You probably don’t feel this way, but you are so brave for sharing this. I lived 3 years with my husband’s cancer diagnosis, hope and despair and his ultimate death 3 1/2 years ago. Such a difficult time, a total shattering of what you thought your live would be. My first 6 months alone were totally black. My little dog was my only comfort..and I lost her 1 1/2 years ago. I see you are doing the work to move forward. My heart goes out to you and all widows. No one else gets it.
“A total shattering of what you thought your life would be” is so true. It’s not just grieving the person, it’s grieving everything that was “supposed to” happen. 4 months in, I cry when I see retired couples together. I so wanted that. Thank you, Lauryn, for this offering of common humanity.
Jenn .... so very sorry.... Sending much love and comfort to you at this horrific time. Please be kind to yourself and give yourself grace you need to take your time to breathe adjust and face each day quietly and selfishly and don't apologise for being sad . Always here for you. Janice 🇬🇧 xx
Thank you so much for your kind words, Janice. "Horrific" very much describes the last few years, but "face each ay quietly and selfishly" is some of the best advice anyone has given me. What a revelation to think of being selfish and something necessary and good!
@fromjenn This is the best advice I can give you because there will be people who : a) Don't know what to say to you, so don't talk to you .. b) people who expect you to "be over it" ... c) people who overdo the sympathy and make you feel worse.... So it's so important that you grieve in your own way. And that includes choosing who to be around and when to have alone time. Obviously, you do need people you love to support you and be there if you need to talk, but it's important that you have some control over this. Selfish is fine at times like this, because as long as you are careful to support anyone else who loved him and are grieving too, you must allow yourself the space and peace to come to terms with a new way of living and finding the best way to do that while honouring his memory by continuing to live ,enjoying reminiscing of the wonderful times you had together . Don't be afraid - you will be healing a little each day, and while you may always be sad, you will find a way to live again . In friendship Janice 🇬🇧 xx
Oh Jenn, I am so sorry. I know that nothing I can say is going to make you feel any better....because this is my and my husbands story as well. Except, once he was diagnosed he never got back home. 😭 For 2 months we were back and forth between the hospital and the rehab. I lost count of ambulance rides. The last trip to the hospital was the end.
I just saw this comment @ppw8716 and thought I’d use it as opportunity to check in on both of you. I hope you are continuing to live your lives, even while carrying this grief burden and you’re in my thoughts.
My first video I've seen of yours. I can't express how sorry I am for your loss and how amazing you are to share your grief. Thank you for sharing, I'm here to stay.
So sorry for your loss,i lost my husband 1year ago from consequence of bizarre sports accident playing football while kept innocent in prison..I am left alone with 2sons 13 and 17years old..he was my everything..i am 48...how this can be thrue?
I'm so sorry for everything you've gone through and am sending you strength and ease to continue forward. I absolutely understand the "how can this be true?" feeling. I have it too. Like I somehow ended up in the wrong universe with this thing that absolutely wasn't supposed to happen in my lifetime.
I lost my husband two weeks ago I feel in a daze and then his sister in law attacked me saying there must be a will...but there's no will as he wanted me to have this house...she said terrible things to me...why do people hit you when your down
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Two weeks, and everything is still so raw. I’m at six months and everything is still raw. I’m holding you in so much love and compassion. Take care of yourself.
Thank you, Rebecca. There’s a phrase used in a lot of meditations: may you live with ease. I’ve loved that ever since I first heard it and your words remind me of it. I wish the same for you and your family.
Jenn it's so good to see you here again. I have no words to express how sorry i am for your loss. Thank you for sharing your journey. Be of good courage & stout heart. Sending you vibes of Peace & Strength across the ether & over the oceans to anable you to move forward, at least a little at a time. Belle x
With deepest sympathy. I'm in the UK and i can't imagine dealing with all of this (i lost my dad and brother to cancer) and thinking about the cost. May the road rise to meet you❤
Jenn, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my husband last July (just passed the first anniversary) and so much of what you described in this vlog reminded me of the journey that none of us wants to take. Thank you for sharing this most intimate part of your life and feel free to PM me if you think it would help to talk.
Oh Deborah, what a crap thing for us to have in common! How are you doing? I find myself dreading every new “first” and I bet that anniversary was a doozy. Thank you for your kind words and for taking the time to comment.
@@fromjenn You are right - it’s something neither of us would choose to have in common. Actually the day before the anniversary was a little more sad but, as you know, every day holds some sadness. They do get a little better over time. I hope you are doing OK and I am thinking of you!
