"Babies lost in the womb were never touched by fear. They were never cold, never hungry, never alone and importantly always knew love." - Zoe Clark-Coates
It doesn't help nobody warns new moms what to expect during and after pregnancy, it's very hard, also being in pain and sick isn't enjoyable lol 🤣 I was so jealous of the happy comfy preggo ladies
I’m just a teenager rn and I would love to be a mother but the process of being pregnant and giving birth sounds sooo tough sometimes I probably could never handle I have sooo much respect for mothers and women who has struggled with these topics
@@Rebecca_4 YES. i want them but i don't cause I have a ton of siblings and I don't wanna spend my years watching them, and if I did i don't wanna make my older kids watch them like i have to, but you can die during labor so it scares me 😔
My mom had a miscarriage before she got pregnant with me and every time I hear or see a story I'm reminded of my brother, Caleb in heaven and I know she'll love this. I've never had a miscarriage, I was told I was when I was pregnant with my oldest son and I felt like my world was over until I got transported to st. Louis and by God's Grace I was told I was not having one. This breaks my heart for you Colleen. May the Lord turn this around for the good.
Please don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t grieve this baby because you don’t like being pregnant. You have every right to grieve your loss. A miscarriage is one of the hardest things a woman can go through, please give yourself time to heal.
I’m a labor and delivery nurse and I want to thank you for talking about miscarriages. 1 out of 4 pregnancies end in loss. Whether it is a miscarriage, stillbirth or a neonatal death. And no one talks about it. The shame that surrounds it needs to end! 99.9% of the time it is never the mothers fault.
I hated being pregnant but I know this would've broke my heart, cause when my doc couldn't find the heartbeat during one of my ultrasounds and freaked out and started telling me to go to the hospital next door, luckily she was sleeping and it was just really low and hard to find, but that split second of fear was the most gut wrenching feeling I ever had
I absolutely hated being pregnant but I’d do it all over again for my son. I never even wanted kids. He was supposed to be a twin and I was devastated when both didn’t make it! Any reaction to miscarriage is valid!
Colleen, I’m having a miscarriage today. My first pregnancy. I can’t express enough how much comfort this brought me. I’m currently in rehearsals to play the Baker’s Wife in Into the Woods. I don’t know if I can pick up the pieces of this loss in time to continue in the role. But your video is helping me through my grieving process. Other than not having a previous pregnancy experience, this was like watching a recording of myself and my own heart right now. Thank you for your bravery to share. And your pregnancy with your sweet twins gives me so much hope.
Oh honey I'm so so sorry for your loss. I cant even begin to imagine how hard this would be for you. Just know you have people to talk to and you are never alone. I hope that one day you get your beautiful rainbow baby and you have a wonderful life full of happiness and amazing memories. You are a powerful, strong, and courageous woman and you can get through this. I hope you feel better soon xxx
I’m sorry this happened to you. Today I am having a miscarriage and I don’t know what to do. My first pregnancy after trying for a year. Seeing Colleen gives me hope to keep going for that rainbow baby.
Anyone who would think “she shouldn’t be sad about a miscarriage because she doesn’t like pregnancy” are not worth your time. What a sad, cold, uncompassionate place that would come from. Your feelings and your grief are valid!!!! Sending you love and light and compassion!!
Ikr she said that she hates pregnancy but would still be gratefull for being prego. So the people who say that have NOTHING to say like she was actually crying why would she cry if she didnt care.
Just because you “don’t like being pregnant”, doesn’t mean you don’t have the right to mourn the loss of your baby. You have every right to grieve, and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. I’m so sorry for your loss 🖤
My sister suffered a 3rd trimester miscarriage. It really broke her, and I’ve never seen her like that. Your not alone Colleen, and I hope anybody can see this message and know that your not alone. Say strong
Mama Doctor Jones says it's not considered miscarriage after 20 weeks, but fetal death instead. Which doesn't make it any better I know, but it's better when people use the correct term.
1st trimester is heartbreaking but 3rd is even more heart breaking knowing that you spent months creating a life and bought furniture please tell your sister I'm so sorry for her lost.
@@talendumas who cares if she makes a living off of little kids? the little kids find her funny and she’s a great role model. she doesn’t live to please you or anyone else. not to mention this video is about her fricking miscarriage which is a very sad thing. the miranda videos aren’t made for everyone, and not everyone has to like them, but to target the woman who makes them who is literally just vibing having fun being silly?
