I would like to hear about your life though if you wanna get something off your chest. Not forcing if you're not comfortable with telling me. I just understand that everyone has their own story and I love listening to them.
@@ankiyaanimations7196 So uhhh my life isn't that bad actually. The only real problem is actually myself. My parents are divorsed since I was 2 years old, which was caused by my father being a narcissistic, emotional abusive, manipulating a-hole. He never hurt anyone but he is that kind of guy who thinks women belong in the kitchen. My mother on the other hand had probably a very hard time her whole life while being the nicest person I know of. She was beaten when she was a child and her mom left her when she was 11, bullied in school and even now in work. After we moved to a different town my father refused to pay for me, which ended up in them having to go to the court. Afer it with him still just paying the least and having shared custody we lived on with me going to him on the weekends. In first and second grade I had a horrible teacher always picking on me being slow and once screaming at me for saying "Yeah Yeah" in a not intended sarcastic tone after she told me to hurry up dressing for sports. Fasting forward to us moving again way further away at my age of 8 because my mum wanted to fulfill her dream living in a certain place I got bullied in school for almost 2 years through them talking behind my back calling me words and using me to a point where I one day locked myself up on the toilet in school staying there till my teacher found me. Who was nice btw but way to nice to the class I was in. I then continued going to a secondary modern school 5th grade (School system in our country). And I finally made some friends. But our classes got mixed up in 7th and with like 90% of the parallel class was now in mine. I had a mental breakdown the next two weeks because I was sitting in the back alone thinking I am gonna get bullied again. Then a girl from a different school came then wanted to change places so she can sit next to her friends and another girl sat next to me who in that time was my only friend. We then had a friend group. Drama happend. People left. She told me she was going to move but then she didn't and didn't tell the others I freaked out 1 year later because she ran away from home changed classes even though we talked about who was sitting where a few days ago. And didn't want to talk to me after that. I apologized, she didn't care. We had problems with the class then making all rumors about some of us being in a relationship on a girls school. Not that this isn't possible but come on! Now there is me slowly growing apart with most of them. Just talking to one person currently. Waiting till all of this is over. Oh yeah I and had my mom had the virus because people at her work didn't care about safety. She almost went to the hospital. At this point I am just tired of everything spending 6 hours a day on RU-vid hoping that my problems go away but they don't. And will never. I have problems finding motivation in literally everything even the things I like. Seeing people knowing what they are wanting to be makes me sick. While I am here questioning the fact that everything is going to be alright. Seeing all the drama in the world. Hoping humanity isn't that dumb to kill itsself and everything around it.
@@KARMA50200 OMG... I feel so bad reading this... I wish I could give you a hug but like, social distancing and all. I wish your mother gets better. I love my mom a lot and my only motivation to live is my mom so if anything happens to her.... I don't know what I would have done. I usually get nightmares of my mom dying and end up being awake all night so I know how it feels. I also didn't have a good social life. I have no one to talk to, that's why I made this video to get things off my chest. Anyways, hope things get better for you. You should also take care of your mental health more. Something small like exercise, meditation, yoga, painting, writing or just watch wholesome videos online can help :)
