️ have a nice day everybody

Praying 4 your cousin RIP angel 💜

Best advice : don’t let anybody take advantage of you and walk all over you , and DONT I repeat DONT TELL ANYBODY YOUR SECRETS

I’m 14 and this is 100% relatable, I have only just started making friends again after about three years and I am beginning to come out of this negative cycle. I also had depression, anxiety and eating disorders. There was nothing I would necessarily recommend, as therapy and anxiety/depression groups never worked for me, however (this is gonna sound so weird) vitamins really helped me to become happier. I take one/two drops of CBD oil in the morning and evening, as well as B-vitamin supplements (in the morning) and L-tryptophan at night. Please try this honestly and remember, you are loved xxxxxx

Kinda late to watch this video, but I just came across it and I literally cried. I am a sophmore in HS, and I am recovering from depression, and have had history of self-harm, anxiety, and severe selfhate. I literally listen to your story, and I think its literally me. I cried so much because I actually have so similar stories. I had an abusive boyfriend, when I was recovering and in treatment for depression, that took me to various suicide attempts. I also come from an incredibly amazing family, I have both of my parents and brother living with me and they are so suportive. I had no friends because I just cut them off, and as ironic as it sounds, my only source of confidence or support was and has been a teacher. I am so inspired by your story and I really felt identified. I love you so much and I really apreciate you sharing. Thank you so much x

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1:02 I BE SEEIN THAT ˢˡᶦᵖ

Girl you are so real...

I literally relate to sitting alone in the library and dedicating your life to studying is literally me at the moment

Penny Great video as usual! As a freshman high school was ok, but after that year things were better! Anyone worried about high school, don't stress about it you will be your own worse nightmare. Just enjoy it and learn because before you know it be over. Enjoy those years 🤗 Everyone have a blessed rest of the week 😇

Because of covid, I wasn’t able to make strong connections with people during zoom classes, therefore none of them were considered friends. I started sophomore year three days ago except I moved schools. Everyone in school already knows each other. I don’t. I felt so bad about myself because no one came up and talked to me. I tried to make small convos with others, but none of them seemed that interested. I cried for 4 hrs in my room after the first day of school. I had to straight up lie and tell my parents that the first day was good :/. So yeah. I really wish I was able to go in person my freshman year. But again, it wasn’t an option. F in chat

I am in Highschool right now and all I can say, it’s horrible. It all started with a rumor which wasn’t true at all now everyone in school including the teachers hate me, I try to make friends but instead they just push me down the stairs… I just can’t wait to go to college and make this all stop, recess is the WORST

I had alot of worst moments in my school life.when I was in 10th class.I used to be silent,simple girl with two ponytails,I only reply when someone talk to me that's it.most of my classmates were my coachingmates as well.Once in my coaching a boy(classmate) accidentally threw a jug of water on me.i don't think it was accidentally (he said cooler se current laga isliye girgaya) one of my friend which was my best friend in past not at that time was laughing at me and saying (you bathed) hahaha.. She said everyone in the school abt this everyone was laughing at me no one was with my side I didn't share this incident with anyone not even my parents Then after that many more incidents happened Like… 3 of my classmates punctured my cycle tyre.there was no cycle mechanic on my way that's why I had to drive with the punctured tyres That's why I started to stay alone in my school and coaching In coaching there was we 9 students only 3 girls (me included) and 6 boys.I used to go on time in coaching always. Once I went early 5 boys were present teacher didn't come yet… I went and sit on sofa(we used to sit there) they started using abusive language (not directly saying to me ) but indirectly they mean that the used b**bs and making fun of mensuration etc and finally teacher came. I got relief then I started to go late on coaching. But sometimes this incident happened with me ( when teacher was late) Once in school one of my friend clean her inked hands with my back. My uniform was spoiled. And It was mid session of school (it was secondary school also my school was ending ) my parents refused me to buy new uniform My parents asked Who Did This.I said My friend my father complained in my school abt that next day.and on that I silently cried in prayer I don't know why.I was hurt. one of my teacher saw me and asked what happened I said nothing… My teacher told this to my father ( when he went to complain)…I was more hurt to know that my father knew I cried… My father asked me why I cried. I lied that I didn't cried my friend was crying teacher thought its me . once again everyone laughed at me bcoz of my uniform And many more incidents happened can't share all. I already wrote too much

I watch this every time I’m struggling because it truly speaks to me on a true true level...❤️💖

Would you be willing to talk more about your gender dysmorphia in another video? If you're comfortable with it, it would be really interesting to learn more about your experience. 😊

SIS this is me, I'd literally save homework for lunch so I could have something to do in the library

*“Like in high school they treat you like a infant brainless platypus” yes that will be senior quote.*

Boi I’ve never clicked so fast.