@@talendumas get out of here if your going to be rude also making videos on social media is a lot harder than it looks my distant cousin makes them it gets stressful but what's even worse is Colleen is/has experienced a miscarriage
If you guys have seen the video Rebecca Zamolo made she talked about how she had to tell people it wouldn’t happen anymore And that’s rlly hard especially being extremely scared about what others will think
@@Rebecca_4 That was truly the hardest part for me. ugh. I never wanna have to do that again. I wasn't worried about that they would think. I was more concerned about the overwhelming feeling of guilt.. My therapy helped me through that though.. its tough and still is it takes your body over 6 months to get back to more and that the hormones. It been only 4 months since I lost my son and I still have very high days and very low days... it comes in waves.
@@malikaaj I waited after my first trimester but I still lost my son at 17 weeks... next time im waiting until I have the baby... cause yeah it just so scary at the point.. I was so close to being in my third trimester.. ugh but I totally understand girl.
@@yourisnobpo1173 and nobody asked for your comment. We support everyone with his/her own story and we are all here to listen to everyone. So if you won't, then you should move on and don't be part of this community. But if something would have happened to you too, you would appreciate the support wouldn't you... have a nice day
Now this Christmas is 2 little boys, a little girl with presents under the tree❤️❤️❤️ I’m here after your birthing video and vlog, sending you & your new family members so much love!
"My heart grew and changed into a place for four people." My darling, it still is. It will always be a place for those 4 people, your heart only grows. It will never shrink. Head up and open heart❤️
So now they have the mini van. This Christmas they would have a bigger family. But not four, it would be FIVE! I am so excited for the rainbow twins 😭❤️🌈
@@wickedmonica I would but I’m with my grandparents right now and I just came across the video and was so confused because she seemed so sad. I can’t have the volume up.
The SECOND a mama sees a positive test, she starts to instantly plan and see the future differently. It doesn’t matter how long you were pregnant, the pain is still absolutely there. I am so sorry, Colleen. My heart breaks for you and your family. Praying for you.
I had a miscarriage Christmas of 2019, I didn’t give myself time to grieve. I thought I had to be strong for my husband and son. A year later I got depressed because everything built up. So cry, take time to yourself, RU-vid will be here after. Your health is more important!
Why so many dislikes? Miscarriages are sad but normal things that can happen while pregnant. She deserves support for speaking her truth about how this affected her.
I think some people dislike that she had to go through a miscarriage or that it is unfair. Some people dislike a video because they don't agree with content or some dislike it because they also hurt. I don't want anyone to see the dislikes or thumbs down as a negative or a bad thing. (I always look at the positive in everything, though)
Some people don't understand what the dislike button truly means. I think they disliked she lost her baby and was hurting. They were feeling sad for her and didn't like what she had to go through. They don't understand that it's for if you actually dislike the video. Not that you dislike her situation.... at least I'd hope!
I just had a miscarriage last week. I was due a week after your twins are due. I am so so sad, and so sad that I don’t get to follow along with your twin pregnancy journey while at the same stage. I’m so sorry this happened to you and I am struggling myself.
As a fertility doctor: Thank you for sharing this. I’ve had my own miscarriage and I help patients and I know the stigma is real and the pain is so hard. Sending you love and thank you for sharing. Your vulnerability is brave and inspiring. ❤️
Not everyone woman enjoys pregnancy that doesn’t mean you dont hve the right to grieve your loss. A loss is a loss take how long you need to to deal with it. Don’t worry about others judgements.
I had a miscarriage on my first ever pregnancy 2 years ago and since then I have not been able to get pregnant. I feel so sorry for Colleen, but so glad that she brought this up.
I heard Colleen: “and it was positive” Me: 👁👄👁 YESSS AAAHHHHH Colleen: “but.. it turned out to be a miscarriage” Me: ...😭😭😢😭😢NOOOOO *comments all of the love in the world* Also me: istg if someone comments something mean imma SCREAAAAAM
I would never wish a miscarriage on my own worst enemy. The emotional aspect is almost unbearable at times. The pain is unlike any other. Sending you love and light.
@@XX-yw6iz The baby she lost still counts as having a place in her heart, so that's Flynn, her twins, her lost baby, Eric and herself as she included herself when she said it and self love is important too.
