My Testimony [and it's just the beginning] 

I started watching you on the NF journey and I have always prayed that reactors to any Christian artist may receive the Spirit through their music. I am glad you shared this! I have been praying for you. God bless! #YourJamaicanSub 🇯🇲

Would never have guessed this about you, brave for posting this

God is proud of you and so am I and all of us!❤

Wow... Amazing video, so open, honest and vulnerable. So much of your story hit home for me over the past few years. Came to your channel through the NF journey but am glad I found this video!! Seems like you are in a good place now! Might be time for you to get back on the NF journey with his new album, would love to see some new reactions to Hope and Motto... just sayin... 😉

Miss seeing you great testimony God bless you

Welcome home sis. Love you in Jesus name.

Good stuff. Praise God.

The Angles in heaven rejoice every time a sinner repents. 🙏🏼

thank you i really need hear this

🙏🏻Yesss!!!God is So Good!!!! I went down a similar path with anxiety and depression.Then I found god & my life has never been better.Now I’ve picked up my cross & follow Jesus everyday until my time is up on earth.Would ❤️ more of these vids and definitely recommend checking out elevation worships latest album🙌🏻 It’s like a little taste of heaven on earth.

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May our Good Lord continue to bless, keep and use you for His kingdom purpose.

Amen! Thanks for sharing.

Real is sooo awesome!

❤️❤️❤️I live in a Drug recovery house you tell your story chick I have a form of manic depression and have had my low points he has always been there for me sending me messages through many different ways keeping me from making horrible mistakes I'm so thankful for that lean not unto your own understanding in everything acknowledge him and he will direct your path sweetheart go with what your heart tells you sending all my love ❤️❤️❤️😘✌️ I will still be watching ;)

1. I can go on from all these things you said. For one, I respect that so much for standing up to do this like how you said, it doesn't matter if you lose subs. As scripture says, seek the Kingdom of God first and everything else will be added onto you. Things you have said are things that have been with me as well. The somewhat famous verse Matthew 7:7. Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened to you. The word 'seek' here in the original text means to seek by worshipping God. Like many of us are searching for things but we are searching in the wrong place.

So I just went on a crazy binge reacting to your NF and hopsin reactions, and I knew when I saw you react to that I’ll mind of hopsin 7. That the song was really kind of hitting you personally, I genuinely feel like the Holy Spirit was working within you and I could tell that you had a open minded spirit and wanted to know more if that makes sense. And then I see you haven’t posted in so long and I see this video. I’m SO GLAD you found god, accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and savior, and brave enough to tell your testimony which was amazing! I hope you’re doing well May! God bless❤️🙏🏽✝️☦️☦️

Lovely God is good all the time and all the time God is good!

The Lord spoke to me in this video. I heard HIM saying, " Son, I have given you a gift for writing. And you do use it for good, as your postings touch ppl all over the world. I have given you a platform son, and you are on your way to great things. But while you're helping others, why arent you talking to me, allowing me to help you like you used to?" As my heart cries out to the Lord, I am recommitting myself to HIM again. Thank you sister in Christ. GOD has used your testimony to call me back to HIM. Thank you JESUS for never giving up on me. Your LOVE truly does endure forever!!!!!

Jesus is king! ❤️💯

Thats whats amazing is even with the best of intentions the vision can still be clear but the path can be blurred and lead to us becoming lost.. but the heart can be in a separate place than our hearts but letting that lead us at times while following our guts can get us back to where we're heading like in NFs line I don't think they see my vision here. I don't think they get it but once you get it everything will become crystal clear 💯

Very brave of you to post this and this testimony is beautiful I love the passion you have for God and I experienced a similar thing about a year ago love you and your videos, God bless

Hi Mayjayy, Just checking in to say hi and let you know God loves you. Don't get it twisted! If you are not feeling like coming to Him it is not God telling you this. The Holy Spirit always draws us into a blood bought relationship based on the grace of the Lord. There is nothing that separates us from His love. God bless, Dennis

I appreciate this to the fullest. All love to my sister in Christ.