I’m still in high school. And so far it is horrible :( and notifications squad ❤️

I agree honey, I agree so wholeheartedly! High school was a DARK time and now I’m in my 2nd year of community college and I feel so much better. Also, I’ve learned and grown - like you said - “learned better coping mechanisms.” How to deal with anger and those emotions that used to cause me to ruin the relationships with those I loved and cared for the most. If anyone in high school is reading this, know that it is 100% true, IT DOES GET BETTER. I used to wonder if I was going to feel that way forever or be surrounded by ignorant people forever. But believe me, High school will be over sooner than later. It will end eventually, and you’ll be off to the next part of your life. She is right, it does get better. Hang in there you guys and girls

this is somewhat me. i don’t care about anyone i don’t care about school and i don’t care about myself. i am depressed and when i go back (when corona is over) i know i won’t have any friends because i don’t care about them and all of them are either racist or not someone i would want to be friends. i am depressed and no one understands or they say they do but in a “quirky way” which is not me

Someone needs to collab with penny and make a deep conditioner called deep thoughts

My high school was horrible too ...i had a lot of social anxiety and my friends used to mock me for that . They always judged me , laughed about me, made my self esteem more low,..... theyy were literally toxic ..i got no real friends in high school and no male friends. I was ssoo sooo broken and frustrated ......and now as i have completed my high school and started college i feel soo relief never to go that place again and never to face those toxic girls again. I hope it all gets better soon

I have a friend group from 7 people (or 8 idk) but I don’t have a best friend ☹️ And I’m too shy to talk to people I don’t know so well I hate it but I can’t really control it

Holding back tears when you talk about your depression and how it changed you. Such a crazy battle. Díos te bendiga💞💞

“I would say hell...yes because it’s a million dollars” ohh how I love you 😂❤️

Thank you for mentioning the fact that your brain is still developing when you're in your teens. If it helps anyone else to know this, your brain isn't finished cooking until your mid 20s, it's a biological fact. So it's no wonder your brain can make you feel like shit when you're in a high-tension, judge-y environment like high school. I was depressed for about a third of my high school experience and looking back, I wish I had known more about why I felt the way I did. At the time, I couldn't understand that it was a temporary problem. I was lucky because my brain sorted itself out eventually.

Watching this literally made me feel better. Mental health is seriously not taken serious by people until they GO THROUGH IT. I literally went through the exact same thing. Anxiety, Anger, Depression. It was like I was in a hole and dirt was adding into it. I felt like there was no way out of that hole. I literally had no idea how to cope with it. I truly understand you when you said you felt alone even though you weren’t. I was mad at everyone because I felt like they weren’t understanding me but it was that mental block.

Omg penny ur so strong and brave for sharing ur high school experiences with us! thx so much for the advice too! 💖😚🥰

We’re the same person. I didn’t know it was possible for me to relate this much to someone. The self hate, the studying, the depression, the anger, the OCD, all of it. My living situation was a bit complicated (no abuse lol, they’re good people). My coping mechanism was studying, except I burnt out in senior year pretty bad, and ended up getting lower grades than people who did way less than me, the. I hated myself even more which made me burn out even more, and it got worse and worse and my grades plummeted which made the whole cycle of hate for myself even worse. It was a bad time I just graduated highschool and I just hope university will be better. This was the worst time of my life and I didn’t know I’d relate to someone this much.

You’re a great human being. The way you’re using this platform is admirable! You’re also super funny without trying ☺️.

you sound exactly like cardi b!! you're gorgeous btw

I was super lucky, I learned from other people's experiences and my own. I'm lucky enough to have solid people in my life who understand me and love me for who I am. I've always had super bad anxiety so hs was my time to truly be myself and have fun :))

When the deep condition sessions goes deeper than you thought😭❤ you are such a awesome person and right know you are slayin all those people! And self acceptance is a so important❤ and shit happens so yeah that sucks but please dont stop with these sessions cause these are the best!🧡

Ok I just found you and have watched several of your videos. This one is my favorite so far. I seriously love you and your attitude toward life, you got my subscription!! Also: high school was a vivid Hellscape, lonely af and depressing, thank God it only lasted 4 years otherwise I wouldn't be here.

