My Suicide Story: Episode 6 - Mark's Story 

Hey! Thinking of you, after reading your comment ❤️‍🩹 How are you now? I hope someday you look back at that “day of isolation,” and recognize it as the “day you forced yourself to feel ALL of your pain, so that you could begin to heal.” Think of it like lancing an infected boil/wound: horrendously painful, but necessary for healing.

I appreciate that. It really is quite amazing what a year can do for someone.personally my depression has always just sorta been a reoccurring thing that I’ve had to deal with throughout my life. Though it is quite painful I can now recognize how it is something that I use to cope. It forces me to process my pain. I spent many years in my early twenties partying and avoiding figuring out with my life. A few years back in 2019 is when it first started for me and it has been reoccurring ever since, but I’ve gotten better at managing and understanding it. Since posting this I have taken medication that helps some, done therapy, forgiven my past self and currently working on liking myself more. I still have many difficult days where I would rather walk across broken glass than deal with life, but I’m really trying my best to work toward being comfortable letting myself be happy with the person I am while trying to focus on the things that make me happy instead of falling back into my anger and other unhealthy coping mechanisms. I like what you said about “feeling everything all at once”. I had a song for when I felt my lowest. It honestly felt like that end of my life, but I listed to the song everything I wanted by Billie Eilish. To me at the time the song at the time I first listened to it was me believing that I had a chance at the glimmer of hope that I could’ve accomplished happiness for myself, but I fucked up and it was too late. Now the song to me is me forgiving myself for that. So now every time I hear that song it’s a message for me to let go and realize it’s okay and that I’m always where I’m supposed to be. Thank you again for your concern, kind stranger.

Thanks for sharing and sticking around to help others with your experience ❤🎉❤

Hi - I hope you are doing ok. I could have written your post - I feel the same. Sending you love 💕

@@DannyD-lr5yg Thank you. I needed to see this. I am going through it right now - your post helps :)

Don't say talk to someone. Most people do not want to hear it at all. Go to a hospital. Seek out professional help.

​@glendagrant9042 I totally understand your comment bc i can totally relate to what you said...but in all fairness this person did imply any ill will here....he's just encouraging people to seek help. And honestly people don't want to go to a hospital bc they dont want to become part of the system either.

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Danielle,How kind of you to encourage the speaker. Hope you are feeling better and believe in yourself. Happy Spring

I hope you're still ar😢to share your story and help others ❤

I have SI and need strength as well.

very handsome

Everyone has a person. Reach out.

​@@bluefan651Not everyone has a person but yes a person feeling overwhelmed needs to reach out even if it's in the RU-vid comments. That's a start.

? Yeah I’ll get right on it.

Yeah. Not an option for an awful lot of people.

No one gets the fact that no one is authentic. The trance that people are under took a good fifty years, a decision and a vision by the American government! A toxic trance. The hoarding of money. It’s cognitive dissonance give every one brain damage. Shame on America! Shame on your corruption and betrayal!

Do you have access to a garden?

Not proven

AIDS became a crisis in the 80s and into the early 90s depending on your location. You have serious problems to be critiquing the details of someone trying to share their suicide stories to spread awareness and make people feel like they aren't alone. You think this man is lying about just being gay? Get real. And get fcked.

Yay stereotypes