years of hardwork, got a degree, soooo now what? I'm empty wallowing away at my past decisions and scared about continuing a future i don't really enjoy, cant really just quit, I've come too far to quit.
@@alphaweeb5195 might take a year long break, honestly XD. Soul searching, trying this and that, start a small business, learn a new hobby/skill. Sunk cost fallacy that last years even decades are the worst ones, you realize that quitting will be for the better but you still keep moving forward with the thing you hate doing because you've already done the foundation for the thing you hate doing. Afraid of starting over and going through the risks associated with foundation building again.
Studying mechanical engineering. Strength: exams, math , code. Weakness : interview, networking, making friend, identity, finding purpose, be happy, confidence, etc. Love this song because it hurts. I guess environement of uni really drains motivation.
These aren’t really weaknesses intrinsically related to engineering. You can be happy, social, confident, and true to yourself while being an engineer.
@@kaishang6406 I hope something changed and now your life is better. I'm not at uni yet, BUT I will start it in a few months. The only things I can say, even tho isn't even for me the best period of my life (literally just broke with my gf and I'm going to have the ending exam in a few months), is that you should keep going, at least if you like what you're studying. I know sometimes life could be though with you but giving up is not the best way to face it. You can do it, for real 🥺
@@teo-san Thankyou. I've been pushing through. I didn't choose to give up. I was just in a situation that the things outside of school feel confusing and scary.
Same. Got a trainee position instead. I can learn new things on my own pace without having exams now, just doing whatever motivates me. Turns out I don't have problems studying really hard to learn new things, I'm just really bad at learning something other people tell me to learn. I've aquired some very specialized knowledge over the years only a few people in my industry have, and I could easily make 6 figures a year if I bothered looking for a more challenging job. College isn't for everyone. That doesn't mean you're dumb.
hahah shit this hits hard, Yeah just graduated as a mechanical engineer in a certain 3rd world country. Ppl lied abt being engineer having high income, it turns out the salary is lower than a gig job. Only certain ppl with strong connections can climb the cooperate ladder. So yeah neurosama is right I've come too far to quit lmao.
I don't want to be an engineer I tried so hard and got so far and now I can't decide All my life I've given my career These numbers in my head keep on spinning round and round yeah I can only guess what's right Should I stay three more years just to waste away? Become a slave to all these numbers? It's overdue, all the stress yet I say I'm fine Working overtime, trying to finish this in time Got myself into this mess, can I really pass this test? Yeah X, Y, Z, yeah, teach me how to breathe I'm suffocating deep inside I can't deny I've tried to quit All my life I've failed to be the one to meet these expectation All my life I've tried Now all the stress to fill those answers A, B, C, finding all these numbers, numbers Integrate, differentiate, it's getting old, yeah 5, 4, 3, finding all these numbers, numbers Calculate, no mistake, it's getting old, yeah I can only guess what's right Should I stay three more years just to waste away? Become a slave to all these numbers? It's overdue, all the stress yet I say I'm fine I don't want to be an engineer I tried so hard and got so far and now I can't decide All my life I've given my career These numbers in my head keep on spinning round and round yeah I can only guess what's right Should I stay three more years just to waste away? Become a slave to all these numbers? It's overdue, all the stress yet I say I'm fine I don't want to be an engineer I tried so hard and got so far and now I can't decide All my life I've given my career These numbers in my head keep on spinning round and round yeah I can only guess what's right Should I stay three more years just to waste away? Become a slave to all these numbers? It's overdue, all the stress yet I say I'm fine Working overtime, trying to finish this in time Got myself into this mess, can I really pass this test? Yeah X, Y, Z, yeah, teach me how to breathe I'm suffocating deep inside I can't deny I've tried to quit All my life I've failed to be the one to meet these expectation All my life I've tried Now all the stress to fill those answers A, B, C, finding all these numbers, numbers Integrate, differentiate, it's getting old, yeah 5, 4, 3, finding all these numbers, numbers Calculate, no mistake, it's getting old, yeah I can only guess what's right Should I stay three more years just to waste away? Become a slave to all these numbers? It's overdue, all the stress yet I say I'm fine
I am studying Systems Engineering, I decided to study this career because realistically it was the only thing I liked, I wanted something related to programming, but at the same time with better income and opportunities. I'm here for programming, computer science, AI, databases... but since I started until now I have studied mathematics even more than any programming language. I have good grades in any subject related to programming but my grades are garbage because 3 out of 5 courses/subjects are related to advanced mathematics. "I am a slave to all these numbers... Integrate differentiate..." I feel deeply identified with this song, I took the degree knowing that it would be full of numbers, so I took responsibility, but I just want to graduate quickly to stop thinking about math and focus on what I really want to study.
Guys, i need answers. Did Vedal actually MAKE this song? I know it is part of his ARG, but is it really an original song he wrote and produced al by himself? Because if he did that would be absolutely stunning. Is there anything he can't do? Apart from telling his daughter that he loves her, of course.
