My menopause diary. The monthly anxiety journey and living for the day. 

I agree with allowing others to understand what we are going through. Of course, people have to willing and observant like your son.

I'm lying here in bed freezing for no reason and feeling spaced out from anxiety due to starting a new job this week and am seriously doubting whether I am going to be able to cope with this again being so worn down by it all. I feel so decrepit with my neck cracking and twisting into a widows hump, my vision blurring and my weight being almost out of control. I don't have a cycle anymore due to having a coil fitted against my better judgement but had no alternative because of the NHS giving up on trying to treat menopausal women. I thought I had worked it out and had it beaten by lowering my cortisol, but 3 days back in work and I feel like I've gone back to square one or straight to jail on the monopoly board. So Sick of this rubbish existence. Thanks for this vid, don't feel quite such a leper after hearing your thoughts. We need to support each other as we are more numerous than we realise. 😩