Im in 10th grade, ive been doing online school for the past year and a bit and honestly Im struggling, I have no friends atall, I lost all my friends because of lack of communication. Im honestly going through the hardest time and I feel like I have noone to talk to. Every thing has been feeling so much worse lately because my 16th birthday is coming up and I dont want to celebrate it because I have noone to celebrate with and I always looked forward to having a "sweet 16" when i was a little girl so the fact that I can't have one has been weighing down on me ontop of everything else. Ive thrown myself into school work and doing art in my freetime wich helps me cope but whenever I'm not doing that i just feel extremely sad and lonely, I cant help but feel like my teen years are being wasted because im constantly at home. This video made me feel a little better and its comforting to hear someone else talk about being lonely and say that it will get better tho

I wish I could redo high school sometimes, my confidence today and how much I’ve changed as a person I feel like my experience would have been way better, but who I am today comes with going through life growing and learning. My advice to kids going into to high school is this Nobody actually cares how you dress/ what you do, everyone deep down is worried about themselves and their own insecurities so always be 100% you.. don’t try to fit in to what’s popular. Go the the gym… you’ll have more confidence and your body will feel great and it’s awesome for your overall health. Try not to be to shy, go to the dances, parties, gatherings ect, you never know what could happen socially, you might make a new best friend, meet your high school sweetheart. Remember people’s opinions at school don’t matter, be yourself and try to enjoy the HS experience because once it’s over reality is on the other side ready to hit you with bills, student loans, rent and a billion other shitty adult shit.

Btw, yes I would LOVE a college journey video. I plan to go to college or University myself and I really wanna know how it’s like. Thnx!! ❤️

The last 3 years of school I went through depression and borderline disorder (quite borderline disorder). I am 21 now and I gratuaded last year in Sommer. Those 3 years were literall the darkest years of my life. And also I was bullied in Highschool for thank god not so long (6months but still that time was also like sh*t) My family didn't raised me with any self-confidence and that was one of the MANY reasons why I went through depression. I CAN ONLY AGREE WITH YOU PENNY: THOSE DARK TIMES WILL BE ONE DAY OVER. I also thought that I have to deal with depression and borderline for the rest of my life. I reached out for help and I went to a psychological therapist. She helped me A LOT. I couldn't even tell my friends especially my BES FRIEND hos bad I felt that time and I alost broke all of my relationships with my friends just because of 1 toxic friend. But now after that time I have to say that I am kind of thankfull for that dark time in my life. I know now that if I fell bad I can talk to my friends and if it gets worst that I can reach out for professional help. I am an introverted person and I dealed with my depression and borderline with sleeping because sleeping was the only time without thinking about my problems. I slept a lot during that time. I stopped studying for school, I gained wheight, I got acne, my hair started to fall out. But almost near the end I told myself: B*tch if you are not starting to study again you will not be able to graduate! I started to feel a bit better and now I am working on my self-confidence and self-esteem by going to singing lessons. And it is like that dark time prepared me for the life. I know now that I am strong! I MEAN EVERYBODY IS STRONG WHO IS DEALING WITH MENTAL ILLNESS BECAUSE IT TAKES SO MUCH ENERGY! At the end of the day it's only you and your thoughts. When I was bullyied in highschool (maybe 8th grade) I felt so much shame to seek for help. I thought that when I am going to tell my teacher that I am beeing bullyied by those 3 boys in my class ( they said I looked stoned because I have dark eye circles) I thought that my teacher is going to not taking me serious and will laugh at me. I told no one until about 1 year ago that I was bullyied back then. I REGRDT IT SO MUCH THAT I DIDN'T TELL MY TEACHER. AND NOW THAT ,,COOL BOY" that f*cker which used to bullyied me) is kind of a junkee now. CURLYPENNY IS RIGHT WHEN SHE SAYS THAT THE COOLNESS IN HIGHSCHOOL MEANS NOTHING. NOTHING IN THE WORLD! Long story short: -It is okay to talk to someone and reach out for professional help. -You don't need to be ashamed. -It is not your fault. -Try to start to work on yourself (selfconfidence, selfesteem, getting rid of acne and toxic relationships, ...) -THERE IS WILL BE A BETTER TIME TRUST ME!

