Navigating Grief: My Journey Through Grief Class and Mindfulness 

I am a massage therapist and the diaphragm helps us relax and meditate. Josh I cant even picture you irritable ❤

That moment between breathing in and breathing out is also when you squeeze the trigger target shooting. There's something in that natural pause that's truly a natural pause. For just a second, we can wait. Without distress or discomfort and be present in that moment. I'm certain there are moments you shared with Sarah that nobody knows about. It's ok if it hurts too much to look at that right now but there's a whole world of just the two of you that only the two of you shared. One day, it may comfort you more than it distresses you to visit it. When I got hurt on active duty, my whole life was totally destroyed and I hadn't even hit my 30s. At one point, discussions were had about terminal sedation in hospice. I will never again be what I was. It's just not gonna happen. And the life I had was totally ripped away from me but the life I have now, with all the aches and pains and grief and unknown, is still pretty fantastic. Today, I can look back on all of the whatnot and still appreciate how good my life is today. Even though I'm up messing around online looking for camping gear when I really should have gone to bed but I fight sleep like a toddler 😅 I tell my son that death is a necessary part of life because it's death that makes birth possible. It makes room for new people, new experiences, new us's. Who you were with Sarah died with Sarah, but a you without Sarah is being born and with that birth, there's a world of possibility opening up to you. You're a glass half full kind of guy so I don't think you'll take it wrong. The end of Sarah's story is not the end of yours. And the thing is, Sarah's death is really not the end of her story. Not as long as you and your children live adding too it. The whole "two become one flesh" is also literal and can't be undone. Goodnight Josh...

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I'm happy over that you have the grief group that helps you and you help others! Great to hear that Braden helped you when you were tired and irritated! Thank you for sharing all these breathing tips!❤

You are doing great dealing with your feelings and grief, it’s helps sharing with us all, some like myself have not experienced a loss of a spouse and have a few people that are going through what you are now🌻

Thank you for being you your awesome one day at a time love Pgh Pa

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What helps me is Christian seminars and guided mediations to help sleep, which is present in the moment breathing, my wife of 13 yrs passed on 8 1 23 ... :(... cervix cancer tumo that we/she thought was menopause with butt pain... 3 mths later gone.... edit couldnt sleep for days n just this week after being sick able to sleep with melitonia n half of sominex, went to the doc n put me on antideprssent for sleep, which made me feel wayyyy worse i quit n had to go through withdraws which made it worse...im surprised im stll alive

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Josh your right the loss of your spouse is awful I lost my husband at 47 my sisters after then parents but the loss of my husband broke me so much 😢 💔

Josh, you got this. One day at a time …… you may not realize how many people you are helping by telling us about your journey. Grief never gets easy…You just get use to carrying the weight❤❤

Josh everyone here knows what an amazing Dad you are. So I have a question. How can you wear shorts in the winter? ❤

Josh, you seem like your growing so much in your grief journey! I know it wears you out going to the grief sessions. But, I’m really enjoying hearing about things you’ve done and learned in the group. You’re giving me some things to really think about! 😊 I know you’ve mentioned about being so lonely and finding a new person one day. I really hope no one makes you feel bad about dating, etc. I’m older than you and have dated some. I’ve not met anyone that I’ve been that interested in. I was with my husband since we were 20! He was a VERY special person and finding someone to measure up to him, is not that easy! I think it may concern friends and family when we talk about being lonely and searching. Some people think that they will fix the loneliness just by finding “somebody”. I’ve seen it happen plenty of times. It’s just not ever that simple. I know you’ve got a good head on your shoulders! You won’t just run out and try to fill the loneliness void without LOTS of considerations. After you’ve been through what you have, and with having children, there are MANY things to consider. Think of finding someone else like you did when you met Sarah. Just think more about looking for a friend, who enjoys the same things you do in life. That’s why you and Sarah made such a good match! ❤ People do get concerned when they hear someone just talking about being so lonely. Hey! And, trust you me, I DO understand the loneliness thing! It is just HORRIBLE! We just always have to be particular, no matter how old we are or the circumstances. 😬 You are doing so well, and are doing such a great job with the kids and life!!! Sarah is smiling on you everyday! 😃❤️ Good Luck!

Hi Josh! Just wanted to pop on and thank you for sharing. 🤟Your children are so lucky to have you as their dad. So I am a little older than you and so maybe that is why I feel able to say that another romantic partner may not be in my cards. How’s the weather?

Josh, you are so helpful in sharing your grief process. It's made me realize I need a greif group, I signed up start tommorrow thankyou, I'm finding too I'm edgy easily an get over whelmed easy in my grief. I'd love to hear your insights if this is alot part of grief,, thankyou for sharing that you too are exhausted in grief feel frustrated easily at end day while your grieving the loss of your beautiful wife Sarah, I wish there was a u tube video to hear her beautiful singing . Praying for you.

Josh how are you& Handsome Braeden & lil princess Reylah & beautiful Amelia ? How’s everybody anyway?Right now I have kidney stones😫 so I’m just going to listen yes 🙌 ❤❤❤❤

Hey Josh hope you have a great night and good day tomorrow and to tell you that you are a great person and great father to your kids and friend to all of us in this community any time I’m having a hard time I watch your videos and you just talking motivates me keep doing what you’re doing love you Josh as always sending love and hugs from a friend in Ohio ❤️‍🩹💕❤️

Very interesting and deep as always Josh. Let me tell you that i see you better than before. Mindfuness which i prefer to call meditation helps me a lot. It is great that you have an analytical mind and at the same time very emotional and knowing how to deal and feel your emotions. I share the first part but i,m not in the decond one. Apart from the grieve, you are dealing with your kids grieving many practical things that you didn,t before. It doesn,t help you to function like before. Focusing is the goal and you need time. You will not be the same, you,ll be better. Forgive if i,m saying things that i shouln,t. My intention is the best and i,m being honest like i would do with a friend who you are. Lots of love ❤❤❤

Josh after 3 years I did online dating met someone and found out we lived 5 houses away 3 years later we got married that was 15 years ago..I was always able to talk to him about my late husband..Sara would want you to be happy ❤

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Josh , Why are you in shorts ? Aren’t you freezing ??? lol Take care of yourself.

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Josh, I love these fireside chats you’ve been doing. Continued blessings to you!

Ok, so my super cool 💡 for you is this... Journaling AND making your 'story' an animated book.... I'm guessing you or someone you know could turn pics of Sarah into animated/cartoon type people. Betcha this would a hit. Ok, go to work. Mull.

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I understand what you're saying about the effects of grief on your brain ... time is on your side, you're doing amazing... you said it's Ok to ask questions, so out of curiosity, I really like your daughter's name. Is there a story about how you named your children? Best wishes ...

Josh…Interesting topic on breathing…I will try this out! Journalling … I could write a book! You are doing a fantastic job raising your children. Take time out for you, Josh! Have fun playing the video games with Braedan! Big hugs 🤗❤️🤗

Grieving is hard. I miss my daughter right now.