Im not a religious person, but really appreciate the video

New creation! Heaven rejoicing 🎉🎉🎉

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 so good.

Amazing testimony. Some times it takes hitting rock bottom, before some people will turn towards God. All things happen for a reason. A wise man falls 7 times and gets back up. Even if you stumble get up, hell forgive you, hell toss you sins far away, and won't dangle it in your face. God bless

God bless you in the name of Jesus ! Thank you for your story

I hope you get through your struggles, this religion stuff is all placebo but hope it works for you.

Thank you for this testemony! God found you.

I needed this video... I'm a believer for my whole life. I even attend church but the addictions and stress are always taking me down and I can't overcome it you know. For the whole time I was struggling I was praying for God to set me free off of this and change my heart. But it continued and further I was going away from Him more and more. So now I don't feel like praying to Him because I've been struggling for so many years and I'm at the point where I question if I really want Him to help me. And it's so sad. It's such a pain and despair. When I went to RU-vid as always I didn't seek to watch something like this at all! Usually what I do here is that I watch reactions just to get distracted from the real things by entertaining... And when I was watching reactions I didn't expect you to say something even remotely like this ever. You seemed more like just funny reactor to songs I like but it's just the cover to things that are inside that we have no idea about, as you said. So it really touched me but as you said I'm not in this set of mind when I can read the Scripture. So I will check out these sermons. Thank you very much! God is good and He is Love. Bless you!

Inspiring!!! I wish more people were not afraid to share their faith with the world! And help others see His LOVE!

Glad you're ok. That's the important part. God bless.

Hope everything is good with you. I literally binge watched about 20 of your videos the past two nights combined only to find out you don't really do reactions anymore. Very unfortunate because they're very entertaining

I’m really proud of you. I really resonated with when you were talking about running to things to numb the pain. I’ve tried so many things, but they can’t fill me. I just keep finding myself back desperate for Jesus. Praise God for what he’s doing in your heart sister, I’m here if you ever need to talk. 🙏🏽

This video touched my heart in several ways. It's so refreshing because a lot of people dont show or talk about what they have gone through or what they're going through. We are all getting tested by the spiritual world and we all need to come together with love for each other and God. This hit home with what I've recently gone through. Thank you so so much for your words of wisdom and a beacon of strength ❤

Amen sister! Preach! You had to hit rock bottom and you pushed off going to the right thing! Keep going! Thanks for posting this. This makes me so happy to see! Keep being your beautiful self, inside and out. ❤️✝️🎉

Proud of your boldness to share your testimony! Jesus will use this testimony to transform others! Keep using this platform for Him!

Wow! Amen Sister ! ! !

I will check out the sermons you recommended. Thanks. I needed to hear this.

Proverbs is a good daily devotional read a chapter a day and you will pick up something different from it every time ✌️

You should react to Jireh by Elevation Worship, or Names from their new album. God bless you and keep doing Gods will 🙏

Love this! Thanks for posting! 🙏

This video made me so happy, God bless you!

You have done something great and brave. God Bless! This was amazing. Thank you.

I loved the honesty and good faith to help others in life with this video. We really appreciate you truly giving the chance to be recognized as almost vulnerable, but yet so kind. I hope it's okay and appropriate to shed a tiny light into my life in short. Essentially I've lived with great pain in my journey and it's been tough. I do not have all the answers, however I realize I'm not supposed to. I live with a condition that brings on permanent physical suffering, and with that has brought great question and almost demands for answers. My younger life was spent being resentful, and time was wasted brushing off events or characters whom I only realized later were so vital or important to me. Sometimes I wish I could go back to the emotional aggressions I've committed throughout the course of my life. But the truth is I've been trying to make things right ever sense. And I'm proud with who I am becoming now. I've always been spiritual, and prayed in self need to God when I've been so helpless. This year I've really turned to thanking our Lord for the life he's given me and us here in this realm very often daily. It has been the most effective at relieving my pain and questions. The answers are slowly being whispered through the cracks. And man... it is a superbly grand feeling. 🙏🏻 I just wanted you to know that I have followed your channel for a good amount of time now. You are doing exceptionally well even at times you don't think you are. And we don't know one another, but I can see the good Lords work you're doing. Love yourself and life. And remain amazing. Believe me homie you will make it. We love you. 🙌🏻⚡❣

Thats literally me thanks for posting this

Have you heard of Tom Macdonald??