How would ppl not be friends with u. You have a great personality

Crying at the end of watching this is a different kind of pain. I'm 15 and moved to an all-girls school last year. Since then, I've been letting this dark side control me. I have unintentionally told lies that have torn apart frienships, and because of my insane lack of confidence ( I've had this from the start) I can barely sit in a room without feeling nervous. Thoughts such as "Who is looking at me?" "Am I not doing the right thing?" What if people are judging me? This attidude made me concious about the features on my body that I have. Not gonna lie, I was born with a 'perfect hourglass figure'. Not to mention, as soon as I hit puberty my eyes became more beautiful and I started to look attractive and appealing to the eye, playing both face value and bpdy value cards at one time. Some people dreamed to have an appearance like me, and doubted me when I told them that "Trust me, it's not all as good as it seems". Boys staring at me only added to myalready consious mindset. Due to Covid, I would say I lost all the good in. my personality. I went from loving, kind, natrually caring and intelligent to the exact opposite. I was rude to my family members and even made my mother cry infront of me and her telling me to improve my behavior. This one negatvie voice formed in my head, making me loose track of my responsibilities such as studying for an enterance exam to get into a better school. I was often told that I looked confused and lost, which was true. I felt myself growing more intrigued and diving into my thoughts more, unnecessarily overthinking things and because of this, I think I ruined all the chances I had.

I feel alone right now as my sophomore year. Glad to know you’ve gotten better. Gives me hopes. Love you and your hair penny ❤️

Had to stop what I was doing the queen has uploaded! 😍

Sometimes depression has no reasoning. We just have to be stronger and let ourselves feel the emotions not try to escape them. I’m glad you’re in a better headspace now and those days are wayyy over. Bigger better things now!!!

i'm in my sophomore year in high school, and i feel like i'm never happy with myself. i feel like i haven't experienced anything, or been the person i want to be. i have a constant phobia that i'll miss out on the "high school experience" and i hate thinking about it lol i'm gonna cry now

See, this is what we need for back to school than one of those school supplies videos and other back to school crap, ok? Thank u for giving great high school advice that will help me in the near future since I’m almost about to be a freshman next year. Cya love ❤️ ❤️❤️

This video literally made me cry I could completely understand everything you said. Everyone is so judgmental and I find it really hard to make friends and talk to people. On Fridays at lunch I literally sit by myself and I read in the library until lunch is over. I wanna make friends but it's like I'm worried that I'll be judged or something like something is holding me back from what I want to do. And my self esteem and confidence is at the low of lows and I just don't know what to do.

It is so relieving to know someone else went through exactly what I've been through, because everyone else looked like they had their life together and were genuinely enjoying it

Please make more deep videos I love them your are the most sincere and honest person I've met! I enjoy hearing you talk so much.

I’m going to freshman year next year and I’ve been homeschooled for middle school I’m freaking out

Wow I was in a similar situacion. Im in high school and in college. Im somewhat popular but not in a preppy way more like a good person. In middle school I didnt like who I was. I was the loner and I got bullied for being a Christian. When I got to high school I learned to choose the right friends. Then people started coming to me for advice. The same people that would do me wrong in middle school now looks for me for advice. Isnt that crazy? The key is to accept who you are and truly value the traits you have. Try to find friends that will push you to do best you.

I'll just say thank you so much! this is giving me hope... just 2 more years then I'll pass out from high school

Is RU-vid trying to tell me something wtf

YALL I watched the whole thing and I literally ended my friendships this summer because they were toxic and now as a junior in hs I have no friends and I have rlly bad depression I relate to this sm and ily

I have friends, outside of all my classes, even then, they're all I have and I can't even speak to them comfortably. I'm socially anxious and boring and like someone else said here, I can't start or keep a convo going. I can tell some ppl in my class have tried to talk to me but I just can't talk to them as myself or in a way that makes them want to befriend me and I just make everything awkward, I don't even know how I made all the friends I did in the past

i really needed this right now, i’m a senior and literally just went through the most horrible situation with the most manipulative boy and i was just watching youtube when this popped up thank you

I'm so grateful I came across this video. I'm currently going through severe bullying and it's affecting my grades. I'm scared because I really want to go to college but I'm having a hard time balancing work and school as well as trying to cope with depression and anxiety and psychosomatic symptoms due to stress and anxiety