For someone who’s gone through multiple miscarriages, these comments are so beautiful. I know they were directed to Colleen but I am taking in all the kind words
sending you love, hope and peace. you deserve the world and i’m so sorry about the pain you endured. same with colleen. my mom had a miscarriage and i can’t imagine the pain my lord.
You are so so so SO strong girl! That is so amazing that you really tried again, and again - there is no way in the world I could even be able to be so amazing after losing a pregnancy! ughh I wish I could just give everyone a hug
pregnancy is a traumatic experience for so many women. that doesn’t mean those women don’t want kids. don’t ever apologize for your feelings, they’re valid. you’re an amazing mother, colleen. we love you.
I had a miscarriage last year and even though I didn’t want to be pregnant especially with the guy I was with at the time I was still devastated. You’re not alone ❤️
As a male, thank you for educating me on miscarriages. I never understood how common it was.. stay strong!!! Im so happy that you have great people in your life, some that have even experienced the same pain, to help you recover from this.
The fact that she’s scared to talk about such an upsetting thing is heartbreaking like it takes such a brave person to talk about miscarriage and bad pregnancies and she should never be shamed for it💔
a loss is a loss, Colleen. Just because you didn’t like being pregnant doesn’t mean you are expected to not be sad because of this miscarriage. sending love ❤️
@@halahalahala2015 what are you even talking about. pregnancy is a painful thing, and scary even though it comes with a beautiful and happy ending (most times). she isn’t being hypocritical for not wanting to be pregnant. she wants a baby but to get that she obviously needs to go through the process unless she adopts and she knows that. and she is being genuine about it. she tells us how she feels, that’s being honest and genuine with us. her last pregnancy was just really bad for her, she’s worried her next will be the same or worse. i’m the same way, i don’t want to be pregnant even though i want kids when i get older
@@halahalahala2015 you don’t know what she went through every pregnancy is different !! Some can be way more difficult then others. She’s genuine for saying she didn’t want to get pregnant. I believe it’s ok if woman are vocal about this it’s important for people who relate to her to not feel alone on the subject and people like you make it hard for us to feel comfortable opening up about it. It’s not that she doesn’t want the baby but her pregnancy journey wasn’t easy it takes a lot from you physically and mentally. A normal pregnancy is hard imagine her that she was diagnosed with all types of stuff while being pregnant. and don’t get me wrong I’ve worked with pregnant woman they all have different stories some think pregnancy is rainbows and sprinkles and have no symptoms but some have told me it was the hardest thing they’ve done. Not to mention what comes after being pregnant postpartum depression and physical exhaustion.! So please don’t comment on a topic if you haven’t been through it ! Especially on a video like this where she is being open and vulnerable have some sympathy ! It’s cost zero dollars to be nice.
One day at a time, this needs to be talked about more. My daughter had a miscarriage last year. It is devastating. Take care of yourself, mentally and physically. Much love to you.
@@shadowkissed2370 Please feel free to share your story. It’s a very hard thing to go through and people should be more educated on it. And also women who go through this should be allowed to share their stories as much or little as they would like.
@@shadowkissed2370 I hear you ♥️. I lost 1 and still have a hard time with it. I Have always been told, “it wasn’t meant to be and move on.” Yes, we all move on but it doesn’t mean it’s not painful and something we should be kept quiet about.
i had a miscarriage 6 months ago and i still can’t talk about it without crying. but at the same time it feels like it keeps their spirit alive. they say whenever you’re pregnant your dna changes, you will always carry a piece of them with you. knowing that gave me a moment of piece when i felt none. please take your time to heal, and i’m wishing you and your family nothing but love
Just because you only have one baby on earth with you, doesn’t mean you’re just a mother of one. you’ll always be a mother of two but one just isn’t with you right now❤️ you’re a great mother and i look up to you.
Colleen, I’m in the process of miscarrying.. I’ve been crying for three days, seeing blood in the toilet, clots and heavy bleeding, it’s traumatic. The physical pain does not compare to the emotional pain I am going through right now. My boyfriend has been amazing, and the closest ones that I expected to support me only had the harshest words for me. It pains me even more. I keep telling myself, “let it go.. let the baby go.” I just visualized myself being hugged by Source Energy, by the Universe, by God, and just melt into its arms and know that it will all be okay.. Heal well, take time to find yourself again.