As a fellow believer that stumbled onto your channel while going on a Hopsin nostalgia trip this video made a tear up and really warmed my heart. It makes me so happy to see what God does in the lives of His people. It really touched me that you began this transformation in October of 2020 because He began mine in November of 2020. God is so good 😭❤️🙏🏽

This was deep like wow crazy of what you were going through & I literally start to tear up like omg & I was have god with me & I need it to hear this I have anxiety and depression I just pray god everyday knowing i always have god thank you mayjaay for this video I need it this 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

Props to u for putting this out in the open. The vid where u broke down crying on the floor... Fckkk girl, that did hit hard. I'm rly glad for u that u found a way out of that state. I really hope this vid does help others, both in faith as in mental health. I have a lot of things to say, to ask, since I honestly don't really recognise the God I've experienced compared to the God you're experiencing... This feels like I'm bashing God or your testimony; it's not meant to. It's just... The mental state you were in last year, that's my last decade. And I've prayed, and prayed, and prayed. But Heaven didn't rejoice, and God didn't change me, my perspective, nor my mental state. I've prayed, I've invited him, yet nothing still makes sense. It feels like He's letting the enemy have me. I still know that He is a great and wise God tho, and although I'm still struggling and don't understand fck all, I'm rly sincerely glad for u and all others that have had an experience like yours. I hope this helps others too.

I'm about halfway thru the video. I feel this was meant for me. However, I'm not going to finish watching it. Because I'm done. He knows the situation. He knows my perspective. He knows what needs to be done. I don't want empty platitudes. I want HELP. I want RESULTS. I want CHANGE. And I aint seen shit. So I wont be praying anymore. If you want to count this as one, then let this be my final prayer.

Hey Mayjayy ~ I just wanted to thank you for posting those sermons from Transformation Church. It is 2:20 in the morning and I just finished the "I am Damaged" Part 1 and truly God is using this to help me. I thank you from the bottom of my heart. God bless, Dennis

Idk to me that “lost” feeling is just my brain wanting a new challenge in life. life is about the journey not the destination and when you realize that, the lost feeling goes away completely. My family raised me very religiously and they put their lives on hold for god and are absolutely miserable. They just focus on work and raising a good obedient family, no fun allowed. I really don’t see why I should do that. God is comforting but there are way too many discrepancies in every religion that I just can’t get past.

I think this is awesome I'm so proud of you I'm a recovering drug addict and Jesus got me through .tomorrow is not promised so except him today

It's barely been a month since I got fired(8 and a half years) and I barely broke down a couple days ago... Telling myself "congrats, you did this to yourself.. How will you provide idiot." Only recently am I grasping that God got me fired for a reason.. He's got something in store for me... I crossed my heart said a prayer and now the only words I uttered was "son, leave all doubt behind i(GOD) will provide.". Yes, May I have grasped the message. God is great, god is love, god is good. 🙏❤ much love.

I saw it in your eyes and body every time I saw your NF videos. I always wanted to say something but didn’t. I’m happy to see you come out and say everything you had to say. I watch and study the way people react to NF music. Keep shining like you do. Love you and keep making videos

Great testimony. Pray in agreement for each person who is seeking God for their breakthroughs. What happened to Bella?

Thanks for sharing! One thing that helps me if I feel beaten down or attacked is to say Bible verses out loud. It seems to push the negative energy off of me.