He has connections with few vocaloid/utau producer (the tutel model were made/given by one of that producer) He also had some sample music before, so he's definitely has something to say for these songs, but some helps from friends is always a beautiful thing for passion project like neuro sama
@@heyzopondo4545 Well he is the first streamer to utilize AI in such a way successfully. To those artists that aren't affected by the recent AI-hysteria that's a huge inspiration I assume.
@@groerhahn225 I think QueenPB made it! She's a vocaloid producer and helps Vedal with alot of stuff (tutel model and subathon intro remix) so maybe she made this too.
Yeah, I don't gave up but the true pain are dynamics, metallurgy. And when you have 90 years old professor on all dynamics, thermodynamics, kinematics..... who wants everything perfect by definition + gives you crazy mechanisms to solve, its even worse.
@shibito5442 idk if it was just my professor, but thermodynamics was really easy for me. It was the thermo stuff we did in physics 1 and 2 stretched out. I've done all of the general engineering stuff, just need to do my major specific stuff. Which technically means I can do it all, it'll just take me a bit longer. I want to continue, even if it'll take a decade.
Why I listen this song at 3:28 am then I have so much homework for TheorMech.... Robotics with you, we'll get through this, and find our happiness one day, guys (sometimes quit isn't ans option, but if it's, it's completely fine to search for your own happiness, really)
i fell more like " i just want to bee an engineer" but my brain is just too dumb to learn something , i want to finish my high school and try some career, i'm sure then i'm gona love this song even more
As a Process engineer this song touches some strings in my heart, this feeling of being overwhelmed by numbers and metrics, trying to sustain production non-stop, sometimes I just want to not exist anymore just to get some rest
Yo a pesar de que no soy un ingeniero estoy estudiando una carrera con respecto a las ciencias y esta cancion representa perfectamente lo que siento en este momento, es super estresante y no se cuando todo esto vaya a terminar
I came here after listening to the slightly more popular re do, and I'll admit the original here has a certain charm that I cant quite place my finger on, its like the character here sounds so broken, and defeated
@@Bobrkurwa-kd5im не хочется работать по этой специальности, ну да, а они что хотели? Будто в 16 лет я такой: О! ВОТ ЭТИМ ХОЧУ ЗАНИМАТЬСЯ НА ПРОФЕССИОНАЛЬНОМ УРОВНЕ!
i don't whant to be an engeneer i tried so hard and got so far and now i can't decide all my live I've given my career this numbers in my gead keep on spinning round and round i can only guess what's right should i stay three more years just to waste away become a slave to all these numbers? it's overdue all the stress yet i say I'm fine working owertime, try to finish this in time got myself into this mess, can i realy pass this test? xyz teach me how to breathe I'm suffocating deep inside i cant deny I've tried to quit all my life i failed to be the one this expectations all my life i tried now all the stress to fill those answers A, B, C, finding all these numbers, numbers integrate, differentiate, it's getting old 5,4,3, finding all these numbers, numbers colculate, no mistake, it's getting old
Sounds really nice, I think I might pass on majoring in engineering now. I’ve considered it but it sounds stressful, idk if it’s that bad?? I mean I took ap calc and that wasn’t as bad as people said.
The most important part is if you enjoy it. If you do go for it, if you dont enjoy what you see dont even try. To study as much as it is needed to pass, you need to either really like what you are going for or be VERY disciplined. Most people that are neither either leave quite soon or take a lot longer to finish
@@gitgud6697 That’s true. I’m someone who enjoys knowledge and I actually love learning. Now that i do think about it, i don’t think I would want to take a lot of math and science classes just to find myself stuck if I don’t find engineering interesting. I’m someone who enjoys things involving both creativity and problem-solving but I’m still thinking about what I’d want to do.
@@Floral_skies2727 It really is a tough choice. Think it through and do your best. If you where thinking on taking computer science or something similar I can give my experience of having just finished my first year. I do live in Spain tho, so my experience may differ from someone in the US. If you are considering another specialty I can only wish you luck.
@@gitgud6697I took 2 semesters of comp sci in high school and it was alright, I could see it being similar to engineering since math and science are required for it. I’m curious, how has it been so far from your experience of taking it? It does sound pretty involved so I don’t think I’m too interested but it’s still a field I admire.
I'm not much of a musician but I think it's mainly Gm, D7 or F#dim, and Ebmaj7/Bb (for that off-beat jazzy chord at the end of the 4th bar) Ofc I could easily be off but it should suffice for most purposes
Твою мать... Я, конечно, на инженер, но песня заставила меня ох**ть от того факта, что я могу всю свою жизнь провести на компудахтерном заводе с неплохой зарплатой, но уë**щным графиком, который заставит меня жить именно на работе, но нигде больше.