Makes me so upset to hear mothers saying “I lost the baby” 🥺 you didn’t do anything wrong! It’s not your fault! You gained an angel ✨🤍 Your rainbow will be coming 🌈
I'm so sorry:( just know you are never alone and there are people out here that care and will help, even if it's just someone to talk to. I will definitely be praying for you and I really hope you start feeling better soon. Just remember it was not your fault or anything you could have done to have prevented it and there will be big blessings ahead for you 💜 I know it's hard right now and I'm so so sorry you have to go through this, I hope you get to experience motherhood at some point but in the meantime, you are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you'll recieve the peace and comfort and happiness that you DESERVE 💜 much love to you 💖💖💖
A miscarriage is ALWAYS sad. Even if you didn't want the baby to begin with. You are lost something that was a part of you, and that is absolutely devastating. It is okay to feel whatever you're feeling, it is okay to take a full break from everything you're working on and just focus on taking care of yourself. We will all be here. I love you Colleen
yes! if you had the baby for 1 day or you got to watch the baby grow up, it doesn't matter if you lose them you are allowed to feel sad. dont let anybody tell you otherwise. and colleen you are a mom of 2. that is your baby. they are just up in heaven watching over you.
@@reaganberg3835 first part is absolutely true any way someone would feel in this situation is their’s, their right and entirely valid, but that includes not necessarily believing it was a baby or that it is in heaven, that’s ok too and something we should be respectful of
I had several miscarriages in my 20’s, I’ve never been able to have a baby ever since. I know the pain. Thank you so much for sharing this. The universe is making up for what you lost by blessing you with twins. I know it doesn’t make up for what you lost but it’s a double blessing. Hugs from Canada
When you get that positive test. You picture your whole life. You imagine every little thing. And when it’s taken away and lost it’s so so painful. I had a miscarriage at 5 weeks after we’ve been trying for a baby for 2 years. We thought it was our turn and we lost it. Our first baby. It’s absolutely painful. I fell into a deep hole of depression. But I’m better now and still waiting for my rainbow. I think about my baby all the time and pray to God to ask him to let my baby know even though we never met and I wasn’t very far along. We loved/love our baby sooo so much. And can’t wait to meet him/her someday. Be strong momma. I’ll keep you in my prayers 🙏🏼❤️
Aw Sariah, I'm truly moved by your story. I hope and pray you and your husband get a little one soon! Babies are a blessing and yours will be born into a family that loves them more than anything in life. Stay positive girlie, your time will come!
The footage of her telling her family threw me into tears. Colleen our hearts our with you forver and ever. Plz no one show any disrespect plz this is a horrible experince in itself. We love you forever 💕
Colleen... I just wanted to say I’m so sorry for the loss of your pregnancy. And I totally get it now. I followed your entire pregnancy with Flynn as you posted it and I always thought to myself “it can’t be that hard”. I am SO sorry I ever thought that. I’m 7 weeks pregnant and I feel miserable. You and all the other mamas out there are SO strong.
You can never truly know how it feels until you go through this pain. I’ve never gone through it, and I never ever want to go through this pain. Congratulations, and your baby will be blessed with all the joy that they can hope for.
@@abbycar09 I’m doing better, but this was four years ago. I’m still affected by it, but all you can do is be ok and happy they didn’t suffer in front of me you know? 🥰 they’re my angel babies
I just had a miscarriage a few days ago. I’m devastated it’s been hard to get out of bed. I was so excited to become a mom. I was looking at baby stuff everyday. And like she said I had changed my whole mind set and my every thought had to do with my baby and it’s future. I became so passionate about being a mom and to have that taken away is a terrible feeling. I was only a couple weeks but it still hurts. I loved my baby so much. I wish I could’ve been able to hold my baby against my chest.
oh momma, i hope you’re doing well. i had a miscarriage recently too. please remember it’s not our faults💗 sending lots of baby dust for when you may want to try for another baby. you’re still a momma to your angel baby
sending you so much love. Miscarriage brings such a deep and intense kind of pain that can be so difficult to process. I hope you’re able to find healing and strength in grieving, all your feelings are incredibly valid 💕
seeing both you and colleen go through miscarriages has really opened my eyes to the possible outcomes of pregnancy and has taught me a lot. I love you both❤️
Thank you for supporting Colleen during this! My heart really breaks for her. I remember when I watched your miscarriage video and it really taught me a lot and made me realized how difficult miscarriage can be. I see you supporting so many people who have suffered a miscarriage. It's really inspiring and kind of you. Thank you for being so kind and loving to so many women going through such a horrible thing and thank you for using your platform to raise awareness about such a hushed topic. I can't imagine how many people you have helped and comforted.