I needed this. Wow thank you so much 😢

Damn I was worried that I would miss a live stream but hopefully you don’t forget about me and Alaska can be a country if it wanted to

I clicked so fast my thumb nearly broke

Ok... Um novel writing guy here so sorry for it in advance but I literally have to with this one bc this runs so deep and goes back to my last one way back when that you commented back on bc this confirms everything in my head and heart and something I wrote and came up with personally for you which ill fill you in on in just a second... But first and most important I wanna share my reaction to your video bc you deserve it.. Ironic the best in the world at reaction vids needs to get her very own just in writing form! Anyways so literally in your intro to this all before you got into it all I literally teared up and knew this was about to impact me perosnal on another level as you have the uncanny ability to do somehow even if it was just barely mentioning something and not finishing your thought outloud bc I swear I think I was understanding things the exact same like synchronized time in life. I wont get into it here but its another reason last time I said id give anything thing just have a convo with you for like an hour just bc I didnt know if the thoughts in my head would even make sense to anyone else until you.. Plus as ive told you your the most amazing girl on my planet so far and honestly its so much more then you also being maybe the cutest so please do not think any of this is on like a "thirsty level" its not its on an inspired one... Thats deeper then you know and has been! Anyways after I teared up you came with some truths and stuff that I already knew and hit with more I didnt obviously but i literally broke into prayer two moments in this video... The first time was in the early part i mentioned after hearing your story of what was going on before you played your oct vid. Its important to me that you know mid tears and all my first prayer was simple "To ask God to come back in me get up off my floor im literally laying on but also kinda wild and completely symbolic yet again as I was about to see your oct vid in a few seconds later.. But also instantly and mainly intended to even do the prayer in the first place was to sympally thank him first for what he has done already and mostly to thank him for this girl (you) for letting me find you! You are as ive told you in my last comment a literal blessing to the world. Its crazy how much you take it to the next level everytime but as ill summarize at the end of this you are so rare and incredible you almost deserve to have your own fairy tale fr bc in the wildest of ways now more obvious as ever to me how you do it.. You are a Unicorn my dear... I think i told you why I say that in my last novel that I made you cry in so ill move on for now. The one thing im so curious about and have a so similiar thing about is the thing you put on the bottom about god talking to you through numbers so id love to get an explanation on that one from you one day. Im maybe feeling like its scripture based but idk but I have been having the same thing I believe for the last 3 years mostly eventho ive kinda yet to figure that part out other then at first making the joke when i noticed it followed me around literally everywhere randomly that im so unlucky in life that it makes since that my lucky number is "13" which is actually legit and my favorite number to some others as well and its so random that you of all ppl would even include or say that in all of this which instantly let me know that again mysteriously we are hitting somehow on the same level literally at the exact time in life but confirms something ill explain to you if Im ever actually blessed enough somehow to send you something I did out of inspiration by you for you. I wanted to be a surprise gift thing so you could just enjoy the wondering what in the world part it would even be but hopefully love it for the part I wrote bc of you and then in the letter attached with it fully understand the "hidden" messages behind it as to why you did and what you are. Ive wrote you on IG but honestly lets face it im probably a million pages deep on your pending list. I was hoping to get like a p.o. box to send it to you or an address somewhere but ive gotten no answer so I don't really know what to do there. I hope to still be able to bc it has such an incredible message for you that its actually really important to me you know that honestly incase you actaully read all of this again lol im just going to spoil a part of the surprise and tell you the most important part that you needed to know the part you inspired and actually what it is so you can decide if you even want it honestly and save a small part of it being a surprise in the attached letter that explains everything behind it as to what it means... Why you inspired it and how.... And even the cool explanation behind the hidden messages and features behind it... Literally... If by some random chance you do want it and want to keep even what it is and what it says a surprise until you get it ill give you a spoiler alert now so you can just stop reading after this and somehow hit me up with an address on facebook if you have it or IG as i follow you on there.. My name is Travis Reynolds im from Kentucky so if so hopefully you can find me on either one somehow but incase you chose the wait and see option I want to say thank you and bless you as always darlins and ill prove to you that in October you was already a blessing to the world you just didnt even know it yet... That ties us back in to now and further proof behind what i wrote.... That parts coming next so make your choice before reading on but honestly it dont matter really its something small and personal for you and even if you know I Promise, Promise...