@@thugnugget2645 that makes no sense at all. I don’t worship a non existent cloud person. It’s like praying that the Easter bunny will solve your problems and give you wisdom.
Brooke, Justin, Biggy, Naz, Sabre or Sockie, Thats so sweet and she is super brave to be sharing this. I would just be sad and all and not say anything. So she is super brave tho!
That is so sweet and I’m so very sorry for Colleen and I can’t imagine what it’s like to have a miscarriage she must feel awful 🥺 i love you Norris nuts so much btw.
Often, some women won't even know that they were even pregnant before having the miscarriage. I dont know which is worse, knowing you were or finding out in that way, but Colleen. You. Are. Not. Alone.
I grew up with her, I’ve seen her sad before and dealing with things, I started crying when she did because I feel like I know her even tho I obviously dont
Yeah I started balling my eyes out I felt her sadness and no I haven’t been pregnant or had any miscarriages so I don’t know that pain but I could see that pain and I felt a bit of it and anyone who is or was ever mean to this beautiful, strong, kind, giving, wonderful mother, hilarious, great cook, so much more person is just a piece of burning $1#t that was moldy and rotting for centuries period. Lots of love Colleen!❤️
If someone criticizes a woman for something they can’t control, they can meet me at the garbage because that’s what they are. I am sorry for what happened colleen and just know I’m sending love your way!
Hello Collen, my name is Antoinette. I am so sorry to hear you had a miscarriage . I understand completely the pain you are feeling. I had 4 miscarriages . I have two beautiful girls 20 and 19. It really hurts when you lose your pregnancy. My deepest condolences to you and Eric.May God bless you always 🙏
i had a miscarriage at 19 while in college. I didnt know what was happening. It was the worst pain in my life and i was only 5 weeks maybe. No one understands the amount of love you have for a baby even if you just found out. You have a picture in your head of what your life looks like and you plan. youre not alone
For the 126 people that took their time out of their day to dislike this how dare you. This woman is going through so much and so much pain right now. I can not believe you would do this and be so bad that you had to click the dislike button.
I would think they are disliking that she has to go through this. Not that they are being negative to her. We all “dislike” this video because she is hurting. Just not all of us are clicking the thumbs down button
@@elizabethavon7922 just because someone doesnt like the topic doesnt mean that they have to dislike. The thumbs up shows support and love not just whether you agree or not with the content of the video
Hating being pregnant has nothing to do with losing a baby, it’s a terrible devastating experience. You are such an amazing mother and you’re going to end up with a ton of babies one way or the other. You and Eric have so much love to give. It’s ok to not be ok. 🥺
@blv stop. just stop. i've seen you commenting your crap on other videos aswell but come on, someone's talking about a depressing thing which you wouldn't probably wanna go through yourself and it's more important for you to promote yourself or whatever. Can the internet be more toxic?
@blv Listen, Colleen is opening up about something really rough that happened to her and she is still dealing with it. She really needs to spend time to care for herself because what happened to her is something really devastating. The last thing she needs is you hating on her and being rude about something she couldn't control. If you're going to say something hurtful towards her or the situation shut up and keep it to yourself
When we see that positive pregnancy test we immediately build an image of that baby and our family in our hearts. I felt like I was shot into the heavens being given this little angel to carry, then it was taken away and that plummet back to Earth was painful. It’s okay to not feel okay, take time to mend yourself and give yourself the same patience you have for your son.
I had a miscarriage at 6 weeks in may of this year it broke me. I’m 19 and wasn’t attached to the pregnancy and yet it broke me. I can’t imagine what it’s like for people who are excited, attached and plan for a baby and lose it. It breaks my heart thinking about it.
You’re baby is with you forever. You’re so young and you not being attached to the pregnancy makes the most sense. The world is proud of you for being so strong and giving that pregnancy a go.
I just suffered a miscarriage this Sunday, thank you for talking about this today. I keep going on Instagram and RU-vid and it feels like everyone is pregnant and I’m heartbroken, all I wanted to do was give my babygirl a sibling. I felt so alone, thank you for posting this.