( my version of the pinky swear and something I only use when I mean it and is unbreakable no matter what so once i say i promise, promise something thats as legit as I can make you a promise).... The note and extras will still blow your mind away bc honestly it even does mine! So that said here it is if you make it this far: Its actually a cool little coffee mug I hade made for you as a thank you for helping me in so many ways during my hardest time in life as i think I said in my last comment I had lost so much like a place to live and worst my mom on December 7th just 2 years after losing my dad,granny, and best friend Nikki all duringthe holidays making me hate and dread them now. Anyways i had to constantly find ways to keep myself distracted and thats where u came in randomly and it all started as ive said before not knowing how much you would even now continue to mean to me which is all also covered in your explanation letter included in your box.....I said it has Hidden messages with it and thats actually one of the cheesy but real reasons as to why I chose a coffee mug in the first place. Its because i love doing that in gifts and making it a personal thing behind gifts or surprises like this bc im a romantic honestly so i go Deep thought af when inspired to do something like this i guess but ive noticed in one of your videos you was so superstoked about a cup you had gotten and you have mentioned your love for coffee so it was an instant choice for what i had in mind in hopes youd genually like it eventho its something small ya know.. It just turned out way better then i could have thought bc it was after searching on how to do make one likeI wanted I found the awesome part to add on to finish off the Hidden messages theme i had. Bc its one of those like gimmick coffee mugs thats black on the outside but once you put hot coffee in it it literally melts away to reveal whatever is actually underneath it as a surpise. Which i loved bc as ive said you are incredible with the way you find like hidden things in songs and other stuf that it made me think on another level to and was my main reason i said back then that id give anything for that convo with you one day bc ive never met anyone that inspired me as a person to literally be better which i just realized is a chilling thing to have said back then after hearing you cry out that exact thing in a moment ill always remember now for sure and tell you thats the hardest ive ever wanted to be able to hug someone in my life... Geez darlins atleast now ill confirm to you yet another perfectly timed reason added into your message I wrote tells you he heard and knew we would all end up exactly where we are now and in ways I explain in your letter with further proof behind it now ill tell you something I knew then and maybe the very reason i felt i had to go extra in my own personal thank you gift idea You was destined to make it however it needed to for yourself bc even in just weird ways I could tell back then even if I had no way to even tell myself how you did it to me you was already this amazing Angel like godsend to me and even in your struggles then pal it was literally all over you! I hope you one day understand the magnitude of that... Which leads me to this increasingly wild thing that just adds in to my inspired like quote I wrote about you and for you tied in with my own personal revelation i learned through my own literal mental breakdown of which id love to share with you one day bc of this whole deeper meaning level we both kinda have a tie in with atleast in the thinking level which is why i say youre so brilliant... Its wild bc i honestly know how that convo would go and I have no way of even knowing what we would even say but I know these insane epic truths would be revealed in some wild ways bc its that authentic and incredible feeling that lead to alot of this feeling for me and they havnt ever been wrong yet but anyways back to my main point and ill hush lol... The message i wrote about you was prefect and tbh something i could see written on cups or something anyways but it was just my way to say thank you from the bottom of my heart (continued)

This is crazy... I'm trying to share all things things about your video of how I've been on the same lines of things of how I see them with some more understanding. Yet they don't let me post... Is there a way I can maybe message you to share more about what you said that can be more encouraging? If not, I understand.

Definitely u r not okey. Damn I always thought u were happy. Here is my suggestion: I see u mentioned God chasing u or you finding God many times in this vid and before. So, try and look up some ideas such as what is really God, Who’s God and who are we to God. Also, why are we really here? but this time you add the word “ In ISLAM “ see what ISLAM says about that. It might change you to a whole different path you never know. Best Luck!

sounds like a poltergeist